[0000049] -> p. heroine <-

// i had more 2do for this song but i cant listen 2it anymore 😭 //

oh boy i love 
to stay on attack
i'm being sucked dry
my soul's gouged out
every fiber, optic nerve,
and marrow's worn down

ur sorry text,
it's fkn sending me
(hahahazhahahipourekaggbfo
fgsnb;,lsrmdwuiyhreahaahaha)

it sux 
it sux 
it sux how much u luv expending nrg
especially mine...

i js wanna kno what makes me so fun 2fk with
ur so sadistic
left bloodstains on my lipstick
thinkin ab the backside of ur brain
i'm livid

we shouldn't b dormant
we should b 2gether
attached by the hip
like a strap in december
trying 2remember
from what i can gather
i'm gutted as shit
looked @ like sum chopped liver  

thank god
that time's real
and ur not
rlly that ideal

yea 
n when u get it
u can let her know
that u picked me up
2put me down
pieced me 2gether
n after all that
disassembled me now

ok ok
i think i'm convinced:
u dont make sense, yea,
what's left of me's spent,
and...

season ii @heroine

repeated mistakes @harui

prod @sxnnai @cwtak
art @dogeatflesh @oligotdblizblaire on ig

she wanna talk to my bro 
kick her tf out the room
i left him in shambles 
walking in circles 
he ain’t kno what to do
posted up in the six
he rlly care abt this?
u got me singing in fifths
i don’t rlly care abt this
don’t rlly care abt this
don’t rlly care abt this 
i froze up
i froze up tonight 
cuz im tired of this
i made up 
a couple lies js to get out of it 
it was up to u 
it was up to me 
there’s many things i would do
even make myself bleed 
they say don’t trip over bitch
but it’s definitely more than this
i say idc abt this shit 
but it’s definitely 
definitely more than this
yea in the back of the store 
rlly im doing the most
i be hanging out with myself 
but not the way they show it in movies bro
cuz this time i rlly did the most 
they told me keep ur circle close 
what’s the point of keeping a circle if ppl inside don’t believe in me? bitch
yea 
doing this shit for the ppl who don’t get a break
yea 
i’m doing this shit for the kids who are feeling insane
yea, yea
cuz i was once in their shoes
and that time is rn 
you should try filling them too
baskets full of fruit 
baskets full of juice 
baskets in my room 
thank God He got me in His prayers too
maybe i should give Him some time 
maybe a piece of my mind 
cuz He kno that nb above me but Him and that ain’t a lie
yea 
that’s the truth 
i could never be u 
u could never be me 
but u can’t me bc u cannot do what i do
bitch 
(they hate us bc they ain’t us)

six6 @sennai @cwta

this track is a remaster of a track i started back in november of last year, im glad i decided to finish it because it turned out as one of my best mathrock tracks so far!

cover credit: @mmassi

#sdd

letters to you

vocals/writing done by me
produced by https://m.soundcloud.com/faintthearted

just tell me what u need and i'ma get it to ya - my baby hurting yeah she taking pharmaceuticals.

oh i just lost her, no.. it's hard when she play that role, live life on a tight rope, i don't wanna do it anymore

just tell me what u need and i'ma get it to ya - this bitches egos big i don't even need her, she plays the victim ugh... i gotta repeat.. yeah.

this natures just perfect, have u been outside or u just been behind a curtain?
well i've cuttin my losses, over shit that was nothing.
piss me off we get to jumpin ya, u can't run away from me nah
6'4 but i'm almost 6'5, u best run & hide - i'm like Jason Voorhees u best lock up when u get inside, u not making it out of crystal lake alive, and i'm mad that i'm numb... i can't cry.

propertyofnora @heartsodull

@attc @studyftw

outside with them blicks
they wont have no bliss, make sure they dont miss you
okay, try to make my peace
idgaf ya fire at them please

i came out my shell ya im finally me
from the side where we fye ya come find out
idc that ur man got cosigned now
m-monsters outside pull ur blinds down x2

bLiss prod attic&study

This isn’t easy for me to say, and it’s something I’ve wrestled with for a long time. But I want to speak to you not just as a performer, not as the voice behind the songs you’ve played on repeat but as a person. Today, I’m choosing to step away from the stage. I am stepping away from fame. Being a vocalist has been one of the greatest honors of my life. Music gave me purpose. It gave me a way to connect with you, to share pieces of my soul, and to feel less alone in this loud, complicated world. Every cheer, every message, every shared moment—we’ve built something beautiful together.
But fame… fame is a different kind of weight. Behind the applause, the interviews, and the flawless photos, there’s a human being who wakes up with anxiety, who feels the pressure to be perfect, and who sometimes just wants to breathe without being watched. The spotlight, as bright as it is, can cast long shadows. And in those shadows, I started losing pieces of myself. I’m not quitting music. Music is in my blood, in my bones. I’m just choosing to find it again without the pressure to be “on” all the time. I need time to heal, to rediscover who I am when the mic is off and the cameras are gone. To my fans thank you. Your love has carried me through more than you know. But now, I need to carry myself through this next chapter. I would like to give a huge shoutout to everyone who has supported me through my journey: 
@reo4u
@14106lyn
@7akkiro
@1sana
@overoveroverover
@sxnnai
@pw4prez
@xayaroth
@trustt
@seph 
@knuckllles
@rimerensu
@cruseyyyy
@h3artch3rades
@bazington
And many more

the final calls of a desolate soul (prod decago x akura)

1. w/ h3artch3rades + sana
2. w/ cranes
3. w/ soma + jayee
4. solo
5. w/ rxtrx + art
6. solo
7. solo
8. w/ cranes + jayee
9. w/ eve + rxtrx + over

chapters (w/ cranes, h3artch3rades, soma, jayee, rxtrx, art, sana, eve, over)

@qlein @tillamookbay @popilization @faintthearted
@100signs

@zzoos
(it cant be what it was)
it wont be what it was
yea im sippin purple i got stuck in the mud
im rollin thrax ya u smokin on dust
im w signs 
we cld rlly slide down
i ws trippin off the drugs bitch im fine now
he talkin shit we gon put that boy in timeout
sparking up the bud i got dry mouth
ya i need that bag i cant get it enough
i just spent a salary ill make it back in a month
ya im 2 gone i cant feel ur touch
ya im throwin 100s  they still countin 1s
heads turn its me n @sinefelt in the building
gone off the pill i got no feeling
ya im fuckin wasted im starin @ the ceiling
i need a sign
how do i know that its the real thing 

@qlein
bitches wanna talk on my shit wanna rock with my clique
pulled up at the function look at @trapjump he in the corner lookin odd as a bitch
100signs pulled up
a recital
my brothers in cut, in the van we smoking up 
me and @m4xyne in this bitch you know we throw up
aint no denying we all going up
100signs bitch u know that its us

real thing w/ qlein prod michimani, dull & pop

prod isa n chinapoet

lyrics:
you dont wanna talk
you dont listen
guess I'm done thinking it was different
money up spend it on prescriptions
I'm still tryna process what I just witnessed
tell me what u want from me
tell me do you want me endlessly
tell me that you're never gonna leave
I wont ever trust my enemies
I said ok fuck em let em bleed
will you keep the other half of me
tell me do you wanna hear from me
Ive been fucked up way too long that I cant tell just what I need

rest of me prod heroine, chinapoet

yeah i don't feel regular
feel like i'm not from earth
moving in retrograde
but i still feel the same
when there's no one to blame
you look to shift the blame
even if it's allowed
how's that fair
yeah your heart's a parasite
much to your own delight
but will you sacrifice
what's meant to be there
you're not allowed to fight
you allow yourself to find
a different reason why you won't
yeah that isn't peace of mind
that's just a waste of time
all of those wasted nights
trapped in my own mind
can't afford luxuries
to have it stripped from me
pausing myself to think
how did it come to this

this time is the last time that it's stripped from me
this time trying to be someone that's strictly me
weights off of the worst parts that inhibit me
hold on to the moments that i could keep
closed guard all these new thoughts under lock and key
stay strong for a new dawn that's coming for me
break off of the old parts of my history
wondering how much more it'll take from me
i know these feelings eat you alive
i know they're too much to hide
and when our hearts drift away
from what we're too scared to say
what we're feeling inside
to try to keep us alive
we come together as one
to find the means to survive

yeah i don't feel regular
feel like i'm not from earth
moving in retrograde
but i still feel the same
when there's no one to blame
you look to shift the blame
even if it's allowed
how's that fair
yeah your heart's a parasite
much to your own delight
but will you sacrifice
what's meant to be there
you're not allowed to fight
you allow yourself to find
a different reason why you won't
yeah that isn't peace of mind
that's just a waste of time
all of those wasted nights
trapped in my own mind
can't afford luxuries
to have it stripped from me
pausing myself to think
how did it come to this

moving in retrograde (prod.toemuro)

discord br5inf5cade

new era

opera x trap metal x choir sorta vibe im going for, I hope yall enjoy and dont be afraid to send me beats or opens