nothing is real

stats disabled for this. i want you to just listen to this, and find peace. music isnt a competition people. close your eyes and take a deep breath. everyday you are one day closer to  dying. will you take these numbers with you, to the infinite void? what will you be counting then?

spotify direct link: https://open.spotify.com/track/4lU7PdakrJiSA4gsyIs8nw
download: https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-viii

save on spotify

regardless of what you think,

music video: https://youtu.be/51DjEIh7tuE
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from the upcoming ' nothing is real, part XX '
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spotify playlist of 19 albums of music like this - https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3

when you're not home

music video

when you're not home w/ Miranda Rain

album download:https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xx
album on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/4QqwI8PW5JO7j2Cw0K6I86

Lyrics: 
you're too close
darling, you're too close for comfort
you're too good
you're too good to me

and now i'll do what i always do
and make you hurt beyond words

i don't know what bone people have
that makes them act normally

but somewhere up above
it feels like pieces must of been left out

i always know what to do
and what you want from me

and i found a way to do the opposite
i find a way to cause the most pain possible

i find a way to make sure
that ten months from now 
im back there on the floor, wondering
who could of done this to me?

nothing is real, part XX

album download

the most pain possible

album download:https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xx
album on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/4QqwI8PW5JO7j2Cw0K6I86


Lyrics: 
wishing for an easy way
there's gotta be a better way
its what they say
but theyve never lived a day in my place

i dont wanna hear another word unless you mean to say
you'll go away

how did i let myself get this way
was it me who was always in my way

and im in the middle of the road
with the cars passing by

wondering why noone will stop 
too see
 if im doing all right

cause im not alright

not tonight and not tomorrow
i dont know

the wayy your hair ued to smell mixed with my cologne
it seems so far away like a dream i used to know

i need to get off the ground 
i need to take myself home

but some reasons unknown
i just dotnt want to go

i just want to lay here
and let the one who's eyes are elsewhere
take me away

let their motor car steer closer 
steer closer 
steer closer now
Steer closer my way

exit plan

album download:https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xx
album on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/4QqwI8PW5JO7j2Cw0K6I86

when you hurt me like this

album download:https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xx
album on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/4QqwI8PW5JO7j2Cw0K6I86

Lyrics: 
its harder than you seem to see
just how it feels to become me
i'm burned alive i should of died
i lost you once wont lose you twice
i fall apart into the pile
and all my life was it worth while
eat from what i leave behind
ill close my eyes i've had enough
its harder than you seem to see

i fall apart,

nothing is real tracks (soundcloud): https://soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/nir
all 20 NIR albums(spotify): https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3
download: https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xviii

thank you for listening <3

nothing is real, part XVIII

NIR playlist 💛

in limbo, we

lyric video: https://youtu.be/43TcttRBgKA
nothing is real tracks (soundcloud): https://soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/nir
all 20 NIR albums(spotify): https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3
download: https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xviii

thank you for listening <3

to turn the tides.

so now it's our turn,

w/ @miranda-ra1n
lyric video: https://youtu.be/43TcttRBgKA
nothing is real tracks (soundcloud): https://soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/nir
all 20 NIR albums(spotify): https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3
download: https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xviii

thank you for listening <3

you came along and saved me.

no one would know how it feels,

NIR playlis 💛

and just when i thought,

and it's her,

music video: https://youtu.be/d9kkX8yHEgw
thanks for listening<3 i hope you'll check out more of my music like this song.
this song + all my ambient tracks on my spotify playlist here
spotify version: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy
soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient

you only cared about you

with @miranda-ra1n
my head is an ambient playlist _ open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy
soundcloud version : soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
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hi guys, thanks for the love on ' i was only temporary ' . on tiktok, spotify, and soundcloud! this song is from may, 2023, from the album "ambient vol. 4"
here is a direct link to the album for download - https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/ambient-vol-4

ambient vol. 4

ambient playlist

i feel worthless (w/ Miranda Rain)

free download: https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xxi
so sorry for the delay. ive spent the last 7 months writing this album, in between all the ambient singles/albums. i hope for any listeners of the "nothing is real" albums, it is worth the wait. on a very personal note, these albums are the only thing that brings me self worth. i am deeply impacted and thankful some of my ambient songs have connected with you all, in particular "i was only temporary". however, despite their impact on social media, i personally do not feel any accomplishment when writing ambient. as many long time listeners of the "nothing is real" project have mentioned, the simple ambient songs are in essence, just an outro of a "nothing is real" song. i too share this sentiment. i think i am capable of making a lot more emotionally impactful music, not just for others, but as means of helping myself. i struggle with feeling adequate, and because of my events in my life it has become of my personality to want to prove to myself, before anyone else, that i can do something great, even if there is nobody around to see it. even for years and years before the viral song "i was only temporary", these "nothing is real" albums we're written and released one after another with little to no support, or viewership. i hope that, in my efforts to prove to myself that i can make something truly one-of-a-kind, and original, that it will inspire people to not copy others, and find their own sound. i think alot of people, with a platform have a similar message about wanting to "make the world a better place". i think this is a good message of course, i just would like for anyone reading this to know, that my message is a bit more specific. with the  "nothing is real" series, i want to share that, in this world today, i think there are so many fake things, people, friends, etc. i do not want to inspire people to copy what i do, or anyone else. i want to release these albums and hopefully make people say "wow, this is so much effort, and it does not sound like anything i have ever heard! maybe i should not try to keep up with trends, or other people, or let them make me feel inadequacy any longer. this music inspires me to do my own thing, and master it, and make something unique and original that can tell my own personal story". i think individualism is being lost today, in a world that prioritizes followers, and followings. i want to leave behind something that will inspire others to look within themselves, and find approval in their own ideas, instead of constantly looking to imitate what already exists. i think the next most wonderful and beautiful thing that will help a lot of people, is lying in wait inside one of you, and to find it, i hope whatever i have done may help people become introspective enough to dig it up, and share with all of us. anyways, thanks for listening and reading all this. <3 - mhie

nothing is real, part XXI

download

if i let go

play this when i can’t sleep

free download: https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xxi
music video: https://youtu.be/lRf86L7MYLU
so sorry for the delay. ive spent the last 7 months writing this album, in between all the ambient singles/albums. i hope for any listeners of the "nothing is real" albums, it is worth the wait. on a very personal note, these albums are the only thing that brings me self worth. i am deeply impacted and thankful some of my ambient songs have connected with you all, in particular "i was only temporary". however, despite their impact on social media, i personally do not feel any accomplishment when writing ambient. as many long time listeners of the "nothing is real" project have mentioned, the simple ambient songs are in essence, just an outro of a "nothing is real" song. i too share this sentiment. i think i am capable of making a lot more emotionally impactful music, not just for others, but as means of helping myself. i struggle with feeling adequate, and because of my events in my life it has become of my personality to want to prove to myself, before anyone else, that i can do something great, even if there is nobody around to see it. even for years and years before the viral song "i was only temporary", these "nothing is real" albums we're written and released one after another with little to no support, or viewership. i hope that, in my efforts to prove to myself that i can make something truly one-of-a-kind, and original, that it will inspire people to not copy others, and find their own sound. i think alot of people, with a platform have a similar message about wanting to "make the world a better place". i think this is a good message of course, i just would like for anyone reading this to know, that my message is a bit more specific. with the  "nothing is real" series, i want to share that, in this world today, i think there are so many fake things, people, friends, etc. i do not want to inspire people to copy what i do, or anyone else. i want to release these albums and hopefully make people say "wow, this is so much effort, and it does not sound like anything i have ever heard! maybe i should not try to keep up with trends, or other people, or let them make me feel inadequacy any longer. this music inspires me to do my own thing, and master it, and make something unique and original that can tell my own personal story". i think individualism is being lost today, in a world that prioritizes followers, and followings. i want to leave behind something that will inspire others to look within themselves, and find approval in their own ideas, instead of constantly looking to imitate what already exists. i think the next most wonderful and beautiful thing that will help a lot of people, is lying in wait inside one of you, and to find it, i hope whatever i have done may help people become introspective enough to dig it up, and share with all of us. anyways, thanks for listening and reading all this. <3 - mhie

we’re all we've got

this song was written during treatment in a particularly bad time. right now things are worse, but this was different. whenever i get new lesions in my brain, they attempt to close them using a powerful steroid called "prednisone". no, not like steroids body builders use, these target cuts in my brain that form and essentially singe them closed. after 30+ lesions i stopped counting them and stopped asking. i don't even want to know how trashed my brain is at this point. but anyways, they give me a very high dose of this. usually 1250mg. all i can really say is, it feels like you just drank 10 cups and coffee and a couple redbulls in one sitting. it feels like your blood is made of battery acid. its pretty much impossible to sleep, and i have to take these dosages for several days. sometimes for 25 days straight, at 25 pills a day gradually reducing the dosage by 1 pill a day. anyways. in these times, my insomnia becomes much worse. i already cannot sleep, but during these treatments sleep is out of the question. ill go a bit insane from sleep deprivation. in these times im looking so desperately for a sense of calm. a sense of peace or serenity. all i could really do is try to make a calm or beautiful sounding song to give myself something. not something id already made, but just exactly what i needed to hear at that time, and i guess this was that song. i never released this one, but things have been especially bad lately again, and i heard this track again and realized it helps me just as much now as it did then. maybe its time to share it, and maybe someone out there will feel the peace i do, when listening <3 big love to you all. thank you for reading, and listening .

nothing is real, part XVI

album

prednisone song

with my good friends, @danielmp3-music and @zamaro-sc
we hope you will like our first song together, and remember to "believe" in yourself <3

nothing is real

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