untitled_2024-08-22

11/09/24 - 28/03/25
2/11

Want2 is sorta about being queer and wanting to be straight, or normal, but just knowing that you can't. Maybe it relates to Wind with the theme of not really liking who you are but still accepting it. It's from the perspective of wanting to be with a woman, but knowing that no matter how hard you try it just wouldn't work out, and that kind of awkward aprehensive sort of tone comes from that.

I always wanted to make a garage pop song, and this was like my hundredth attempt haha. Anyway I was just sending some drafts in a groupchat to get some thoughts and Eva seemed to really take to the idea and asked to jump on it. I adore Eva and their work so it was a no brainer and she transformed the track overnight pretty much, completely rearranging it and pretty much laying out a whole song, it was wild. We went from there and eventually got it done!

you can find Eva and her work here!:
https://soundcloud.com/eva-nge-line
https://open.spotify.com/artist/5u2g7SyRhKga7Cf8MUvKsM?si=9yhIDqs3SPaNixKBb3NSbQ
https://twitter.com/evangelinestuff
https://instagram.com/evangelinestuff
https://evangeline.info/

[LYRICS]
(to want)

I want to want you, but I don't.
And I need to tell you, but I won't

And if I tell you what I want
would you take it down to heart?
If I tell you what I want?

'cuz I want
I want

'cuz I want to want you
And I know, you just wanna be alone sometimes, you just wanna be alone
but I don't wanna be alone (sometimes)
(sometimes)

But I don't wanna be alone
If I'm forward, backward, reverse it down alone
lah lah bah bah dah dah dah

I wish I never met you in the first place
I know, you wish you never met me in the first place
I don't know what I want, what I want

Want2 (w/Evangeline)

mastered by @tevinmichaelr

for kt

has our love lost the magic
saying that the love we had is

break a break
and we break a break it off now
if you're not satisfied
if you think this is right

break a break
and we break a break it off now
break a break
and we break a break it off now

my love, you'll be happier with somebody else
after all, i could only wish that you're doing well
and i'll be here if you ever need a friend
if you ever wanna try again
cuz to me this not the end

saying that the love we had is fading
can't believe that girl like what you saying
saying that the love we had is fading
can't believe that girl like what you say

break a break
and we break a break it off now
oh my no no no no
break a break
and we break a break it off now
oh my no no no no

breakabreak

Stumbling

Glimpses

Crest

Recently

17 jaar

I can see again
The black spots in my eyes are wide open
And they are wandering, wandering around the room
I drove through the rain
Fourteen hours in isolation just to be home again
And it was all the same
All the same, anyway
Nothing lost, nothing gained
It was all the same

And it didn't hurt me
I am not your hurting
I am not my history

I can breathe
Through the anger in my chest that has latched to me
My lover, you are not to blame
Not to blame for anything
I can feel again
The cold touch from a window blows like a javelin
And if it's new to me
Is it all the same, all the samе to you?
Some lies, some truths
Is it all thе same, all the same anyway?
Nothing lost, nothing gained
Is it all the same, all the same anyway?
I am drawn to you, but you were drawn away

And it didn't hurt me
I am not your hurting
I am not my history

Drawn Away

i 
i want it out 

the sentiment i am without 

you
you do not want me for anything
like this 

i want a mirror 
you just want a mouth 

weird flashing grey leaves
i can’t quite tell the color

you hate all the things 
about the ways i discover

and i couldn’t tell if it was you or someone different 

and i couldn’t quite tell if you were here or you were getting distant 


can i be comfortable?
can i be loved?

Mirror.mp3

laptop demo

the worlds first asexual post nation guilt song

touched myself
till I got overwhelmed
by the thought of your face
and it is strange that you don’t have a clue

woke up
sheets wet and half mast
can’t shake the feeling that
I’ve got some debt to repay to you

for you are sanct and I’m a sinner
you are grace before the dinner
and I am asking god for things
he could never promise me

so I’ll commit to fearing fiction
now my hearts a closing system
wash my mirror with my face
it is you I’ve learned to hate

Smut

Dingskes en oude dingskes
https://soundcloud.com/boooooooooooooooooooo
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https://soundcloud.com/boooooooooooooooooooo
https://soundcloud.com/boooooooooooooooooooo
https://soundcloud.com/boooooooooooooooooooo
https://soundcloud.com/boooooooooooooooooooo
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Glimpses

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