Jinx!

when i talk 2 myself in the mirror
i say things that id never say aloud
maybe its fear or maybe i’m just proud
to be a liar, to be a fool, all cause of you
when i talk 2 myself in the mirror
i say things & i wish they weren't true
but the weight of this drink in my hand
is the reason the divide stands 
so tall, so tall
when i talk 2 myself in the mirror
i cant even look at myself
see everything that i hate, i wish it wasnt me

pouring down
i could feel the rain again
the way it dries way it dries & it settles in
i got you under my skin
if ur gonna be like this then take it to the end
hard to say u never fell of the horse when shit bends
but i’m so fucking petty i just cant let that shit end
but i talk 2 myself in the mirror
i talk 2 myself in the mirror

i dont see a reason to bother, all of it’s gonna end
back and forth a teeter totter circling again
another fucking pawn out of billions gone
and if one of us got racks but the others debt maxed
call it efficiency mental deficiency
fact of the matter is you and i different, see
why to continue if none of it matters
the room is a blur and my vision gets flatter
this drink in my hand a green bottle heavyweight
see in the mirror as i ponder upon my fate
i could be someone to fall know that i give you my all
photographs up on the wall now im awaiting your call
leaving me out in the hall
and i drink again hitting the drugs
only confronting the pain from above
i could be somebody taken aback
i sit and i ponder i look at the stack
this drink is in my hand a green bottle heavyweight
fluid as the motion cant afford 2 fucking wait
this drink up in my hand a green bottle heavyweight
drink up in my hand

tanqueray (w/ alabenda)

blowpop from the top
take me out & pick me up
gimme something sweet
i could really use a pick-me-up
blowpop make it stop
take me out & pick me up
gimme something sweet
i could really use a pick-me-up
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3 

nitrous & u on a early day
oh how u just take my heart away
i still wanna cry about everyday
nothings ever been so fucking important 2 me
i made u my wallpaper, i couldnt live with myself it i put it away
so i won’t ever go thru a day of my life again
not without seeing your face 
i know that i talk way 2 much
but i only told someone like 1 time
i can be selfish with u, id just tell everyone that im taking my time
ill prolly never be as happy as when i could hug u
that hoodie still under my pillow, can only dream of u

blowpop from the top
take me out & pick me up
gimme something sweet
i could really use a pick-me-up
blowpop make it stop
take me out & pick me up
gimme something sweet
i could really use a pick-me-up
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3

and u think im only missing you rn
im waitin 4 a text, hopin u give me the time of day
i miss ur touch, theres not a chance youll go with another man
i told u that shit cuz i dont wanna wait
uh look, im stressed out, i dont really get a lot of rest now
u got me thinkin bout the past, wish i coulda made it last
but i guess this is it, time to check out, huh
if i could use my eyes 2 take a screenshot
it would show the scene of a beautiful world
if i could open my brain 2 show you my thoughts
u would see a lot of things abt a beautiful girl
i dont wanna get ahead of myself, but i'm ahead of my youth
im way ahead of my wealth
but i know 1 thing fosho, if u need me lmk
cause ill break down this door if u ever needed help

blowpop from the top
take me out & pick me up
gimme something sweet
i could really use a pick-me-up
blowpop make it stop
take me out & pick me up
gimme something sweet
i could really use a pick-me-up
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3

blowpop! pick-me-up (ft. NSU AJ)

YDXX: @ydxx
MILIY: https://soundcloud.com/miliyangelic

LYRICS

(NSU AJ)
i'm tryna get away from it, i'm fed up
runnin' in my brain with it, like a lecture
tried to wire my brain with perfection
just, had to miss the connection
i, hate, the way, you paint the pictures inside of your frame
i'll wait, the pain, away until i feel the same

(YDXX)
ask me what you in for
lot of shit caught me down on a cold floor
i been on the run from all the shit i said and done
i wish i could say more but im just
caught up in the way that im percieved
out of body im watching myself breathe in
im grieving again yuh
im so discontent
i know it must be funny to watch the way i fall through the cracks
ill never make it back
its always in my hands, the smoke between my fingers airing out
i leave myself in doubt

(NSU AJ)
i'm tryna get away from it, i'm fed up
runnin' in my brain with it, like a lecture
tried to wire my brain with perfection
just, had to miss the connection
i, hate, the way, you paint the pictures inside of your frame
i'll wait, the pain, away until i feel the same

i know damn well i won't feel the love
i still hope one day i can be the one, for you
but emotionally i can't be the same as i was
because of what you did, i feel this anger too
i fear your confidence, but nobody is stressin' over you
now don't get it twisted for once
ima cut this shit short all we had was the lust
and i dont wanna try and lie and say you werent what i desired
but it's coming to an end, why you want it to rust
why do you hurt
the way that you do 

i'm tryna get away from it, i'm fed up
runnin' in my brain with it, like a lecture
tried to wire my brain with perfection
just, had to miss the connection
i, hate, the way, you paint the pictures inside of your frame
i'll wait, the pain, away until i feel the same

(MILIY)
she did you dummy bad
hurt my soul it all bad 
like I've been so damn mad 
oh G why you do that?
like I've been so damn sad
emotion oh you got me black 
oh I'm fighting all my pain all that 
I wanna shoot myself through the cracks 
ocean water flowing through the motion
felt like she's somebody's daughter with emotions 
I'm lying copium got me going through the motions
hate you so much yeah so much

(YDXX)
i hate the way, you paint the picture in your frame
i'll wait, the pain, away until i feel the same

run with it (w/ YDXX & MILIY)

@hel_marduk cover

late night sitting by myself with faded memories
& didnt think that u would still remember me
late night drinking & im singing toxic fantasies
hoping that 1 day u will come back 2 me
so sorry that i was never good enough
& now im here to tell u that im giving up
so fuck you cuz all you do is cause me pain
& now im looking @ the scars that mark my veins
ur nothing but a stupid fucking dumbass little burning star
so u could talk ur shit idk who you are
the cigarette smoke fill my lungs with burning tar
so tell me wtf you want u burning star
ok just found out u were cheating the whole time
ill grab my 9 cock it back take my head off my spine
wait fuck that, i dont wanna touch on that 2day
wait come back cuz i still got more things i wanna say
but i dont
i just wanna spit right in ur face
you stupid fucking dumb disgrace
so fuck you cuz all u do is cause me pain
& now im looking @ the scars that mark my veins
ur nothing but a stupid fucking dumbass little burning star
so u could talk ur shit idk who you are
the cigarette smoke fill my lungs with burning tar
so tell me wtf you want u burning star

burning☆star

YDXX - old dog/new trix

i end up a liar
a fool 4 thinking
youd believe im flying over well
that week we were dying
only building up 2 ends
but i got scared & 1 broke down
so rlly when u closed ur pretty eyes
no it shouldnt have
it shouldnt have been a single goodbye

so maybe ill see u later 2day
u really dont seem so far away
ur stuck in my dreams ill break that cage
& know that were home once ive escaped

put it thru my wrist
get it thru my skull
no matter how long it goes arnd
it never goes back
never goes never goes never goes never goes
it never goes back

so maybe ill see u later 2day
u really dont seem so far away
ur stuck in my dreams ill break that cage
& know that were home once ive escaped

fool aka epilogue

let down when im uptight
off fast no stoplight
it feel like much more than a picture when that shit marinates in ur mind
i cant have a witness- u dont wanna see this
i might disrespect myself & blame it on my fitness
could pretend i dont care
could get out of ur hair
you been gum in mine
im starting 2 feel like im too open
its like nightmares in my daydream
& i can’t wake up i cant scream
my phone buzz & its ur name
its been months- but i love your sick game

youuu
out of nowhere/ couldn’t see
hold the strings 2 keep me up at night
puts a shiver down my spine

i dont need you close to me
i dont need you fucking up my head
but u been ghosting me
you had my heart inside a haunted shed
im waiting hopefully
shawty know im counting my regrets, uh
add u 2 the list of all my demons like u never left
i can see the devil & he take my breath

i was moving smooth in my groove tryna keep up the momentum
looking in the mirror i feel like no one accept em
if you start 2 move ur mouth ima turn it to eleven
im the only one i fear- i ain’t looking up 2 heaven
i been feeling so looooooost
i been drowning in the sauuuuce
idc abt no cooost
pay the price kick u out cuz u fucked my life

youuu
out of nowhere/ couldn’t see
hold the strings 2 keep me up at night
puts a shiver down my spine !! woo

i plead silently til my bloodstream starts 2 leak
& the days bleed in2 each other
pleassseee
lay me consciously on the concrete
facing up so that i see everything i did wrong
i dont wanna die yet
i havent fixed my mind yet
& the shivers they stay

Jinx!

bavis