lyrics:

I kill my only friend tonight 
he sees the other side 
I think I’m at my end tonight 
an never wonder why 
I Had a certain spot to hit I won’t fix only other thing I got is what they all missed 
I would Bring it back but nigga not this time 
imma let it bust mine turn you into dust nah what the fuck 

Got me robbing them bitches 
Niggas acting like they heartless and vicious 
they don’t want it if they did they would’ve already done it 
leave em leaking wit a shot to stomach 
who ever did it 
just know your already dead stone is set 
Along with everyone of your friends this the end 

That you predicted forever listed 
my existence will over live this 
apocalyptic land of the free 
broken down to it’s knees 
what a thought that we should carry around 
Throw a bomb and ruin the message 
everyone is rejected but the ones who wanna have common ground

zzz (prod.fonywallace)

lyrics:

fuck NYPD man they can suck my dick
tunnel vision equipped
since i jumped in this bitch
fuck it i got my business straight pause it and let me demonstrate
bitch it's nothing to celebrate fuck them hours you dedicate

put your whole life in it
wrap it up in packages and ship it when they ask for it
bitch i never been wrong once 
and fuck whoever you trust 
keep setting y'all selves up
everybody you love gon' fuck you over eventually
eyes in the back of your head keeping me steady we,
really couldn't do shit 'bout it but keep breathing
check on everybody that's still a part of your team man

i sell my soul and my energy and my memories combined
just to walk back time
do it better get it right
fuck it finish a track and keep it pushing whatever
i get the worst from my people i'm never hoping i see you



darkest room that i been in was me and a hundred people
i can't do nothing about it if y'all decide that i'm evil
tired of feeling see through
feel like you dying?
me too
refuse to spend the rest of my years apologizing so dammit fuck you
i can't be what you want me to be
i'll never spend a hundred years doing something to please
somebody living in my soul blackening heart with disease
and make me feel like i'm nothing because i couldn't believe
that everybody in my corner got intentions that's pure
i seen the track record sour and it's nothing to cure
whatever's left of what my trust was
feelin' i should buck up
if i'm the one that's fucked up
then everybody's fucked son

SOUR [PROD. SKOTSKR]

lyrics:

sue me for all the samples
just wanted someone to listen to me
way to talk without being visible me
and who you see when you look at me not the same
ten toes trippin im victim to every game
admittedly switched up,
when living isn’t enough,
if that wasn’t fucked up,
no pieces for picking up
consider who clean it up ‘for you pull the trigger and tuck
and that fact of that on its own sprout grudges because i’m stuck

im dead wrong
i been it since i jumped on
anxiety eat me up over a phone call
i’m shaking and waking up when the sun isn’t out
can’t remember the last time i tried talking it out
i got old friends,
i used to call my blood
i seen the news about em its twisting inside my gut
might as well be dead how the drugs is eating him up
i don’t wanna see him in person it’s bad enough

i got bottles and cheap distractions bought for comforting me
you not poppin me over instagram you stuck here with me
if you breathing above the dirt and don’t feel lucky to be
then it’s half of me that could feel you but it’s touchy to see
cause its fifty percent of walking on this planet that’s nothing
forty percent on top of that that make you feel something
if part of that make you sick and ninety still didn’t cut it
then it’s ten percent you could love about it made out of money

i’m not the type to talk
unless it’s liquor in me
i’m thanking god for skot
i’m thanking god for beamy
every time that i text him james send it back in a minute
if matt and jack wasn’t with me, ill leave that part omitted
if i ain’t had jay on my team then id be dead already
and kendrick still don’t how much he helped me feel less empty
my dad my biggest fan i love him more than anybody
if i ain’t get you in this verse know that you still my family

Trübselig

i made this before i left you [prod. flowr]

lyrics:

street lights 
Reds dead 
scared sprites 
Dark night 
Where’s mine 
Shared time 
In the sky 

I’ll stay alive 
I️ don’t die 
I’ll stay alive 
I️ don’t die 

My down time 
Isn’t worth tears doll

i hope you remember me (prod.solsa)

CRUMPLED SUICIDE NOTE (PROD. BABYGOTBEATZ)

plz dont cry (PROD. SOLVEE)

guitar by nate thomas

lyrics:

im afraid of being everything you thought id be and
when you look back at me i wish i knew the things youd see
and all i remember
out of december i came drinking more than i ever had
reason being you took me there

and i,
i dont feel
like i used to
i could use you
but it all come down when it ain't no reason left

and i know that im not perfect
but id argue who deserves it
i wasnt trying
i wasnt trying to fuck us up
and what do i say
to you

id rather not fight today
drinking my life away
staying up way too late
im telling you that you cant stay
but you dont wanna listen to the person that i was last week
im tryna show you how it end but you aint tryna see
cause we both 'gon burn

and i dont mind
cause i dont see you anymore
im killing time behind my door
i know i hurt myself in the worst way
hurt myself in the worst way
again

@blckk

(hxstage)

I tried to drown it out but every night it stays the same and it’s still there 
Back in the darkest corner of my mind it sits 
I want to get away from this 
Take me out of my frame 
I want to find me again 
Can’t remember my name 
I stopped trying gave up there can’t be something more 
I spend every night just posted on a frozen floor 
I have been breaking down
I never wanted this but I brought it all on myself

fuck it don’t call I don’t need another let down 
Double back if ever need someone 
Break my teeth on lies you told 
Disappointment's getting old 


(blckk) 

it’s getting old
i’m trying harder now to hurt you if you hit my phone
I fucking drank so I couldn’t remember anymore
it’s all I see if i’m sober your clothes are on my floor
I guess it hurts when it’s over cause he could help you more
I never got any closure 
I let you try to ignore me again 
like you always did

like u always did

hxstage x blckk - like u always did(prod. hxstage)(instagram:@_hxstage)(lyrics in desc.)

I’ve found it’s best if I just stay right here all by myself 
Can’t talk to people because they’re where disappointment dwells 
I don’t do anything but shut out all my fucking friends 
I ask myself "was this all worth it in the fucking end?" 

It never goes away 

In all this self brought pain 
It fucking plagues my brain 
This happens every day 
wake up it stays the same 
Don’t think I’ll ever break away 


Lay on the floor where I can daydream my whole life away 
It seems that fading out for hours is my only escape 
I don’t get how I ever made myself to be this way 
And I can’t sleep I think this sickness took my happy place 

It took my happy place 
Burning every bridge away 
Like nothing ever changed 
No ones round to feel my pain 

It never goes away

In all this self brought pain 
It fucking plagues my brain 
This happens every day 
wake up it stays the same 
Don’t think I’ll ever break away 

Tired of looking for ways out 
I want it all out my face now 
I think I’m starting to phase out 
It’s getting worse every day now 
Please get me out of this place 
Can’t keep my head fucking straight
I don’t like being this way 
I don’t like being this way

I wanna break 
I wanna go 
Fuck I dont even feel safe in my home 
Paranoid somethings gon break out the fold 
If it keeps building up I’m gonna blow

hxstage x daisynuke - pain

@cult-international

produced by me if not otherwise stated

NY

i made this before i left you [prod. flowr]

BLCKK