Songs I Produced 💞

I wanted to sing something for my friend and I who have been through a similar situation...
This song is about vulnerability & the blindness of addiction.
To each their own..
A big thank you to Hawian Eagles @goddammitrookie & my vocal engineer Marlowe :D LOVE U THX 4 UNDERSTANDING ME 
-Fleurr J.

Will you hold me...I'm lonely (Prod. by HAWIAN EAGLES)

I turned 24 today and I feel like you do care. 

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0985QB7K7KPgtrOmrgTjfT?si=aUifIcDtSrWAkrqrURX26g
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/us/album/depressed-doing-my-best-feat-ocoenia-hawian-eagles/1490285825

Producer: https://soundcloud.com/dot_com_music
Singing: https://soundcloud.com/ocoenia
Artwork: https://www.instagram.com/clarsart/

Existence is hell, that's life oh well
At least you're my heaven, at least you distract me
From what's coming at me, the trains coming real fast
And I'm just there standing standing

Wanna be by your side, wanna spend all my time
With you until I die, your heart is where I live hey
Let's go see a movie, eat out, get some sushi 
hammock at the park or go drink up a smoothie
Maybe if you're down 
We could blaze away everything that's ever hurt us, 
Numb away the pain with a bowl when we're nervous
Head in the clouds I'm not coming down
Unless I hear you call my name out
Existence is hell, that's life oh well
At least you're my heaven, at least you distract me
From what coming at me, the trains coming really fast
And I'm there just standing standing

Existence is hell, that's life oh well
At least you're my heaven, at least you distract me
From what's coming at me, the trains coming real fast
And I'm just there standing standing

Existence is hell, that's life oh well
At least you're my heaven, at least you distract me
From what's coming at me, the trains coming real fast
And I'm just there standing standing

Hot boxing on a cold night
Windows fogged from streetlights
I'm lost in my emotion
I can hear the ocean in Venice 
Let's focus on the wrong things
Like why you never talk to your parents
Or why you're never stable
You feel like you're unable to meet your friends half way
This life ain't like a movie
But you just keep watching now you're 23 
And you're thinking of just stopping you fell into your vices
Your dreams a world away 
What's a life without a dream
That's an early grave
I think about you too much, I need a steady pace
I'm a slave to my own mind trying to break free from my chains
And it seems you never cared, you're probably hurting too
The roses are in season with the springtime it ensues
And I think it's fair to say that we should love our lives 
Even if the thorns hurt there's beauty in this life there's beauty in this

You're always fronting I chose to be myself
That's why I am suffering 
You were always judging I always really cared
And I kept on struggling

Existence is hell, that's life oh well
At least you're my heaven, at least you distract me
From what's coming at me, the trains coming real fast
And I'm just there standing standing

Existence is hell, that's life oh well
At least you're my heaven, at least you distract me
From what's coming at me, the trains coming real fast
And I'm just there standing standing

Existence is hell, that's life oh well
At least you're my heaven, at least you distract me
From what's coming at me, the trains coming real fast
And I'm just there standing standing

Existence is hell, that's life oh well
At least you're my heaven, at least you distract me
From what's coming at me, the trains coming real fast
And I'm just there standing standing

Spotify

Depressed and Doing My Best Ft. Ocoenia (Prod. .com)

@lilheartbreaker

They drinking henny anything to make them forget
Chase it with a cup of sprite and they be falling
Seems like every motherfucker always talking
I be numbing all the pain until it knock in

So I go
I’m wasted, they know
It’s just all a show
They acting and cracking
But never will grow

It feel so unreal
No way to appeal
Lost track of the wheel
I hate how it feel

I just stay outta the road
I gotta turn off my phone, oh ay
My pockets dripping with gold
Full of shit outta control, no way

I don’t wanna to walk it slow
I’ll leave it out in the cold, tonight

So many things that I’ll never attain
So many ways I feel every shame
Shred of a shadow who cannot abstain
Saving the light at the slight of the grain

But I couldn’t let it happen
It’s crazy how they get away with acting
Buckle up and fasten
It’s looking like we’re crashing
Burn away in ashes
Hard to breathe, I’m gasping

Trading all the bits and pieces I could never hold
As I’m stuffing all the pain away from eating at my soul
Pray on a day we keep out the cold
But it is not the story we told

Over and over, it never will fade
Wishing forever that something would change
Needed the most, but you never had stayed
Changing the boundary, escaping the maze

Deafening sound at the crash of a wave
Deep of the blue that I never could brave
But silence is all that you save

Characterized by what cannot define us
No way of telling where every line cuts
Struggle of keeping my mind up, but I don’t know where it wind up

So many things that I’ll never attain
So many ways that I feel every shame
Shred of a shadow who cannot abstain
Saving the light at the slight of the grain

youtube

attain (prod. lil heartbreak x hawain eagles)

★lyrics★

[chorus]
girl you're so far away
I hear you calling my name
I must be going insane
you say that I'll never change
I'll wait for the day 
that you see the mistakes
that you made

/bridge\
I'm falling for you
girl I'm falling for you
and all the things that I do
I do them for you

[chorus]

SO FAR AWAY

★lyrics★

[chorus]
baby we could chill
you hanging with them lamos
are you even being real
we could talk about the stars
and we could talk about constellations
do that shit for hours 
as long as we end up naked
baby you could be you
you ain't gotta fake shit 
im out here all alone 
im watching you chill w them basics
you could be you 
baby you could be you

‡verse‡
I gathered up my time
and sold it to you on the daily 
you calling on my line 
you say you wanna have my babies 
baby this could be you
in a Pink Mercedes 
speeding down the highway 
while you're swallowing my babies 
wish that that could be you 
shiny gloss lips 
Id take a soul to kiss 
look into your eyes 
I see our souls eclipse 
I'm just a boy floating in your abyss 
you bring me back 
when you give me a kiss
stabbed me in the back 
while you indulge me with sin 
im done,, not coming back to you 
because I'll never win 
oh but I wish one day thing 
that you'll come back and come fuck me again

YOU COULD BE YOU

★lyrics★

/bridge\
uhhhh bring out the fire
uhhhh you're such a liar
uhhhhhh and loving you is to blame

<chorus>
you're such a liar 
and you and you put me to flames 
bring out the fire 
loving you is to blame (uhhh)
tired of running
i been running for days
but i can't run from truth
and loving you is to blame

‡verse‡
im so tired of being alone
i miss my friends 
broken heart and broken mind
I'm broken too in the end 
it's been 21 days and nothing's changed 
my thoughts are slave to you 
you put my mind up in chains 
you pump the blood in my veins 
without you I'm insane 
my heart is hard to contain 
and loving you is to blame 
my cigarettes burn kissing the flame 
smoke it fills up my room
 I'm always up until late (uhhh)

/bridge\

<chorus>

LOVING YOU IS TO BLAME

blackberrysour