Chill Vibes

I like green eyes and butterflies what else is there to know.

Butterflies

Digging through the attic once more
Gotta figure out what I’m looking for
some old pictures of you and dad
Didn’t know the parents that I had
So blessed to be a lucky man
All because of you and dad

You told me to keep on fighting
But it ain’t like I ain’t trying
all these wounds keep me crying
sometimes it feels like I’m dying
I keep growing, and hoping that you’ll see
The type of man I’m trying to be
I’ll sure as hell keep on going
searching boxes endlessly
Oh, the things I keep on doing
for some peace and serenity

Digging through the attic once more
Gotta figure out what I’m looking for
some old pictures of you and dad
Didn’t know the parents that I had
So blessed to be a lucky man
All because of you and dad

You told me to keep on fighting
But it ain’t like I ain’t trying

Lucky Man

I cannot blame you
As much as I want to
Like fish in the sea
Swimming endlessly
The thoughts never gone
It goes on and on
But I know deep down
why you’re not around
And I feel it now
just don’t know how
release these feelings
keeps my head spinning

Around
And
Around

Close to the ground
I scream and shout
Let it out
Keeps my head spinning 

Around
And
Around

Out in an ocean
waves of emotion
distant memories
Swimming endlessly
Rain clouds forming
Heart still alarming
stomach is empty
Since when you left me
I can’t seem to find
beauty inside 
release these feelings
keeps my head spinning

Around
And
Around

Close to the ground
I scream and shout
Let it out
Keeps my head spinning 

Around
And
Around

Spinning Around

Promised I’d only give the best of me
Tried so hard ain’t nothing left of me
Just wanted you to have faith you see
In the end just a gold-plated fallacy

desperately kept it tucked away
Covered it up day after day
Falling to my knees I am broken
Chipping away no longer golden

And to my surprise, you told me to stay
“Nobody’s perfect” that’s what you’d say

Gold plated fallacy,
like a belief broken down
but it still hangs around
despite all the proof
You still believe
Gold plated fallacy

And now that we’re older
wonder why I tried to hide
arms around my shoulder
Always by my side
Even when I was colder
You let all my flaws slide
And to my surprise, you told me to stay
“Nobody’s perfect” that’s what you’d say
Gold plated fallacy,
like a belief broken down
but it still hangs around
despite all the proof
You still believe
Gold plated fallacy

Gold - Plated Fallacy

ever sit back and listen to the rain 
thinking this worlds so full of pain 
lost ones fighting to abstain 
darkness puts on such a strain 
Over and over, you try to obtain 
Release from chaos that drives you insane 
Thinking there’s no other way
you can make it through today

but it’s not impossible
please don’t give up
It’s so much to handle
I know you feel stuck
Saying nothing’s gonna change
That it’ll just stay the same
But that won’t release this pain
So just sit back and let it rain

*Bonus unused lyrics*

Ever just stand and tone it out 
Wondering what life is about 
your inner soul begins to shout 
mind overflown with constant doubt 
Feel so down you start to pout 
And tears pour just like a spout 
Thinking there’s no other way
you can make it through today
 
but it’s not impossible
please don’t give up
It’s so much to handle
I know you feel stuck
Saying nothing’s gonna change
That it’ll just stay the same
But that won’t release this pain
So just sit back and let it rain

Let It Rain

Will I be forever dreaming
Tell me what is the meaning
Have the answers while I’m sleeping
when I awake, I’ll be weeping  
To know it all, would that be wise
I’ve lost it all, a million times
A grand adventure off to find.
If only life could be this kind

In Dreams I see these visions, 
attacking my suspicions
leading me to conclusions,
yet awake to pure confusion.

Sit in silence, the world unfolds
All the stories they’ve been foretold
In dreams, in dreams, in dreams
We see these things, that sing

To our hearts hope they bring
Calling us, to a greater being
To reach the stars let glory ring 
But when I awake, life is fleeting
If only I could be so bold
To reach out my hand and hold 
A treasure worth more than gold
How has the trail become this cold

In Dreams I see these visions, 
attacking my suspicions,
leading me to conclusions 
yet awake to pure confusion.

Pure Confusion (remake)

1 take, errors left and all, no editing or do overs, just raw. I've been working on some more intense vocals, and had to put so much time into another song, I just wanted to release something I had written without all the grueling hard work. Vocals start out a little weak, could easily fix, but I don't wanna! Hope you enjoy! Much love to all.

By Myself (Demo)

This song was written to fit an instrumental by Steve Vercelloni. I listened to some of his tracks, and this song I just immediately gravitated towards. I wrote the lyrics while listening to his music and everything just came to me. This was probably the most natural a song has ever come to me. A HUGE credit goes to Steve. His music is amazing and he has helped me so much in such a short time! Please have a listen and enjoy.

Sad Boys Cry (music by Steve Vercelloni)

This is an acoustic version of a collab I did with Miami Jeff. We wrote the lyrics together. I sent him a demo of a song similar to this with just some guitar and the lyrics. He restructured the lyrics to flow better and added some of his own to it. He constructed a masterpiece with a full instrumental and vocal guide for me to follow. I was stuck on my own as well, Miami Jeff was cool with doing both, with this coming out as a reprise or alternative version. I hope you enjoy this one, and if you haven't heard the version on Miami Jeff's page, I highly recommend it. It has a very cool video, along with some awesome track art.


1)  THE BURNING LEAVES UPON THE GROUND,

     THE GRASS, THE TREES, OBSCURE THE SOUND,

     THIS FEELING OF IMPENDING DOOM,  

     SMOKE FROM THE ASHES HIDE THE MOON,

     REMEMBER WHEN OUR LOVE WAS NEW?

     NOW WHAT’S A THING LIKE ME TO DO?



          I’LL KEEP FLOATING THROUGH LIKE ROBOTS DO,

          EXPRESS NO LOVE, NO EMOTIONS TOO

          CLANKING AWAY WITH RUSTY PARTS, 

          LIKE THE TINMAN WITHOUT A HEART,        

          BUT DEEP DOWN INSIDE I CAN STILL RECALL,

          A SENSE OF WARMTH BEHIND THIS WALL,

          YOUR LOVELY FACE, YOUR EYES OF BLUE,

          FUNNY THE THINGS  ROBOTS DO?



2)  HIGHWAY HYPNOSIS HALF ASLEEP,

     THE TRUCKS, THE CARS, THE LINES THAT CREEP,

     I’M FEELING DROWSY, PASSING OUT,

     HORNS HONKING WILDLY AWAKE THE DOUBT,

     WHAT HAPPENED TO THE LOVE WE KNEW?

     NOW WHAT’S A THING LIKE ME TO DO?

          

          I’LL KEEP FLOATING THROUGH LIKE ROBOTS DO,

          EXPRESS NO LOVE, NO EMOTION TOO

          CLANKING AWAY WITH RUSTY PARTS, 

          LIKE THE TINMAN WITHOUT A HEART,        

          BUT DEEP INSIDE I CAN STILL RECALL,

          A SENSE OF WARMTH BEHIND THIS WALL,

          YOUR LOVELY FACE, YOUR EYES OF BLUE,

          FUNNY THE THINGS ROBOTS DO,

         

                          BY BUBBA MADDUX & JIM VALDES

                                © 2023

Like Robots Do (Reprise)

There's something very special about the making of a song. Sometimes its lyrics given music, or music given a voice of it's own. This time it was probably even more special. I wanted to show my daughter how to write and record a song. So I wrote some lyrics practiced some and recorded it while explaining everything I was doing. I told her that words are magic, and you can use them to shape the world around you. You can use them to hurt people, make them sad, make them laugh... but ultimately I hoped that she would use her words wisely to uplift people's spirits. In turn it would shape her world for the better. That if she used her words to harm others, those words would harm her in return. If she used her words for good, it would shape her into the beautiful woman she is meant to be some day. I hope you all find this song as beautiful as I do.

Lyrics:

Beyond the wall
There lies a story
A love so deep
It was buried
Beneath 
The old oak tree
And in the trunk
Their names were carved
Beneath the old 
Oak tree
Their names
Forgotten memories

And you say, 
Nothing last forever
And I say
You’re wrong
Because just because
We’re gone
Doesn’t mean our love
Won’t carry on

Beyond the wall
The cries of warring
The blood would seep
his to carry
Burden
Heavy as an oak tree
Where in the trunk
Their vows were carved
Beneath the old 
Oak tree
Their vows
Begotten Children sing

And you say, 
Nothing last forever
And I say
You’re wrong
Because just because
We’re gone
Doesn’t mean our love
Won’t carry on

The Old Oak Tree

Working on a collab, I just did this off the top today. Wrote it today, recorded an acoustic loop for the lyrics I wrote and sang it raw no rehearsing. Came out nice I think. I may go back and make a full song out of it some day. But for now just my guitar and voice. Hope you enjoy

Lyrics:
The wolf spirit dances in the night 
Under the moon just after twilight 
The sun had it’s turn to play 
And she just couldn’t wait 

Cuz you, you were waiting too 
Feeling, just like a fool 
Cuz you’re, so In love 
But that’s just what you do 

Gotta get that feeling on
Gotta get that feeling on
Nothing ever feels like this
The moment before you kiss
Nothing like total bliss
Gotta get that feeling on

You gotta make her your best friend
Gotta be with her till the very end
Gotta make her yours and only yours
But how can you do it when you’re like this
Your heart so empty full of loneliness
Can you pull it off can you steal a kiss
No time is better than a time like this

Get That Feeling On

Lyrics:
Searching for a life, I’d relive twice
Tried to build, a lovely world
Through these eyes

It’s not as easy, as far as I see
Shifting tides, a crazy place
Through these times

If only I, could really fly
off the ground, a grand idea
Through the sky

Stayed living in, my simple mind
Walking down, an unlit path
Through the blinds

Unveil the universe
Conceal controversy
Reveal the true verse
Unreal testimony 

Cuz I, want the truth, no matter how it makes me feel
But my eyes are new, and I can’t see, what’s actually real
So, if I make mistakes, please show me how, to change my view
For its A great escape, programmed in me. To make it through

Unveil the universe
Conceal controversy
Reveal the true verse
Unreal testimony

Unveil The Universe (Demo)

Wanted to do something country, tried to sing it in a country style, just didn't work well, sang it like this and liked it, this is like the 3rd recording and it came out the best, just kind of got lost in the moment. A couple screw ups, did you notice? haha. Anyway, hope you enjoy! 

Lyrics:
Did you notice the flowers
They withered away
Did you notice the hours
I put in today

I bet you’re not happy
Can tell by the way
That look on your face
Puts more on my plate

I’m Drowning in the moment no amount of air
Can breathe life into this troubled man’s affairs

I’m not going anywhere
It’s better if I stay
I’m not going anywhere
Just chipping away

Did you notice these sad eyes
Take a look inside
To break the disguise
You know what you’ll find

I bet you’re not sorry
Can tell by the way
That grin on your face
You know what I’ll say

Did You Notice

Been enjoying going out in nature with the family lately, we go to the beach, find shark teeth and shells, watch sunsets, and check out the stars. Each time I go, I think about the next time I can go, it really helps to unplug sometimes. 

Lyrics:
I miss the days
We used to ride our bikes out in the streets until night
The good old days
When we knew to head on home from the street lights
Those days are gone
Now everyone is tied up on all their little devices
So, what went wrong
We forgot human connection and got buried in our vices

So come on out, here with me, and forget those stupid things
Leave your phone on the charger, and let’s enjoy some nature
Just get lost outside for a while, I’m sure it’ll make you smile
Forget about showing them what we were up to
Let’s just keep this little moment between me and you

Just between, me and you
No one needs to know
What we were up to
A little private show
Just for me and you

Just Between Me And You

Wanted to write a song about what it's like being a nurse in the hospital. When I was very young, I knew I wanted to be a nurse. My mother was a nurse, and I loved how much she cared for her patients. She worked in the ER mostly, and I thought I would love the ER.
I soon found out, it's not as glorious as I had imagined. It was difficult, seeing people die, or severely hurt or sick. I went over to psych nursing very early on, it was just more my style, and not as much death. 
Recently I moved, and had to switch from psych to a psych/med surg floor. I met a lot of great people throughout my career, but I can't help but feel this is where I've grown the most, and I've met the most amazing people. I know it won't last, unfortunately there is high turn around in the medical field, and people come and go constantly. I won't ever forget all the great people I've met along the way, especially the ones on 3 central. I hope you enjoy the song!

Lyrics:
I used to only care about myself
Didn’t think about no one else
Until I realized we’re all the same
We’re all just humans given a name

I always thought I would be something
Until rock bottom when I felt nothing
But something changed within me
It was the nights I spent on 3c 

When I helped, someone else
Just that look in their eyes
Being there for someone’s health
These feelings that used to hide

Taking hold Of my soul
Taking me On a journey
Everything’s A mystery
Spending my nights On 3c

I used to cry on those nights
Someone would lose their life
Everything just seemed to freeze
All the families begging please

Why’d I think there was glory
Within every nurse’s story
But the truth I soon realized
Suffering before my very eyes

When I helped, someone else
Just that look in their eyes
Being there for someone’s health
These feelings that used to hide

Taking hold Of my soul
Taking me On a journey
Everything’s A mystery
Spending my nights On 3c

Nights On 3 Central

lyrics:
Oh, I never tell ya, when I’m suffering
when I open up to ya we just start arguing
Oh, I never thought I could feel this bad
Seems to get worse When I say I’m sad
Oh, I never meant to finally explode
Guess I needed release from this dark hold
Oh, I never tall ya, I miss how we used to be
when I speak truth You just take it personally

But what if I, just needed a hand
And what if I, didn’t know how to land
Sometimes fly high, others times I’m low
Sometimes goodbye, is the way to go
But I, won’t give in that easy
I just need you to hear me
cuz I, won’t give in that easy
Gotta make sure you hear me
I love you
And I struggle too
I love you
But I struggle too

When I started to tell ya, that I had it rough
Response the same But I kept opening up
When I felt like I couldn’t be more vulnerable
pushed past these walls, proved that we’re capable
When it felt like any moment I just might explode
We’d sit down, talk and try and lessen the load
slowly but surely became what we wanted
We tried our hardest, this is how it started

What if I, just needed a hand
And what if I, didn’t know how to land
Sometimes fly high, others times I’m low
Sometimes goodbye, is the way to go
But I, won’t give in that easy
I just need you to hear me
cuz I, won’t give in that easy
Gotta make sure you hear me
I love you
And I struggle too
I love you
But I struggle too

I Struggle Too

Just did this more for fun than anything. Came up with the guitar part first on this one, and then just wrote some lyrics to go with it. Recorded the guitar, then vocals, then added a little bit of drum. It's nothing serious, just for fun, as usual.

Lyrics:

Can you feel it
Tell me can you feel it
lets repeat it
Tell me did you see it
Hold that feeling
Hope it’s never ending

Just hold on, don’t let go
These are the feelings that we know
Just beyond, the mountain top
The burning sun begins to drop
And I don’t want to go home
Cuz I don’t want to be alone
And I don’t want to go home
Cuz I don’t want to be alone

Can you feel it
Tell me can you feel it
lets repeat it
Tell me did you see it
Hold that feeling
Hope it’s never ending

Can feel you, where I go
Why’d you have to make it snow
Just below, the thunderous clouds
Like my tears rain’s flowing out
And I don’t want to go home
Cuz I don’t want to be alone
And I don’t want to go home
Cuz I don’t want to be alone

Can you feel it
Tell me can you feel it
lets repeat it
Tell me did you see it
Hold that feeling
Hope it’s never ending

I Don't Wanna Be Alone

Was just experimenting with Hi range this week, this is what I came up with.

Lyrics:

If I was a knight, in a previous life
You would probably be a noble
Hate as dark as night, of the furious kind
And I could never turn the tables

We could be, from different nations
At war, never ending
We could be, From different worlds
Space forever separating

But we’re here, where our worlds collide
Connection so deep that you can’t hide
All the rush of emotions deep inside
Where true love
Collides

We could never be together
In this fairyland in my head
Days holding someone other
Our hearts just feeling dead

We could be, from different nations
At war, never ending
We could be, From different worlds
Space forever separating

But we’re here, where our worlds collide
Connection so deep that you can’t hide
All the rush of emotions deep inside
Where true love, where true love
Collides

True Love Collides

Lyrics:
Cracked like concrete, stress released
Shadows deep lie underneath
Piling up so hard to breathe
With increased velocity

Like a bullet words shot out
Life is good what’s this about
Spewing forth hard not to doubt
Such beauty lays in the ground

Cuz six feet under
Ain’t that far away
Shadows begin to seep
Cracks in your heart 
Go so deep
Shadows in your heart
Just let them be
Cracked like concrete.
Ohh cracked like concrete

Lit like a fuse, make your way
Getting older shorter days
Keeping busy with family
And friends to keep you happy

Til everyone just fades away
Laying still or constant waves
Does it matter anyway
Lay some flowers at their graves

Cuz six feet under
Ain’t that far away
Shadows begin to seep
Cracks in your heart 
Go so deep
Shadows in your heart
Just let them be
Cracked like concrete.
Just let them be
Cracked like concrete

Like Concrete

Really wanted to have a strong emotional guitar, so I a found a couple chords I liked and did some finger picking trying to emphasize the base note. I listened over and over once I had got the sound out of the guitar I wanted and tried to fit lyrics in that would give it a unique and relaxing sound. Hope you enjoy!

Lyrics:

Open your eyes
See the darker sides
Of me

Don’t be afraid
I won’t bite
Today

But if you need
Something from me
I would give it to you

Because
You’re just
So Beautiful

My brain Can’t
Comprehend this
I don’t know if
I can’t stand this

Pain
So much pain


Pain
So much pain
I can’t refrain
Close your eyes
See the brighter sides
Of us

I know I can
Cause fear
But please 
I need you near

But if you need
To run from me
I would understand

Because 
You’re Just
So Fragile

My Mind Can’t
Contain this
I just know that 
We should end this

Pain
So much pain
Pain
So much pain
I can’t refrain

So Much Pain

I work as a nurse in the state of Florida and I love being there for people in need. My other true passion is making music. I'm kind of an amateur but I look forward to getting better and making the best music I can.

Most the songs I do in about a day and then move on. I don't have the skill to make them radio quality yet, but I hope with collaborating with others and making my own music I will learn some skills along the way. I don't focus on perfection, I focus on emotion and try to put feeling into my music.

Also, I love to get lost in other peoples work, I will often play video games while listening to a bunch of someone else's works and commenting on the ones I like the most, not all though, don't wanna seem like a stalker, unless you like that of course.

Been feeling a little burnt out lately, so if I'm not responsive please don't take it personal. Having to work OT to keep the family afloat, so I haven't had time for music and when I do have any time I'm just too exhausted. I definitely want to make more it brings me a lot of joy to make music. At the same time it is very taxing, reaching into the depths can sometimes cause unwanted feelings to linger longer than they should. Anyway, I love all the support you have all sent my way. See ya around!

Chill Vibes

Bubba Maddux