@johnnyfriend
srry bout mix, still working on it

lyrics
everybody talks
yeah they talk too much
its the same old shit
its the same old stuff
like who fucked who?
wht kinda dramas up?
well she ghosted him.
well who gives a fuck
n hes tired of her
n shes tired of him
n shes a fuckin cheat
n hes a fuckin skimp
they never settle down
they never get a grip
i never catch a break
they always drag me in

caught a rough patch, they dont realize
2 faced, they all care but i get set aside
put a hole through your head so i can settle mine
n they straying, they all swingin on the grapevine
n i hate myself cuz im pretendin
n ik that im a burden, im a menace
fuck u and fuck your friends
i knew ur lyin i dont see me on ur friend list

everybodys so perfect
why cant i ever feel worth it
feel like a puppet, im a servant
but u a fraud, u a serpent

n hes tired of her
n shes tired of him
n shes a fuckin cheat
n hes a fuckin skimp
they never settle down
they never get a grip
i never catch a break
they always drag me in

caught a rough patch, they dont realize
2 faced, they all care but i get set aside
put a hole through your head so i can settle mine
n they straying, they all swingin on the grapevine
n i hate myself cuz im pretendin
n ik that im a burden, im a menace
fuck u and fuck your friends
i knew ur lyin i dont see me on ur friend list

friend list

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shoutout my boi @epitomeoffailure for hopping on dis track!
its also out on all platforms!!

<3
prod. saint mike www.youtube.com/channel/UCtVW96i3Bus5Nz-4IIUWqsw
mix n master. Zonex www.youtube.com/channel/UCVJdNVkPZmHUEQSoJ6zcIUg

heartbreak havoc w/ epitomeoffailure [prod. saint mike]

a song i made at the end of 2020. i didn't very much like it as i was struggling with enjoying music at the time with a lot of personal stuff going on at the time. looking back now i enjoy what i tried to do and it was very much the basis of the ideas i have currently. will be back in full force next year!

[LYRICS]:+
I hate my face, 
i hate my soul, 
i hate the skin im in,
Tangled up like wires,
In my pocket,
intestines,
Please don’t hit my line i see the darkest side of me,
Please don’t hit my line i see the darkest side of me,

Flowers of evil,
Everyone is silhouettes,
I sell dope to a dopefiend or a bitch who pregnant,
used to feel so fake and hollow holly pocket,
plastic,
Pack me,
Pull me till i fucking snap,
Poke and prod and pass,
I don’t got no god damn time to act like im all right,
Liquor in my liver,
My room glow red late at night,
My life like A24 films in the end where we all die,
Holes inside my brain i hear the little worms cry,
You can’t do it like me, ay,
Drip from my head to my feet, ay,
That right there my liver, huh,
In offwhite like “LIVER”, yuh,
I vacay in hostels, wait,
Sell my parts,
My gospel, ay,
Iced out wrist,
Whole iced out hand like Hoss Delgado, yuh,
Ay,
I been so hesitant,
Constantly panicking,
Druggie for leverage,
Beam me up scotty,
Equipped with the shotty,
My friends more like shadows that haunt me,
If you gonna talk shit,
Talk shit,
Follow your gut,
Might’ve lost it,
So much drink,
Im toxic,
Talk to myself olly oxen,

I hate my face, 
i hate my soul, 
i hate the skin im in,
Tangled up like wires,
In my pocket,
intestines,
Please don’t hit my line i see the darkest side of me,
Please don’t hit my line i see the darkest side of me.

GEHRMAN - SKIN IM IN「PROD. DEMXNTIA」

certified cybergrunge moment.

prod. Barstow
www.youtube.com/channel/UCbf1-hY2WeioWNQBWAoB-cA
mix n master. Zonex
www.youtube.com/c/ZonexBeats

antichrist [prod. Barstow]

swag alert.
prod. st46y
https://soundcloud.com/st46y
mix n master. Zonex
https://www.youtube.com/c/ZonexBeats

grey bunker halls [prod. st46y]

pictures (prod. kardia26) **demo**

i wanna sleep lol

prod. saint mike
https://www.youtube.com/c/saintmike1
mix n master. zonex
https://www.youtube.com/c/ZonexBeats

lemme sleep [prod. saint mike]

Produced, Mixed and Mastered by me
I sell the Mix/Template I made this song with, hit me up if you're interested
In case you need a song mixed and mastered to your liking,
Hit me up on Discord: NYUK#1622

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-Lyrics-


[Intro] 

It's okay to be alone


[Hook] 

It's okay to be alone 
I know that it really hurts tho...
I keep my expectations low tho
Tryna find a reason why my lifes so bad
I have really no idea

I don't know what's good and bad
Let me find a better place
I need somebody to help me out
Don't know who I am
I gotta figure me out


[Verse]

And I have nobody to talk to
I'm not okay
But I guess I will be fine
Eventually... Eventually... Eventually... Eventually...

You, said
That I mean nothing to you
I don't wanna be alone
But you said baby I will go
I don't even care no more
I told you so many times that it's okay


[Hook] 

It's okay to be alone 
I know that it really hurts tho...
I keep my expectations low tho
Tryna find a reason why my lifes so bad
I have really no idea

I don't know what's good and bad
Let me find a better place
I need somebody to help me out
Don't know who I am
I gotta figure me out


[outro]

It's okay to be alone

It's Okay To Be Alone

(so pretty, so so pretty)
yomi -
i wont feel okay ever
like the catcher in the rye
that bitch was clever
in my head space
i wont make the headway
feeling like some deadweight
feeling like im going away
we just wanna fuck around and go crazy
staring at my hands full of blood 
this is amazing
her visions fading as shes going away
finally got my revenge

luv2hateme - 
finally got my revenge
and i know ill have to repent
for everything i did
but you shouldnt have said what you said
and now im standing over your body 
and now you're dead
and now our old memories getting up in my head
really just fuck the world we live in
now you're gone
and i just hate to see you go
look me in my eyes before you leave this planet and go

yomi - 
i wont feel okay ever
like the catcher in the rye
that bitch was clever
in my head space
i wont make the headway
feeling like some deadweight
feeling like im going away
we just wanna fuck around and go crazy
staring at my hands full of blood 
this is amazing
her visions fading as shes going away
finally got my revenge

told her we would die together
this is the end
i dont give a fuck that bitch was evil
yeah inject me with your poison i got needles
she got no morals i got drugs yeah we were lethal
fuck that fuck that fuck that this is real
third degree murder with no deals

revenge! w/ luv2hateme (johnnyfriend)

Autumn (Jolst) Ft. silentcxbin remix

(verse 1)

haven’t left my room in days
I just watch the light decay
on the floor beside my bed
where my thoughts get heavy-fed

I don’t know what’s wrong with me
everything feels make-believe
voices echo in my head
but they’re quiet, underfed

(pre-chorus)

and I’m trying not to break
but my mind keeps losing shape

(chorus)

i don’t hear myself
when I’m talking anymore
I’m a stranger in my skin
pacing circles on the floor
I’m lonely in a way
I can’t put into words
i don’t hear myself
guess I never really learned

(verse 2)

same old shirt, another night
I keep turning off the lights
like hiding from the world outside
might fix the static in my mind

my friends say I’ve been distant
that my smile’s inconsistent
I wish I had the courage
to tell them that I’m hurting

(pre-chorus)

and I’m trying not to break
but my heart feels out of place

(chorus)

i don’t hear myself
when I’m talking anymore
I’m a stranger in my skin
pacing circles on the floor
I’m lonely in a way
I can’t put into words
i don’t hear myself
guess I never really learned

(bridge)

some days I feel a flicker
something soft, something bigger
but it fades before I catch it
like a dream that never happens

(chorus — final)

i don’t hear myself
but I’m listening again
to the quiet little things
I forgot were mine back then
I’m lonely but I’m here
and that’s more than I admit
i don’t hear myself
but I’m trying bit by bit

i don't hear myself

on hiatus
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heartbreak havoc w/ epitomeoffailure [prod. saint mike]

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