Mentally Drained

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Swappin oxygen with smoke in my chest
You can see it everytime i take a breath 
In the depths seein death to the right and the left 
In the night gettin High while I’m lightin up cess
Til the day that I die my mind ain’t findin rest 
You don’t know  shit bout the lives that I led 
If I died right here it’d be my 89th
death 
Ash in the path on the floor where I step 
gettin high passin time in the mourge with my dead 
Died and found death then was forced to forget 
Used to want a family got orphaned instead 
On the floor where I bled where the poor only tread 
Fuckin with me then that’s Russian roulette 
With a full fuckin clip and a gun to ya head 
 My girl says Im smokin too much again 
In the graveyard lightin blunts for my  friends 
Please don’t forget who inspired these kids 
They said I’m fallin off then all their numbers stopped what a bitch irony is 
This governments showin a perfect example of what fuckin modern day tyranny is 
Might Stick a knife in this kid he keep eyein me bitch 
No matter how much I run from demons they seem to just find me again 
In my room thinking I’m better dying again 

At 15 I stayed in my room all adepressed  takin pills that were pressed now I’m overly stressed 
I’m bleedin can’t feel my heart beatin doc said he might have to rip open chest 
If I die don’t you cry just know it’s for the best 
Tell my son that I love em and I tried my best 
I know suicide ain’t designed for the rest 
And they’ll probably think that I’m weak when I’m dead 
But there’s enough life in the lines that I’ve left 
And the people inside of this life that I’ve met
To be someone who they couldn’t ever forget 
Just know I’m findin rest when I’m finally dead 
My girl wouldn’t feel like she should be if I was the one who was dead 
Without me always makin her stressed 
If my brain continues to function I hope that our memories fill up my head 
Atleast it would be like I ain’t even left 
In the graveyard there’s blood to the right and the left 
Ain’t felt alright in my mind or my head 
My whole life alright fine let’s just cut to the end 
In my dreams I’ve seen death almost 5miñlion times so if we talkin honestly what’s one more death 
Cigarettes mixed with cess while I grab on her breast
4 thousands nights we’ve stayed dead in this bed

isho 遺書(prod. farver & pizzle)

Dying Inside (prod. TheJan)

SadBoyProlific - Alone Pt.2 ft. Ivri

Kissing The Ground

Time To Go

Dear Princess...

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Jocelyn Flores REMIX

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(demo) do u wanna die w/ sadboyprolific & juli [+love matt & blocktane]

Lyrics:
[Hook]
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[Verse 1]
ive been feelin sad ive been feelin lonely 
ive been wishin thatd youd come around and hold me
feels like somethings missin even when im with the homies
thinkin back to when you said you loved the old me
i lay in my bed and wish i could go back
wish i wasnt so ugly wish i wasnt  fat
lifes like a ciggaret that shits a drag
used to want it all now i just want you back
i dont live in the present im stuck in the past
love is a drug and i want yours so bad
dont really believe feelings faded that fast
lookin for my heart so im diggin thru the trash
if its just friends then i guess imma be there
gotta learn that lifes not gonna be fair
ive been breathin herbs moe than i breathe air
i fell hard like i tripped on some steep stairs
[Hook]
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[Verse 2]
i know it ended but my wounds still open
dont know why but im too scared to close em
acting whole but inside im broken
hide my emotions cause im too scared to show them
ridin the wave of life and ive been coastin
our ship got sunk and i stood floatin
knockin back the bottles ill fix it with the potion
but ive turned toxic and oh so potent
i miss you soo much and each day it just hurts
hating mself and i question my worth
maybe a chance aint something i deserve
but im still gonna ask for better or worse
i know you got problems and i cant solve em
but i could be your drug i could try to dissolve em
writing you songs and maybe i should stop it
but writing bout my pain is a habit i cant drop it













prod: @oceanonthebeat
mixed by: @kammichaelmusic

I Miss You... (prod. ocean)

re-upload of waste my time since it got deleted this would prob get removed but I just reuploaded it because I love the song and I wanna listen to it again and I want it on my playlist.

SadBoyProlific - Waste My Time (ft. Snøw X Nuxe)

SadBoyProlific - I Never Knew What I Meant To You (ft. Dearly Somber)

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