with @counterxo and @clay0127 prod @yashio20k @hartfxlt

lyrics:

(xternalz)

its not the same now
cause im lying face down
i just miss the way that we used to be
i cant face it
oh i cant take it

and if i could close the distance now
i would see you in my room
or see you on the couch
i'd do all i could
i'd do all i could

(clay)

i feel the rain, withered, wear me down
wash away and drain me out
only ever holding on
youll never find me standing proud
shoulders slumping over
like a boulders covering me now
im searching for closure
in an open casket
bury me now
dont come no closer
its only pain when i come around
post trauma hasnt left
now im alone and staring up at the clouds
i hope youre watching me
cause im still hearing every sound
and i still see you in my room
searching for solid ground

(counter)

It feels so different
I’ve been so distant
You hear what I say but will you actually listen?
We can’t be afraid to make the harder decisions
What we thought was fate gets in the way of our vision
See your ghost in my room
Your eyes in the stars, they light up with moon 
I try to get out, but my past just consumes my head
I need you here instead

(xternalz)

its not the same now
cause im lying face down
i just miss the way that we used to be
i cant face it
oh i cant take it

and if i could close the distance now
i would see you in my room
or see you on the couch
i'd do all i could
i'd do all i could

distance

distance w/ clay & counter (hartfxlt + yashio)

@mental

i feel like i ranked up
no were not the same bro
like they know my name now
trn up wit the gng now
told her things would nvr 
wrk out
i think things
are wrkin out now lol
i think things 
are looking up now
its funny how things turn out
finally think its my turn now

Spotify

re:ascend w/ mental (axry + clappy)

@rewind214

what're u so afraid of ?
take my hand i'll keep u safe 
now ur all I think of 
cuz of u I lie awake 
ur love what I need now 
plz give me ur time of day 
say u won't go away 
i'll show u that i'll stay 
rest assured, it could be worse 
life takes its turns but i'm along for the ride
and u could be shotgun be mine 
girl if looks could kill I would dieee X_X

going in circles with the thought in my head 
these thoughts so hurtful I can't put em to rest 
i don't deserve u but i'm trying my best 
what could this turn to i'm not holding my breath
either the stars are aligned or my hopes too high .. 
so scared saying goodbye will it be the last time 
smoke u up talk all night 
ur in my arms it feel right 
i'll be urs u'll be mine u'll be minee 

girl i'll stay, wait right here 
spendin time away from u and it pass so slow :( 
i'll decay for u, in ur brain need to know need to know 

what're u so afraid of ?
take my hand i'll keep u safe 
now ur all I think of 
cuz of u I lie awake 
ur love what I need now 
plz give me ur time of day 
say u won't go away 
i'll show u that i'll stay 
rest assured, it could be worse 
life takes its turns but i'm along for the ride
and u could be shotgun be mine 
girl if looks could kill I would dieee X_X

oh girl i'd die, oh girl i'd die 
u know i'd die, u know i'd die 
oh girl i'd die, oh girl i'd die 
u know i'd die, u know i'd die 


if looks could kill (rewind)

ill be ur wings 
tell me tht u 
wanna fly tu
wen im up in the sky
u the one i wanna 
sing to
baby ur alright
were on the same tune
when i fall down
let me fall 
into u

ya listen to me talk
lets connect the heartstring ya
never gotta try
ill be there for u
sunlight on my body when i
feel ur love
uaghhh
make me feel a way 
that i can never feel 
with u
tell me were all right 
tell me wots tru
tht i saw u in the dark
at a bonfire tell 
me thats ur heart
itll never work?
gonna tell u thats a lie
tell me tht u love me
plz dun say goodbye
fire to the flame let me 
burn with u

let me fall into you (decago + revert)

prod me @neohnq
talk to me baby w ur silver tongue
will u still b here when its said and done
u can fill my ear with deception
i dont rly mind im still gon give u my love

girl ima be me i wont play no part
like CDG she gon break my heart
aint no keys up in this bitch its a push to start
ill stay countin Ps till my fingers cant
till they cramp till my fingers currl
dont know what to do with myself girrl
i swear on it ill give u the world

but i cant be what u want me to
i dont wanna win if its without you
i cant say a word and i cant move
its what u do to me
i lose so fruitfully
always been the odd one out
i should be on jubilee
i lose so brutally
but its nuthn new to me

win or lose prod me

prod @decago n @yashio20k

thank u @hartfxlt for the ft

@haunted_sad

i tried 4 u ig it didnt matter too
yeah im sad im holed up in my fkn room
im having nightmares i cnt even sleep at night
i let my heart baby fkn evry night

yeah i thought baby that u were jus my remedy
i believed all the lies u fed me.
yeah i jus rly tried to show up 4 u
i know im the bad guy think i hate me 2 :)) 
yeah ur the one that me fkn hate myself
all these thoughts bby they're jus getting too damn loud
u cnt erase u cnt take back what u fucking did
so ill take the knife and think that ill end my life
inhaling toxins jus tryna forget u
im falling asleep bby with my fkn eyes open
i was a fool to ever call u my fucking home.
yeah ur the one that fkn betrayed me

@hartfxlt


@haunted_sad
u were the one tht damn betrayed me
u cant take back all the words u said 2 me..
U WERE THE ANGEL BABY FROM MY NIGHTMARES

i cant go back baby i cant restart
i-i got all these scars displayed on my arm
all this damage tht u did to my heart
u pushed me astray u pushed me jus so far
at least i knew baby that we'd never last together
going back in time iwishinvrmether
yeah i jus get away i stay up evrynight
u left me bleeding red bby i jus see no end in sight

ibetrayedmyself4u w/hartfxlt (decago + yashio)

"if I can't cry" produced by @luckeyknows @mental & @akasukii

Performed/Written by @counterxo

(lyrics)
I used to feel pain
I used to feel alive
I used to feel like the rain hit me like some blunted knives
Nothing hits the same
There’s nowhere to confide
Say I’ve been acting strange lately, hate that you’re so right
I can’t put up a fight
I think I lost my sight
I need the tough of light
My chest is getting tight
I hollowed my own heart for this life
I’ve calcified, can I tell you that?

If I can’t cry can you please be my eyes?
I’ve numbed what’s inside need my soul to revive
There’s no hope inside my eyes 
I’m glad that you stuck right by my side
I’m too broken to tell a lie 
I pushed you away as I crystallized, cause it’s suicide
Is there another way?

Don’t think I’m a victim, I’m sorry
Cause I didn’t listen to you and it scarred me
I don’t mind being this alone cause I’ve hardly healed, but it’s fine, cause there still is a heartbeat
If I get out of this I promise not become this again
Had some feelings come around, they didn’t stick, they came and went
I gotta keep my head down, it’s so much different than back then
Like a voodoo doll the thing that’s killing me’s my only friend

if i can't cry (luckey + mental + akasuki)

everytime I write I feel like im #revitalizing
I want to fix my #sleep

revitalize
/riːˈvʌɪtəlʌɪz/
imbue (something) with new life and vitality

mix @atto_wav
master @atto_wav
prod @serrature fka veezuh
@noahsuri

www.instagram.com/1noahsuri
www.instagram.com/entev23
www.instagram.com/serratophobia

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@noahsuri
give me a chance can u try to hear me out
thats why im crying in my room baby u left me out
now im in a drought can u take me back out
destroyed everything that we built from the ground

want it tell me that you're honest
revitalizing while im writing this sonnet
want it tell me that you're honest
revitalizing while im writing this sonnet

what do you want from me oh i dont know
do we feel the same i dont think so
and i still got these pictures im hanging on to
cannot keep up my composure
baby stop, dont look into my eyes
i feel stuck, baby hold me tight
is it worth the fight? dont think im alright
and im stuck here once again

revitalizing (serrature)

shoutout @counterxo n @yashio20k

@haunted_sad
all the shit we had i watched it turn to dust
i knew baby there was jus never us
i was rollin over sad i was outta luck
i was always in my head i was not enough
u betrayed me baby ya u left me in the past
gave u everythin everything i fucking had
u left me deserted u left me in the past again
i was rollin over sad i wasnt sleeping

ya ik baby im getting betternbetter
another day passes me all stormy weather
and i dont think bby that im getting better
im hiding in my room think im dyin lone again
all the shit baby that u fkn said to me
u ripped my heart out left me with all this anxiety
now it passes me by and im not sleepin
i wanted to live my life give me a reason

@counterxo
Eyes wide open, i don’t get any rest 
I still feel so broken, so much pressure on my chest
Can we keep this moment? I’m scared of what’s next
Even at my lowest you know that I’ll make the best 
I tried to dig you out this hole and start up something new
Why did you give up on me I still have faith in you?
Lies were only told about about me cause you fear the truth
Cry for what we take for granted and for what we’ll lose
Even if it’s done with now I will always feel that pain
I’ll always remember you but I know you’ll forget my name
what a shame

let me fall into you (decago + revert)

braxey

Recent comments

neiru

onelite

yen!

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