All The Times

Selfish Side Of Me

Been working so I can provide for the family, and sometimes it all feels so overwhelming, and it's hard to express how much you love your family when you're exhausted. I wanted to write something to portray that feeling of just being tired and missing time with your family.

Head In The Clouds

Wrote a song about how when you're raising kids it's difficult to let them do things because it can cause a lot of anxiety. But if you let em do the things they like, and guide them through their mistakes they will end up making better decisions as an adult. Sometimes it's good to just let em be. I want to be clear though, this song does not mean to let your kid just run wild and be naughty.

Just Let Em Be

Wanted to write something that brought up deep dark feelings. How sometimes in relationships you feel like a monster, or a psycho.

Burn Brightly

Digging through the attic once more
Gotta figure out what I’m looking for
some old pictures of you and dad
Didn’t know the parents that I had
So blessed to be a lucky man
All because of you and dad

You told me to keep on fighting
But it ain’t like I ain’t trying
all these wounds keep me crying
sometimes it feels like I’m dying
I keep growing, and hoping that you’ll see
The type of man I’m trying to be
I’ll sure as hell keep on going
searching boxes endlessly
Oh, the things I keep on doing
for some peace and serenity

Digging through the attic once more
Gotta figure out what I’m looking for
some old pictures of you and dad
Didn’t know the parents that I had
So blessed to be a lucky man
All because of you and dad

You told me to keep on fighting
But it ain’t like I ain’t trying

Lucky Man

This was my 2nd song I wrote, I kind of worked a little backwards. I've meant to release this a long time ago and just never could get it to sound how I wanted it to. Now I've it finally sounds as good as I could hope for. Hope you enjoy!

When I Said Go

I cannot blame you
As much as I want to
Like fish in the sea
Swimming endlessly
The thoughts never gone
It goes on and on
But I know deep down
why you’re not around
And I feel it now
just don’t know how
release these feelings
keeps my head spinning

Around
And
Around

Close to the ground
I scream and shout
Let it out
Keeps my head spinning 

Around
And
Around

Out in an ocean
waves of emotion
distant memories
Swimming endlessly
Rain clouds forming
Heart still alarming
stomach is empty
Since when you left me
I can’t seem to find
beauty inside 
release these feelings
keeps my head spinning

Around
And
Around

Close to the ground
I scream and shout
Let it out
Keeps my head spinning 

Around
And
Around

Spinning Around

ever sit back and listen to the rain 
thinking this worlds so full of pain 
lost ones fighting to abstain 
darkness puts on such a strain 
Over and over, you try to obtain 
Release from chaos that drives you insane 
Thinking there’s no other way
you can make it through today

but it’s not impossible
please don’t give up
It’s so much to handle
I know you feel stuck
Saying nothing’s gonna change
That it’ll just stay the same
But that won’t release this pain
So just sit back and let it rain

*Bonus unused lyrics*

Ever just stand and tone it out 
Wondering what life is about 
your inner soul begins to shout 
mind overflown with constant doubt 
Feel so down you start to pout 
And tears pour just like a spout 
Thinking there’s no other way
you can make it through today
 
but it’s not impossible
please don’t give up
It’s so much to handle
I know you feel stuck
Saying nothing’s gonna change
That it’ll just stay the same
But that won’t release this pain
So just sit back and let it rain

Let It Rain

Will I be forever dreaming
Tell me what is the meaning
Have the answers while I’m sleeping
when I awake, I’ll be weeping  
To know it all, would that be wise
I’ve lost it all, a million times
A grand adventure off to find.
If only life could be this kind

In Dreams I see these visions, 
attacking my suspicions
leading me to conclusions,
yet awake to pure confusion.

Sit in silence, the world unfolds
All the stories they’ve been foretold
In dreams, in dreams, in dreams
We see these things, that sing

To our hearts hope they bring
Calling us, to a greater being
To reach the stars let glory ring 
But when I awake, life is fleeting
If only I could be so bold
To reach out my hand and hold 
A treasure worth more than gold
How has the trail become this cold

In Dreams I see these visions, 
attacking my suspicions,
leading me to conclusions 
yet awake to pure confusion.

Pure Confusion (remake)

1 take, errors left and all, no editing or do overs, just raw. I've been working on some more intense vocals, and had to put so much time into another song, I just wanted to release something I had written without all the grueling hard work. Vocals start out a little weak, could easily fix, but I don't wanna! Hope you enjoy! Much love to all.

By Myself (Demo)

This song was written to fit an instrumental by Steve Vercelloni. I listened to some of his tracks, and this song I just immediately gravitated towards. I wrote the lyrics while listening to his music and everything just came to me. This was probably the most natural a song has ever come to me. A HUGE credit goes to Steve. His music is amazing and he has helped me so much in such a short time! Please have a listen and enjoy.

Sad Boys Cry (music by Steve Vercelloni)

This is the 2nd track in a short time I've done with Steve. Interesting story this is actually the initial recording I sent. I tried to re-record to maybe fix some of the vocal errors, but the magic wasn't there. So I left everything as is. I just dialed it in for better sound quality and added some vocals in the chorus. Hope you enjoy!

Anxious Little Boy (Music by Steve Vercelloni)

This is an acoustic version of a collab I did with Miami Jeff. We wrote the lyrics together. I sent him a demo of a song similar to this with just some guitar and the lyrics. He restructured the lyrics to flow better and added some of his own to it. He constructed a masterpiece with a full instrumental and vocal guide for me to follow. I was stuck on my own as well, Miami Jeff was cool with doing both, with this coming out as a reprise or alternative version. I hope you enjoy this one, and if you haven't heard the version on Miami Jeff's page, I highly recommend it. It has a very cool video, along with some awesome track art.


1)  THE BURNING LEAVES UPON THE GROUND,

     THE GRASS, THE TREES, OBSCURE THE SOUND,

     THIS FEELING OF IMPENDING DOOM,  

     SMOKE FROM THE ASHES HIDE THE MOON,

     REMEMBER WHEN OUR LOVE WAS NEW?

     NOW WHAT’S A THING LIKE ME TO DO?



          I’LL KEEP FLOATING THROUGH LIKE ROBOTS DO,

          EXPRESS NO LOVE, NO EMOTIONS TOO

          CLANKING AWAY WITH RUSTY PARTS, 

          LIKE THE TINMAN WITHOUT A HEART,        

          BUT DEEP DOWN INSIDE I CAN STILL RECALL,

          A SENSE OF WARMTH BEHIND THIS WALL,

          YOUR LOVELY FACE, YOUR EYES OF BLUE,

          FUNNY THE THINGS  ROBOTS DO?



2)  HIGHWAY HYPNOSIS HALF ASLEEP,

     THE TRUCKS, THE CARS, THE LINES THAT CREEP,

     I’M FEELING DROWSY, PASSING OUT,

     HORNS HONKING WILDLY AWAKE THE DOUBT,

     WHAT HAPPENED TO THE LOVE WE KNEW?

     NOW WHAT’S A THING LIKE ME TO DO?

          

          I’LL KEEP FLOATING THROUGH LIKE ROBOTS DO,

          EXPRESS NO LOVE, NO EMOTION TOO

          CLANKING AWAY WITH RUSTY PARTS, 

          LIKE THE TINMAN WITHOUT A HEART,        

          BUT DEEP INSIDE I CAN STILL RECALL,

          A SENSE OF WARMTH BEHIND THIS WALL,

          YOUR LOVELY FACE, YOUR EYES OF BLUE,

          FUNNY THE THINGS ROBOTS DO,

         

                          BY BUBBA MADDUX & JIM VALDES

                                © 2023

Like Robots Do (Reprise)

This is the 3rd release from a collection of songs I have been working on with Steve. Since beginning these quests with Steve, I feel as if I have been flooded with ideas. The lyrics have just rushed to me. Just listening to some of his instrumentals they lyrics just come to me. More to come very soon, some have already been made. Please enjoy this one and leave me some comments. I love interacting with you all!

Lyrics:

I could die a million times and not forget all these awful things you did to me
You lied every single night that you went out and found someone else’s company
I can’t help but cry when I’m all alone in my strange and depressing memory
I should just move on and think of this as one of those really fucked up tragedies 

ITS NOT ME ITS YOU! ITS NOT ME ITS YOU!

It’s not me it’s you who took all of our love and just flushed it down the toilet (haha) drain
You said I should take you back but I just can’t because that would be so damn insane
Everything you did before was just a warning to stay the hell away from you
I just have one last thing to say before goodbye but I have no need to talk to you

ITS NOT ME ITS YOU!

It's Not Me It's You (Music by Steve Vercelloni)

lines starting to blur between reality and delusion
You’ll have to forgive me for this untimely intrusion
Meds stolen you see, forced sobriety and confusion
Mental screws you see, Take blindly, an illusion 

They’re not really there they said a hallucination
You’ll feel better they said in this here institution 
Strapped down to a bed, restraints that never loosen 
 Any semblance of sanity escaped once I was chosen 

Madness, but just a taste
Elixirs that I have taken
Seem to have gone to waste
The hours I awaken
Sandman left in a haste
None left for the forsaken
The monster that I face
Stares from a mirror, broken

Tiny pieces make the eyes look familiar but I can’t remember
The shattered glass morphs the images into a mutilated monster
Blood stains from dislodged IVs make for a bloody November
The month I was summoned from the womb of my dearest mother

When did I become a burden on the whole of society 
Voices I hear are the only thing left that’s guiding me
Who should I believe, the ones who keep me in captivity 
Or the ones who whisper plans in my ears oh so constantly

Madness, But Just A Taste

So, I recently got into messing around with all the instruments and just decided to create something from scratch. I had a ton of fun making this and just wanted to share it. It's not super serious, so please don't take it to seriously. Hopefully it'll give some of you a good laugh. I warn you though, it might get stuck in your head haha.

Can We Save This Love

Wish that I could freeze time
Know that we can’t rewind
This thought’s stuck in my mind
Cutting out on this line

Onto the trail again
Looking for purposes 
fulfill my quotas
Before the end of this
I wish I knew it all
A very long time ago
But even I know
That’s not the way it goes

When did I start to
When did I start to
When did I start to
Fall in to line

All of this Darkness
All of this Darkness
All of this Darkness
Making me blind

Yet a glimpse of hope
Keeps me moving on
Pray to find my way
Find my way back home.

Wondering when the world will end
Stories all planted inside my head
Media lies they’re not my friend
One of these days we’ll all be dead

Wish that I could freeze time
Know that we can’t rewind
This thought’s stuck in my mind
Cutting out on this line

They’re on my tail again
Looking for evidence
Tapping our cell lines
Unsure of the consequence
I wish I knew this all
A very long time ago
But even I know
They say the way it goes

When did I start to
When did I start to
When did I start to
Fall in to line

All of this Darkness
All of this Darkness
All of this Darkness
Making me blind

Yet a glimpse of hope
Keeps me fighting on
Pray to find my way
Find my way back home.

Yet a glimpse of hope
Keeps me hanging on
Pray to find my way
Find my way back home.

Yet a glimpse of hope
Keeps me moving on
Pray to find my way
Find my way back home.


Find my way back home (Music by Steve Vercelloni)

This is a song I created with a good friend of mine at work. We work the opposite shift, but we always run into each other. We had an immediate connection and the lyrics I wrote matched up almost perfectly with what he wanted to do with the song. We hope to do more and start recording stuff together but it's been really tough with life. Life gets so busy sometimes, and you just gotta keep rolling with the punches. 
Lyrics:
The Change is gonna come, Gods will be done

Wish I could control these emotions but my mind is over flowin, I keep grasping at these feelings, but life just keeps on stealing, them away, wish they would stay, but now the mood has altered, and I might have faltered, but we all know that like the setting sun, that one day the change is gonna come.

Feelings fleeting fast, tried to make it last in a second ripped outta my grasp, now I’m mad Thinkin bout what I had and It’s so sad, my bad, go ahead and laugh, trying everything just to get back on track

Got myself in a pickle, but no it don’t tickle, it’s making me brittle watching these tears trickle man I’m being so fickle, sick of feelin so little, life is such a riddle, maybe I’m the one who’s artificial. 

endlessly flippin Once again I’m trippin, and once it’s goin it goes On and on like dominos, Each thought in a different direction Each session a different expression Each moment another infection 

Settin in, getting septic now It’s so toxic how, I can’t block it out Can’t stop it wow It’s clearly me, eerily, I’m comfortably sailing these seas More easily than thee. And what you can’t see

is that maybe It comes so naturally because you casually be interrupting me, disrespecting me and I just take it see. Sadly, I can’t seem to find the seam to patch up These feelings takin me places I don’t wanna be. 

Livin life on the edge livin dangerously Truthfully that’s the thing that twists these thoughts together, the toxic traits that took to and tethered. So interconnected. It’s Like I’m plugged into your hard drive and to feel alive 

I kept it encrypted inside, so you can’t disconnect it. Maybe I’m the virus, but in spite of this, I find bliss in your lips. A simple kiss to save all of this. But watch out for the twist

moods start flippin, I start slippin, give in to sippin, bottles I’m rippin, constantly sinnin, if only I’d listen, that ain’t really livin, gotta ask to be forgiven. Cuz it’s not all about the liquor or the women.

How you be feelin, life keeps on dealin, demons be appealing, you’re hooked and they’re reeling, so good at concealing, always double dealing, but watch out it’s your soul they be stealin.

Wish I could control these emotions but my mind is over flowin, I keep grasping at these feelings, but life just keeps on stealing, them away, wish they would stay, but now the mood has altered, and I might have faltered, but we all know that like the setting sun, that one day change is gonna come.

Change gon come gods will be done Hey all Change gon come gods will be done, saying change gon come gods will be done, gods will, gods will be done

The Change Is Gonna Come (Music by Michael Murray)

There's something very special about the making of a song. Sometimes its lyrics given music, or music given a voice of it's own. This time it was probably even more special. I wanted to show my daughter how to write and record a song. So I wrote some lyrics practiced some and recorded it while explaining everything I was doing. I told her that words are magic, and you can use them to shape the world around you. You can use them to hurt people, make them sad, make them laugh... but ultimately I hoped that she would use her words wisely to uplift people's spirits. In turn it would shape her world for the better. That if she used her words to harm others, those words would harm her in return. If she used her words for good, it would shape her into the beautiful woman she is meant to be some day. I hope you all find this song as beautiful as I do.

Lyrics:

Beyond the wall
There lies a story
A love so deep
It was buried
Beneath 
The old oak tree
And in the trunk
Their names were carved
Beneath the old 
Oak tree
Their names
Forgotten memories

And you say, 
Nothing last forever
And I say
You’re wrong
Because just because
We’re gone
Doesn’t mean our love
Won’t carry on

Beyond the wall
The cries of warring
The blood would seep
his to carry
Burden
Heavy as an oak tree
Where in the trunk
Their vows were carved
Beneath the old 
Oak tree
Their vows
Begotten Children sing

And you say, 
Nothing last forever
And I say
You’re wrong
Because just because
We’re gone
Doesn’t mean our love
Won’t carry on

The Old Oak Tree

I made this song for my children. I wrote the lyrics awhile back, and the inspiration to make a beat hit me early this morning. It's an early stage demo, but I think it came out nice. I'm constantly thinking about music, so I just put stuff out as it comes. I don't really worry about genre, I just let the music come to me. I hope you enjoy!

As I Sing You A Lullaby (Demo)

This is the final song in the series of songs I did with Steve. I write a lot of depressing stuff so I wanted to do something lighthearted. Hope you enjoy.

I'll Never Be Famous (Music by Steve Vercelloni)

I like to just let my mind do what it wants when I create. This topic is probably heavy on everyone's minds since elections are coming up. Please be kind to people, we are not the enemy, they are. Just look closer before you put your own personal value behind any of these people. They're not worthy, they're not going to save us. Only we can do that as a community. So, give back to your community if you can, and help each other through these difficult times. Maybe you can save someone from the brink of destruction, or maybe you need saving. It's up to the people here to love their communities. Money and power are not important, people are.

Lyrics:
Stuck watching these videos on repeat
Don’t even gotta think about what to eat
Everyone making the same video blogs
They’ve programmed us all into Pavlov’s dogs
It gets even weirder the closer you look
They know that you won’t even pick up a book
They’re watching us all with these little devices
They’ve got you hooked on all of your vices
You wanna deny it, that’s just human nature
Try to talk to others, people never been faker
Cognitive dissonance is now just normal behavior
I’m just hoping maybe I can be somebody’s savior

You probably skipped this song 
Or maybe you’re singing along
Somehow cracked the algorithm 
To be bumping in your system
I hope you escape these invisible chains
Until then I’ll be infiltrating your brains

So, your still listening, well congratulations
Now part of a fraction of this entire nation
Most keep on tumbling like little sheep
That’s okay, I love them too, they’re my peeps
You see, we’re all involved, impossible to dissolve
Codes they’ve cracked backed by these ridiculous laws
Putting these outrageous men in positions of power
We’re fighting over which one is less of a coward
Which of these men will leave us less devoured
They’re using income tax, and building their towers
Using influence to garner their riches and wealth
Just like drugs, these fools are all bad for our health

You probably skipped this song 
Or maybe you’re singing along
Somehow cracked the algorithm 
To be bumping in your system
I hope you escape these invisible chains
Until then I’ll be infiltrating your brains

Invisible Chains

I can’t remember when it all began
This crippling feeling, I can’t even stand
I can’t remember how to be a man
This crushing weight of all life’s demand
While sick and tired I do what I can
Could only guess that you’re not a fan
Don’t cheer me on, you just sit there and scan
With displeased eyes, was that part of your plan

Am I not enough
I gave you everything
When you ask for more
with nothing left to give
I lay broken on the floor
And I don’t even wanna live

Cuz without you, I only dream of you
But I can’t stand what you put me through
My minds in pieces, what am I to do
Wish I could say I didn’t care about you

I’ll just keep building myself back up
At least until you have had enough
Then you’ll break me down to fill your cup
Were you always my opponent, so tough
I can vaguely remember feeling loved
Was it all just an illusion, some bluff
Just so you could take all of my stuff
My heart, my soul, my children, my blood

Am I not enough
I gave you everything
When you ask for more
with nothing left to give
I lay broken on the floor
I Don’t even wanna live

Cuz without you, I only dream of you
But I can’t stand what you put me through
My minds in pieces, what am I to do
Wish I could say I didn’t care about you

BROKEN!
ON THE FLOOR!
NOTHING LEFT
Here anymore
JUST BROKEN!
BROKEN ON THE FLOOR!
There’s nothing left here anymore

Broken On The Floor

This is just Acoustic guitar, some basic drums and vocal. Might add more to it later, clean it up some. I really liked writing and recording this one, it has a lot of potential I think and is very catchy. I find it getting stuck in my head more so than a lot of my previous songs. Hopefully you will all dig it as well.

Lyrics:

I didn’t ask you to show
Up late at night, at my door
Wearing that dress, I like so much
I could tell you felt, out of touch
Your makeup smeared, on your face
Why are you over, at my place

Maybe now you know
How much I love you
Taking advantage of the fact

Now I’m standing here
mind isn’t so clear
I shouldn’t even take you back

Cuz, I know I’m just a rebound
But I can’t turn you down
So, I’m Tryin t show you now
Why you should just stick around
Stick Around

I didn’t want to know
All the things you did before
Wearing that dress, just for him
I could tell you felt, a love begin
Your makeup perfect, your eyes aglow
Then he dropped you and now your low

Stick Around

My dad, to me is the shining example of what a father should be. I have no idea why I deserved to be so blessed. I don't think I will ever be what he is. I just hope that I can be a fraction of what he's been for me for my children. Sometimes life gets hard, and you just have to dig deep, and keep going. To me the phrase, "Just be a man," helps me. I'm sure it's a trigger for some, since a lot of people misuse the phrase a lot. The true meaning of it, is encouragement, in my opinion. You're not supposed to have the answers for everything, but if you endure, eventually you will be a man, and you will feel proud to be able to be an example for others.

This is really just a demo, I wrote it, picked some chords and sang it. I didn't do any fancy work, or put any extra effort into it. Just did what I felt in the moment.

Lyrics
I’m not my father,
Yeah, I’ll never be like him
Maybe someday,
But I can’t see it happenin’
No, he ain’t perfect,
Although to me he kinda is
He’s got that toughness
Every man wishes he did

And the only time I saw him cry
Was the day that his mother died
And that time I told him
That I didn’t want to live
He stared me in the face
Tears shining in his eyes

He said son I love you
And I won’t sit here and pretend
That this world ain’t full of pain
Constant shit that never ends
But you just keep going
Until nothing can stop you
Even if they wanted to
Son, that’s just what it takes
To be a man. Just be a man
Now I’m not saying
That you should just ignore
All your problems
Or shove em out the door
But you have to face em
Even if it’s hard
Build up that toughness
Something to fight for

And even if you have to cry
Maybe someone you love has died
Wishing you could hold em
Why couldn’t they just live
Stare yourself in the face
Tears shining in your eyes

Say, man I love you
Let’s not stand here and pretend
That this world ain’t full of pain
Constant shit that never ends
You just keep going
Until nothing can stop you
Even if they wanted to
Man, that’s just what it takes
To be a man. Just be a man

I’m not my father,
I may never be like him
But I’ve built that toughness
I’ll see this to the end
Cuz dad I love you
Just know you’ll always be my 
best friend.
Just be a man, just be a man, just be a man.

Just Be A Man (Demo)

Lyrics:

Trying to fit into worlds I don’t belong
Can’t understand why I’ve done this so long
I’m a walking contradiction, controlled by addiction
Apparently, something I can’t get out of my system

All around me, catastrophe, the epitome of blasphemy 

Spent most of my life, disregarding religion
Though I felt its call, cast it aside as fiction
A pit of despair, deep inside my soul
Damage to repair, such a deadly hold

All around me, catastrophe, the epitome of blasphemy

Save me from my misery
Cast away all my doubts
Bless me with Epiphany
So, I can kick my demons out

Then someone came to me, 
Maybe just a dream
Tore down walls to see 
A chance to be free

All around me, catastrophe, the epitome of blasphemy

Only I could save myself, 
All these corrupted parts
Quell my unfaithfulness
 Heal my darkened heart

All around me, catastrophe, the epitome of blasphemy

Save me from my misery
Cast away all my doubts
Bless me with Epiphany
So, I can kick my demons out

Save me from my misery
Save me, unconditionally
I will be undeniably 
Yours, oh Lord, Save me

Save Me

Working on a collab, I just did this off the top today. Wrote it today, recorded an acoustic loop for the lyrics I wrote and sang it raw no rehearsing. Came out nice I think. I may go back and make a full song out of it some day. But for now just my guitar and voice. Hope you enjoy

Lyrics:
The wolf spirit dances in the night 
Under the moon just after twilight 
The sun had it’s turn to play 
And she just couldn’t wait 

Cuz you, you were waiting too 
Feeling, just like a fool 
Cuz you’re, so In love 
But that’s just what you do 

Gotta get that feeling on
Gotta get that feeling on
Nothing ever feels like this
The moment before you kiss
Nothing like total bliss
Gotta get that feeling on

You gotta make her your best friend
Gotta be with her till the very end
Gotta make her yours and only yours
But how can you do it when you’re like this
Your heart so empty full of loneliness
Can you pull it off can you steal a kiss
No time is better than a time like this

Get That Feeling On

Lyrics:
The magnolias in bloom
Pull me from the grips of gloom
As the lilacs underneath
Make my heart slowly weep

The white picket fence contains
These memories that remain
A picturesque sky of bright blue
Envelops where I’d wait for you

I’d hoped you might forgive
All the things that I did
Desperately tried to undo
All my contempt for you 

Why did I let it get this far
Slowly building up these scars
Saved up hate in a mental jar
Can’t stand how we grew apart
Love that should have reached the stars
Instead, two lonely broken hearts

They say time heals everything
Self-inflicted wounds sure sting
Cuz, I knew I had a love that’s true
 But still, I spilled my hate on you

Magnolias In Bloom (Demo)

I work as a nurse in the state of Florida and I love being there for people in need. My other true passion is making music. I'm kind of an amateur but I look forward to getting better and making the best music I can.

Most the songs I do in about a day and then move on. I don't have the skill to make them radio quality yet, but I hope with collaborating with others and making my own music I will learn some skills along the way. I don't focus on perfection, I focus on emotion and try to put feeling into my music.

Bubba Maddux

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