a song about a woman who lived long ago

gone and did by boqui lauriene lafille, 2013.
"cool" -- trusted consumers

Hypatia

rising for me

when he keeps falling in and out of love with you and the only way to stop it is to shut the door.

riding mountain /// instrumental (2013)

what's the problem -- he asked me this
where do I begin?
I'm the last one to know in the world I'm your fuckin girlfriend
still waitin for confirmation

i feel like locked in the f-no zone and my face is turnin all blue
got my eyes on the prize looked inside and surprise;
there's nothing here for me

what do I have? they ask me... well shit
let me tell you this
I make my money and I get it done; I'm friends with almost everyone I meet, even on the street

I wanna take you out tonight, wanna make it to the backroom
got your eyes on the prize, yeah you heard all of these lies
but this one's true; there's nothing here for you

tin can

It all comes down to this: She's a beautiful misfit, she wanna let go, she wanna submit. She wanna be the softer girl for the one who needs it, but love is too boisterous, and her touch is callous. Yeah, I'd say I've had my fair share of heart ache; who would wanna stick around, hear my story and catch a heartbreak? You can come around, but you're better off running, because everything I touch crumbles under my thumb. Boy, you better run.

thorn prick

Let's go!

I'm about done with this town
I wanna get out and have a good time
I'm about done just hangin' around
let's go baby, let's go go baby

I wanna seize the day
gonna hop the train
into another plane of existence
we could have it all now
I know we'll make it somehow
why are we wasting our time?

if all we are is just the stuff of stars
wouldn't you feel devine?
and if all we got is our time
I wanna give you just a little bit of mine

where has the world been all my life
while the sand's been passin' through my glass?
sometimes you're coastin when the lightning strikes
let's go honey, let's go go check it out

I wanna seize the day
gonna hop the train
into another plane of existence
we could have it all now
I know I'll make it somehow
why are we wastin' our time?

if all we are is just the stuff of stars
wouldn't you feel devine?
and if all we got is our time,
I wanna give you just a little bit of mine

carpe diem

disclaimer: boqui corp. and associates do not condone the use of illicit drugs.


feels so sublime being me,
between you and I
no one's ever been so cool

you are the same as me;
I can feel the machines movin'
underneath your skin

had too many tries,
we all wanna get it the first time, but I'm
still siftin' through

come into my world,
I can be a good girl when I try
what else can I do?

when you get me so high,
I don't wanna come down babe

is this real life?
can this be true?
am I addicted 
to a drug that is you?
liftin me up
pullin me down
feelin so high
until I come down

I don't wanna come down babe

come down

Others would pray;
I make a flower chain
and take it day by day,
purple aster and sage.
while the wild roses blow
through the wind and the rain
the earth whispers your name,
and with her you remain

flower chain, flower chain
picked them for you
to remember remembering is all I can do

flower chain's, flower chain's
the way I can say
the dust that made me is decaying
but I'm still breathin

I'm glad for the rain
that keeps my flower chain,
washing ash into earth
to become one with her.
while the wild roses grow
on the top of your grave
I remember the day
I would never be whole again

flower chain

I'm walkin' home after movie night, alone
just like I deserve for believin'
you would ever care about me
oh, the fool I've been

I'm walkin home after movie night, cryin'
under the cover of darkness
bridges over the river, there's me
carryin' my two streams

I put my arm around him
and he pushes me away
the last pieces of our puzzle
fall into place

I'm walkin' home after movie night
cryin' over the time I've been wasting on you
at your place, watching shows I don't wanna see
and wondering what I'm gonna do with all of your mix tapes
and I'm walkin' home

I'm walkin' home after movie night, alone
just like I deserve for believin'
you would ever care about me
oh, the fool I've been

movie night

I know who you are
do you see me?

I got no control
are you listening?

you never say my name
when you talk to me

you always calls me red,
but my colour is green

so good at keepin' me at arm's length,
so good at letting me know I'm third place,
so sweet when you wanna be,
feel so cold when you hold me close;

and I know pretty soon while the night is young
you're gonna send me home
I'm wonderin' pedallin' down the road, 
don't know what I'm doing wrong

you know who I am
do you see me?
you have no control
I'm not listening

you only say my name
when you talk about me

you always call me red
but my colour is green

when I asked him why
he said I caught his eye
and when he kissed me goodnight
it was the first time in forever I felt somethin like that (oh my)

the next time we met
brought me a gem;
knew I'd be in his sight, the eye was the omen
a hard glance, dark look, your heart feels like ice

when you're caught up in the blue
(not much to do)

when we go to the beach
he don't wanna swim
when we go to bed
I am separate from him

he gets so close to me
and then he pulls away
and when he kisses me goodnight
I can't remember what my name is
or why I changed my mind about stayin',

got caught up in the blue
(not much to do)

blue

lyrics are hard and take a lot of time. a work in progress.

1- streetwalker
2- rag doll
3- 8-bit shuffle
4- hippie run cycle
5- I got me
6- hippie walk cycle
7- lucky number


lucky number /// instrumental (full album 2015)

you know how it goes.......

waitin' for love like I'm waiting in line
ma'am, I'm sorry, you've come at a bad time
and you talk about holes like you don't know I know
you could use my heart as a colander

straining, reaching out
waiting for it all
I try so hard, all that baggage is extra weight,
got me rememberin'

my love only goes one way,
one way:
away 

one way

I need another glass of water
I spilled mine out by the river
crying over you

I saw you working at the bag check
ever since then my face been wet
cryin over you
dryin out over you

I can't listen to the music you taught me to love
and I have to hide all the things you gave to me

and I hope you never hear this song
cus writing it feels so wrong 
cus you don't deserve it

I need another shot of fireball
slug it back, all gone
while I'm cryin over you

I saw you riding your bicycle
to forget about that ass would be a miracle
sighing over you
cryin over you

can't help but wondering
if your new woman feels like she's blundering, too

trying to be right for you
cryin over you

glass of water

Finding jewels in the sand,
got a number in my hand
pink smiles and gold-blue eyes

Meant to leave him behind,
but each find and I am reminded
cast away in my minds eye

Didn't mean to see him sitting there
on the water's edge
singin' my little heart to dust,
through a daydream I pledge

I brought him out
with a song and some sweet observation
good lord have mercy
I think I know now

I thought him out,
wanted to play stay away for a while
but how could I live without
how could I be, how could I breathe

now that I know
now that I know
I just know, I just know

this little black heart shaped hole
ventricles showin'
is restless and strange

doubting dust speaks from the void
that maybe I should stay away, save myself

thus the shadows move across my path
but if it weren't for the light
there would be nothing to be cast

this little black heart shaped hole
ain't seen the light of day in so long
so I'll take what comes my way
little light for my little shade

so I brought you bright things
and presently sing
so you might buy what I'm selling
and catch some light from me

I brought you bright things
and presently sing
but I'll take what comes my way
little light for my little shade

now that I know

I think he thinks I'm just too much
but it feels like not enough
to let fade, just let it

I'm a gamblin sam, little lady waiting on a lumberjack
wanna let him take it all but I know he won't ask

so here's the only place I'll say it,
think of me when you play it
if you don't understand what I'm singin do you even listen?

I would wear different clothes
I would say different things
I would read different books
if I thought it meant anything

I'd iron your shirts
I would bring you the news
and if you insisted
I wouldn't say anything

Already got messed up brains, and my life's all over the place
mixing up my words
never saying what I mean

fakin it all the time
making me nervous
makin me sad
makin me question

who am I and what to change to get you around

I wanna be that girl

wannabe

I'm sorry that you miss her, brother
I know just how you feel
it's always gonna haunt you, brother
it's always going to be real

am I this way cus I am alone,
or am I alone cus I am this way?
am I this way cus I am alone,
or am I alone cus I am this way?      x2

I don't have to feel sorry, brother
for the crazy ways I feel
it's always gonna haunt me, brother
it's always going to be real

it's always going to be real
am I this way cus I am alone,
or am I alone cus I am this way?

am I this way cus I am alone,
or am I alone cus I am this way?
"you're too sad
and it pushes them away"
am I this way cus I am alone,
or am I alone cus I am this way?
you're too sad
and it pushes them away

am I gonna be fine?
is the world still mine?
don't know, he said
but you'd be prettier if you'd smile
cus you're too damn sad
and it pushes them away
just smile
smile smile smile
let's see that pretty face

:-/

to be haunted

all my friends fall away from me
are they all offput by my A.D.D.?
Think I'm not listening,
What else can be said?
One more thing that's wrong with my head

And gets me tired
getting left behind
Gets me so tired
but I've still gotta fight it

Try to be glad for you and for her,
try to be sad when it doesn't work
Think I'm not functional
full up with the past
One more thing that empties my glass

they may be right
I can't deny it
they may be right
but I cannot fight it

scars on scars

out of focus

Don't know what to do...
you're going away again, 
spending my money
drinking it like you do

When will you come back,
and with what in hand?
Got to feed the babies, 
Got to get new shoes, 
buy school supplies for them

but you got nothing for me
no cash, ain't no man
no master plan
no love; who's this I married?

I do this alone
your name on this home,
but I run it,
I run

Bring me a sunflower in the morning if you still love me
Bring me a sunflower in the morning if you still believe in me

sunflower

'better to say this sooner than later,'
he told me

'I wanna be closer, babe'

well I'm just a hot mess
since he said that, like
get out of my business
I think you're mistaken

you're giving me bad vibes
I'm having a bad time
you wanna be closer,
and I wanna get the pfargle out of here

'I wanna be closer, babe'
all I can see is the look on his face

I'm going to get the fudge out of here

bad vibes

Taxi, Cigarettes
Riverside, Sunsets
Fireflies, Horses

Taxi, Cigarettes
Riverside, Sunsets
Fireflies, Horses

I’m forever changed
ever since the day I was yellow

Taxi, Cigarettes
Riverside, Sunsets
Fireflies, Horses

All I have left
Are the flowers that I pressed
and the things I should have said

Try to move on
But my colour’s all gone fallow

I turn grey 
holding on to those forays of elation

Taxi, Cigarettes
Riverside, Sunsets
Fireflies, Horses

nude beach, plaid shirts
Painted signs, thunder
raw canola off the road

Drove back home
To the place I know but I’m stranded

while I am away,
will he give up those days in impatience?

I’m forever changed
ever since the day 
I was yellow

yellow

the fields whipped by
i tried not to cry

I see you beside me
try not to let it define me
but, behold

who am I
and why do I drive home backwards?

should have been told
about the dangers

of being a broken person
trying to love

we can’t do it,
love is either too hard, or too soft

and it’s never enough

backwards

fireflies

goodnight

lucky girl, right time, right place
wanna believe you got nothing on me

but..

he dug a hole and put me in it
on the weekends you and he both forsake it

I hope you get the same treatment
and have to find something else to believe in

make the mistakes that we did
get the feels and keep it secret


I wake up, I rise, I sing
I wanna drop you like you dropped me

you dug a hole and put me in it
on the week ends you and she both forsake it

I hope you see you’re mistaken
and that the memories of us awaken

and that I can’t keep waiting

amanda

was that all real, and did you ever feel like I do now? I know it's too late, and you slip away, but I'll be waiting for

too late

"Sometimes the path out of the swamp feels too hard ... sometimes I just think I belong here." 

This is a compilation of demo tracks from 2012 and early 2013. It represents some aspects of the journey of life; namely my journey towards learning how to use GarageBand.

tracks:
1 - Fatumo, the warrior
2 - skyward
3 - oba
4 - stranger
5 - luck dragon
6 - stepmother
7 - midnite
8 - guillotine

life in the swamp /// instrumental (full album 2012)

now making music under a different moniker
https://soundcloud.com/kyllakaren


boquilafille@gmail.com

boqui (defunct)

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