prod drmabeats + johnny friend

u make me wonder, where’d the time go?
bed-ridden eyes glued on my iphone i-
feel like im walking on a tight rope 
no text no calls so vile
i cant go to bed
“hush”
with you in my head
god i need some rest
god i need your hand.

and imma fuck up
running on no love 
ur so stuck up
im too deep and i cant run
yea i feel like u know what i want
(and she wont text me back so im lighting a blunt)

ik sorry friends ive been working on myself 
ive been fighting my purpose 
ive been focused on my health 
and i hope you’re all fine i hope you’re doing well
there’s only one on my mind but would she even help? 

u make me wonder, where’d the time go?
bed-ridden eyes glued on my iphone i-
feel like im walking on a tight rope 
no text no calls so vile
i cant go to bed
“hush”
with you in my head
god i need some rest
god i need your hand.

im going nowhere, and they all know
this shits unfair, ive got a lot to show 
how could i make a impact if ive got no home
(and how the fuck could i proceed if ive got no road)

fuck friends fuck her, bitch im on my own
guess ill just be another junkie laying on the road
and i can see it in your eyes that you u hate my soul
and i can see it in their eyes that they want me below

(fuck friends fuck her bitch im on my own
guess ill just be another junkie laying on the road
and i can see it in your eyes that you u hate my soul
and i can see it in their eyes that they- hush

the pretty ass hook repeats again i love it so much (:

rest

moment

prod by me :)

lyrics:

smokin brick in my free time, 
if he wanna test me we gon show him how the lights shine
i think you should ask him if it's brighter on the other side
don't be talkin shit if you can't back it boy it'll save your life

don't be takin shit from people I don't even understand
that's why you'll stay in my dm's actin like some fucking fan
you should really grow a pair and say it with your chest man
actin so pussy but you never even seen that

I know if I keep on talking shit things will get bad
but you hurt me and I won't forget that
If I go to hell you're gonna have to come with me


[[retaliation & hesitance]]

clone

produced by heylog

lyrics:
can't u ever be nice
you don't have to think twice
in the moment each time that i run away
in the end it's your fault
really gave you my all
u don't have to be a problem toward me anyway

there's much more to life than going out
spend saturday night dead on the ground
𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵
I HIGHLY DOUBT YOUR FATHER'S EVEN PROUD
JUST ANOTHER WHORE FOLLOWING THE CROWD
broken glass, the bottles enticing
she told me her sign is a pisces
𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵?
do i look like someone who even cares
𝘯𝘰 𝘨𝘰𝘥
you and i would never pair
already off on the wrong path
ur such an idiot, hope you know that
i used to find you cute but now ur trash
you can change but na you can't change ur past
text me, on your end it's open
but you don't know it
you don't know i ghosted
for once, take accountability
always excuses, please
you are disgust to me
there’s much more to life than blacking out
spend almost every weekend on the ground
i smell the alcohol stench in ur mouth
there ain’t a single to be proud of

can't u ever be nice
you don't have to think twice
in the moment each time that i run away
in the end it's your fault
really gave you my all
u don't have to be a problem toward me anyway
𝘳𝘶𝘯 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺
𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘦
𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘨𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦

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trash

'12 gauge' produced by heylog

lyrics:
moving swift, moving clean
all my thrift big on me
and i look goofy when i see
order double in xl
when my body lean as hell
and it's all because i'm well
maybe i should get clothes
that i fit for my size
there are barely i own
jacket got holes in it
but ima still throw it on
cause i don't care if it's ripped
you'll never know
you'll never know
where she had went and where'd she go
i wanna leave
i wanna leave
i wonder what is stopping me
she loves borrowing my wardrobe
said i smell good, so you wear all of my clothes
and they come back smelling like her
next thing u know she has my whole attire

i'll wait 
till u make ur mind up
she wants 
everything i wear cause
all of 
it is oversized
the sleeves are 
well below her thighs
don't take 
every single thing i own
cause i'll 
need it back before u go
and she 
wonders why i said that
i'm not 
confident that this'll last

you ever think about where i been?
you ever think about who we was
cause i do
but i just pretend i don't care about us
she's always apologetic to me
but when did u ever do anything
cause i don't
i hope u will never forget about home

and she always tried on my clothes
i pretend and fake it all
what u don't know
oh, you don't know
keeping secrets way too long
and i cannot continue this
i'm struggling to exist
and u don't know
oh, you don't know
thoughts begin to overflow
you would ask for an extra large to wear
but i only have double x in there
oh but she'll wear anything that i give
so next time i'll come over with ur cares

shutting me down, wake up from rem
i had a dream of us both laying in bed
but when i woke up i thought that it was real
i tried to go back to sleep to get a feel
of what it was like again to see your eyes
i knew it was impossible if i tried
now i'm just laying here, eyelids open
i stare into darkness tryna see objects
the only thing i see is my closet ahead
the same one that bears a certain turtle neck
the same closet thats got my 'retta encaged
the same closet thats got my locked up 12 gauge
and here are these nights i spend alone
turn off the lights, open window
jump into bed, plug in my phone
when i still got 90% left to go
and i fall asleep, but before i do
i sit in silence for an hour or two
these vivid thoughts get into view
and this what it sound like when i dream of you

12 gauge

produced by xona

-lyrics-
(don’t tether your issues when you feel alone
you're feeling so nauseous, you push it along)

I’m looking for the way it was when we hadn’t broke our trust
those memories echo, I didn’t want to let go
but everything reminds of you where I settle
oh I know
these things don’t matter, you mend without an issue at all
I’m searching new patterns the ones I forget everything we’ve done

(everything we’ve done)

even if you mean everything to me
I can’t breath at all
it’s too precious to leave
so I’d rather fall
so I’d rather fall

~

this road block gets obscure
uncertain if I’d get out of here, out of here
this month I thought I’d change my course
but I’m back in this roundabout with unopened
doors
you need to pick and choose, I know you’re scared to move
you think there’s nothing new?
but maybe, it’s just you
you tend to look at me but you’re unamused
so what’s the entry step? cause you need to prove
that you’re worth this shit, I know on my life that you see it too
you know you see it too, so please.
what do you have to lose?
don’t stay in this room
don’t stay in this room

(don’t stay in this room) x6

~

don’t tether your issues when you feel alone
you're feeling so nauseous, you push it along
this weight on your shoulder, won’t last that long
you know, you know, you know
so what are you going to do?
so what?
so what?
so what?

cascade

mo$h & marku - wake up

lyrics:
[mosh]
(i know, you’re not what i needed
baby move on from me)
(oh)

i know, you wanted to see me
you don’t, ever wanna leave me
i just, want you to come meet me
so wait, i’ll wait for you to

wake up, feel love and you know that
gave up, you know where we’re both at
your touch, is all i ever wanted to feel
oh, oh
cause i need you to
wake up, feel love and you know that
gave up, you know where we’re both at
your touch, is all i ever wanted to feel
oh, oh

[marku]
and i feel, all of your expectations
weighing, on my mind, i cant take it
im waiting, for you to realize we’ve wasted
like every single moment together was patient

you could, love me or leave me
but dont try to deceive me
you say that im reaching
when i express my feelings

i look at the ceiling
and sink in the feeling
does that sound appealing
you know it dont

[mosh]

i know, you wanted to see me
you don’t, ever wanna leave me
i just, want you to come meet me
so wait, i’ll wait for you to

wake up, feel love and you know that
gave up, you know where we’re both at
your touch, is all i ever wanted to feel
oh, oh
cause i need you to
wake up, feel love and you know that
gave up, you know where we’re both at
your touch, is all i ever wanted to feel
oh, oh

(wake up, feel love and you know that
gave up, you know where we’re both at
your touch, is all i ever wanted to feel
oh, oh)

wake up

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This song will only be available on my soundcloud and is not being monetized.

cover of 'isolation' by sleepwater (produced by speedlmt)
love you🌲

isolation cover (sleepwater)

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/3MyYxx8xvAuXSBjaWn3Ytx?si=ZqOKI-RpQCqi0fdaVRg1mQ
video: https://youtu.be/aSLd-sA_r8E?si=zJtO76JZEkzhwppL
amv: https://youtu.be/EFWBgiBOOsI?si=xGHMcNo8ZR7M7D4_

produced by heylog

i was looking at her eyes
i could tell she wanna die
wait, don't
i will be alone no
please don't go (please don't go) (please don't go)
please don't go (please don't go) (please don't go) (please don't go)
this is how it ends (this is how it ends)
i watch 'em all pretend (i watch 'em all pretend)
this is how it ends (this is how it ends)
drowning in our sins (drowning in our sins)
i was looking in her soul, she remind me of a ghoul
i think that she want me gone
come near me i'll bash your skull (bask your skull)
this is how it ends (this is how it ends)
i watch 'em all pretend (i watch 'em all pretend)
this is how it ends (this is how it ends)
drowning in our sins (drowning in our sins)

it's time to speed up
i am fed up with these people
go home
the world is falling off
i wanna go home
this ain't us
rewind
i wanna rewind back to you
beside
i wanna be beside close to you (close to you) (close to you)

heylog - how it ends

produced by heylog

lyrics:
time will tell
pick the gun up and shoot in the head (in gta)
don't worry
you don't have to get by playing pretend
tried to be nice 
but i ended up losing friends
i disappeared and don't ever wanna talk again

driving on the freeway
the same one i saw that look on your face
you told my boy it's been hard to reach me
"talking to log isn't easy"
stop tryna get me to hangout
without you i've picked up the pace now
just go ahead
select all, delete it
i'm done and i'm leaving
been a while, i wonder if you'd recognize me
always thought what we had was strong as concrete
spoke too soon and i shoulda moved on way long ago
don't know you and i can't believe we used to be close
tempted to pick the gun up and shoot him in the head (in gta)
at the time all i wanted was for you to be dead
stupid bitch, you don't wanna live life playing pretend
don't be asking for guidance or for a hand to lend
swear it felt like yesterday
i don't recognize this place
it sucks that shit's permanent
and that scar won't go away
it don't matter where you are
at your house or in your car
i'm stuck there next to your hip
your fault you took it too far

shoot

prod by me : /

sunlight peaks through my blinds
it burns my eyes n makes me want to die 
and you're not here, layin' by my side
and I wish that, things were different now

grab on my hips, then we start, locking lips
caught in a kiss, move my hips, just to sync
bite on my lip, love the mark, that you left 
don't loosen grip, hold it tight, close to death

fucked up in the head and I don't know what to do now
you're telling me that it's been over 
and I just feel like I been locked out
ain't no fuckin way I'm movin on

why the fuck you leavin me when you know that im all alone
got this pain inside my heart, a poison wit no antidote
people saying that they love me but I know they fuckin dont
if they really did, would I even be all alone?

agony, sweet agony, I love it when you're holding me
killin me, you're killin me, my agony, it holds me sweet
agony has been here longer than anyone else ever has
agony, my agony, it won't ever leave me and I'm sure of that

I can feel the cracks inside of my persona breakin
she just tell me that anything she said wasn't fake, yeah
tell me that im special but what of that am i making ?
I can tell that life ain't done so it gon keep on taking

I done walked up on this decision and then it fucked my life
I'm just hopin that I can hold on and make it out alive 
elliot didn't get so lucky like i did.. i threw it
I could never lie about it, I know i misused it

if you think it's worth it putting me away for years, 
I'm not gonna fight it i'll pay off my debt in tears
I hope things go well for you and if they dont im here 
just a stupid dog that won't abandon post that he's near 

tell me that I deserve this, 
if you- said anything- my wrist i'll slit
my blood will drip, my life will end, 
and you'll be it

tell me how.. 
if im feelin down you'd know
promise i will tell you everything i know
until then im in hell

tell me you love me
hate me it wont break me
hold me don't let go of me
don't let go of me

you can give me your hate, it won't change anything for me
I could shake it off like leaves on a car when it's starting 
to accelerate on the speed and then they just fall off
I just wanna see the boys win and they already know that 

you deserve to be happy and I want you to know it
you're the love of my life and I wasn't even knowin 
someone could pick me up and repair me like it's nothin 
I been learning german so I can give the love a language

[[acceptance, self reflection]]

---

I made a vow to never lose again

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wake up

biteki