2013

voice memo of 'tough subject' on my tiny sampler keyboard, goofy ass beat bc u asked xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoooooo

TOUGH

ive been here for days
they tell me im a bedrott 
my minds out of place
been thinking about what i’m not 
what is there to say 
been feeling like i can’t talk 
i’m going insane 
will it ever stop

and i dont care about the funds
i just really wanna run 
somewhere i would never feel like
im looking at a gun 
see my friends all having fun 
im so tired of feeling numb 
i dont think they fuckin know me
im hidden by the drums 

can someone tell me when will it all pass
cause i aint been healthy im so stuck on the past 

i lost my chance a while ago let my thoughts all overflow 
i let my hands freeze in the snow holding onto to cope

can someone tell me when will it all pass
cause i aint been healthy im so stuck on the past 
im so stuck in the past and i just cant get it back
sink into what i lack as i lose my track 
all i do is bedrott

bedrott

high (prod. lucille)

motions (elana)

headache

A Puppet to You

yall dont know how much i love each and every one of you, THANK YOU! SO MUCH BOA. fame is next, i keep saying that to myself, WE ARE ALL BOUTTA BE UP! 🙏🏾
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jacari - pacing
Produced By: chaos + falloutkore
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Lyrics:

Ya-ya, 
*jacari adlibs*

I can't be pacin' over shit you ain't say yet
(Think that we) 
Got off the wrong foot,
I know that shit had you anxious

(You had me)
Cryin' and screamin'
It's so much shit, I can't take it

ya-ya, (ya-ya,)

So it's a bad lil thing that we got into
Baby, u a bad lil thang, that's why i miss you
Wonder why you cackling like this ain't hurt ya?
Really find it baffling, girl, that's an issue..

I know I should hate ya heart, but I don't feel that
Girl, I still feel love for you, nothing gon' kill that
Ain't the type to battle you bc you feel sad
I ain't really mad at you-

You left when things were wrong,
So I CAN'T feel bad!
Is this the thing you want?
Cuz girl, I can't feel that!

Ts been takin' looong..
Are you still mad?
You ran, and now you gone..

Yuh,
Can't you see I'm the one you like?
Cuz girl, I'm perfect, other niggas alright..
I know you know we go together, hold tight
Can't even show you was in love the whole time..

Ion see you datin' other niggas,
It should be only, I give ya soul life..
I feel like me again when I ain't witcha..
(Girl, I think that's why)

(HOOK AGAIN)

Ya-ya
mm, aye,

Ion think I wanna, know you if you can't be right wit me
I tried my best to, show you, but now our pieces missing..
Again, again I, told you that we would reach the ending-
Eventually,

Ya-ya,
(jacari starts dying)

Ion really wanna be that guy!
Feel like we shoulda just stayed as friends,
Cuz I hate now that we both need some time..
I'd say I would, but I don't see yo end,
I'm disappointed; shouldn't be surprised..

I wanna text, heart tellin' me "DON'T SEND!"
You ran away, but couldn't tell me why.

("pacin'" adlibs that sound hard afuh)

I guess life's sayin it ain't destiny,
Thought you were perfect, were the best for me..
Heard all my secrets, then you left from me,
Girl, please don't tell nobody..
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