i wanna die…no not literally, fuck…just wanna cry…cause i hate the way i look 💔

your ass is not brakence💀 fye tho, find your style

I came across you quite by accident and am very glad of it! 
The song has sunk into my soul

111 empty houses; mended hearts

Spite

Featuring @lilskeleskrrt
Produced by @metlast
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
Still the same scared kid that I was way back then
Know I'd give anything to change how it happened
Still bleeding from the wounds of my past and
Pursuing happiness
But I can't have that

Take another hit to my pride and my passion
Loss after loss like a chain reaction
When everything goes wrong
I need a way out
I can not be trusted to be kind to myself

The drugs don't make it better
They just keep me distracted
From the life I'm supposed to live
And out the one that I'm trapped in
When everything goes wrong
I tend to break down
I can not be trusted to be kind to myself

(skele)
And love I promise that I mean well
All those things I did were fucking my health 
I've never been good at helping out myself
It's getting bad
I prolly need help
I never meant for you to run away 
I just wanted you to feel a bit of my pain 
And when everything goes wrong I hope you'll be here 
Need someone to fix all my fears

Listen on Spotify!

When Everything Goes Wrong w/ skele (Prod. metlast)

produced by: @freveltrothy
happy halloween (even though by the time I drop this it'll probably be like fuckin 2037)

i think i killed another man last night 
i didn’t even stop to check
either way he’s not moving 

all i need is a mask and a knife
i don’t ever need a glock
little bitch i’m not shooting 

only time i ever truly feel alive
is when i’m cutting thru his flesh
swear the sound kinda soothing 

i took his wallet 
saw his girl as a picture 
go to the address
finish it and bring the jewels in 

so i cry
till my eyes swell up
and i can’t fall asleep 
think i’m too fucked up
room spinning think i’m gonna throw up
and i guess im old news 
your new man look tough 

i wanna bleach my eyes but im way too scared
so i just stare at the sun 
wanna close myself
cus you were never there
at least you’re having fun

i don’t know why i’m like this 
how the fuck could i take another man from his family? 
so i go and wash the knife quick,
think i went overboard 
violence charge my battery 
no point tryna fight this,
know i’m gonna go to jail
insane
yeah i had to be 
when i cut him, kinda liked it 
need to go home now
hope my moms not mad at me 

i think i killed another man last night 
i didn’t even stop to check
either way he’s not moving 

all i need is a mask and a knife
i don’t ever need a glock
little bitch i’m not shooting 

only time i ever truly feel alive
is when i’m cutting thru his flesh
swear the sound kinda soothing 

i took his wallet 
saw his girl as a picture 
go to the address
finish it and bring the jewels in

killer (frevel)

went for something different.
made this with the intention to expand my creativity as an artist
and the hopes to understand myself more as a person.
hope you enjoy :')
prod. @branwenmusic & @rvrhiv 🖤
cover art done by @akanenosketch

~~lyrics~~
(i got these daggers in my spine)
(they come right at me from the skies)
(just tell me why, why)

knowing that you’re safe
could you save me from this bad dream
know it’s kinda late
girl i’m sorry that i’m asking
glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat  
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end
do you understand?

go into a rage 
when i see you in my sight
everyone the same 
and i always wonder why
tell me what it takes
just for you to stay mine

swear i’m fucking sick
everyone’s a prick 
running fucking swift
don’t ever stop, won’t ever quit
eh i was a mistake
in this world; why do i stay?
no, seriously.
THIS SHIT SUCKS!!!

hush…

glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within

i’m rotting from within!
i should probably go
there's blood under the snow 
infinity below
i hear the echoes of bellows

aren’t you just happy for me
i wanna be someone else
stuck inside a catacomb
it’s like my own personal hell 
just give me the signal 
and i’ll try to book it outta here
it’s not that i’m terrified
this is just how i look my dear 

i got these daggers in my spine
they started raining from the sky
i didn’t make it home in time
within your arms is where i lie

i rot, everything’s stupid 
i want you, but i’m useless
time’s not real, we are lucid 
i’m just, gonna lose it all


glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end 
do you understand?…

infinity below [prod. branwen x rvrhiv]

**LYRICS**
I'm good at playing pretend
But I can't find my way around
Not again
I know it's hard to be yourself when you're blending in
Pushing me to the edge over something you said I hope you meet me there
But we're just playing pretend we'd be better as friends cause you don't play fair
(2x)
Take your time
I gave all mine
You say you're fine I wish you'd tell me the truth
Break my bones
Blocked on my phone
If I had known I'd give you nothing to lose

Never making amends
I taste the ketamine that's on your coffee breath
I hate the way I always seem to make a mess
Don't wanna be too mad wish I was though that
Pushing me to the edge over something you said I hope you meet me there
And it's probably best we put it to rest cause you still don't care
It's like I'm stuck in a sandbox cutting my hands off grabbing your hair
But we're just playing pretend we'd be better as friends cause you don't play fair
(2x)
Take your time
I gave all mine
You say you're fine I wish you'd tell me the truth
Break my bones
Blocked on my phone
If I had known I'd give you nothing to lose

TERMINAL

WATCH THE VIDEO <33

needed this to change
produced by @pekarot_161
featuring @lilskeleskrrt
mixed by nine to 5 and skele

lyrics:
nine to 5:
Now I'm left in the cold
Stary late night when my breathe turns to smoke
Living in the past when the rest still unfolds
I just wanna go back when my neck wasn't choked I'm
Stuck inside my mind when I'm passing
Highway signs eastbound we were laughing
Now I'm left with nothing but these memories flashing
gone within a moment and I don't know what happened

I can't get away, yeah theres nowhere I can run to
We've been everywhere, I can't begin to forget you
Your shadows everywhere around me even inside my room
Staring at the wall wishing that I was beside you

Living in this empty state of mind
Wander through this empty space
Lost because I know I'll never find
Anyone to take your place
Shivers running up and down my spine
Tears falling down my face
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

skele:
I've been a part of you for too long
And I still write the same songs
I'll wait here forever love until I figure out what you want
It's never enough
Just break me down
And I'll stay put til you're done
I fucking gave you my heart

both:
I fucking gave you my all

nine to 5:
But it was never enough

nine to 5 and skele:
Living in this empty state of mind
Wander through this empty space
Lost because I know I'll never find
Anyone to take your place
Shivers running up and down my spine
Tears falling down my face
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Still needed this to change
Knowing that I gave you all my heart but you still needed this to change
Still needed this to change
Yeah you still needed this to change
Knowing that I gave you all my heart but you still needed this to change

nine to 5 - needed this to change ft. skele (prod. pekarot)

stream "sun"
https://ffm.to/sunbradenross

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lyrics:

[verse 1]
Started hating myself
I've been going through hell
I'm a terrible person
Is all of this worth it?
I'm headed back to my cell
Started hating myself
Make sure no one can tell
Forgot when I kissed you
That you're not the issue
I hope that you're doing well
Started hating myself
Missed a call on my cell
Or maybe a hundred
Lose track when confronted
I can't stop hating myself

Um
Fuck it I guess

[interlude]
Hey, hun
Oh hey what's going on
I was just about to call you
Just calling to let you know that I'm um
Uh I'm sorry you're like breaking up
I can't really tell what you're saying
Breaking up with you
Oh you're breaking up with me
Thanks!

[chorus 1]
Well that's fine
'Cause I don't need your love
I thought that it would heal me but I guess that's just
My mind again
This time you win
It's alright
Already over you anyway

[verse 2]
Already over it now
No time for thinking about
The shit that occupies your time 'cause you ain't coming around again
I won't be missing you now or then 'cause
I'm way too fuckin busy I've been
Coming up I know that you hate it
Got me fucked up
Yeah your heart is serrated
I fell in love and you fell in hatred
Stop calling my line
I'm wasting your time
Forget it

[chorus 2]
Well that's fine
'Cause I don't need your love
I thought that it would heal me but I guess that's just
My mind again
This time you win
It's alright
Already over you anyway
Well that's fine
'Cause I don't need your love
I thought that it would heal me but I guess that's just
My mind again
This time you win
It's alright
Already over you anyway

[outro]
That's fine
'Cause I don't need your love
That's fine
'Cause I don't need your love

i wish i never met you

u need metanoia

listen to "metanoia":
https://ffm.to/bradenrossmetanoia

listen to my music:
linktr.ee/bradenrossisfake

lyrics:

[Intro]
So throw me a lifeline
Bitch I’m so tired of you on my timeline
Like you got something to prove
It’s so childish
Envious cypress
Afraid to let me be myself
You need metanoia

[Verse 1]
My spirit disturbs you
It’s easy to tell
‘Cause you’re so adverse to
You treating me well
We’re not destined to serve you
Not under your spell
Guess I shouldn’t concern myself with the bullshit
The notion
You’re not someone who would pull shit
And omit
All the truth you left me frostbit
I lost it
Let me drown in the ocean
Your hateful devotion sinks me

[Chorus 1]
So throw me a lifeline
Bitch I’m so tired of you on my timeline
Like you got something to prove
It’s so childish
Envious cypress
Afraid to let me be myself
You need metanoia

[Verse 2]
I know I fucked up now
I know I killed your self-esteem
Don’t gotta tell me how it feels
‘Cause everything was real to me
To me
I guess I’ll just keep texting your momma
Pull up to the party with drama
It wasn’t fate it was karma
Fuck me in the back of your Honda
I’ve been too caught up in myself to do right
I’m losing my patience everyday
I think I’m losing my life again

[Chorus 2]
So throw me a lifeline
Bitch I’m so tired of you on my timeline
Like you got something to prove
It’s so childish
Envious cypress
Afraid to let me be myself
You need metanoia

[Outro]
So throw me a lifeline
Bitch I’m so tired of you on my timeline
Like you got something to prove
It’s so childish
Envious cypress
Afraid to let me be myself
You need metanoia

metanoia (w/ ryen)

i'm just a robot

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lyrics:

[intro]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

[verse 1]
‘Cause i’m a robot
With human skin
And try as I might
I can’t overwrite the code within
I’m just a robot
I don’t exist
Extinguished the light
I gave up the fight
For views and clicks
But somehow I still break down every time you call
I’m just a fake now, not supposed to feel at all
So why am I so unsteady
Fused with so much pain already
Yeah I wish I could just start again
No pretend
But everyday I look inside with discontent
Shit doesn’t relent

[chorus 1]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Find the shrine confined within, embrace mine
You can’t contrive
To remove me from the book
Blood intertwined
Art, virality mistook
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

[verse 2]
They make this shit look easy
Hijack their eyes to feed me
He’ll reach inside of their souls’ convince them that they need me
But what’s the meaning
I’m bleeding
I feel my life force depleting
So what’s the point of succeeding
If it’s not for myself?
It’s just for everyone else
Couldn’t help but put my pride on the shelf
I guess I’m going to hell
We’re all frauds, ain’t no contest
I’m no god, just a complex
I don’t get it
How they hid it
So well
(And I don't wanna die but maybe it's easier)
It’s no fun, to be broken
Burning sun, I’m unchosen
They don’t get it
How I did it
Don’t tell
(I pushed and they folded, my body was molded wrong)

[bridge]
I tried to bottle it up
But you threw salt in the cut
My body’s turning to rust
I guess I’ll wallow in it
They said it wasn’t enough
So now I’m calling their bluff
Not who they think that I was
I strive to keep it hidden

[chorus 3]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Find the shrine confined within, embrace mine
You can’t contrive
To remove me from the book
Blood intertwined
Art, virality mistook
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

unalive

prod. me + @rjpasin
mixed and mastered by me and @mxjia4123

lyrics:

At the time it felt right
Keep a dull knife, cut the tension one slice
(But you lie)
You’re not for the long time
Rip my heart out and keep it on ice, yeah

Lying to myself thinking maybe you’ll make it alright
Phone on dnd, ignore the FaceTime
This shit don’t feel right
I’m losing my mind
(What am I doing?)
Living or killing my time?

I can’t take it anymore
Libras calling at my door
I’m so sick of faking love
Why can’t it all be like before

Why’d I ever come here I knew this shit wouldn’t feel right
Always been an optimist, been harder looking for the light

Heard it through the grapevine
Your a walking landmine
And I’m never stepping on it again

Sick of wasting my time
Wishing I could rewind
I would never ever ever see you again

I’ve come way too far to throw it all away
Nails on a chalkboard when I hear your name

Heard it through the grapevine
Your a walking landmine
And I’m never stepping on it again

(yeah) it's been a long ride
had to keep my distance, making up for lost time
(so goodbye)
told my hubris step aside
i cant keep these feelings bottled up, caught in a landslide

onyx stone around my neck
while youre coming for my head
told the devil cut the check
i hate to leave with disrespect, cuz youre

tripping off a white lie
make it out with my life
that’s why I’m so sick of love
i know I’ll never feel the same

I can’t take it anymore
Libras calling at my door
I’m so sick of faking love
Why can’t it all be like before

Why’d I ever come here I knew this shit wouldn’t feel right
Always been an optimist, been harder looking for the light

Heard it through the grapevine
Your a walking landmine
And I’m never stepping on it again

Sick of wasting my time
Wishing I could rewind
I would never ever ever see you again

I’ve come way too far to throw it all away
Nails on a chalkboard when I hear your name

Heard it through the grapevine
Your a walking landmine
And I’m never stepping on it again

libra

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maybe i'm focusing on all the wrong things

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listen to my debut EP "digilogue":
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listen to Jay Kim:
https://soundcloud.com/jaykim1

lyrics:

[intro]
‘Cause I don’t wanna talk
I’d rather die
Before I let you see the real me
You feel me?
I’ll let my other side conceal me
Then you’ll see
You gotta let me go 

[verse 1]
Optimism, ain’t that shit funny?
When the world we live in’s all 'bout the money
Money ultra rich own half of, won’t budge it at all
We turn to politicians, hope they’ll do something
Feigning altruism, but they do nothing
Crushing lives as they take rights from the people I love
So they’ll say “what do we do?”
As if there’s something to choose
We’re living lives of abuse
All at the hands of a few
I’m asking “what do I do?”
I guess I thought I could choose
Between the art and the views
A stable life to pursue
Obtuse, reduced my character

[chorus 1]
‘Cause I don’t wanna talk
I’d rather die
Before I let you see the real me
You feel me?
I’ll let my other side conceal me
Then you’ll see
You gotta let me go 

[verse 2]
Jokes on us
They don’t give a fuck about nothing
At all if it don't benefit them all ways
I’ll say what's on my mind but it’ll get lost
Get lost if you ain’t picking it up
The thing 'bout me is I already lost
I dream 'bout peace and a renaissance
I can’t show more than I'm letting on
Just know I tried for you
Opened my eyes to this industry I was mortified
They tryna trip you and fuck you up on the borderlines
Think imma burn all my bridges and my important ties
I hold my tongue
They hold all the money money
Go round me used to wish they loved me loved me
Oh I know better than that now
Oh I know better than that now

[chorus 2]
‘Cause I don’t wanna talk
I’d rather die
Before I let you see the real me
You feel me?
I’ll let my other side conceal me
Then you’ll see
You gotta let me go
Look
'Cause I don’t wanna talk I'd rather
Die before I let you see the
Before I let you see the
Person I’ve become
In my pursuit to be someone
I shoulda fuckin known
You gotta let me go

[outro]
I tried to let you go
But empathy means nothing when you're
Scared to be alone
Pick up the fucking phone

break! (feat. Jay Kim)

i don't know what u want

GET DIGILOGUE MERCH:
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listen to my debut EP "digilogue"
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listen to my music:
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lyrics:

[intro]
yeah i don’t know what you want
gotta meet your gaze, keep it locked
gonna eat your brains while you watch me
i won’t let you stop me
i’m just like a zombie for your love
yeah i don’t know what you want
i should leave your place before i rot
can’t help but compete for praise and it’s toxic
don’t think i can stop it
try writing a pop hit without luck

[verse 1]
wake up
feel nauseous
can’t worry bout the state of
my conscience
i’ll put it off
makeup
look flawless
it’s starting to get harder to breathe
they’re looking at me
and breaking me down
there’s no one around
i pushed them away ‘cause it was easier then
but it’s not easier now
got friends in the ground
so what the fucks one cog to machines?
they’re so hard to please
i’m shutting me down

[chorus 1]
yeah i don’t know what you want
gotta meet your gaze, keep it locked
gonna eat your brains while you watch me
i won’t let you stop me
i’m just like a zombie for your love
yeah i don’t know what you want
i should leave your place before i rot
can’t help but compete for praise and it’s toxic
don’t think i can stop it
try writing a pop hit without luck

[verse 2]
wait
i was giving you all i thought you’d need
then the money showed up to cloud my feed
knew exactly who i was meant to be
but when they thought i was dreaming
they left me to bleed my heart out
greed ain’t start out
the way it does on TV
they fucking left me to
bleed my heart out
feed my fall out
with everyone tied to me
i’m supposed to grow and adjust
(i wanna die)
but i’ve been dreaming up machines
(no not literally, fuck)
that i could use as a front
(just wanna cry)
and i can hardly fucking breathe with all this weed
('cause i hate the way i look)
in my lungs
(i'll realign my spine and hide inside the baseline)
what i thought you needed was perceived
as being something i'm not
(anything i can do to feel unalive)
so go on tell all your friends that i don’t know what you want

[chorus 2]
gotta meet your gaze, keep it locked
gonna eat your brains while you watch me
i won’t let you stop me
i’m just like a zombie for your love
yeah i don’t know what you want
i should leave your place before i rot
can’t help but compete for praise and it’s toxic
don’t think i can stop it
try writing a pop hit without luck

zombie

glass house (feat. Braden Bales)

remember,

lost in an alien psychosis

thanks for listening <3

unalive

Braden Ross

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