thoughts of you and him keep me up at night.....

howwwww does this only have 16k?? this is an amazing song >:0

prod @yumenikki

this song is from summer 2024 during a very difficult period in my life. i am doing much better now. thank you for listening!

lyrics:

i cant stay awake
perc got me delayed
racing cars down interstate
money in my paypal
i dont wanna wait
u make me feel safe
i can never leave this place
nothing left to say now

u dont really get me
like u never met me
want you to forget me
why would you not let me
i just wanna let go
numb my head wit benzos
i thought we were friends tho
u thought wed be friends no

i stare at the wall now
i forget my thoughts now
i do what i want now
i just wanna fall down
i just wanna lay down
want you at my place now
in the bed im facedown
want u in my face now

nod off in the greyhound
in another place now
i dont wanna go back
i hate to be home now
girl i want you here now
didnt wanna leave you
i just wanna see you
i just wanna feel u

i just dont fuck with this
i smoke gas in the crib
she dont like how i live
ill put u on the list
jus popped it out the blister
i dont want to be fixed
u were my favorite kiss
so why do i feel different

i stay up i dont know my limits
crushing pills up i wan feel it instant
yuh, way too fucked up i cant listen
put the black tar on foil, lighter, flick it

it had me fucked up but i miss it
i was living with you it was prison
you were doing it with me, decision
i didnt wan be in love so i fixed it

come get me prod. freger

Produced, written, recorded, mixed, by mental
Cover art by oddyssi

Lyrics:

I don't want to end it
I'm too anxious not to say goodbye
Choppa in this backpack it could take a life
He was mad at me for touching green 'cause he don't have a life
I don't fake or lie, I'm never switching sides
I don't take my time, I love to skip the line
Hitter on me, hit them if they want me to be in the sky
Shinigami, shit is calling me to get some different eyes
In her body, it's hibachi, I might eat this shit with rice
If they copy, then I'm probably stopping what I did
What I did?
Walk around the city, following the chips
This bitch way too pretty, I'm too shy to kiss

Never switching sides
No I'm never switching sides
Never switching sides
No I'm never switching sides

I don't want to end it
I'm too anxious not to say goodbye
Choppa in this backpack it could take a life
He was mad at me for touching green 'cause he don't have a life
I don't fake or lie, I'm never switching sides
I don't take my time, I love to skip the line
Hitter on me, hit them if they want me to be in the sky
Shinigami, shit is calling me to get some different eyes
In her body, it's hibachi, I might eat this shit with rice
If they copy, then I'm probably stopping what I did
What I did?
Walk around the city, following the chips
This bitch way too pretty, I'm too shy to kiss

Never switching sides
No I'm never switching sides
Never switching sides
No I'm never switching sides

for a kiss

shinigami

DIEGOINTHEDARK - DEVIL MAY CRY PROD META & MENTAL

i dont wanna see yo face
sorry baby i'll be late
i dont wanna go on dates
lose my mind i go cray
tell me something i can say
tell me what would make u stay
been going through this too much
hop on a flight to la
hop on a flight to la
karma a bitch
we kick him out of the mix
touch a mic i get rich
that boy dumb he a fish
you not gonna blow u a dud
you not my gang not my bud
we spend a rack on grub
you cant tell me its all love
but you know i love you
i just hope that you love me too
will you still try to love me
after all that i put you
dont wanna let you go
i wanna let you know
that you're all that i know
i want you no more
i want you no less
big hole in my chest
pull my hair i stress
turn me to a mess

karma (violet)

i think i love you
i think that i want you
i wanna be with you
i dont see a issue
yeah i miss your face i miss you
i miss you
i fall down to my knees
seeing visions all up in my head of you and me
this what we could be
i just need a chance
i just need some bands
substance in my fanta
paint him red like santa
endless void i can't stop falling
life a gamble all in
i need you more than my meds
wake up and i'm feeling dead
blacked out seeing red
and its all cus of you
tell me what do i do
all cus of you im fucked in my brain
go through this pain and you don't feel the same
i wanna change but you know i'm insane
(but you know) i'm insane
(but you know) i'm insane
(i'm tired) wanna change but i'm locked in this place
can you look me in my face and tell me imma be the one
girl you're not the one for me i know the shit you done
bae i think we done
why you acting dumb
playing with your thumbs
they bite my swag like it's gum
i think you should bite a gun
yeah felt this way for months
eat a bullet it's like lunch
when i look down i just wanna jump
feel it in my lungs
i just wanna jump
i just wanna (jump, jump)
i just wanna jump

insane (exo)

PROD @MENTAL

I DONT WANNA DIE CAN YOU HEAR ME CRY
THOUGHTS OF YOU AND HIM KEEP ME UP AT NIGHT
AND I THINK ITS MY FAULT I CANT DO IT RIGHT
TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME I WANNA HEAR IT TWICE
CLOSE MY EYES ALL I SEE IS YOU
IF THIS LOVE IS TRUE IT MUST BE A FLUKE
MAKE ME INDIGO BABY TURN ME BLUE
PURPLE ON MY JEANS YOU WONT SEE THE TRUTH
FEEL YOU IN MY SOUL
I MIGHT FALL DOWN
THIS DONT FEEL RIGHT
I SEE YOU AROUND
AND ITS ALL THATS ON MY MIND
HELP ME FEEL ALRIGHT

IF I STAY AND IF I WAIT WILL YOU LOVE ME 
IF I PRAY AND RECIPROCATE WHEN YOU TOUCH ME
IF I CHANGE IN ANY WAY THAT YOU WANTED
IF I CAVE CAN I BE SOMBODY YOURE FOND OF
IF YOU HURT ME ILL FORGIVE AND FORGET IT
IF YOU CURSE ME ILL REGRET MY ACCEPTANCE
TRIED TO TURN ME TO DOLL CAUSE YOURE JEALOUS
EASY SWAYING ME IM SURE ILL REGRET IT
YEAH YEAH
I KEEP THROWING UP
YEAH ITS NEVER ENOUGH YEAH
IS IT HATE OR LOVE
YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH
I CANT FEEL YOUR TOUCH
YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH
YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

twice ft. mental

prod b9 n shotti

n she wna live a dream 
u kno i cnt come 
velvet heart, canary sheets 
n silver handguns 
dirty knots inside my jeans 
my btch a ragdoll
cry mascara tears
die inside my castle

like a bad bitch 
selfies on my IG 
fuck urr bf 
he tryna b like me
light got myy skin burning 
need to rip my flesh out 
sooo annoying
ths btch got me stressd out

uree a side kick 
this boy straight filler 
i got vices 
she got lip filler 
these boys shooting trillers
get ur life together 
i trust no beater
she’ll fail a lie detector

do you think of me at all
bcz u live inside my head 
love notes pinned along my walls 
messages i never sent 
wishing we cld get along 
skeletons under my bed 
turn your corpse into my doll 
drown my body in your flesh

n she wna live a dream 
u kno i cnt come 
velvet heart, canary sheets 
n silver handguns 
dirty knots inside my jeans 
my btch a ragdoll
cry mascara tears
die inside my castle

like a bad bitch 
selfies on my IG 
fuck urr bf 
he tryna b like me
light got myy skin burning 
need to rip my flesh out 
sooo annoying
ths btch got me stressd out

i dnt go outside
its not surprising 
keep on hitting my type beats 
ull never b like me
staring straight into FL 
this shit making my eyes bleed 
off the molly like excel 
getting checks jst like nike

im stalking my page 
obsessed with this img 
its so unrealistic 
delusional
keep chasing statistics 
you have no real achievements
is it just me who thinks its delusional

n she wna live a dream 
u kno i cnt come 
velvet heart, canary sheets 
n silver handguns 
dirty knots inside my jeans 
my btch a ragdoll
cry mascara tears
die inside my castle

like a bad bitch 
selfies on my IG 
fuck urr bf 
he tryna b like me
light got myy skin burning 
need to rip my flesh out 
sooo annoying
ths btch got me stressd out

selfie

how i feel X i can die

PROD VIOLET
ART BY ODDY & BLXTY

GOT TOO MUCH ON MY PLATE THATS
HURTING BUT I DONT WANT TO GO GO GO GO
GO GO GO GO
TELL ME IF ITS TRUE IS IT FATE
BABY I FEEL NEW TO THIS PLACE
I DONT WANT MY TIME TO BE WASTED
WE'RE NOT FINE AND I HATE IT
WHEN I SAW YOU IT WAS GRACE
CAN YOU TELL ME IM NOT LATE OH
I CAN FEEL YOUR IMAGE ITS FADING
BLACKOUT WOKE UP ON THE PAVEMENT
TRANSPARENT BAE UR SEE THROUGH
DO YOU SEE ME HOW I SEE YOU
I BE GETTING GREEN BUT I FEEL BLUE
SHAWTY SAID IM COLD SHE SAID IM THE FLU
GO GO
ME OR HIM CANT HAVE US BOTH
GO GO
THIS WONT FLOAT GIRL UR ON A SINKING BOAT
WATCH FROM A DISTANCE I BEEN TAKING NOTES
I CANT SAY A THING ALL I DO IS CHOKE
TAKE ALL THIS ADVIL AND MY HEAD IT STILL HURTS
GOT ME TRAPPED IN YOUR SPELL BUT I SWEAR ITS A CURSE
IF THIS PART OF YOUR PLAN CAN U PLS DO THE WORST
TELL ME ALL UR PETTY LIES
TELL ME WHAT YOU KEEP INSIDE A BALL
AND YOU HIDE DEEP INSIDE
AND I SWEAR
WHEN IM BY YOUR SIDE I FEEL SO ALIVE
ALL I REALLY WANT IS JUST YOU AND I
PROMISE YOU WILL NOT LET ME GO GO GO GO

grace (violet)

i don't want to be this person anymore
i hope its not real
wake me from my sleep
breathe life into me
teach me how to dress
tell me how to speak
i thought i could be anything

it's killing me
it's killing me
it's killing me
it's killing me
it's killing me
it's killing me

it's killing me

i wish i had your eyes and your ears
or something special, your attention to detail
would you be upset if i told you how i feel?
i'd rather you never figure me out
cause you cant take back what you call a gift
and once you speak those feelings are permanent
and once you waste it, the time doesn't come back
so why'd you lie to me like that?

i thought i could be anything
its killing me
its killing me
its killing me
its killing me

twice ft. mental

blxty

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