blxty + emotionals - on god (waifu yugen)

performed, written, & produced by me @mental

lyrics:

dont know how to live without ur touch
got me feeling like ive never been enough
i was helpless but i still thought i was lucky
i gave up thinking about giving up
doesnt matter even if i try my hardest
it wont ever be the way that it was
and i made my circle smaller than ur heart is
idc im prepared to collapse

every time i think, its a burden to me... keep my mind in silence
i miss every night when we talked bout nothing we still laughed and smiled
but i guess that ur onto the next thing i just dont wanna be alive
and i thought u were never gonna lie but u said u were never gonna let me cry

it was a waste of time when i crumpled up into pieces
fake smile hope they believe it
i know they rly hate me so im bleeding
heart broken crying and screaming
hole in my chest idk how im breathing
new pain but its not for a reason
new day and another ones leaving
idk how to cope with these feelings

homesick

rojo (silo)

thank you for 2̶0̶2̶2̶ everything

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4AWLELv8lgmouGZRODTEJg?si=QwxVK8mTSiqZ_BOc_Gqj3g

2 stories:

if you really loved me then you wouldnt do this to me
speakin from tha outside.. wish it was you breathin thru me
left behind, i feel just like hachi
say it back, but its just to taunt me
you know i would save this if i could (s/o @artemys)
but she dont like me roll my feelings in this wood
and ive been dreamin bout a kiss and if you would
could take my hand and be in bliss i wish you could
all of a sudden i keep lying to u dont even mean to do it
im so glad that we're through, you told me stay i couldnt
why cant you tell me the truth? cant hurt more than im hurtin
i keep looking for you, im lost and its so certain
i keep thinking of you, even i know i shouldnt
i keep waiting for you, but i know youre not coming
i wont follow through, holding back im still learning
wish youd tell me the truth, it makes me feel so worthless

fightin n fuckin wont turn us to something so
im leaving for you to make the assumption that
i dont care bout you so you give up trusting and
leave me behind cause you treat me like nothing
cant take the difference, cant take the distance
walk in my shoes and youll see why i missed it
i cant lose her so i cry when shes with them
you want this to last babygirl take a picture

and thats just it
why i fall in love so quick
fell in love with someone else i got you callin me a bitch
and its so much life to live
doin shows and walkin through the city ill get over it
and she looks so pretty lyin in bed faces dimly lit
baby this is how i live
sharin cigarettes and late nights yea thats where my attention is
and theres so much tension in
in the way she moves her lips
and by the way youre lookin i know whats gon happen next
told you this is it
show you what its like to live
you can see all what ive been through by the scars up on my wrist
she leaves scars up on my lips
still you dont know where ive been
so i wish youd learn my story i cant go through this again
feel just like hachi, 
i feel just like hachi
its just to taunt me
still i love how you love me

spotify

hachi (mixedmatches)

https://open.spotify.com/album/2g7JsDPZZqEFC8teUw0cb8?si=EhVkH8k4RtuMlFe4WxZnIg

#LP
#DPK

@mental
@blxty
@h4zrd

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mental blxty h4zrd ღ listen to ur <3 (mental)

produced by negativecreeper & guardiangel
art by @cryinggsilence

@i9bonsai
@kggn
@negativecreeper
@guardiangelll

[blx]
no no
im at my brink im like no no
i been sinking im like no no
i dont know where to go go
im like waves ya im one with the fluid
i dont wanna do it anymore i cant do it
i do what i want ya dont look at me stupid
i tell them to move it well they're going to fucking move it
i told them to love me well they're going to fucking love me
how am i gonna get my point across ur acting like a dummy
oh he acting funny wrap him up justt like a mummy
and i said she looking stunning when im with her it is sunny
go go (go go)
said she wanna love me i told her that i dont need that
go go (go go)
she told me she love me i told her that she dont mean that.

[i9bonsai]
leave me in the cold i dont wanna go out。。
anymore but i know that i dont want to stay around,, anymore
n i dont want to b bound by the chains n the words n the sounds ::
yh its time t forget it then (・・;)ゞ
i dnt wna pretend:: i cant let u in

goin t to the road。。 can u let it end?
if i stay around its a never ending mess
its not enough,, we just needa c it less
its a mess 2much with tht excess

cut tht off,, :: (・人・)

[ku]
go go
go go
wipe my tears as u leave me in the cold
im on some stuff that u aint heard of movin slow
whts the big deal im messed up dont u know
this
hopeless
focus
on my eyes
we’re almost there
psychosis
i did evrything i cld but its all bogus
all tht stuff u put on me w/o a notice
feel the addy in my stomach got me so sick
its clear u rnt tht so tell me why im homesick
feel the walls theyre closin in im claustrophobic

no no ft. i9bonsai & kuru

performed, written, and produced by me @mental

i dont know what ima dream about 2nite
i dont rly wanna leave without a fight
and i rly cant believe that thats my life
every single time i breathe im boutta die
i cant ever even see the reason why
ur even in love with me, but thats alright
ill just hold onto belief until i die
and then i cry and say goodbye

know u wanna leave me
stay up cuz im bleeding
it dont matter what im feeling
but its nothing, im eating

Love me, hate me, wannakill me

I h8 me so badd wanna end it

im so mad @ me im so mad @ me

im mad @ me

why do you hate me? /_ \
art @mental

@pw4prez
@prod1audii

i can't feel my arms
i can't feel my legs
i can't feel your warmth
i can't feel my head
watching the sunset
how i make you upset?
act like i'm nothing
toy me like puppet

omo- i stab me in my chest and i'm like oh no 
getting voices in my head just like a fucking dono
in the end i'm chillin with my friends just like domo
what you said to me has me breaking in slo-mo
motion sickness i- hate this distance cus-
you said you'd love me forever but you just went ghost
and i hate that the most
please come back when ur cold
No Caller ID's hit my phone and i fold

plus ur hurting me
please stop hurting me
someone murder me
this aint no break it's been 6 months
and ur urging me..
to take every single pill that's alerting me-
i feel stupid
i been shot by an arrow but this aint no cupid
all i feel is sorrow can you guess where that's rooted
start to feel better,, come back say you dream of me
to love i'm alergic when i feel it my sinus screams
my throat is sore, my body aches and my hearts dispersed
say that you hate me,, well can it get worse?
well i still love you... feels like it's a curse i have :/

i can't feel (sochi x audii)

You lookin real stupid

hit you in your heart
Yea well that’s just how we do it

fw us, elevate we going shooting

youre a bitch and we all already knew it 

make myself bleed thinkin I might die
cause ion rlly give a fuck about my life

off a pill you can see it in my eyes
Blood shot, fucked up til the sunrise

you cant hang with us so keep it down
like fuck that bitch thinkin bout it make me frown

everybody know my name like im the baddest bitch around
you my kids, yeah nobody wanna learn so just sit down

you got me feelin suicidal 
say youre the new wave but bitch you aint no tidal  🌊 😔

Heart (negative.creeper & eczotic)

it took too long i need my drugs
wear my jeans down up to my waist 
ifsixwasnine is where i hide my drugs
creeping up crawling out like a bug
i had enough just show me love
it went away where do i turn to
medicate all the same
what i meant to


maybe they got me thinking way too strong
ive been gone too long
causing thunderstorms head to the concrete
how can i save her when i can't save myself
its funny when u start saying no
they start acting different
im a egoist i just act this way
i do this all the same
tell me all these drugs the same
i dont want nobody, nobody
its all the samee

it took too long i need my drugs
wear my jeans down up to my waist 
ifsixwasnine its where i hide my drugs
creeping up crawling out like a bug
i had enough just show me love
it went away where do i turn to
medicate all the same
what i meant to