Many thanks to Albin and Khalil for their kindness, feedback, and careful listening. 
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Lyrics:

Woke up again
Covered in sweat
I dreamt that you were gone for good
Sobbing and screaming
Breathless and grieving
Oh, how can you be gone for good?

Sometimes I see you in the night
Behind my sleeping eyes
Where heart and history collide

Suddenly sounds 
From when you were around
All at once it's coming back to me
I must've locked it
In my subconscious 
I linger on the melody

Sometimes I see you in the night
Behind my sleeping eyes
Where heart and history collide

My memory tries
To keep you alive 
Will time become the enemy?
Don't wanna get used to
Living without you
But resistance just inhibits peace

Sometimes I see you in the light
Beyond this fleeting life
Where man and mystery collide

Collide

Cada vestígio seu aqui
Transforma um pouco minha vontade
Eu temo não ter solução

E é só tentar não me importar
E é só tentar não ter vaidade
Eu já nao sei se caibo aqui
Mas  vou fingir

Intruso

from the album "Lost Wisdom" (2008) by Mount Eerie with Julie Doiron & Fred Squire

"Grave Robbers" by Mount Eerie

A song from Broom by Someone Still Loves You Boris Yeltsin

I Am Warm & Powerful Cover

Told me not to worry
Told me not to hide
Said I can't keep living
Life from the inside

Still I'll carry on like this
Safe within my solitary ignorance
I cannot seem to move

Told you that it's terminal
Told you I'm far gone

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This one is from November 2018, and I don't think I would have revisited it if it hadn't been for some encouraging feedback that was recently given to me about the demo version. Furthermore, I want to extend my gratitude to anyone here who has ever typed a kind comment, given feedback, or expressed interest in my songs. I don't forget those things, and I really do value every word. Thank you so much.

Far Gone

Video version: https://youtu.be/MGz-3hw6zCg

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For my dad. Today marks 5 months without him.
If you are a fellow survivor of suicide loss, I’ve shared a few links below that you may want to look into. They’ve been very helpful to me.
Thanks for listening, and for being here. 

American Foundation for Suicide Prevention: Resources for Loss Survivors - https://afsp.org/find-support/ive-lost-someone/resources-loss-survivors/

Grief and Continuing Bonds: https://www.rachaelkable.com/podcast/167

Suicide Bereavement Subreddit - https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideBereavement/

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Pictured: My dad & I, the day after I was born.

You Should Be Here

The first track from my EP, "A Thousand Winds."

A vase of three roses stood beside my dad’s urn on the day of his funeral. One red rose for my mom, along with two white roses: one for me, one for my sister.
While writing this song, I thought of the vibrant childhood that my sister and I shared. I distinctly remember what it felt like to run, run, run: to lose my sense of connection to the solid ground; to be swept up and carried by the warm summer air. It was freedom in its purest form. No past, no future, no fears. Only here and now. Legs tingling, heart pounding, smiling wide through the panting. 
Bright and radiant. We were two white roses.

Two White Roses

Track 5 from my EP, "A Thousand Winds." 

Lyrics:

I walked down to Mirror Lake
Tracing pictures in the waves
Memories gone to faded blue
Souvenirs I have of you
All I knew

Still I wait by the waterside
Till the hour dies
And I wait by the waterside 
Till the hour dies

Fallen faces left behind
Valley carved in space and time
Will we find a way to reach
Atmospheric unity
You and me?

Still I wait by the waterside
Till the hour dies
I can wait for you all the time
But I know you’ve died

I walked down to Mirror Lake
One more life evaporates
All I wanted was to see
Your reflection next to me

Mirror Lake

She Was Here

I wish you would've shot me
Before you shot yourself
'Cause if I'm being honest
These days I don't wish for nothin' else
The inheritance you left for me
Ain't gonna cover all my therapy

I wish you would've shot me
While you still had the chance
I'm running out of options
Always knew I wasn't gonna last
When I think of what I've heard and seen
I want a bullet through my memory

But you know I love you
In spite of what you did
Oh what I wouldn't give...
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This one-take from my phone doesn't align with my usual sound and I had plans to develop this song further, but I ultimately decided it was something I didn't want to think about any longer.

Unanswered

A Long Goodbye

pessima qualidade
de som e gosto duvidoso

Intruso

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