Name: and even if the rest of my life is lived in silence by blissom
Duration: 2 min 49 s
Description: inspired by https://soundcloud.com/eva-nge-line/tailspin

@vai5000
track 3/10
https://open.spotify.com/track/5ERKbZ99pYU5HKFJHPiH5R?si=3b494c7f28d54f03
https://youtu.be/QoYO2o2Qc3s

blissom:

im dreaming about rats and bugs
im dreaming about blood and guts
im counting every passing second adding tallies to my arm

the wood decays
the leaves senesce 
the phonelines sway
the bugs fluoresce
i once again
have fell apart
and all thats left
are sticks and rocks

and ill wait my turn until the dust swallows me whole
pretend that its a blanket keeping me from cold
and ill wait my turn until the bugs will call me home
the color starts to fade the moss crawls down my bones

vai5000:

try to keep my head high
wind pushing close my own eyes now
leaves blowing in the breeze I 
can't hold back from what I feel
turn into something new
I watch as the seasons strip away from me just
piece by piece I
decay from the very core I'm made of
don't hold me close - just let me go
Time we spent they don't feel like memories

Take my arms and just slowly dance
The night won't go if you're here so
just make time slow tears fall no more
sit by me
hold tightly 
You know it's okay to cry - sometimes you just might
Tears from all the things I hoped
Everything just always goes wrong
You don't need to say goodbye - I'll be there in your head
My wood decays but my heart wont

blissom:

the wood decays
the leaves senesce 
the phonelines sway
the bugs fluoresce
i once again
have fell apart
and all thats left
are sticks and rocks

the wind is whi
ping past my face
the tide is ri
sing to my waist
im left without
a single sound
to keep me an
chored to the ground

sticks and rocks +vai5000

inspired by https://soundcloud.com/jaronsteele/just-out-of-reach

and itll never get old
itll never stop repeating in my head
the way the tips of your skin heat up whenever the sun touches it
the way a raindrop touching your forehead sends a chill down your spine
the way the wind pulls your body with it just a touch
these things never change, they only grow on you
and they've been growing for a while now
ive spent the last 5 years learning things i already know
things everyone already knows
things that never change, they only grow on you
and i hate getting sunburnt every time i relearn but its the only thing that works
the only thing that leaves a scar
whats keeping me going is knowing ill never relearn everything but one day ill know enough to get by
scars covering my body like stomata
opening and closing with the rising and setting sun
each one helping me breathe a just a little bit better
i heard it in a dream
i dont believe in dreams but
this one felt different

M2U00131 / M2U00259

inspired by https://soundcloud.com/eva-nge-line/tailspin

and even if the rest of my life is lived in silence

i find the mapquest in the glovebox
and im reminded when my life was so much worse
the forecasts clear today
but i can see rain from the clouds in the distance
and i could tell something was wrong
cuz everything felt right
and i dont think thats how it works
if you gave directions to the nearest corner store
id have no idea what im doing
and ive been here my whole life

im perfectly still with a hose at my feet
waiting for an ocean to form beneath me
thought millions of times i could fly if i want to
but the laws of nature wont change that easily

hometown 2k

the bite marks on your face arent hidden very well
i havent heard from u in a while
and as if the time has caused my throat to swell
u havent heard from me in a while

its getting lonlier the longer that i wait
its posted on the tattered walls
and i can feel the paint start peeling as i wait
how much longer can i fall

im happier when theres no air for me to breathe
im choking on my own tongue
and as the walls press up closer to my cheeks
my bones are breaking one by one

you couldnt tell but i was crying behind the screen
you couldnt hear it if you tried
and all the bugs whisper softly as you speak
you couldnt hear them if you tried

i forgot what you look like

savor

@d4niboi

blissom:

let me ride
in the backseat of your car
close my eyes
so i dont know where we are
i dont mind
where were going 
where were headed
cuz if its right
we'll end up there

take me down
to the coffee shop you like
sit me down
tell me whatever you like
i dont mind
if we end up here all night
cuz if its right
we'll end up lost 

fuck me up
make me dance and make me cry 
shut me up
i dont need to know why
i dont mind
if im in the dark all night
cuz if its right
we'll end up dead

daniboi:

i'll take your hand
i'll take the fall again
my only friend

you're all i need
if youre gonna make me bleed
what a fitting end

dont take me home
dont leave me all alone
nowhere to go

and when the walls start closing in
i'll just have to let you win
a crooked smile on my face
no matter what, i'll still miss you anyway

blissom:

let me ride
in the backseat of your car
close my eyes
so i dont know where we are
i dont mind
where were going 
where were headed
cuz if its right
we'll end up there

throw me out
hide me in between the lines
cover up
anything that reaches eyes
i dont mind
if i make it out alive
cuz if its right
the moss wont mind

fallen tower, rotting wood +daniboi

prod. me

Lyrics:
(do you feel do you -)
(do you hurt do you -)
(is it real are you -)
(do you feel do you -)
(do you hurt do you -)
(is it real are you -)

it's like you're still here with me
winds blow mold my face like your touch
I'd try ask "do you miss me?"
but you don't respond
how could you be gone
I'll close my eyes
and forget about the time
watch as I cry
it's rain on my cheek
connecting lines
tracing paths in sand beneath my feet
you swore you'd stay
where are you
tear my heart out
fall to the ground
words pierce my skin
tattered feelings
all this weight from my name
when you say it again
words kiss me
but I still feel pain

someone pinch me i'm still dreaming
death's beside me i'm his protégé
please speak softly words still hurt me
defy nature I still hate her
hate her
stay here
hate her
take me later
but you'll stay there
if I don't call
take a step back before you fall

everything just hurts sometimes  I
wonder what I'll feel when you die
hold your hand it's cold already
didn't tell me that you left me
beating heart as I grasp for air
feel your pulse but it's still nowhere
will you search for me when I join you

try beleive that nothings wrong
hold your hand until you're gone
hold your hand until you're
do you feel me with you
do you feel me kiss you
you - you - you
you were my everything

take back time said I would not cry but I lied
can you forgive me for the mistakes I made
thought you would never leave what we had built up
but I was wrong i'm so dumb
see your face
I watch you fade
I'll always stay just to see you again someday
do you see though the darkness i'm beside you
you're here I know you are
I won't forget your hope
it's all inside I won't leave till I die

steps lead southward spiral downward
heartbeats haunt me death still taunts me
i can still feel the past inside of my own heart
fragile it breaks like glass let it escape time's grasp

do you feel do you
do you still -
do you remember my name I'm -
do you hurt do you
hear my words
is it real are you
still there

do you feel do you hurt is it real now
cause I know that you're gone but I'll still ask "do you miss me?"
do you feel do you hurt is it real now
when you don't respond I'll hold on
for you
Talk I need to hear your voice your words surround me
embrace me with the things you could say but I can't hear you
Call out to me but we'll still just sit in silence
do you feel my hands
I just want you back
cause I loved you

death's just a step away

gasping for air | Track 1/6
produced by @irselr w additional prod by me
written, performed, mixed & mastered by Micah Callari

[Verse 1]
Hush, I don’t care anymore
You wrung me out like a towel and I don’t care for it
No more of all your lies to keep me trapped
In your fucking spider web until all the strings have snapped

[Chorus]
Sick of your complacency and 7 dollar beverages
7 times you said it wouldn’t matter if I said it twice
You’d still never fucking listen no matter how strong my leverage
You’d never cherish what we have until it bites the dust

[Verse 2]
You would rather forget it ever happened
But I’ll never abandon all the thoughts I had (in the moment)
My first impressions changed, now we don’t see eye to eye
Now we’re just seeing ghosts (and you’re just ghosting me)

[Bridge]
Leave me for dead, I wouldn’t mind to
Never see you again, I’m fine to simply
Die alone in my bed, and let the scavengers
Avenge me post my death

[Chorus]
Sick of your complacency and 7 dollar beverages
7 times you said it wouldn’t matter if I said it twice
You’d still never fucking listen no matter how strong my leverage
You’d never cherish what we have until it bites the dust
Sick of your complacency and 7 dollar beverages
7 times you said it wouldn’t matter if I said it twice
You’d still never fucking listen no matter how strong my leverage
You’d never cherish what we have until it bites the dust
Sick of your complacency and 7 dollar beverages
7 times you said it wouldn’t matter if I said it twice
You’d still never fucking listen no matter how strong my leverage
You’d never cherish what we have until it bites the dust

[Outro]
7 dollar beverages
7 times you said it wouldn’t matter if I said it twice
You’d still never fucking listen no matter how strong my leverage
You’d never cherish what we have until it bites the dust

7 dollar beverages {prod. irselr}

8 of 9
~
the pasture's only down the block
it was so many miles away
used to be stuck at the fencepost
we couldn't get our hands away
I think that I saw something else
I couldn't get my eyes off it
but I think it's over for us now
cause soon I will be nothing more

it's only a walk from sudbury
as long as I can stay under the trees
as soon as you ran from somebody
you stopped running away from me
it's only a walk from sudbury
as long as I can stay under the trees
as soon as you ran from somebody
you stopped running away from me

I lost something, and I'm never finding it
am I supposed to move on? out of the woods that were beside me
and I don't think I could see you under the clouds that started moving
and the grass got all brown, I know that you'd just think it's stupid
and I don't think I could feel you, watching snow turn into water
all that I could do was watch, or maybe look for what I lost
but I know that was always useless, or maybe it was punishment
cause I never even heard you, until I fell into the lawn

I thought you were real for my entire life
but the things that I love are the ones I can't spite
cause they're gone before I know that I just can't live without them
is it too late to ask if I loved you at all?
ever since I was there I can't see anything
and you ask where I am, but all I hear is the scream
or the piece of my life that's stuck between my teeth
after 16 whole years, I finally can't breathe

sudbury (the pasture song)

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and even if the rest of my life is lived in silence

blissom

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