The sweet taste of self-hatred III.

Biteki

s@d!

My music

New waves

Dream-Walkers 🥀🌙💔🎶🎧🎶

Feels

man.. idk I'm just happy w this sad track

we had to end it

Selfish

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Real3am- Selfish ~ feat. LocateEmilio (prod. by IamTash + Steezefield)

Support Artist:  https://soundcloud.com/lilhappylilsad
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:Song Information:
:Artist: lil happy lil sad
:Name: cuttin on me
:Genre: Alternative Rock 
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Nightcore - Cuttin On Me

I'm sorry (prod.Lilheartbreak)

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Real3am - "Numb" 🍂🖤

This Is America

stars apart! ft. ravenna golden [prod. dylan brady]

happy holidays -love santagami

this christmas i got bitches always hittin my phone
but they dont give a fuck ab me they jus kno that im on
i hear the sleigh bells ringin as im singin this song
i just wanna say im sorry for all that i did wrong

all i got up on my wishlist is someone tht will stay
like why the fuck everyone leave me at the end of the day
feel like a doll behind the glass cus my whole lifes on display
snowflakes dancing on my backwood riding low in the sleigh

i hate this time of year cus nothing ever feels the same
memories of better days
getting harder to explain
why i stay awake at night
and go to sleep during the day
feel like rudolph when they didnt let him play no reindeer games

ho ho hoes all under my mistletoe
ice cold smoke baby u already kno
north pole kush got me higher than santa
lean in my eggnog ion fuck w fanta

christmas in jersey [prod. hector vae]

Songs4u

Rest Easy, I'll See You Again

now on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/2o0E5WRgCk7uIl41Symy4E
sad boy vibes upload: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WWVlSgY-qcM&t=0s

prod: @hxrxkiller
mix/master: @triloquistog
artwork: @brendankush

Lyrics:
x2
i've got, a cup full of hennesy 
and a world full of enemies
i'm my, own worst enemy 
erase the memory
erase the memory

show me the inside show me the out
tell me the last thing that we fought about
bet it was something that came out my mouth
packing up, i'm leaving town
no goodbyes, tears drippin down

you know all the all pain i've been through
you know in my dreams i see you

you are my mistake
heart stabbed with a stake
throw the body in the lake 
crime committed without a trace

dirty thoughts wrapped around my head
do you wanna hang with me or with her instead
diamonds cuts glass and i bleed red
pleading for a last wish, i've been dead

baby i can make things right
just give me the green light
i'm not telling you how to feel
just tell me is this real
is this the real deal

x2
i've got, a cup full of hennesy 
and a world full of enemies
i'm my, own worst enemy 
erase the memory
erase the memory

Erase The Memory

triple_up (yusei)

raviolo

She's A Big Boy

insomnia

Artist:
@ripkais

Producer:
@8rokeboy

Lyrics:
im happy that u found yourself,
i hope i do the same myself.
im lost in the motions of boredom; im hopeless,
i know that you'll hear this.

its focused on you

im happy that u found yourself,
i hope i do the same myself.
im lost in the motions of boredom; im hopeless,
i know that you'll hear this.

its focused on you (x 4)

feelings come in waves, i saw the smile on your face as i
slept up on your waist, it was a perfect escape from the 
voices in my head, it's you that closed the gates.
so late in the night that i feel like im fighting for you.
i'm fighting for you (x 3)

kais - you

u changed freestyle

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9whxsgbv43c

(Lyrics)

It's getting kinda heavy this time around
But it's come in a thousand ways, what happens now? (x2)

What happens now? (x2

What happens now?
Please don't breakdown
Hands on the ground
Where are you now?

Where are you now? (x3)

I don't wanna grow to be nameless
I was never meant to be faceless, face it
You see my face and now you hate it
This was never meant to be graded!

It's getting kinda heavy this time around
But it's come in a thousand ways, what happens now? (x2)

What happens now? (x2

What happens now?
Please don't breakdown
Hands on the ground
Where are you now?

What happens now?
Please don't breakdown
Hands on the ground
Where are you now?

Where are you now? (x3)

where are u now?

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where are u now? (prod. 5head) [MUSIC VID IN DESC]

She's not the one 😞 - Kody Lavigne

producer: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCf3y4VT_13VNvU1NAWnfn7w

original song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sdeMXjttA-c

lyrics:

you can see the dread in my eyes
cause I'm struggling to survive
and you think that I'm okay
cause I won't let you see my true face

and you feel like there is no help
feel like I'm trapped in my own head
I want to see my happy end
can you save me, from my own dread

i'm not okay x4

I am not heartless, I just can't feel nothing
I may seem bit cold, like inside of a coffin
you left me, no problem
I've never been flawless
And no, I'm not okay

hear the voices, see the demons
feel the coldness, seeking for treatment

and you feel like there is no help
feel like I'm trapped in my own head
I want to see my happy end
can you save me, from my own dread

i'm not okay
i'm not okay

I'm not Okay

spotify/itunes

i'm not okay [prod. raspo]

prod. @metlast

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
I took my pain and turned it to apathy
I took your name and engraved it into my heart
I took your voice and turned it to melody
I took your lies and thought that it was love
I took my pain and turned it to apathy
I took your name and engraved it into my heart
I took your voice and turned it to melody
I took your lies and thought that it was love

[Verse]
Thought that it was love
How could I be so blind?
In love with a ghost
who never looked into my eyes
never looked into my eyes
All my efforts to let you love me for once
All the times that I've seen you with someone
Else hanging around or falling in love
Bringing me down but I can't let you go
I know you probably hate me
or you may already forgot me 
whatever people say
Shawty, they'll never stop me
Wrote a lot of songs to you 
But you don't even care 

[Chorus]
I took my pain and turned it to apathy
I took your name and engraved it into my heart
I took your voice and turned it to melody
I took your lies and thought that it was love
I took my pain and turned it to apathy
I took your name and engraved it into my heart
I took your voice and turned it to melody
I took your lies and thought that it was love

STREAM

apathy [prod. metlast]

i'm getting so cold
i think i'm turning blue

синий

Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DmUy3TPGp_w

hook

we been livin life like a movie
drivin fast
high speed through the whole scene
said she like the bright lights
and my black jeans
runnin it up how's life in the backseat? (x2)

bridge 1

we've been fallin for a minute
and i can't take this now
don't hold me down
throw me around
around

verse

hop out the car
bet they know my name
jump around ima star
in my own lane

you want me now but you didn't in the first place
breakin it down to you i got the worse ways (x2)

bridge 2

they,
walk right through
you,
now we're wondering
how we could make it out

MAKE IT OUT (prod. IOF and Curtains) [MUSIC VIDEO IN DESC]

--uncertain-- [prod. shinjin]

All Links: https://linktr.ee/xanakinskywok
Email: xanakinskywok@gmail.com

Macho!

LOVEONLINE - HOLD ME FT. OSCA (@WNTR)

smth happened that i'm not proud of and needed to vent

produced/mixed/mastered by me
lyrics:

it was for you
pulling thru
don't hit up my phone
you breaking my bones

you angry at me
so I'll set you free
cause it was for you
I did it for you

you don't really get me
I don't want u angry
I'm happy that you're doing fine
Less happy that you are ruining your life

I know that you are low
I saw this happen before
I know you don't want me to say
"It's gonna be fine, I'll stay"

Maybe I'm the one at fault
maybe I'm the one who's wrong
But I really want you to see
You can do it on your own

break my bones and break my heart
let's see who will stay alive
let's grab the knife and carve our faults
at the end of it I'll be bleeding out

spotify/itunes etc

i did it for you

If I died you wouldn't know
always see me smiling so
I don't blame you, it's my fault
my life is moving so slow

message me and I'll pretend that I am out of range
call me on my phone yea, nothing's gonna change
laying on my own is something I am getting used to
I would love to talk about it but don't want to bother you

On the inside I am falling apart
Ain't feeling no more, you can take away my heart
I am over the pain, I am fed up with lies
Imma take em again, maybe 3rd time's a charm
x2

I am not okay, I am not okay
yea
And I hate the way, I just hate the way
I am
I can't get it out, I can't get it out
of me
Imma hide my face, hide away the pain
til the end of me

my heart has stopped beating
because of the coldness
that I spread around me
and I haven't died yet

but my feelings did
time is frozen in place
everyday is the same
nothing has changed

and even tho i'm not okay
still you don't hear me cry every other day
maybe someday I'll open up
so at the moment i'm not givin up

On the inside I am falling apart
Ain't feeling no more, you can take away my heart
I am over the pain, I am fed up with lies
Imma take em again, maybe 3rd time's a charm
x2

I am not okay, I am not okay
yea
And I hate the way, I just hate the way
I am
I can't get it out, I can't get it out
of me
Imma hide my face, hide away the pain
til the end of me
x2

i'm not okay pt. 2

produced by micco.

lyrics:
i used to be
who nobody wants to be
who nobody wants to love
And i know that you best believe
theres something good in me

and the pain we feel
Its just a sign that we're meant to be
And i know that you best believe
That you're a part of me

And if i'll ever fall, would you drop me
if i'll ever go, would you stop me
love is what we crave for
but we never know what we're gonna lose
x2
And i never wanna lose you

i remember times
when i never had you
the pain inside my chest
So hard to take a breath 
when someone else fucking had you

I questioned myself
Will i ever have you
I mean who can love a man
Who can love the one
That needs to be fucking saved too

I Guess you do
And this Is what was meant to be
You found me...

And if i'll ever fall, would you drop me
if i'll ever go, would you stop me
love is what we crave for
but we never know what we're gonna lose
x2
And i never wanna lose you

i was stuck in the dark
closed in my room with a messed up mind
nobody helped, i asked for god
Love cause pain, but i want your love

They saw me drown
Saw me drown
You saw the frown hidden behind my smile
And thats the reason
That Is why
Thats why i love you

And if i'll ever fall, would you drop me
if i'll ever go, would you stop me
love is what we crave for
but we never know what we're gonna lose
x2
And i never wanna lose you

I Used To Be

i used to be

Prod. Mix me 

STREAM HERE: https://open.spotify.com/track/7ufBZhoPCyEimUBeTETQhW
Nicolas Sales © 2020

Lyrics: 

Be a friend of mine, 
I promise we’ll be intertwined, 
And you’ll feel better...

It’s such a waste of time,
Now I’ve got yours and you’ve got mine, 
We have forever...


Pessimistic tendencies
I got complex needs, no remedies...

Find the pain within yourself
You struggle with dependencies... 

Now it’s
Taking control, it’s soaking into your soul, and you don’t mind it, 
the answer’s there but you can’t find it, 

And it’s
Burning you down, 
The feeling’s buried in the ground, 
now you’ve been blinded 
identity, I’ll redesign it  

You keep,
Turning your back, you don’t know where to run, 
You ask yourself if you should buy a gun, and hide it 

Everybody’s out to get you, your luck’s run out, 
It’s about time you did without, denied it, but you can’t fight it...

Music Video

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follow @yung-jza-shawty 
-- lyrics --
Imma keep it 10 down
Let me take you downtown
Rollin with the top down
In the brand new whip now
Yea you spin me right round
Way you break it down down
Leave them damn lights on
Let me knock your lights out
Yea I keep it 10 toes
Keep yo lil neck froze
Baby girl I promise
I'm not fuckin side hoes
If I'm being honest
Racks on racks I got those
Shawty if you want it
I got it, facts tho

Star found a starlet
Dancing at Scarlett's
I got her off that pole
And out her old apartment
Moved her to the beach
Yea I'm just gettin started
Spend all you want
I'll make it back regardless
I'm spending a lot
But I double it back
Gettin the bag
Got no trouble wit that
Light you some candles
And bubble your bath
Lay down at night
And cuddle that ass
Like oh whoa
Here we go
Sliding down me like that pole
Baby let's just lose control
And see how far this night can go
You're never alone
Just hit up my phone
I'll come scoop u up
And take u home
Hit it right in your zone
Girl I love the way you sound 
when you moan

Imma keep it 10 down
Let me take you downtown
Rollin with the top down
In the brand new whip now
Yea you spin me right round
Way you break it down down
Leave them damn lights on
Let me knock your lights out
Yea I keep it 10 toes
Keep yo lil neck froze
Baby girl I promise
I'm not fuckin side hoes
If I'm being honest
Racks on racks I got those
Shawty if you want it
I got it, facts tho

I want you around
I'll hold ya down
I'll turn you out
figure it out
You're made for me
I'm made for you
I made the bank fill up with blue
Cashhhhhh
I love to go fasttttt
I hope I don't crashhh
Shawty I be falling for you
And I'm falling fast...
--

10DOWN

Spotify 🌟

10DOWN (prod. YungJZAisDead)

music video: https://youtu.be/n4sWulmLDPo

Lyric video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mwdGPE1V6wg

Produced by Yago

IT'S GONNA BE AN ENDLESS NIGHT

Lyrics:

[Intro]
"iluvtora"

[Pre-Chorus]
i'm running out of time
im stuck inside my head
you make me feel alive
i won't sleep until im dead
i wanna feel your touch just one more time
i just want your love, you don't care about mine

[Bridge]
shit is getting hard i hope you know i'll never comeback
youre always on my mind and all i see is fucking flashbacks
i think its getting late but if u leave its gonna kill me
it's gonna kill me...

[Chorus]
id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

[Verse]
and now im getting high
drinking doesn't help
either way im in the sky
i wanna stay outside
it's gonna be an endless night
yeah under the moonlight

i wish you called me back today
but i don't wanna fight so its okay
i wish you called me back today
but i don't wanna fight so its okay
wish me luck imma die in piece
can you take my heart and come with me
i can show u all my pain that im fighting
my inner peace is what im finding

i can show u all my pain that im fighting
my inner peace is what im finding

[Pre-Chorus]
i'm running out of time
im stuck inside my head
you make me feel alive
i won't sleep until im dead
i wanna feel your touch just one more time
i just want your love, you don't care about mine

[Pre-Chorus]
shit is getting hard i hope you know i'll never comeback
youre always on my mind and all i see is fucking flashbacks
i think its getting late but if u leave its gonna kill me
it's gonna kill me...

[Chorus]
id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

[Outro]
id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

music video

killing myself in my best outfit (prod. Yago)

Spotify

How Do You Feel, Cause I Don't (Prod . TNVR)

Support BigBozoJohn:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC__L...
https://www.soundcloud.com/bigbozojohn/
https://www.instagram.com/big.bozo.john/

Lyrics:
(when's my time, when i'm with you i'm fine, shawty wanna mess mind but i feel alive, yeah)

when’s my time
when i'm with you i'm fine 
shawty wanna mess my mind, but i feel alive 
loving really hurts my soul 
chilling in my room i roll
so waste my life, break my heart 
loving was a craving now it really isn’t much 
taking all these hits i don't feel it in my lungs  
i just wanna feel numb 
i just wanna go run, from all the pain 

run from all the pain
i feel it in my brain
this heartbreak left a stain 
i'm crying in the rain
im too hurt i don’t want you now 
got no heart and you let me drown 
fell too hard never left the ground 
everyone’s fake im too stressed out
i hate that you left me and you didn’t even tell me 
fading like a movie baby you said that you love me 
it's all a lie, rest in my bed and i think it's my time 

when’s my time
when i'm with you i'm fine 
shawty wanna mess my mind, but i feel alive 
loving really hurts my soul 
chilling in my room i roll
so waste my life, break my heart 
loving was a craving now it really isn’t much 
taking all these hits i don't feel it in my lungs  
i just wanna feel numb 
i just wanna go run, from all the pain

BigBozoJohn - When's My Time

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