I'll Give My Pain  (Maxter)

“Ego mortuus sum” (“I am dead”) marks a violent turning point on the album — a cry from the edge featuring the fierce vocal presence of Fredrik Keith Croona (Against I). Musically, it’s a collision of extremes: progressive structures twist through shifting time signatures before collapsing into relentless staccato grooves, while old-school death metal riffing forms the scorched earth on which the vocals roar.

The song was born in a moment of spiritual rupture — a place where faith felt hollow and rituals failed to heal. Lying on the metaphorical altar brought not peace, but anguish. The lyrics rage against sacred comfort, throwing brutal imagery into the light: Heaven reimagined as a “cesspool of saints”, sanctity as emptiness. It’s raw, it’s defiant — the sound of someone shouting into the void.

Yet amid the fury, a thread of hope weaves through. The chorus draws from Psalm 29: “Domine, clamavi ad te et sanasti me” — “O Lord, I have cried to thee, and thou hast healed me.” Even at the height of spiritual collapse, the possibility of redemption remains — battered but not erased.

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EGO MORTUUS SUM

One final blink until life gets complete,
until God’s grace destroys my melting meat.
Fermenting in the cesspool of the saints,
I pass away through firmamental drains.

Until my wine starts clotting in my mouth
drowning I dive this quietude throughout.
Candles are lit along my road to death,
out of my mouth I inhale my own breath.

Domine, 
Clamavi ad te,
Et sanasti me,
Domine!

(O Lord, 
I have cried to thee, 
and thou hast healed me.
O Lord)

Until I leave my assets far behind
peeling my lifeblood off this mortal mind.
Let loose this fire, enkindle my distress,
let my soul sink in this subversive hex!

One final blink until life gets complete,
laying face-up over the altar sheet.
My facial features under gleaming stars
this fake subsistence one by one disbarks.

Horror Sacri

Ego Mortuus Sum

"VERONICA" THE FIRST SINGLE OFF OF THE UPCOMING ALBUM "sleepwalking" IS OUT NOW.

"sleepwalking"
My definition: The feeling of living but not fully awake, ignoring a harsh reality.

An album about my fears, uncertainty of my future and personal struggles. COMING SOON.

Produced by: Ben Mercedez
Written by: Ben Mercedez
Performed by: Ben Mercedez

Lyrics:

VERONICA on a pedestal
Why am I jealous of you, I feel so small
You got the boys on their knees for you
And I'm left in the gutter blue

VERONICA I'm so happy for you
I would kill just for a sliver of the
Attention you so always receive

You'll never know my fear
Of talking to the monsters underground
You don't look in the mirror
And see a boy who's LOST NOT FOUND

VERONICA oh he calls for you
You got him on a string he adores you
To him I was just a mere experiment

VERONICA oh the girls are jealous
They want your man we're overzealous
You better watch behind his back before we attack

You'll never know my fear
Of talking to the monsters underground
You don't look in the mirror
And see a boy who's LOST NOT FOUND

You'll never know my fear
Of talking to the monsters underground
You don't look in the mirror
And see a boy who's LOST NOT FOUND

Oh and if I could I would be you
Just for a day I'd feel the power run
Deep through my veins it'd be so true
Living life without a care in the sun

Released: August 15 2025

Veronica

A Small Rock Madly

Something I’ve been working on. It’s still a work in progress, but I think it sounds good enough to share at this point since it likely won’t be finished any time soon.

The Far Side of Quiet (WIP)

Suncycle (Slowed and Reverb v2)

this song will be on spotify 12th of september
pre-save now: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/cloudzin/lone-tree

lone tree

“breakfast & rain” is an ambient track by Chad Nathan

breakfast & rain

Music to the game SHEEP by Bizibee Interactive LLC - Play SHEEP on steam now at store.steampowered.com/app/3636100/SHEEP/

Meditation

This is my latest pop song with male AI vocals. Lyrics are taken from a poem by William Shakespeare. Listen with headphones...

Out now on all streaming platforms and distribution sites.

https://open.spotify.com/intl-de/track/19TSGR6UfVhBZGm0KTZl8y?si=4eff4cbdc8454a7c

William Shakespeare - "To me, fair friend..." (sonnet 73)

"That time of year thou mayst in me behold
When yellow leaves, or none, or few, do hang
Upon those boughs which shake against the cold,
Bare ruin'd choirs, where late the sweet birds sang.
In me thou see'st the twilight of such day
As after sunset fadeth in the west,
Which by and by black night doth take away,
Death's second self, that seals up all in rest.
In me thou see'st the glowing of such fire
That on the ashes of his youth doth lie,
As the death-bed whereon it must expire,
Consum'd with that which it was nourish'd by.
This thou perceiv'st, which makes thy love more strong,
To love that well which thou must leave ere long."

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Constellation Lyra - Thy Love [out on Spotify now]

"Can I Be’s Smoke" is a hypnotic journey that feels like 60 BPM while pulsing at 120. Driven by heavy kick and snare, it blends industrial tension with psychedelic, dreamy textures. The result is a slow-burning, modern darkwave track — both floating and grounded, melancholic yet cinematic. Music for nights of smoke, steel, and strange reflections.

Can I Be's Smoke

Bizibee Interactive, LLC. is a Videogame Development and Music production company.
WISHLIST SHEEP or PLAY THE DEMO on STEAM
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