ur music hits different at 4:36 in the morning <3

cover, prod and vocals by yonklolz.

lyrics:

I can't tell if this is real
And I can't seem to swallow my fears
But yet you told the world that I was trying to heal
Cause I'm swimming in an ocean and no one will wipe my tears

Feeling drained completely
Been on the edge for a few weeks
For a few weeks
Bitch, don't test me
Living on the edge
Of insanity
Yeah, you raked me up
With the rest of the leaves
I can't stop thinking that I'm feeling so weak

You misuse your influence
Talk down on everything
Desire to not exist
One like and everything flips
And I can't tell you why
My existence is a lie
Bitch, I'm talking
Please don't try to speak
I've been on the low
For the past few weeks
I've been struggling
And I'm sick of it
Make me feel like shit
What's the point of it

Feeling drained completely
Been on the edge for a few weeks
For a few weeks
Bitch, don't test me
Living on the edge
Of insanity
Yeah, you raked me up
With the rest of the leaves
I can't stop thinking that I'm feeling so weak

And I can't seem to find what's real
My mind is a painting but every day it peels
And I wrote so many songs about you
The pictures on my wall all lost their value
And maybe one day, I'll get around you
But this time, I'll just fall

I can't tell if this is real
And I can't seem to swallow my fears
But yet you told the world that I was trying to heal
Cause I'm swimming in an ocean and no one will wipe my tears

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don't test me!

see it to believe it. 🦉

Prod. Bond. x Dez Forman @dezforman
Master by: _st1cks @st1cksyea
Art by: @soutjay

See It To Believe It

when will i stop being the problem w/ tigerstar *p. uxbie

die4u

lyric video: https://youtu.be/FN6JwMYWOg4
shoutout @wishlane for the extra production & background vocals :3

he said let's just runaway
but i don't wanna go
he said let's just runaway
but i don't wanna go
he said let's just runaway
but i don't wanna go
he said let's just runaway
but i don't wanna go

he said i could take you anywhere
that u wanna be
cause life is like a picnic
when its just u & me :)
but i think he's delusional
he's down to much to drink
swam across the ocean
just for him to watch me sink

he said let's just runaway
and i might go
(i don't wanna go)
he said let's just runaway
and i might go
(i don't wanna go)
he said let's just runaway
and i might go
(i don't wanna go)
he said let's just runaway
and i might go
(i don't wanna go)

he said i could take u anywhere
that u wanna be
cause life is like a picnic
when it's just u & me :)
and baby i'm delusional
i've had to much to drink
the image in my head
of us together
makes me sink

STEMS

runaway

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6iZILYTgJvFM33cIfYi5Vp?si=c11bc685f6b24a5d
prod. me
mastered by @/griggs._ (insta)

cell towers
green august
cut hands with the pink nail polish
no flowers
no prom dress
no chance i could say what i wanted

no pictures
theyre all torn apart
i set them all on fire let it burn in the yard
i tried to run away
but i cant escape now
the flames have spread too far

you said it's alright
you told a story it was all lies
you always try to pick me up to watch me fall back down
watch it all die
i cant hold you now
you try to stay strong
but nobody told you how

i know youll never see me the way i see you
i thought i hid how i was feeling it was see-through
need you, but i need you
you made me the gloves that i would bleed through
falling like the leaves do

black berry thorns youre still there
just like the old clothes i still wear
so our plan didnt pan out
dont know where ill land now
just know i cant stay where i am now
ran out
used to be your man but i cant now
hands out 
i keep waiting on you while you stand your ground
i just really hope you know i still care
in the hills with the trees i dont feel bare

i said its alright
stay on call with you for all night
you always try to pick me up to watch me fall back down
watch it all die
i cant hold you now
you try to stay strong
but nobody told you how

you dont see what i lost
what it really cost me
pull of in a vacant lot
just to make it all green in my eyes
no shot
i cant shake em off me
its like just when i forgot
saw the leaves falling im

alright
you told a story it was all lies
you always try to pick me up to watch me fall back down
watch it all die
i cant hold you now
you try to stay strong
but nobody told you how

i know youll never see me the way i see you
i thought i hid how i was feeling it was see-through
need you, but i need you
you made me the gloves that i would bleed through
falling like the leaves do

green august

mastered by @patchymate

so you made it out
like you meant to
now you're scared that they'll all forget you
-'d take it back
if only they'd let you

before it all changes
i ask you one last wish
remember me for me
but i wanna change, so i'm gonna change

thinkin back to fucking 10th grade i was so good at math
didn't say a word in the back of the class
friends was hoopin, shootin shots that i would just pass
suicidal thoughts back then was kickin my ass
thinkin how the fuck im gonna deal wit all this trauma
they would call me 'dirt' cuz i'm a foreigner
said i couldn't rap but ima do it if i wanna
and now i'm center stage as the performer

before it all changes
i ask you one last wish
remember me for me
but i wanna change, so i'm gonna change

told you i give up
then you called my bluff
and you hit me up
said "you in or what"
so i packed my bag and i hit the road that night
been 4 years since i last been home and i
never thought
i'd feel so alive
can't recall the last time i cried
like i did the end of july
i know all my fans must be losing

faith
i need space
at this rate
i'll keep falling on my face
just how long
will i take?
does october sound okay?
been so long
like a year
i just hope it's not too late
wrote this song
for you my dear

before it all changes

Fingers

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LIIGHTWORK TRACK 4
PRODUCTION, MIX & MASTER BY MAXIIM

you were the asshole
I took the back road
caught in a mess not far from here
I saw your face in the water
another chance I could take
dragging blood it gets harder
cut me open and take what you need
bring me back to the trees
leave me here I can take it
let me break down and face it i-
I'm getting up from the last time forgiven again
you left me bleeding and flat lined cant break from the trend

irregularity, call me count my days down again
doubling up on the scarcity scary feelings again
there's a skip in the track, fill me with pain till the end
cut me off of the mic, silenced feelings again

day passes by
lose my grip more and more
take me out, close my eyes
cut the paper i'm torn
they always tell me i'm crazy
"nothing you're saying makes sense"
i'm just wanting to break free
no need to listen

you were the asshole
I took the back road
caught in a mess not far from here
I saw your face in the water
another chance I could take
dragging blood it gets harder
cut me open and take what you need
bring me back to the trees
leave me here I can take it
let me break down and face it i-
I'm getting up from the last time forgiven again
you left me bleeding and flat lined cant break from the trend

TAKE WHAT YOU NEED
TAKE TAKE WHAT YOU NEED
TAKE WHAT YOU NEED
TAKE TAKE WHAT YOU NEED

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take what you need

produced by @typhoondll + me

lyrics:

[long ass intro with hella vocal chops for no reason]

u try to bring me along somewhere i wont go
u think ur calling my bluff but bitch i wont fold
got hyperflexed knees bending so low
my head is scraping the ceiling pray i wont grow

im losing feeling in my legs sitting waiting
got so much pressure on my head to keep it vacant
i run in place, keep posting my face make it famous
just so i can go replace it put a glaive where my brain is

i said im happiest for you that you lucked out
somehow only way i show it is i run out
smoke my lungs out 
try to hold back tears they send a flood now
every day's the same gotta wait another one down

counting all the time i lost watch the clock as it ticks by
all i got spending every drop i wont miss mine 
all i saw, u took my bar hit it six times
its gonna be all ur fucking fault when that shit dies

remember please, you dont own our memories, no
you shared with me and at best u had a lease on it
all i see bitches stare at me, keep watching
cant make me bleed, wont prick my finger on cheap comments

im sick of fake compliments im begging be honest
i hate the way the friendly faces are the least common
alone time for my whole life making me chronic
dont need a feature im the only one i see on it

i said im happiest for you that you lucked out
somehow only way i show it is i run out
smoke my lungs out 
try to hold back tears they send a flood now
every day's the same gotta wait another one down

counting all the time i lost watch the clock as it ticks by
all i got spending every drop i wont miss mine 
all i saw, u took my bar hit it six times
its gonna be all ur fucking fault when that shit dies

lucked out (p. typhoon + leyton)

EVERYTHING BY ME, ALBUM OUT SOON <3

oh how I'd know
it would take the toll
oh I can't go
back to where I fell from (x2)

another fleeting thought
I'm anxious once again
I'll double down on feeling worse
thought I'd get far this time
and how I'd know you'd fake me out just in the end
I'll take my chances, spin my fate
I'm on the angel's time

oh how I'd know
it would take the toll
oh I can't go
back to where I fell from
run from those
empty thoughts, no more
oh how I'd know
you'd leave me down and torn

(vocal chops)

yeah it takes the toll (x4)
oh yeah it takes the toll (x2)

oh how I'd know
it would take the toll
oh I can't go
back to where I fell from
run from those
empty thoughts, no more
oh how I'd know
you'd leave me down and torn

(vocal chops)

It takes the toll

i am now @colecalico
i still listen to music on here tho

See It To Believe It

Bond.

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no terror

echoed.

lauren

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