A new one

Thank you for everyone who has supported me and my friends! i will miss you flowars <3

Links-
@guardinmusic
@daddydandy

flowars x guardin x yung van - lavender dreams (Prod. charlie c)

lyrics ~

[ashes:]
see you calling, do you want me
why you doing all these drugs, cuz you're lonely
feels like cancer, dying slowly
fake people trying to get close they can not know me
x2

[forest:]
see you texting me, see you calling me
but i'm fucked up baby so can you just let me be
every time it pops up i feel like i can't breathe
if you wanna be with me then baby just come be with me
yeah

there ain't gotta be, any more difficulty
ima take you out eat and when we home we fall asleep
and then you go
cause you don't wanna be with me but
every time i'm back in town you always kneeling at your feet
yeah
x2

[ashes:]
see you calling, do you want me
why you doing all these drugs, cuz you're lonely
feels like cancer, dying slowly
fake people trying to get close they can not know me
x4

can i call you later ft. foreign forest (prod. sickluv)

lyrics:
i know i can’t stay fucked forever 
sometimes i feel like my friends never want me to get better 
i been making bops but whatever 
fucked around and made a few racks off a sweater 
money coming in and i spend it like i’m rich, but now i’m broke as shit at least i’ll make it back quick now 
100 miles on the dash i think we’re going to fast now 
whip it like a race when i get up out this town now 
told me i’m the worst and that you wish u did it sooner 
your the one who left but now i’m the fucking loser 
and you ran off and found somebody to replace me
i hope it’s easier to sleep now that you said you fucking hate me 

yeah you hate me
but you wanna date me
stay a little while
and baby you could save me
spinning words around my head it's getting hazy
you could never love me fuck it i'm too crazy
fuck it up again when i see you around
kinda getting nervous when you try to bring me down
kissing in the back of your whip
we're going 80 now
driving to the end of the world
we're never slowing down
woahhhhh ohh oh
we on a comedown
looking at the stars while you're looking for your coat now	
drunken off your love so i'm looking for a kiss now
replicate your dreams and live through me
open up your mind to find the key
woah oh ohh
and i know that i can't stay young forever
but i'm waiting outside in this shitty weather
hoping that you can love me tonight

i know i can’t stay fucked forever 
sometimes i feel like my friends never want me to get better 
i been making bops but whatever 
fucked around and made a few racks off a sweater 
money coming in and i spend it like i’m rich, but now i’m broke as shit at least i’ll make it back quick now 
100 miles on the dash i think we’re going to fast now 
whip it like a race when i get up out this town now 
told me i’m the worst and that you wish u did it sooner 
your the one who left but now i’m the fucking loser 
and you ran off and found somebody to replace me
i hope it’s easier to sleep now that you said you fucking hate me

i can't live like this forever w/ lil skele (prod. irby)

Stream on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/6hrUfX7wsi7bSUJNxVKbi4?si=OR6MWOowSsCWyHRlqECuGQ

Dear Dad why’d you have to go so soon
It feels like I never really got to know you
You lost track of ur life when your pops passed
Tryna drink away your problems through a shot glass 
I just hope that I don’t fall into the same path
I’ve had addictive personality since way back
It’s in our blood some times I really hate that
But we’re alike in other ways I wouldn’t change that 
You loved work you put that over everything
You even put it and liquor over a wedding ring
They say you never know what you had til' it’s gone
That’s why I’m writing you this song 
I've been stressing and second guessing decisions
Learning lessons and growing up gaining wisdom 
You’re out the picture this never was in my vision 
You helped me buy my equipment 
You shared my songs and you listened 
When I was younger heard arguing in the kitchen
Moving around a lot houses always switching 
As I got older began to see the addiction 
Mom tried stay to calm couldn’t stick with it
I don’t blame her but sometimes I blame myself 
Like there was someway or somehow I could of helped like damn 
Maybe if I called the ambulance a little faster 
We wouldn’t be in this disaster 
Instead of staring at the blood on the walls like it’s plaster
But I guess it doesn’t matter
Grandma’s crying in the arms of the pastor 
Not all stories get a happy ever after
Me and my brother stuck together that’s for life too 
Mama found new love met a nice dude
Things sucked but I always had to fight thru
How’s the weather in heaven hope it’s a nice view
Nowadays everything ain’t the same 
A lot of problems are bottled up in my brain 
I never thought that I would have to feel this way 
But I can’t help it I’m breaking down every day 
I don’t wanna get upset I don’t think I should regret 
Holding on to what is left hope ur happy looking down
I just wanna make u proud even tho ur not around 
I know you’ll always be there I know that you’ll always care
So I love you and I swear even though we weren’t prepared
Maybe this was meant to be this is what you meant to me
I won’t forget the memories 
I won’t forget the memories
Rest in peace yeah

Dear Dad (prod. Jakkyboi)

https://soundcloud.com/lilsadeyes


https://soundcloud.com/montydatta

I’m drowning I can see the ark 
Sky opens up, world falls apart 
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da
I’m
Rocking all black strings on an old guitar 
With my all black jeans and my all black heart
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da

Put me in an all white room and bind my hands
Tell me I’m no good till I understand but
Your demands mean nothing 
I need a Zoloft lil to even feel something 
Put me on a red eye flight and I’ll leave it all as you wave goodbye
She asking where the time goes 
Girl you might as well be asking why the wind blows 
But you see me through these all black windows 
Chilling with the sharks while you swimming with the minnows 
And I’m sorry but I chose my fate 
Big fish ‘round town done being the bait
It’s weighing on my all black lungs
But yours always right so I’ll hold me tounge
Got an all black soul with an all black prayer
I’m the all black sheep with the all black stars 

Hook 

Ripped black jeans and tears from sad eyes
I guess I’m alright I guess I’ll be fine 
I guess I’m real stressed I’m
Best when offline
Cause I suffocate when I talk to you 
It sucks to feel like you don’t want to choose 
I choke so bad my face turns blue 
My heart’s gone dark from loving you 
I won’t speak cause you won’t listen 
You’re my cure but we’ve been distant 
You’re too cute and that’s too bad cause 
Love won’t clean this mess I have 
I’m over love but I’m not over us 
Im over love but I’m not over us

World Falls Apart - Ft Sadeyes Prod. Monty Datta

turn out all the lights
baby it’s just you and me now
stay up every night 
we don’t ever need to sleep nah
you got me feelin right
where i need to be
baby lock eyes and
show me that you need me

i been thinkin bout you lately 
girl i know you want to
you can always slide by my place
you got my heart burning up babe
every single time that i lay
my eyes on your face

yeah i’m fallin for your body
and your mind too 
forget the past, 
we can leave it all behind you
i won’t let you feel alone again 
i won’t let you feel alone again, no

with your hand between my fingers 
i don’t ever wanna let go
yeah i’m mezmerized by your figure
never get tired of you at all, and

baby girl you should come through
we can do whatever you want to
just sit back and let me love you

turn out all the lights
baby it’s just you and me now
stay up every night 
we don’t ever need to sleep nah
you got me feelin right
where i need to be
baby lock eyes and
show me that you need me

put your body up against mine
couple hours we never look at the time
lay in bed as we watching the sun shine
through the curtains and passing the window blinds

yeah, and you’re so warm
in the middle of a winter night
so glad that i made you mine
i feel fine when you’re beside me

with your hand between my fingers 
i don’t ever wanna let go
yeah i’m mezmerized by your figure
never get tired of you at all, and

baby girl you should come through
we can do whatever you want to
just sit back and let me love you

turn out all the lights
baby it’s just you and me now
stay up every night 
we don’t ever need to sleep nah
you got me feelin right
where i need to be
baby lock eyes and
show me that you need me

SPOTIFY

i won't let you feel alone again

this is an old song, but it means a lot to me.

verse 1

last night
wasn’t my best night
my wrist looking like i got into a bear fight
i’m kinda scared 
because i really don’t feel right
i mean,
is everything supposed to be this bright? 
i might past out this time 
and i’m having flashbacks of my timeline
yo, i’m thinking that these cuts 
are way too deep
please help me,
i don’t wanna fall asleep.
and that’s when,
i heard the call on my phone
so i picked up 
because i’m all alone
and you didn’t even know 
you were just at home
so i put it to my ear and said hello
and you asked me if i was okay
then i said no.
not really today
then you told me,
you were heading my way
how did you know that i needed a save?
i’m just glad that it wasn’t too late

(hook)
do you know why i’m a mess
i’m never out of bed
it’s all inside my head
and on the stereo 
a song i listen while i bleed
i hope i never breathe
the way you look at me
you see right through my sleeves

verse 2

tell me how you do it though
girl i really wanna know
it’s not like i’m that public yo
i’m never on the radio
you treat my sleeves just like a ghost 
how do you know?
can you see my cuts?
do you watch them grow?
if it wasn’t for you
i’d be six feet deep
i’m strong now
but i once was weak
you know i’m hurting 
when we still don’t speak
your eyes froze 
from the blood in the sink
i’m sorry that i put you through this
but i promise that i’m on a new movement 
i might fall 
but i know i won’t lose it
so i thank you and look imma prove it
yeah

(hook)

sleeves (prod. haruhi) [unreleased]

prod khail <3

art by @ gasolineandmemories on instagram

i've been sleepin alone
i'm dyin to know
why everybody's hittin my phone
they gettin the tone

and everybody's talkin that shit
but they wouldn't know
you ain't never talked to the kid
like how you think it would go

i'm so terrified
and i done lost all my hope
i'm so terrified

if you would press me for shit
and i'm like proof where it at
and you got nothin to show
then you'll be turnin your back

i get everything i work for
fuck you bitch i earned it
i might be a kid 
at least i'm grindin for a purpose

i might be nineteen 
at least i'm makin sure its workin
writing out my thoughts
 to clear my head from all the hurtin

i'm so terrified
and i done lost all my hope
i'm so terrified

he tells you he loves you then makes you cry
then you call me up cause you know i'm nice

but you fucked things up, now you fucked things twice
now you're on my mind, now you're all i write

now i'm in your head while you're in his bed
no i won't forgive now i can't forget

i'm so tired of wasting time
you're all i wanted but never needed

i'm so terrified
and i done lost all my hope
i'm so terrified

terrified (prod. khail)

nervous through the nails

produced by the legendary @harvest
thank you all for the support

spotify

falling apart (prod. harvest)

produced by me 
beat mixed by https://soundcloud.com/taurusmoon

i could never replace you
you're always my baby
from the moment you met me
it was destiny
over and over again
i fall for your love once again
loving on you till the end
loving on you till we're friends

loving on you till the end
don't you worry i'll see you again
in the back of the whip with my friends
maybe we could go skrt in a benz
loving on you 
baby you see
we can go far and explore in the trees
touching the skies when it's just you and me

woah oh ohhh
i'm falling for you
woah oh ohhh
i'm loving on you
woah oh ohhh
i'm falling for you
woah oh ohhh
i'm loving on you

i could never replace you
you're always my baby
from the moment you met me
it was destiny
over and over again
i fall for your love once again
loving on you till the end
loving on you till we're friends

i'm hearing colors
i'm seeing noises
smoke fill up the air within our voices
i'm seeking to see what you want me to be
you're the key to my heart and you just set me free

i could never replace you
you're always my baby
from the moment you met me
it was destiny
over and over again
i fall for your love once again
loving on you till the end
loving on you till we're friends

warmth

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-want-it-lyrics

guitar by schiavonp

Want It

This is not off the album but I wanted you all to hear this! I love you all very much and there is plenty of music to come <3 
@hatefulbeats

Lyrics:

I know, that you’re trying hard too
I think that I love you, just know that I’m scared too
I think that, you want all your heart back
but I just can’t do that, cause I’m too atached
Flowers, lay out on your front porch, I hope that you get them before your friends
they’ve wilted, the love couldn’t save them, I wrote you a letter, that I’ll never send

I wrote you a letter, that I'll never send

I wrote you a letter, that I'll never send (prod. Hateful)

even when ur falling apart
ill still be right back here
u can fall in my arms <3

fall into my arms ★~(◡‿◕✿)(prod. midnight bound)

stream: https://spoti.fi/2FT8LZs

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-right-back-to-the-beginning-lyrics

piano loop used by dusthill

Right Back To The Beginning

PRODUCED BY SHINI, JAKKYBOI, 93 AND FATS'E

SHINIGAMI, FATS'E & 93FEETOFSMOKE - RESPECT

As I’m falling in two
I wanna to be there for you
Your happy days are when I’m far away
But I wanna be there for you

Thinking of you hurts
Holding memories is the worst
Now you’re deep under the dirt
And it cannot be reversed

Spilled it all over the floor
Now my heart is broken, sore
You’re away and out the door
But I’m stuck inside a drawer

Looking through the glass
Time goes by so fast

So much beauty could amass
Now it’s gone it went and passed
Shadows of the night contrast
Darkened clouds in our forecast

Shattered destiny
We weren’t meant to be

As I’m falling in two
I wanna to be there for you
Your happy days are when I’m far away
But I wanna be there for you

follow sorrow bringer

falling in two (prod. sorrow bringer)

(LYRICS)   ft @hammy     prod. @droozzzy
ask why im down guess im used to it
walk around the mall wearing raf simons
i wont stay here forever thats sad
scared to show my face yeah
i should wear a mask
live in isolation that shit is gonna kill me
looking like a ghost when im walking through the building
i can see myself yea im hanging from the ceiling
laying on the floor and the walls r moving closer

writing these songs just to get it out
i can see my own life and its fading now

      
I can see my own life and it's fading
I can see my own life and it's

life keeps fading 
mind is always racing
out in public 
hide my face 
like im Jason 
got the razor on me
if you hating
got my team around me
we just hanging

we just posted 
smoking potent
my hands are shaking 
I hope she doesn't notice 
I hate my mindset
it's hard to focus
when everything fucking seems so hopeless 

I don't want friends
I just want the end
I just wanna rest 
spend the day in bed 
I'll lay here till I'm dead
can't get out my head 
It's cause I'm trapped inside
It's such a lonely night

I live a lonely life
half the fucking time 
I don't feel alive
I know it's not alright
but I don't have the drive
to do anything
motivation inside 
keeps withering


ask why im down guess im used to it
walk around the mall wearing raf simons
i wont stay here forever thats sad
scared to show my face yeah
i should wear a mask
live in isolation that shit is gonna kill me
looking like a ghost when im walking through the building
i can see myself yea im hanging from the ceiling

used to it +hamilton (prod. droozy)

@treetimee @guardinmusic

Pre release off of 'some boring, love stories' Pt. 2
Big shoutout to Guardin for killing the second verse!
Love u guys <3

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good for nothing | Feat. Guardin (Prod. Treetime)

feat. https://soundcloud.com/stationsix
produced by https://soundcloud.com/plantkidboyo and me 

It’s alright 
Dry your eyes
I can help 
Do you hear me?

You can try
Clear your mind 
Take your time
And you’ll soon see

Do you feel you’re not enough?
Think that no one shows you love?
Why?

But I guess I relate
It’s hard sometimes
Try to change
but stay the same 

It’s alright 
Take a line 
Waste your night
So you don’t feel
And then you wake up dead inside 
You don’t wanna be alive 

Feel the knife 
Shut your eyes 
You can cry
But you cant hide
From all the things you know you’ve done 
And how you used to be someone

Tell me you don’t care about me 
Well I never even cared at all
You don’t wanna be around me, yeah?
So tell me why you called

And I know you don’t really know me
But you think that you know it all 
You’ll always be the same 
You act like you don’t care 
You don’t care 
Don’t care 
I don’t care at all

https://soundcloud.com/stationsix -

you dont care, i know
say im to blame
i cant bear to know that
youre not in pain
i been growing more
one day ill shine
you keep showing me youre
a waste of time

i hope you know that i aint lonely
i found somebody new to hold me down
she tells me everything you told me
to think i let you fuckin know me now

so go and tell your friends you hate my guts
im sorry that you had to take my love
i always put you up above myself, but
you always put me under way fucked up

i toss and turn when im asleep now
i dont wanna eat now
i dont feel complete now, baby
the story ended and you creeped out
what the fuck you mean about
getting over me, now

maybe, ill ruin another verse
i hope this fuckin hurts
you were my only curse
til i put myself first

you dont care (feat. thebreathingbackwards) [prod. w/plxntkid]

[lyrics]

I'm a piece of shit baby I know
sad face emoticon deleting all your photos
burn it all down, then I went ghost
little did you know I didn't even wanna go
(X2)

break my bones like cracks on the concrete
I hear your voice at night when I sleep 
get nightmares you're there standing
always mad at myself for what I can't be
gotta lotta changes but you'll know I'll never change 
pushing all these daises just so I can end the pain 
I see you doing great and I just hope I do the same
I'm always in a storm and I'm just dying in the rain

and I can't breathe, and I can't breathe
can't, can't, I can't breathe
can't, can't, I can't breathe 

I'm a piece of shit baby I know
sad face emoticon deleting all your photos
burn it all down, then I went ghost
little did you know I didn't even wanna go
(X2)

creating these problems I know it's my fault
damage my feelings I'm causing assault 
hurting myself, causing you pain
I'm fucked up
hurting your health, I'm going insane
I fucked up
yeah I miss those butterflies I miss when you would talk 
spineless piece of shit but really you were still my rock 
watch the bridges burned and I turned and then I walked away
I watched the feelings fade and the pain just never went away

and I can't breathe, and I can't breathe
can't, can't, I can't breathe
can't, can't, I can't breathe 

I'm a piece of shit baby I know
sad face emoticon deleting all your photos
burn it all down, then I went ghost
little did you know I didn't even wanna go
(X2)

A new one

Bryan estrada