FInal mix of one of my new songs!

A new original inspired by e. e. cummings' my love is building a building:

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my love is building a building
around you, a frail slippery
house, a strong fragile house
(beginning at the singular beginning

of your smile) a skilful uncouth
prison, a precise clumsy
prison(building thatandthis into Thus,
Around the reckless magic of your mouth)

my love is building a magic, a discrete
tower of magic and(as i guess)

when Farmer Death(whom fairies hate)shall

crumble the mouth-flower fleet
He’ll not my tower,
laborious, casual

where the surrounded smile
hangs

breathless

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You said
Look me in the eye and offer me a drink, would you?
Take me for a ride and teach me how to dance, would you
Run your hands through my hair and pull me closer
Forget my name in the morning when you wake up

You said 
Take this paper ring and marry me tonight, can you
put me out of my misery
I'm all alone and
Hold me in the dark
I'm scared of what's beyond tonight
Remember me when you look back on the good times

You run away every time
I get a little bit close
You run at the notion of
being anywhere with anyone who gives a ____

I don't want to wake up

You said
Time flies, love dies, people walk away
Memories are ghosts of moments you can't have again
Let go of inhibitions keeping you from loving me
but don't fall in love with me
please don't fall in love with me

You run away every time
I get a little bit close
You run at the notion of
being anywhere with anyone who gives a _____

You run away every time
I get a little bit close
You run at the notion of
being anywhere with anyone

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copyright, me. also the photo. haha

Building (Final)

I was about to write Teenage Wheatbag. Waw haha enjoy

Teenage Dirtbag (Wheatus Cover)

Inspired by a trip to New York. Also, love is the every only god by e. e. cummings. (as with Building, photo + lyrics mine)

All this city bleeds is the noise
All I wanna hear is your _____
All I want to do is restart
Is there ever room in your ____

Open the door, I
adore all that you are

Your laughter
is my only wish
the breaths you take
my catalysts 
quintessence of all that is good,
complete the brightness in my eyes?

Open the door, I
adore all that you are

––––––––

  love is the every only god
  who spoke this earth so glad and big 
  even a thing all small and sad 
  man,may his mighty briefness dig

  for love beginning means return 
  seas who could sing so deep and strong

  one queerying wave will whitely yeam 
  from each last shore and home come young

  so truly perfectly the skies 
  by merciful love whispered were, 
  completes its brightness with your eyes

  any illimitable star

All That You Are (Final)

Hi! Another addition to my EP, and a song inspired by being.... a human. Haha.

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watched the world move
from my window
driving slow is
all I know now

baby if you left it to me
I wouldn't have let you leave
but I'm just a speck here
in the general scheme of things

the sun bears down on me
it frames everything i love
and if I'm different at night
it's only cause I've had enough

of self-isolation and
of grating fear
and i need you now badly
but you'll never hear that
coming from me,
I'm fine, I'm good
I'm great
i've got so much to do
but nothing to say

baby if you left it to me
I wouldn't have let you leave
but I'm just a speck here
in the general scheme of things

darling the number one rule
is not to rely on me
i always find you looking for my heart underneath my sleeves
i always find you looking for my heart underneath my sleeves

I'm just a speck here in the general scheme of things

General Scheme Of Things (Final)

THE FINAL VERSION OF SECOND NATURE!!!
My fave in the EP. WHICH IS LAUNCHING ON WEDNESDAY
BE THERE OR BE SQUARE


straight, no flair
just downed a shot
i'm ready
and now I think I'm brave enough
to meet your stare
you make me laugh and claim 
that you'd love to know me 

but I admit I'm shy
I know that you're trying 
to get me to talk
but all I do is smile
at all the things you say
you think you're so clever
well I guess, you're right
and that's why I'm afraid
cause I'm the cautious kind
a flight risk personified
as you work your charm
I'm letting down my guard 
and by the seventh glass
we're dancing up a storm   
 
You take my hand
and you walk me through
it, say there's no secret to it
I want a love that is second nature,
guess/so can you give it to me (2x)

that stupid set of
white teeth
ls like your evil disguise
soaked in red wine
and like a precious pearly gate to your mind
you're cruel enough to be funny
and too cool to be mine
you're still too cool to be mine
i know we won't remember
anything that happens tonight
and it's too good to be true
so it shouldn't be right

i'm a bit too loose
for serious talk
and the most you'll get out of me
is my love for socks
and what I wore
that time for halloween
i was thirteen
I didn't give a damn 
about what people said about me
but now here you are

never gonna
never gonna get it back
never gonna
never gonna get it back

you take my hand
and you walk me through
it, say there's no secret to it
I want a love that is second nature,
so can you give it to me

Second Nature (Final)

all music & lyrics mine
all dialogue cameron crowe movies'

i'll synthesize these dreams into the kind of life I'd like to live
beyond the confines or the margins
that some love would have me in
it won't be selfish to want something more than what I have to give

i don't have much room for you
just give me time and
down the line?
my world's been upside down
and we can't meet halfway
i'm not the kind
so call me when we're not just lonely
call me when the storm subsides

Geomorph (Final)

TO BE RELEASED TOMORROW (JUNE 1 10:30 PM SHARP)

=͟͟͞͞(੭ ˃̶᷇ ‧̫ ˂̶᷆ )੭ YESSSSSSSS [co-produced with Nick Lazaro!!!!]

Pretty Car (Teaser)

co-produced with nick lazaro of moonwlk/twin lobster! a new single off my upcoming album, details soon. 
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i breathe the static scene
without the grain or noise
toss me a livewire lifeline
right into the void

i want something that leaves me breathless, need a night that leaves me floored
if you can give me something different, then that's all that I've been looking for

so bring your pretty face
and being your pretty car
tell me the kind of things you've never said out loud before
but I don't need your love
i mean i’ve had enough
so take me out, take me up, take me on 

same routine
staring at the screen
well there’s the black and white
and I’m stuck in between
i breathe the static scene
without the grain or noise
toss me a livewire lifeline
right into the void

so bring your pretty face
and being your pretty car
tell me the kind of things you've never said out loud before
but I don't need your love
i mean i’ve had enough
so take me out, take me up, take me on 

Pretty Car

I LOVE U TAYLOR WTVR H8RS

jk hahahaha i do though

(starlight + love story) ✌(◡ᴥ◡✿)

BABY, JUST SAY YES (b33p's party princess remix ✌(◡ᴥ◡✿)

part two of building, another collaboration with nick my maaan the bomb dot com

enjoy!!!!!!!

Building Too

glitchy vocoder lofi postrocky-electronic thing written today in hope + grief +  happiness at seeing my family again. to be with loved ones again. time with people you hold dear is frustratingly finite.


jax, fl (07/505/2014)

wrote it with my new guitar, vocoders and some new analog synths/rhythm machines i got whilst here

lyrics:
tell me everything's gonna be alright
are you gonna be around?
tell me everything's gonna be alright.

Be Around (Demo)

a glimpse of the new album. i was about to lay a vocal track down, but it was 3 am, and i didn't want to disturb anyone ––– but then i listened to it on its own and it was different on its own. i was listening to some of my early influences, and i wanted to keep it like this for a while. i'll still lay down vocal tracks, but with the rest of the album.

walking through your empty hometown street at 3 am, wet pavement, dizziness, your head is buzzing, taxis and trucks breeze through and a drag race is happening on the other side of town. building doors are chained. the abundance of convenience stores' fluorescent light frames the way home. you're drenched, and the wind is cold, for once. here.

Veneers

OFF THE ALBUM "THE NEON HOUR"

TO BE RELEASED MARCH 2015

LYRICS:
maybe then i’ll find you
in a sidewalk stare
and i won’t cross the street
to meet you there

and i won’t be broken
i won’t even feel it
even if you asked me
even if you asked me

you used to speed through the highway
and into my door
shed all of your skin to leave on the floor
did you find what you were looking for?

no anger, no feeling, no bleeding, no pain
i’d run at the thought of seeing you again
but no, i’m good

and you smelled like smoke
and tasted like fire
you hurt like a burn
now you’re just a scar

and you smelled like smoke
and tasted like fire
you hurt like a burn
now you’re just a scar

maybe then i’ll find you
in a sidewalk stare
and i won’t cross the street
to meet you there

and i won’t be broken
i won’t even feel it
even if you asked me
even if you asked me




Even If You Asked Me

BPV LIKEWISE2000 SET HHM 071324.wav

who are you
in the darkest hours of the night
when I’m not looking
and do I really wanna know?

do the city lights
bleed through the blinds
and bounce from your eyes
into the night
from your window

where does your sorrow go
when you find yourself completely alone?

and it’s cyclical
you say of the way your day is spent
bed, train, work, and back again

but you talk of these streets
like the veins of your urban memories, manifest
and I’m thrown

where does your sorrow go
when you find yourself completely alone?

blocks and blocks
and swathes of roads
non-descript
and standard homes
dim streetlights
and endless freeway
beers outside convenience stores

lacing digits, touching toes
tell me things that no one knows
where does all your sorrow go
where does all your sorrow go

EARLY/LATE

hbd 2 me. thank u everyone who's ever believed in me enough.

sleepwalking on 86th

wanted to give the single/radio mix i did pre-album out just because. free downloads at https://bpvalenzuela.bandcamp.com/track/steady :)

mopey af music video by the wonderful petersen vargas: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MsSuXCxLA7o

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
i'm not a book to be read 
it may look nice in your head 
but is it ever really more than that? 

more than circumstance, 
is it just loneliness 
or what did you expect? 
but it's still different 
beyond the second hand 
thought i was over that 

if it's really me you seek 
then i won't hide 
i've been exhausting every single way 
to get it off my mind 
get it off my mind 
but if it's really me you seek 
then i won't hide 
wishing it could be simple as you explain 
but i can't ever seem to get it right 

i have the tendency to pick things apart 
and i can never breathe 
am i wrong expecting it to be easy when you're next to me? 
and i don't want to be the kind to second guess 
it's just so hard to believe 
or difficult to reconcile what's on my mind 
with how i feel 

if it's really me you seek 
then i won't hide 
i've been exhausting every single way 
to get it off my mind 
get it off my mind 
but if it's really me you seek 
then i won't hide 
wishing it could be simple as you explain 
but i can't ever seem to get it right 

if it's really me you seek 
if it's really me you seek 
if it's really me you seek 
if it's really me you seek

steady (radio + single version)

produced by sleepypasta + dj bano
written by bp valenzuela, august wahh, no rome
mixed by jp del mundo

1st single off 'crydancer'

bbgirl (ft. august wahh & no rome)

mitski makes me cry i've watched her thrice in nyc and once in wburg the girl i loved then threw her a bra at a show and the thought makes me cry too and she makes me cry at shows or while i go for walks or just when i'm alone in my room trying to sleep

she owns this song and i love it (and her) with all my heart

i will (bp valenzuela remix)- mitski

wrote and co-produced this w @CRWNrecordings

we both know there's no time to waste
no words all eyes
can you read my face?
roll my hands down your back
like a map to our place

did i play my cards too fast
would it drive you away if i told you that
i have never felt so built for anybody else babe?

you pause to say that you feel me think
you'd laugh if i told you the half of it
no,
but i've got self-restraint like a wall of bricks
come on

did i play my cards too fast
would it drive you away if i told you that
i have never felt so built for anybody else babe?

would it drive you away,
would it drive you away?

would it drive you away now

(for m)

cards (ft. CRWN)

i got lost in the chain
and now i'm swinging back and forth on what to say
every little touch reminds my brain of how you taste
cruising down the street to wipe my mind clean of your face

i want you, i can't have you
so i want you more

how could i quit you
how could i miss you
when i just met you
what a mistake
growing up holy made us so lonely,
fed up, and scared with nothing to say
but don't say what they say
and i won't say what they say

i want you, i can't have you
so i want you more

breathe in
don't wait
if you feel it then just say it to my face
we spend whole days
breathing heavy as we minimize the space

i want you, i can't have you
so i want you more

(made w nick and w love)

minimize (ft. nick lazaro)

originally premiered on @first-ear

prod by @sleepypasta101 and @crwn
mixed by jp del mundo

been a long day 
got nothing to say to each other now 
it's a long drive 
it's a long night 
it's a long way down 
feet on the dashboard, shotgun 
head in the clouds 
all the clouds blowing out your mouth, oh 

as you weave your way through town 
i just roll my windows down 
as you weave your way through town 
i just roll my windows down 

no sound 
no love, 
tell me you've had enough 
and just put my thoughts to rest 
if you wait it out 
i won't ever live it down 
and i swear it's for the best 
to just break me now instead 

as you weave your way through town 
i just roll my windows down 
as you weave your way through town 
i just roll my windows down 

no sound 
no love, 
tell me you've had enough 
and just put my thoughts to rest 
if you wait it out 
i won't ever live it down 
and i swear it's for the best 
to just break me now instead 

if i hold you down 
if you hear me now 
you don't have to be around 
just put this all to rest 
if i hold you down 
if you hear me now 
you don't have to be around 
just put this all to rest 
and put these thoughts to rest

crydancer 2017

instead (hold you down)

I dont play guitar here (surprise!) Hahaha. This was so fun. This is one of my favorite songs and I wanted to change it up a little. Try it with headphones on!

No copyright infringement intended. Arrangement is mine :)

Slide (Goo Goo Dolls cover)

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also 
@halflit
@sleepypasta101

hi

bookings/inquiries: mike@partybearrecords.com
valenzuelabp@gmail.com

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