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w @heylog
produced by sleepwater
lyrics:

i don't think that i feel it
my stomach can't heal it
my heart i warn you
surround me i turn blue
you doubt me you flew
you drowning in sloot
my heart break in 2
im ready to die
cos i left ur side
i kick back and cry
this where i resite
i laugh at myself
its good for my health (oh no)
whats that on my the shelf (oh no)
i think its yourself (oh no)

ash blonde hair i need you now
carve my life thru the fields im a tree in the ground
i can't feel my fucking heart so why does it go pound pound pound
i sense you wanna dart, so why
 dont u wannaa stay, now

i can sense the fear ik our loves linear now
feeling like a tree thats never gonna grow; help
beat me black and blue with all the words you spew pal
you could save him now but i don't think he wants you now

heylog:

your pretty little words are meshed and i don't feel them
i'm to the point where i just lost every feeling
i still wouldn't feel a thing if i had a million friends
i'm getting closer everyday to ending it
the sun falls and creeps through my window
it's blinding me, now orange is painted on my walls
the same colour i saw when i fell in love
when i see it again i just can't get enough
can someone end my life, i don't wanna be here at all..
i'm past the part where i care at all
that's when i know shits getting bad
and i wonder how long this'll last

tree w/heylog

3/4
@heylog
produced by me and @creativeravine

(vil)
you got me staring at the wall now
put a gun up to my head, that's all you got now?
i don't want to be the reason to set you free (i can't be who you want me to be)
you see me lying on the surface
its hard to tell who there is hurting
i know you're late and you want me to stop...
you gotta think on your own now

[chorus]
in a silo, fiending when i walk out
they go around me they don't know the shit we on about
corner breaching and i'm bringing all my dogs out
never fallout, waiting for a callout
callout, callout, callout, oh (x4)

(heylog)
you fooled a lot when you speak
it's a part of you
i know everytime you talk
it's never the truth
always stuck inside ur gut just to consume
took me years and i still barely know you
so 
how do you feel
living life faker than real
its a lot to spill
you'd do anything for will
if i could call you out
id do it by now
if i could watch you cry
i'd sip my tea and smile
please dont go
life sucks
i know

[chorus]
in a silo, fiending when i walk out
they go around me they don't know the shit we on about
corner breaching and i'm bringing all my dogs out
never fallout, waiting for a callout
callout, callout, callout, oh (x4)

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callout ft. heylog [vil synth + ravine]

featuring @user-411557229
produced by heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
the veins in my skin pop out when i'm warm
i handle a blade and point to my arm
oh she'd be upset if i put it through
i'll put it away but only for u
well this time u won, you proud of yourself
i put us down, no need to be held
i've suffered too long in my mental state
i'm harming myself, does it look like i'm okay
i said u were right
and i'm sorry just know i'm not bright
or the smartest, keep beating my eyes
till they're blue and to where i can't see
now they're swollen, i'm blind in my view
and now everyday feel like i lose
but i'm trying to cope without u
and it's hard oh baby it's hard
so wish me ur luck and ur regards

it drips from my forearm to my shirt
watching the blood fall is the worst
ignore all of your calls cus i've learned
i made it a full year without her
I LISTEN TO NONSENSE ON A BASIS
IT'S ALL IN MY HEAD AND IT'S MY FAVORITE
I KEPT THEM AROUND FOR ENTERTAINMENT
I CHOOSE TO STAY PRIVATE AND FACELESS
DON'T TEXT ME
DON'T CALL ME
I'VE WITNESS AUTOPSY
DON'T COME HOME
I WON'T BE HERE
I LEFT SO IT'S SINCERE
a lots on my mind
like my future and maybe a wife
and i wonder if music's my prize
it's the only thing going for me
been a week since i've gone outside
i'm pathetic it sums up my life
forgot her and god it's about time
and something that i can't help but think
if ur disappointed in me

(residential)
tell me what you find
deep inside her eyes
cause she used to be kind
until she lost her mind

blade in the basement
i'm high but i'm anxious
snapping back the hat when i am next in the rotation
thought i found myself, but i'm in dissociation
love being alone, but i don't fuck with isolation

quarter ounce
pack it up and take me out
you said i’d be better now
but all i got are pills around

where the fuck you’ve been at
you left your nail marks on my back
now i'm going too fast
but i can't help but think about the past
i just smoked what was left in the bag
and i really don't mind if i crash

pathetic ft. residential

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

i run away out of fear and out of panic
i dissipate everybody who cause damage
i love it here
i think i can manage
i disappear into trees and into foliage
i walk a path, clear my head for my advantage
no one knows i'm here
no one knows i vanish

walking through mud, all the mire's climbing up my pants
water soaking through my jeans, why is it all swampy land
i'm so getting sick of this, take me to the flower field
i need to lay down and rest
sleeping would be ideal

love

vanish

SPOTIFY

heylog - vanish

tysm too @xona & @heylog
for jumping on the song, love ya kings <3

Lyrics.
xona -
by myself
I need your help
to leave this place and reach a realm 
where I’m safe from all of this
it’s raining and I don’t know when
this envy, this hatred will end
as long as you know it from then 
i cannot bleed for you longer
you got me locked in this somber-
state and it’s not even shocker 
you walked all way and just prospered
i can’t believe that i knew 
i would be here to rue
you’re gone without telling me too
so where do i go without you?

Heylog-
i'm almost home babe
sorry i'm a little late
i've traveled far and wide
i've seen some better days
i can't get enough
look in my eyes and tell me i look rough
here lies a soulless place
i just heard some cries that do not sound okay
heard shots coming far away
hard to misplace thoughts when they are insane
i'm here outside ur place
babe i've come home and now ur safe
i'm alright
i'm just fine
hide every cut from the fight
i'm alright
i see light
darkness gets lost from behind
i need something i can feel, something i can feel
somewhere i can hide
somewhere i can heal
u mean nothing to me now
i mean something to me now
send the warriors out to battle on the field
u know what's the deal
every enemy i fought is dead
now their families kneel
i'm sorry i had to kill ur friend and so now ur next
never saw it coming cause he's dumb
shit's a bloodybath 
i'm bleeding
they're grieving
sorry i had to kill them
i'm reaching
the ceiling
there's a new king since yours dead

enemy ft. xona & heylog

guitar played by @user-374890447

lyrics:
what do you know about this
what do you know about this
oh what do you know about this
I'm sick of saying that I'm okay

I'm sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i pray it don't
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but im all alone
im sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i pray it don't
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone

say what u done to me
you open me gave me misery
you blow out the candle as i set it alight
fate wasn't kind to me
your over me were history
into someone else
erases every part of me

I'm sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i pray it don't
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
I'm sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i prey it don't
i wanna leave but im all alone
i wanna leave but im all alone
i wanna leave but im all alone

anxiety

produced by heylog

lyrics:
no one
no faith
spacing
as i lie awake
when i see you then
i promise i won't leave again
woke up in terror, i'm feeling confused
cover my mouth as i just heard the news
how can it be?
how can it be true?
why god, do you take the things i love most
why's it the people who feel like a home
holding back tears
until i let go
facing
toward green
outside, you're all i see
i miss your praise
no matter what, you'd always stay
with me
i need to ease on the brakes
i feel my heart in my chest
i can't control cause it aches
and no one's feeling their best
and i'm not taking it light
you felt like my only friend
who'd be with me through the night
and be with me till the end
and i have so much to say
but at the same time i don't
all of it hurts in a way
that i can't even control
it comes and goes in a wave
and everytime it's unknown
and none of this is okay
i'd rather break every-
following footprints and trails
sunlight shines right through the trees
see beauty in each detail
please say that you're just hiding
no one
no faith
spacing
as i light awake
when i see u then
i promise i won't leave again
facing
toward green
outside, ur all i see
i miss you a lot
one of a kind
and filled with love

footprints & trails

Produced by navyxower
Written by Heylog & navyxower
Mix and master by Heylog & navyxower

lyrics
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its so challenging
you can throw me out, recycle me
I'm mortified
trying everything to keep me in line
I was neglected, but I'm feeling fine
will I be alright
i cant see through the fight!

I'm really a joke
you can see it in my eyes
a lonely little child
nobody by my side

they stay up for a while
night shift, go for a drive
ill wait until the morning to see you both in life

YOU ASK ME IF IM BORED OF YOU!
i tell you its alright
nobody ever missed me, im happy that your mine
ill stay here watch some cartoons
*do nothing with my life*
a lonely little child
just trying to get by

sing me, a lullaby to put me right to sleep
sleep by my side, and ill be happy as can be
a life that's full of trauma, guess healing aint for me
wait until the morning, ill be throwing up you see

she's upset, I know I messed up
in the bed, I slowly get up
look around, this is the last time
in ur room, it's home in my eyes
thunderstorms
travel back
stay the night 
then miss u bad
one hour
till I'm home
the last place I wanna go
seeing you like everyday to not seeing at all
how'd it go from talking every night to not one call
these changes, I don't like them, especially being alone
it'd probably be worse if I didn't learn how to grow

I'm really a joke
you can see it in my eyes
a lonely little child
nobody by my side

they stay up for a while
night shift, go for a drive
ill wait until the morning to see you both in life

sibling w/ heylog

𝙞 𝙜𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙮 𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙩𝙝 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙞 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙤𝙛 𝙞𝙩 𝙣𝙤𝙬
prod. kais
shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt & https://soundcloud.com/heylog for getting on this with me <3

lyrics:
(kais)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

(skele)
ooooo
there’s nobody here 
anymore 
look around
oh i wanted 
to feel 
you breaking down 
grab my throat 
need to feel something 
blood soaked house 
it won’t let me leave
scars won’t show 
but i feel them bleed 
n if i don’t choke 
would you be proud of 
me 
of me

(heylog)
don't look back at me
forget everything
hearing high-pitched rings
hanging by a string
I look up
what have I become?
oh god, you tell me to run
rooftops hidden by the snow
every limb appears white
and your body sits and glows
it glows

(kais, skele, & heylog)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

bound

bound w/skele & heylog

hey, woah
you look so much better than i thought you would
i know i could have helped and i know i should
have been there when you needed me most
so stay close
i just can't bear the thought of you going ghost
on everything we built and the roads we took
doesn't that sound like the best?
'cos i've been staring at a little piece of heaven in your eyes
and i look beyond the arch and see the devil in disguise
and it hurts when you matter the most
and it kills me when you leave me alone
and trust me that i gave it my all
my skin is shed and i'm nothing but bone
you're poison in my veins, my disease
the end of everything we could be
and it's hard
to focus on our wants and i won't
leave you here in my arms 'cos you know
it never got easier
my disarray
leads me here when i need a safe place
i might lead you here into the flames
and right here we'll stay
tongue tied, what can i say
burrowed, i'm hiding away
go without me, save yourself
leave right now, i wish you well
it's been a while since we spoke
but it feels like a week ago
and you forgot what i look like
you won't see even if you try
you won't see me even if you try your best
i can't believe we continue trying again
'cos in the back of my mind i just know we'll end
let's not figure it out, let's just call it dead
i stay alive for a reason
and that reason is you
when my body is bleeding
it bleeds out just for you
Friends (Interlude)
oh she stole my heart
it's all i have
ooh drifting apart
but there ain't no way i'm giving up
it's all my fault
you said yourself
i took too long to answer
you called my your 'makeshift hell'
my patience thin
you told me you wanna stay as friends
i don't know how to take that in
but trust me i'll be alright
it's the same shit but a different day i
woke up in a different place i
don't really remember how i got so damn low
save me all your bullshit lies
i find it hard to push the lines
but ain't that what you wanted love?
ain't this what you needed oh?

you're poison in my veins, my disease [feat. heylog]

your best friend is a hater

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heylog - vanish

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