its bc people dont know how to shut the hell up and mind that others dont have the same brain and some wanna die and they just make fun of those people its not fair.

i wanna die…no not literally, fuck…just wanna cry…cause i hate the way i look 💔

braden ross - complete

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lyrics:

[intro]
I don't know I guess I fucking hate you now
You had my heart and it escaped somehow
But let's not get shit started
Go back to your apartment

[verse 1]
Try not to think about it
Just breathe, they'll all see, no way around it
Yeah
There ain't a need to doubt it
Don't give her the chance to wonder where you found it
Oh (I fucking hate you now)
Don't wanna mess this up (nothing you say could help me escape this hell and)
You never gave enough (you play the game so well)
You kinda fucking suck (trying to figure how not to break and tell you)
So

[pre-chrous]
I throw my phone against the wall
Yeah I hate it when she calls 'cause
She asks me what do we do
(um)

[chorus]
I don't know I guess I fucking hate you now
You had my heart and it escaped somehow
But let's not get shit started
Go back to your apartment

[verse 2]
Babe leave
Or I will
Guess you don't want me enough to care how I feel
I know you got places to go don't fucking lie to me
I saw the hearts on your phone so fuck your honesty
Honestly
Yeah maybe I should have listened
Maybe it was my fault there's some shit I've been missing
I guess you moved on but my hearts been conditioned
I'm sorry but baby I think I've made my decision
So I

[pre-chrous]
I throw my phone against the wall
Yeah I hate it when she calls 'cause
She asks me what do we do
(um)

[chorus]
I don't know I guess I fucking hate you now
You had my heart and it escaped somehow
But let's not get shit started
Go back to your apartment
She said I don't care I guess you fucking hate me now
I don't know how
But you lost me in your dreams
I wish I knew how it started
I'll go back to my apartment

pluck

mad about you

mad about you (feat. 8485)

hypochondriac

deepfake

u need metanoia

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lyrics:

[Intro]
So throw me a lifeline
Bitch I’m so tired of you on my timeline
Like you got something to prove
It’s so childish
Envious cypress
Afraid to let me be myself
You need metanoia

[Verse 1]
My spirit disturbs you
It’s easy to tell
‘Cause you’re so adverse to
You treating me well
We’re not destined to serve you
Not under your spell
Guess I shouldn’t concern myself with the bullshit
The notion
You’re not someone who would pull shit
And omit
All the truth you left me frostbit
I lost it
Let me drown in the ocean
Your hateful devotion sinks me

[Chorus 1]
So throw me a lifeline
Bitch I’m so tired of you on my timeline
Like you got something to prove
It’s so childish
Envious cypress
Afraid to let me be myself
You need metanoia

[Verse 2]
I know I fucked up now
I know I killed your self-esteem
Don’t gotta tell me how it feels
‘Cause everything was real to me
To me
I guess I’ll just keep texting your momma
Pull up to the party with drama
It wasn’t fate it was karma
Fuck me in the back of your Honda
I’ve been too caught up in myself to do right
I’m losing my patience everyday
I think I’m losing my life again

[Chorus 2]
So throw me a lifeline
Bitch I’m so tired of you on my timeline
Like you got something to prove
It’s so childish
Envious cypress
Afraid to let me be myself
You need metanoia

[Outro]
So throw me a lifeline
Bitch I’m so tired of you on my timeline
Like you got something to prove
It’s so childish
Envious cypress
Afraid to let me be myself
You need metanoia

metanoia (w/ ryen)

Face For The Radio/Voice For A Silent Film

True Colors

i'm just a robot

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lyrics:

[intro]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

[verse 1]
‘Cause i’m a robot
With human skin
And try as I might
I can’t overwrite the code within
I’m just a robot
I don’t exist
Extinguished the light
I gave up the fight
For views and clicks
But somehow I still break down every time you call
I’m just a fake now, not supposed to feel at all
So why am I so unsteady
Fused with so much pain already
Yeah I wish I could just start again
No pretend
But everyday I look inside with discontent
Shit doesn’t relent

[chorus 1]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Find the shrine confined within, embrace mine
You can’t contrive
To remove me from the book
Blood intertwined
Art, virality mistook
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

[verse 2]
They make this shit look easy
Hijack their eyes to feed me
He’ll reach inside of their souls’ convince them that they need me
But what’s the meaning
I’m bleeding
I feel my life force depleting
So what’s the point of succeeding
If it’s not for myself?
It’s just for everyone else
Couldn’t help but put my pride on the shelf
I guess I’m going to hell
We’re all frauds, ain’t no contest
I’m no god, just a complex
I don’t get it
How they hid it
So well
(And I don't wanna die but maybe it's easier)
It’s no fun, to be broken
Burning sun, I’m unchosen
They don’t get it
How I did it
Don’t tell
(I pushed and they folded, my body was molded wrong)

[bridge]
I tried to bottle it up
But you threw salt in the cut
My body’s turning to rust
I guess I’ll wallow in it
They said it wasn’t enough
So now I’m calling their bluff
Not who they think that I was
I strive to keep it hidden

[chorus 3]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Find the shrine confined within, embrace mine
You can’t contrive
To remove me from the book
Blood intertwined
Art, virality mistook
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

unalive

maybe i'm focusing on all the wrong things

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lyrics:

[intro]
‘Cause I don’t wanna talk
I’d rather die
Before I let you see the real me
You feel me?
I’ll let my other side conceal me
Then you’ll see
You gotta let me go 

[verse 1]
Optimism, ain’t that shit funny?
When the world we live in’s all 'bout the money
Money ultra rich own half of, won’t budge it at all
We turn to politicians, hope they’ll do something
Feigning altruism, but they do nothing
Crushing lives as they take rights from the people I love
So they’ll say “what do we do?”
As if there’s something to choose
We’re living lives of abuse
All at the hands of a few
I’m asking “what do I do?”
I guess I thought I could choose
Between the art and the views
A stable life to pursue
Obtuse, reduced my character

[chorus 1]
‘Cause I don’t wanna talk
I’d rather die
Before I let you see the real me
You feel me?
I’ll let my other side conceal me
Then you’ll see
You gotta let me go 

[verse 2]
Jokes on us
They don’t give a fuck about nothing
At all if it don't benefit them all ways
I’ll say what's on my mind but it’ll get lost
Get lost if you ain’t picking it up
The thing 'bout me is I already lost
I dream 'bout peace and a renaissance
I can’t show more than I'm letting on
Just know I tried for you
Opened my eyes to this industry I was mortified
They tryna trip you and fuck you up on the borderlines
Think imma burn all my bridges and my important ties
I hold my tongue
They hold all the money money
Go round me used to wish they loved me loved me
Oh I know better than that now
Oh I know better than that now

[chorus 2]
‘Cause I don’t wanna talk
I’d rather die
Before I let you see the real me
You feel me?
I’ll let my other side conceal me
Then you’ll see
You gotta let me go
Look
'Cause I don’t wanna talk I'd rather
Die before I let you see the
Before I let you see the
Person I’ve become
In my pursuit to be someone
I shoulda fuckin known
You gotta let me go

[outro]
I tried to let you go
But empathy means nothing when you're
Scared to be alone
Pick up the fucking phone

break! (feat. Jay Kim)

i don't know what u want

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lyrics:

[intro]
yeah i don’t know what you want
gotta meet your gaze, keep it locked
gonna eat your brains while you watch me
i won’t let you stop me
i’m just like a zombie for your love
yeah i don’t know what you want
i should leave your place before i rot
can’t help but compete for praise and it’s toxic
don’t think i can stop it
try writing a pop hit without luck

[verse 1]
wake up
feel nauseous
can’t worry bout the state of
my conscience
i’ll put it off
makeup
look flawless
it’s starting to get harder to breathe
they’re looking at me
and breaking me down
there’s no one around
i pushed them away ‘cause it was easier then
but it’s not easier now
got friends in the ground
so what the fucks one cog to machines?
they’re so hard to please
i’m shutting me down

[chorus 1]
yeah i don’t know what you want
gotta meet your gaze, keep it locked
gonna eat your brains while you watch me
i won’t let you stop me
i’m just like a zombie for your love
yeah i don’t know what you want
i should leave your place before i rot
can’t help but compete for praise and it’s toxic
don’t think i can stop it
try writing a pop hit without luck

[verse 2]
wait
i was giving you all i thought you’d need
then the money showed up to cloud my feed
knew exactly who i was meant to be
but when they thought i was dreaming
they left me to bleed my heart out
greed ain’t start out
the way it does on TV
they fucking left me to
bleed my heart out
feed my fall out
with everyone tied to me
i’m supposed to grow and adjust
(i wanna die)
but i’ve been dreaming up machines
(no not literally, fuck)
that i could use as a front
(just wanna cry)
and i can hardly fucking breathe with all this weed
('cause i hate the way i look)
in my lungs
(i'll realign my spine and hide inside the baseline)
what i thought you needed was perceived
as being something i'm not
(anything i can do to feel unalive)
so go on tell all your friends that i don’t know what you want

[chorus 2]
gotta meet your gaze, keep it locked
gonna eat your brains while you watch me
i won’t let you stop me
i’m just like a zombie for your love
yeah i don’t know what you want
i should leave your place before i rot
can’t help but compete for praise and it’s toxic
don’t think i can stop it
try writing a pop hit without luck

zombie

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fractured

i'm not the person i thought I'd be

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lyrics:

[intro]
it doesn’t make a difference
'cause even when I fucked it up you’d fix it
and ever since you left I thought you’d miss this
guess that’s not true
well maybe I was too persistent
but something ‘bout your laugh had me addicted
just make sure when my story’s told it begins with
and ends with you

[verse 1]
tried to keep what’s wrong ‘bout me left unknown
i was scared if they knew me, then I’d truly be left alone
just wanna give you everything, but my repressing kept me from growth
so I won’t hold it against you
if you detest my bones
just hope you grieve at the thought of me

[chorus 1]
it doesn’t make a difference
'cause even when I fucked it up you’d fix it
and ever since you left I thought you’d miss this
guess that’s not true
(and i don't wanna die, but maybe it's easier)
well maybe I was too persistent
but something ‘bout your laugh had me addicted
just make sure when my story’s told it begins with
and ends with you
(i pushed and they folded, my body was molded wrong)

[bridge]
just wish we had more time
but my body’s turned to rust
weakened spine; you regard me with disgust
you’re not mine, broken down from my mistrust
you were right
i’m not the person i thought I’d be
i’m not fine
tried to pretend that i was
i took pride, thought i was helping but i fucked
your whole life, was misguided by my lust
for your eyes
i’m not the person you wanna see

[chorus 2]
it doesn’t make a difference
'cause even when I fucked it up you’d fix it
and ever since you left I thought you’d miss this
guess that’s not true
well maybe I was too persistent
but something ‘bout your laugh had me addicted
just make sure when my story’s told it begins with
and ends with you

credits

i don't wanna hurt ur feelings but i'm best all alone

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lyrics:

[intro]
the voices; they never leave
talk down to me endlessly
i’m trying my best to breathe
let it be

[verse 1]
this darkness inside my head
has purposefully misled
all of my closest friends
from ever getting close to me
‘cause i don’t wanna hurt your feelings but i’m best all alone
yeah i just know i’m unappealing when i’m left vulnerable
and i have problems with my eating, mind's at rest when i don’t
i admit it
i let the other guy take control
i hate my skin
so i’ll just tear it off
and lay my bones out on the tabletop
there are those that find perfection within
so i guess that i’d do anything to get to it
and i don’t wanna die but maybe it’s easier
roll tide; he got crushed by a meteor
i’ll leave behind my ungodly exterior
i pushed and they folded
my body was molded wrong

[spoken]
what are you doing?
get back here
you are nothing
you need us

[chorus 1]
i hate you
you cut all my slack, drove a knife in my back
thinking i won’t face you?
soul is under attack, brush it off like it’s plaque
homie i pre-date you
and i can re-create you
gonna rip the beast from the art
so i can tear him apart
discarded
i hate you
got me feeling insane, parasite in my brain
tryna find a way to
cut it out from my veins, keep the venom contained
had to see the pain through
we were told a fake truth
gonna stab the beast through the heart
for all the lies he’d impart
discarded

[verse 2]
lies, greed, misery
that should tell you everything
your eyes breed sympathy
object of antipathy
i fuck things up
and then i wonder why strings get cut
just grind me down ‘till i’m dust
i’m disgusting
go on discuss me
go on discuss me
i’d die for this shit bro trust me
don’t lie when you say you want me
i try but i still can’t breathe
said you rescued me
made it look so easy
deceit don’t please me
it never will

[chorus 2]
i hate you
you cut all my slack, drove a knife in my back
thinking i won’t face you?
soul is under attack, brush it off like it’s plaque
homie i pre-date you
and i can re-create you
gonna rip the beast from the art
so i can tear him apart
discarded
i hate you
got me feeling insane, parasite in my brain
tryna find a way to
cut it out from my veins, keep the venom contained
had to see the pain through
we were told a fake truth
gonna stab the beast through the heart
for all the lies he’d impart
discarded

[chorus 3]
they hate you
you cut all of my slack, now i’m taking it back
maybe i can’t blame you
i was under attack, introspection i lack
thought that i’d create you
someone they’d relate to
but they saw the beast as the art
it’s time to tear him apart
discarded
they hate you
made me fucking insane, motivational drain
tried to find a way to
keep the numbers sustained, but that shit was in vain
had to see the shame through
you were told my fake truth
wanna stab the beast through the heart
for all the lies he’d impart
discarded

[outro]
fake
clone
liar
they hate you
die

discarded

to reminisce reveals the signs

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lyrics:

[intro]
doesn't make a difference
i fucked it up, you'd fix it
you left, thought you would miss this
no lie

[verse 1]
were you just a figment of imagination?
i can’t tell if this is legit
ruminate on whether there was indication
tell myself I’ll never forget
i was going left, you were cutting right
play pretend
and shut down feigning peace of mind
and now we’re tryna fill the silence
i never guessed, but i coulda, right?
what’s to worry 'bout now?
got shit redefined
when they took your life away
no i don’t wanna waste more time
at twenty-two losing you made my state of mind
something i’d hide inside
embody strength for the ones who’ve cried
so i don’t think i ever wanna waste more time
‘cause now i’m through tryna prove i’m not fake sometimes
guess i outgrew needing to feel your eyes
under my guise of truth conveyed

[chorus 1]
now i know
to reminisce reveals the signs
(i couldn't see 'em
go, go on reveal 'em, come on)
oh god it hurts to feel sometimes
(eyes on the ceiling
conflict with no meaning at all)
just couldn’t read between your lines
(i couldn't read it
fuck, it's so misleading; appalled)
why’d i believe your “i’ll be fine”’s?
(i don't believe it
no, i don't believe in the fall)

[verse 2]
got mites in my skin
can’t fight from within
despise who i’ve been
can’t lie just to win
your life was akin to
light, lacking sin
took flight from the wind
held tight, lost my grip
cut ties from the script
lost sight, start to slip
guard eyes with a sip
keep tryna forget
can’t cry, hold it in
get high and eclipse
goodbyes for a bit
defy, don’t admit
ask why, throw a fit
(I fall to my knees)
deny, take a hit
(my hear rate's jumping)
reply to assist
(300 degrees)
july came and went
(the blood starts pumping)
no time to exist
(wait what do you mean?)
i’m fine, I insist
(this can't be where it ends)
combine what i missed
write rhymes in the midst
(no I just can't comprehend)
design don’t resist
(they're looking at me)
(get up, sit up)
i whine; pessimist
(my mouth hangs open)
(can't live slowly)
no spine, just a cyst
(keep trying to speak)
(give up; you don't even know me)
my mind starts to twist
(my voice stays broken)
(put trust in us)
inclined to assist
(I'm falling between)
(can't control me)
inside, fucking pissed
(regret for words unsaid)
(shut up)
i tighten my fist
(and disbelief inside my head)
(enough allegories)
got eyes full of mist

[chorus 2]
to reminisce reveals the signs
oh god it hurts to feel sometimes
(don't go)
just couldn’t read between your lines
(i couldn't read it
fuck, it's so misleading; appalled)
why’d i believe your “i’ll be fine”’s?
(i don't believe it
no, i don't believe in the fall)

[outro]
doesn't make a difference
(to reminisce reveals the signs)
i fucked it up, you'd fix it
you left, thought you would miss this
(oh god it hurts to feel sometimes)
no lie
this no lie

unalive

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