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music / kian https://twitter.com/kiandoesnt
vocals / GUMI https://twitter.com/GUMIfromMegpoid
illust / https://soundcloud.com/ponkansoup: https://twitter.com/citrus_soup?s=20
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[lyrics] 
Letting everybody take what’s mine
Giving everything, so divine
Keep our universes on a line
Mixing everything, we intertwine
Unequivocally horrified at this feeling that we can’t subside
Everywhere we go we cannot hide
Hide from such a lie
In your hands you hold a broken heart
Dark remains that you had torn apart
“Show with words” where do I even start?
A shitty, mediocre piece of art
A faded memory of how we were
When said out loud, is sounding quite absurd
“Don’t tell anyone” you made me swear
Nodding passively, can’t help but stare

Holding me down
You hold me back from a new life
Your hands, once warm, now nothing short from a cold ice
We’re running now
Running away, the wind still feels nice
The people stare, and it’s unfair that I know we’re right
Holding me down
You hold me back from a new life
And every movement, every word stabs like a sharp knife
The sun is setting all the redness is out of sight
So leave me in the hands of night

And the devil knows everything I have to show
Call it fear, call it hate
Something I can take
You can scream and cry
Scratch your throat when asking “Why”
Make a deal, make it real
Make it yours to steal

Be the devil, be the devil
Soon I’ll, soon I’ll
Be the devil, be the devil
Soon I’ll, soon I’ll
Rid the evil, rid the evil
Soon I’ll, soon I’ll
Be the thing that once consumed me
Set me free
Waiting here forever on repeat
Walking in, the watchers take their seats
Long gone now, the feeling of defeat
Replaced by the slowly rising heat

Holding me down
You hold me back from a new life
Your hands, once warm, now nothing short from a cold ice
We’re running now
Running away, the wind still feels nice
The people stare, and it’s unfair that I know we’re right
Holding me down
You hold me back from a new life
And every movement, every word stabs like a sharp knife
The sun is setting all the redness is out of sight
Leave me in the hands of night

And the devil knows everything I have to show
Call it fear, call it hate
Something I can take
You can scream and cry
Scratch your throat when asking “Why”
Make a deal, make it real
Make it yours to steal
So please appeal

BEDEVIL

Every massacre is a killers masterpiece, but they instill secret motive and drive like love love, lust, addictions, and urges .
All songs have their own meaning as this album starts with “KILL” and ends with “MAZ3 RUNN3R” going through a major amount of rushing feelings to only end up dealing with ones self and consequences.
Sorathe never fails to impress with his multiple styles to gain attraction and express himself in multiple ways!
Presenting to you, “BLOODBOURN3”.
Have a spooky spring!
Album created by ; Bennie Horton III (aka)
SORATH3 ,  JACKOFTRADES
Prod.
Cristalbeach, jakebrehbeats,Blvd,YungVro,
mutru, slayingibis,and level.
Music styles :included in this album:
Pop punk, rock, hiphop/rap, boombap, indie.

3CLIPS3 (CANT S33 SH!T)

sorry for not uploading </3

i dont see
how i was the fastest seed in the race
cuz now im so slow
and i cant outrun the pain

and all those fucking years
of being told that i was gifted
they've made me so indifferent
to any task that comes near

and i think
that it's probably improbable that in 
any other timeline im not still a dick

all my bad qualities
anxieties, insecurities
culiminate into a really shitty tasting soup

and all those fucking years
that i wasted online
of all the possible universes
i know im living in the worst timeline

and i think
that it's probably improbable that in 
any other timeline im not still a piece of shit


im living in the worst timeline

The Worst Timeline

its kinda fucking messed up
that im forced
into getting a job
and then to work

for the rest of my life
and then i retire
when ive already been used up

i dont want to fucking work
i just want to stay in my own bedroom

i really need some pay
but i dont wanna slave
away until im dead
just for a minimum wage
and i dont wanna learn
to become another
cog which just slowly turns

i really dont want to
stay in school
cuz i cant concentrate on who 
is even teaching the bullshit they're feeding me
to make me a tool

and i'd rather not be a robot
typing stuff onto a little box
coz thats exactly what i already am
and im fucking dumb to make that my career plan

i dont want to fucking work
but i want some fucking cash in my hand

i really need some pay
but i dont wanna slave
away until im dead
just for a minimum wage
and i dont wanna learn
to become another
cog which just slowly turns

WORKSHY

im freaking out
coz i got a lotta shit to think about
and i dont know which of it that i should count
coz theres so much
my body hurts and my brain is fucked 

im out
out of reasons to care
my mind is everywhere
ive got 20 missed assignments
i havent made a new song in like 5 months

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

im out
im out of luck
cuz my brain is full of stuff
stuff which never gets done
cuz i find it fucking dumb
im up til 6 am
staring at my phone, im alone again
ive got no friends, ive got no future
so i spend all day on the computer

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

BRAINSOUP!

i miss her

lyrics: suicide on my mind
she smiles at me
she’s so kind
her pale skin
and green eyes
her black hair
and small thighs
angelgirl living online
i wish that she was mine
i want her i need her
but i’m too scared to go outside
my life is boring
i’m scared to go outside
my life is boring
i’m scared to go outside
my life is boring
i’m scared to go outside
always i know
you’ll be at my show
watching waiting
commiserating 
say it ain’t so
i will not go
turn the lights off
carry me home
keep your lips still
i’ll be your thrill
the night will go on
my little windmill

my cold heart reaches out for you
i’m so sick i’m turning blue
i hope you know how you make me feel
drawing my blood to know i’m real
i hope you know how you make me feel

always i know
you’ll be at my show
watching waiting
commiserating 
say it ain’t so
i will not go
turn the lights off
carry me home
keep your lips still
i’ll be your thrill
the night will go on
my little windmill

suicide on my mind
she smiles at me
she’s so kind
her pale skin
and green eyes
her black hair
and small thighs

lmfao im sorry

you called me cute, i said "ok"
i'm sorry i just didn't know what to say
i feel embarrassed all the time
every time i open my mouth i want to die
there's something wrong with me

don't talk to me
i don't know how to speak
i'm on a twenty one year retarded streak
so leave me alone
i never pick up my phone
i hate it here and i want to go home

i know that i'm really awkward
when you talk my fucking head hurts
i can't even look you in the eyes
i really wanna fuck you but i'm too shy
there's something wrong with me

Don't Talk to Me

intrumental by deadyami (dead yami)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nj6SKB6oPm4

LYRICS by brynn </3
CHORUS:
I HATE MYSELF
MORE THAN
YOU COULD EVER
HATE ME
MY LIFE IS
WORTHLESS
AND HAS NOTHING
LEFT FOR ME
DIG MY GRAVE
AND BURY ME
SIX FEET
UNDERGROUND
I LEFT THIS
PLACE AND I DONT
NEVER WANT TO
BE FOUND

VERSE 1:
I JUST WANNA
FEEL LOVE BUT
WITH YOU I 
FEEL SO USED
IM NOT ENOUGH
FOR YOU AND
I FUCKING SUCK
IT'S TRUE
ALL I FEEL
IS PAIN
AND I JUST WANNA
BECOME NUMB
EVERYTIME I
SPEAK I JUST
FEEL SO
FUCKING DUMB
I NEVER DO
THE RIGHT THINGS 
AND I END UP 
IN THE MUD
IM NOT WORTH
SAVING CUZ I
ALWAYS SEEM
TO FUCK UP

CHORUS:
I HATE MYSELF
MORE THAN
YOU COULD EVER
HATE ME
MY LIFE IS
WORTHLESS
AND HAS NOTHING
LEFT FOR ME
DIG MY GRAVE
AND BURY ME
SIX FEET
UNDERGROUND
I LEFT THIS
PLACE AND I DONT
EVER WANT TO
BE FOUND

VERSE 2:
PLEASE DONT GET
MAD AT ME
IM TRYING TO
MAKE YOU HAPPY
I MISS THE DAYS
WHERE I COULD
MAKE YOU SMILE
AND WE WERE LAUGHING
PLAYING WITH
MY HEART AND
I KNOW THAT SOON
THAT IT WILL BREAK
I LOOK TO YOU
AND IM SCARED OF
ALL THE THINGS
YOU'RE GONNA SAY
THERE IS NOTHING
LEFT FOR ME
IN THIS PLACE
I NEED TO LEAVE
BUT I STILL WISH
I COULD HAVE BEEN
ALL THAT YOU
WOULD EVER NEED

CHORUS:
I HATE MYSELF
MORE THAN
YOU COULD EVER
HATE ME
MY LIFE IS
WORTHLESS
AND HAS NOTHING
LEFT FOR ME
DIG MY GRAVE
AND BURY ME
SIX FEET
UNDERGROUND
I LEFT THIS
PLACE AND I DONT
NEVER WANT TO
BE FOUND

i hate myself (demo)

lyrics:

am i over you
are you over me?
 and no matter what
will we ever be?
  i want to sound like i should
but what does that mean to you
what does it mean to should
is it for my own good

but your closing
closing off for business 
i think its suspicious 
so much morning sickness
sleeping next to lies
not caring when i cry

what difference does it make
why are you laughing at me this time
do you know something i dont
are you begging me to try 
won’t you do something
 i won’t just admit that you’re alone
 im taking out the trash
we’re taking you home

back in limbo
out the window
 just relax
you always tip toe not the past
its just an intro
just sit back
and watch me here so
 write you back
 that we’re just cracked
 i’ve got to get this off my back
cant fight that feeling deep inside no more

cant fight back
you fucking cackle like a jackal 
got to get a bitch 
that doesn’t like me back though
 ccv  your just a quarter of a loan
 i gotta get this shit
off my motherfucking back though 
you forced my face into a smile
so i left my love in a single file 
i looked all over for someone to meet
 but i left right off back at your feet no

distance  made me numb and vicious
accepting your forgiveness
 made you narcissistic
And I Cant find that feeling  anymore I never knew you burned into my core

am i over you
are you over me?
 and no matter what
will we ever be?
  i want to sound like i should
but what does that mean to you
what does it mean to should
is it for my own good

Caramel Kidney

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