I'm tinkering with the idea of doing a second album. A fair few of these would likely find their way on to it. I see it as starting pretty dark and getting lighter - which would roughly follow my personal trajectory in the last few years.

Possible New Album Tracklist

Dans la vapeur de l’azur

This has nothing to do with The Eagles. It's just a little story about a man in desperate times. I don't know where it came from. I honestly don't. 
This is one of these songs that I think my mother would call a dirge. ;-)

Desperado

Motion sensors
Nobody told me they had motion sensors
I knew I was south of your boudoir
I think it was the sirens
That told me how far.
 
Sometimes baby
Sometimes it seemed to me maybe you wanted me caught
The getaway driver up and drove away
Wasn’t he the one that you
Mentioned was okay?
 
The diamonds in the vault, they glisten    
The chief of police, he say listen
He don't know desperado
 
Sorry you were awoken
Mr Man said he would try to raise you
Thinks you might know what stuff to say
To get me to stop this
And throw my weapons away

The diamonds in the vault, they glisten    
The chief of police, he say listen
But he don't know desperado
And you don't know desperado
Nobody knows desperado

Desperado

I wanted try something a little experimental and ... um ... vaguely apocalyptic. Please don't have nightmares. Relax. 

Tuning CGDGAD


Getting Hurt

Bad men'll come 
They always do
Gonna give you fruit
You're gonna chew

That little heart
This soft tissue
Gonna be like bone when
They're done with you

It's in the wind
Storm's coming in
You can't begin to know

You're on the list
They grab your wrist
And then they kiss you slow

Is everybody here for getting hurt?
I don't want to see you getting hurt

First the leaves, then
Whole trees will fall
Angels gonna slide
Down the walls

It's no good hiding
Curling up in a ball
Evil's putting on
Its overalls

That's how it's done
Crack of a gun
They're already on your case

They're at the door
Coming through the floor
In every pore of your face

Is everybody here for getting hurt
I don't see want to see you getting hurt

Getting Hurt

A less upbeat track than of late - and a return to some of the sounds I have used on the minilogue XD previously (That Dark Voice...).  Interpret what you want from the title and the tone of it.

Persistent

As another waking day begins
I reflect upon all my past sins
Nothing really too bad or vast
And secured safely in the past
Forget all the hocus pocus
I've set myself a positive focus

CHORUS
Come what may
Together I want us to spend each day
As if it is the last
And what a way to spend our brief and valued time

Every minute that we share entwined
Makes me value how you're the perfect find
And every second that we are apart
Causes cracking in my fragile heart
I stride with a confident swagger
I'm sorry that that makes me a bragger

CHORUS

I realise I have been an eyesore
You're the missing piece in my life's jigsaw

CHORUS
Two lights that shine

Brief And Valued Time

This is the first pass at a new song

All I Can Do In These Circumtances

In the morning when I wake beside you
I wonder whether I made it
Through the night
Or did I fall asleep alone
And open my eyes to an angel
In the afterlife?

I don’t know which one of the two
Just as long as my gaze can fall upon you


When you’re in my arms in the afternoon
I touch your face to be certain
That I still can
Or are you just a trick of the light
A case of wishful thinking 
For a deluded man?

All that I ask is if you’re not real
Then never stop me believing what I feel


At night time when the sun descends
I think about tomorrow
Will we still be here?
Or will the clocks freeze, will memories seize?
Will the pilot lights in our bodies
Just disappear?

All I can do in these circumstances
Is love you and carry on taking my chances

All I Can Do In These Circumstances

Made in #Ableton (2018)

Genre;
#Electronic
#EDM
#Dance

Bright Night Sky

Smile, praise, love and let go are the four "words" that make it easier for us to connect with others. Come with me....

Lächeln, loben, lieben und loslassen sind die vier »L-Wörter«, die uns den Kontakt zu anderen leichter machen.

Kommt mit mir...

Come With Me

Take It Easy (composer and performer Ad van Nederpelt)

A lot of people swinging bladed weapons around who think they don't deserve to be cut ...

Live By the Sword

You can always hold on to your other dreams
Just a leg from a centipede, that’s all it means
Don’t try to cut a deal with Don Belisario
He’ll kill you in the face, it’s the only scenario

You can blow your way out of here, but not this way
Never face your enemy until you know your play
No one knows how to get to Señor del Fuego
He’s got a thousand men, everywhere he goes they go

You just want to avenge all the guys
You lost while they were killing for you
You live by the sword, don’t be so surprised
What some swordsmen are willing to do

So you can ring your bell again or keep it quiet
Hide your fragility, You can’t deny it
The only way to do Jésus Esposito
Is get yourself in close like a mosquito
 
Thrum, do do do do, do do do do
Thrum, do do do do, do do do do

etc

Live By The Sword

A new song which doesn't go anywhere much - just sits around and broods. 

It's Dark

I know I came through last time
But I had help from a friend of mine
This time it’s not just raining
It’s dark

It’s colder too, my hair is wet
Was the wrong time to quit cigarettes
I’m lonelier, I think I’ve lost my spark

Jenny calls when I want her to
But switches off when I mention you
She says what the hell is left
to figure out

There’s a sharpness to her tone these days
I don’t mind when her voice is raised
Derision I think I can do without

Then you went to that get together
With your fascinator peacock feathers
And everybody else was 
Wearing jeans

I don’t know if you talked about me
But from what I heard from Anne-Marie
You don’t even know what privacy means

That book you sent on mindfulness
Was never meant for this address
I see from the inscription
It was for you

Well I don’t know who Richard is
But if you want to tell me where he lives
If there’s a letterbox I’ll drop through

It probably helps my looks are fading
My heart got bored anticipating
It hangs in the front garden
like a gnome

Watch the way romantics go
When their heads get lost their footsteps know
The only welcome left for them is home

It's Dark

When I was recording this song at the weekend it soon became apparent to me that, for the best possible start in life, it needed another voice besides my own on there. The more I struggled on manfully with upper register harmonies the louder the whispering of a little voice in my head. It said 'Kim Guy'. Really quite insistently. So I posted the best I could manage with the song and sent a begging letter to her. It's one of the joys of my soundcloud experience that, every so often, when a song of mine needs something I can't give, I've been able to reach out for help. Kim said yes, by the way.

I liked the song and was very pleased with the reception for the 'just me' version. But this is how it was intended to be heard. I love what Kim's gorgeous vocal brings to this. Thanks so much to her for making this song come right for me. 
http://soundcloud.com/kimguy

Strangers


I know you think I backslide and that
I've only got myself to blame
I know you think my excuses all
are mealy mouthed and lame
Get out of here, you said
You're no existentialist
You can't even get your head
Round a silly 'don't mean nothing' kiss

We've barely even boarded the bus
strangers at the station terminus
There hardly even was an 'us'
Strangers at the station terminus

I hear you say why not stimulate your mind
You wanna let it go to seed?
I hear you say try to organise your time
And fresh air's what you need
Get out of here, I yell
You're no psychoanalyst
You can't even see yourself
Why would you cry over a 'don't mean nothing' kiss?

We've barely even boarded the bus
strangers at the station terminus
There hardly even was an 'us'
Strangers at the station terminus

Strangers (with Kim Guy)

My debut album, Time On My Own, is now available on bandcamp. You can find it at http://brokerjonathan.bandcamp.com There's a review of it here: 
http://www.folkwords.com/reviewarchive_90495.html
Long ago I wrote some songs which were rubbish so I tried some more. They were not much better so I kept at it. No one asked me to do this. The world was not short of good songs. It had shitloads already. It was only short of good songs by me. Other people didn't seem to mind about this in the slightest, but I found it bothered me, so I was trying to do something about it. I guess I still am. This page is where some of the more recent attempts to rectify an intolerable situation appear.

All I Can Do In These Circumstances

Broker Jonathan