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sdgrlhrs

Esper

( i love you ) 

ima hide my voice 
that’s how ima hide the pain yeah 
remnants of myself they keep 
spilling out the container 
and i can’t contain it yeah 
no i can’t contain it 
and this like the fifth time 
that i realized i don’t know myself 
and even if i did i cant live right 
without your help
if i can’t breathe your air 
then i don’t want it 
been thinking bout the other me 
i fuckin lost em 
and i know i can’t commit to shit 
that’s who i am yeah 
i hyperventilate when nobody’s around yeah 
and nobody’s around 
i’m better in the ground

compulsive.

( i love you ) 

on my own
i don't need people to talk to
i do this shit by my lone
its not the same as before no
but im not alone 
i got people hittin up my phone
and they all talkin like they fuckin know
yea but they don't fuckin know
heart on my sleeve with your hand on my shoulder
and its getting colder 
everyday they just tell me to suck it up
and i cant control it
everyday i just think to myself 
i dont wanna fuck it up
wanna be friends well you're out of luck 
and i know that i'm never gonna be enough
so i fuck up my my life 
i hate myself sometimes i wanna die 
i dont wanna fuck it up
wanna be friends well you're out of luck 
and i know that i'm never gonna be enough
so i fuck up my my life 
i hate myself sometimes i wanna-

lone.

thank you

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"monologue"
don't even need to know
can't even start now
don't even need to know
can't even start now

as the water flows 
the trees all sough
don't even need to know
can't even start now

as the water flows 
the trees all sough
don't even need to know
can't even start now

monologue

prod. ilytwelve 
( immernesis remix ) - abbot
i dont give a fuck
you wont understand what i want 
it's too much 
ive done lost so much 
couldn't even count em up
this shit aint new to me 
i say that truthfully 
im sick in the brain 
i feel it flow through my veins 
but that shit aint new to me 
nah that shit aint new to me

neurotic

Get back 
I don’t want nobody who could make me feel like that 
“Don’t Call”
In your contacts 
You left your prescriptions 
Now you’re coming over, a contradiction 
But really we not new to it 

Last time you was telling me I talk to much about it 
Now you’re telling me to say sum’n?
If it’s not a problem 
You gon make one 
Tryna start it over
Selling page one 

Not coming back
Funny as hell
Hoping you enjoy yourself 
Now you outside screaming 
I don’t need your help
Now you outside 
Hoping you not lost without it 

Baby I don’t wanna be your lover
You don’t really want no love 
Tryna work it out I doubt it 
You not showing out enough 
All we do is, screaming, shouting 
Baby have we danced enough?
You can see it all surrounding 
I just had to beat your punch 

Who that, who you taking me (for)
Bad line, whatchu say to me 
Long nights, she won’t wait for me
Sweet talker, you savory
I can’t keep fighting myself 
I see you crying as well

and I could sit around 
But I’m better than you told me
It ain’t a problem being lonely 
I tow the line with myself 
And cut the ties with you 
I ain’t walking back to this hell 

I was lying whichu 
Told me I’m a bastard
That’s how you felt 
You say you hate getting mad and baby
We couldn’t tell 
You telling me I’m the problem really
You shouldn’t yell
Preeing ya hands at the table baby
That’s show and tell

Who that, who you taking me (for)
Bad line, whatchu say to me 
Long nights, she won’t wait for me
Sweet talker, you savory
I can’t keep fighting myself 
I see you crying as well

savory (KBL)

bye bye :)

prod. blank

lyrics: 
maybe this is the point
where all of it happens 
i look at the rest 
and leave my dreams in the past tense
i lost my affection for it 
and it don't want me back

all because i want it and you don't
you just say that i ain't bout it 
you're dead wrong 
but im letting go
im letting you take what i call home

taking everything i wanted
yeah
only one step away from 
stepping my ass away from 
every little thing 
that i've been laying on 
maybe it's too late for me
since i dropped epiphany oh 
its been a daze to me
an everlasting haze to me i 
thought i was right 
i'll get away for a while 
that's how im feeling right now
thought i was good as it gets 
so i just wasted my time 
now all those choices are locked in 
and i can't bear that i'm down
conscious thoughts of mine 
get in my way and 
i've been taught to lie
my brain caves in
i can't take it
so i just waste it 
pedal to the floor 
fuck the world
fuckin hate it

all because i want it and you don't
you just say that i ain't bout it 
you're dead wrong 
but im letting go
im letting you take what i call home

( goodbye )

home ( the end )

"petrichor" - the distinctive, earthy smell of rain in the air — sometimes detectable before any rain has fallen.

oh i know it sounds insane 
to say 
it seems okay to 
fill your place with time 
oh 
and the days pass 
through my gaze
as i wander 
straight through the slaughter
you made
was all of it worth it now?
and i won’t accept my fate 
the weeds overgrown
but im one step away 
from the good in this place 
so hold on.

petrichor

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overwhelmingsincerity.flp // ‎monday, ‎july ‎3, ‎2023, ‏‎5:17:13 PM (date completed)