Demos/Other

What I Was Looking For

Hear Me Scream

I Know We Fight

Slice Of Life

Been working so I can provide for the family, and sometimes it all feels so overwhelming, and it's hard to express how much you love your family when you're exhausted. I wanted to write something to portray that feeling of just being tired and missing time with your family.

Head In The Clouds

This was my 2nd song I wrote, I kind of worked a little backwards. I've meant to release this a long time ago and just never could get it to sound how I wanted it to. Now I've it finally sounds as good as I could hope for. Hope you enjoy!

When I Said Go

I wrote this song about losing someone. Whether it be someone who passed away, moved away or just isn't in your life anymore. At heart I'm a very nostalgic person. I like to do things that bring back warm fuzzy memories. So when I think of those I've loved throughout my lifetime. I don't think of the bad times, I think of the good times. Life has definitely taught me it's too short to hold on to bad memories.

Still Yesterday

So, I recently got into messing around with all the instruments and just decided to create something from scratch. I had a ton of fun making this and just wanted to share it. It's not super serious, so please don't take it to seriously. Hopefully it'll give some of you a good laugh. I warn you though, it might get stuck in your head haha.

Can We Save This Love

I made this song for my children. I wrote the lyrics awhile back, and the inspiration to make a beat hit me early this morning. It's an early stage demo, but I think it came out nice. I'm constantly thinking about music, so I just put stuff out as it comes. I don't really worry about genre, I just let the music come to me. I hope you enjoy!

As I Sing You A Lullaby (Demo)

I like to just let my mind do what it wants when I create. This topic is probably heavy on everyone's minds since elections are coming up. Please be kind to people, we are not the enemy, they are. Just look closer before you put your own personal value behind any of these people. They're not worthy, they're not going to save us. Only we can do that as a community. So, give back to your community if you can, and help each other through these difficult times. Maybe you can save someone from the brink of destruction, or maybe you need saving. It's up to the people here to love their communities. Money and power are not important, people are.

Lyrics:
Stuck watching these videos on repeat
Don’t even gotta think about what to eat
Everyone making the same video blogs
They’ve programmed us all into Pavlov’s dogs
It gets even weirder the closer you look
They know that you won’t even pick up a book
They’re watching us all with these little devices
They’ve got you hooked on all of your vices
You wanna deny it, that’s just human nature
Try to talk to others, people never been faker
Cognitive dissonance is now just normal behavior
I’m just hoping maybe I can be somebody’s savior

You probably skipped this song 
Or maybe you’re singing along
Somehow cracked the algorithm 
To be bumping in your system
I hope you escape these invisible chains
Until then I’ll be infiltrating your brains

So, your still listening, well congratulations
Now part of a fraction of this entire nation
Most keep on tumbling like little sheep
That’s okay, I love them too, they’re my peeps
You see, we’re all involved, impossible to dissolve
Codes they’ve cracked backed by these ridiculous laws
Putting these outrageous men in positions of power
We’re fighting over which one is less of a coward
Which of these men will leave us less devoured
They’re using income tax, and building their towers
Using influence to garner their riches and wealth
Just like drugs, these fools are all bad for our health

You probably skipped this song 
Or maybe you’re singing along
Somehow cracked the algorithm 
To be bumping in your system
I hope you escape these invisible chains
Until then I’ll be infiltrating your brains

Invisible Chains

My dad, to me is the shining example of what a father should be. I have no idea why I deserved to be so blessed. I don't think I will ever be what he is. I just hope that I can be a fraction of what he's been for me for my children. Sometimes life gets hard, and you just have to dig deep, and keep going. To me the phrase, "Just be a man," helps me. I'm sure it's a trigger for some, since a lot of people misuse the phrase a lot. The true meaning of it, is encouragement, in my opinion. You're not supposed to have the answers for everything, but if you endure, eventually you will be a man, and you will feel proud to be able to be an example for others.

This is really just a demo, I wrote it, picked some chords and sang it. I didn't do any fancy work, or put any extra effort into it. Just did what I felt in the moment.

Lyrics
I’m not my father,
Yeah, I’ll never be like him
Maybe someday,
But I can’t see it happenin’
No, he ain’t perfect,
Although to me he kinda is
He’s got that toughness
Every man wishes he did

And the only time I saw him cry
Was the day that his mother died
And that time I told him
That I didn’t want to live
He stared me in the face
Tears shining in his eyes

He said son I love you
And I won’t sit here and pretend
That this world ain’t full of pain
Constant shit that never ends
But you just keep going
Until nothing can stop you
Even if they wanted to
Son, that’s just what it takes
To be a man. Just be a man
Now I’m not saying
That you should just ignore
All your problems
Or shove em out the door
But you have to face em
Even if it’s hard
Build up that toughness
Something to fight for

And even if you have to cry
Maybe someone you love has died
Wishing you could hold em
Why couldn’t they just live
Stare yourself in the face
Tears shining in your eyes

Say, man I love you
Let’s not stand here and pretend
That this world ain’t full of pain
Constant shit that never ends
You just keep going
Until nothing can stop you
Even if they wanted to
Man, that’s just what it takes
To be a man. Just be a man

I’m not my father,
I may never be like him
But I’ve built that toughness
I’ll see this to the end
Cuz dad I love you
Just know you’ll always be my 
best friend.
Just be a man, just be a man, just be a man.

Just Be A Man (Demo)

Lyrics:
The magnolias in bloom
Pull me from the grips of gloom
As the lilacs underneath
Make my heart slowly weep

The white picket fence contains
These memories that remain
A picturesque sky of bright blue
Envelops where I’d wait for you

I’d hoped you might forgive
All the things that I did
Desperately tried to undo
All my contempt for you 

Why did I let it get this far
Slowly building up these scars
Saved up hate in a mental jar
Can’t stand how we grew apart
Love that should have reached the stars
Instead, two lonely broken hearts

They say time heals everything
Self-inflicted wounds sure sting
Cuz, I knew I had a love that’s true
 But still, I spilled my hate on you

Magnolias In Bloom (Demo)

It took me a long time to pursue music. I always wanted to, and I was told I had a nice voice for it from time to time. However, I was full of self doubt, like most people I'm sure. When I first started recording it was on my phone, and to be frank it sounded pretty bad. It took me awhile to learn how to make it sound good. How you hear it in your head is usually not really what it sounds like. After awhile though I started being able to make a song within a few days to a week. It took me a long time to get things to where they are now. I have a full time job, and a family, responsibilities, but I also have a dream. I realize, it may never be where I dreamt it would be, but that's ok. I'm having fun and leaving something behind for my family for when I'm eventually gone. I just wanted to write a song about that. It's a quick easy number, nothing complex just 4 chords and a strumming pattern. Hope you enjoy!

Lyrics:
These dreams I’ve been holding on to
Well, they’ll probably never come true
But if you’re telling me there’s a chance
Well, then better hold on to your pants

Cuz I’ll be blasting full steam ahead
And no, I won’t stop until I’m dead
even if I don’t make it to the ball
At least I can say I gave it my all
Gave it my all, Gave it my all

All these memories I’m holding on to
just marks of what I’ve been through
They keep me writing all these songs
to leave to my kids before I’m gone

Cuz I’ll be blasting full steam ahead
And no, I won’t stop until I’m dead
Cuz even if I don’t make it to the ball
At least I can say I gave it my all
Gave it my all, gave it my all

When that time does come
For me to head on home
To some place no one knows
In the clouds or down below
I just hope you’ll play my songs
And hear my spirit sing along

Cuz I’ll be blasting full steam ahead
And no, I won’t stop until I’m dead
Cuz even if I don’t make it to the ball
At least I can say I gave it my all
Gave it my all, gave it my all

Gave It My All

This is probably terrible, but I had fun making it. Did everything last night sporadically and finished it up today. That being said, please enjoy!

Lyrics:
The unquenched hunger ravages the insides
Forced to plunder, savages with dead eyes
To satisfy their needs nothing they won’t try
They classify their deeds something justified 

You can’t steal love with desperation
Can’t buy success with preservation
You can’t fix what’s not really broken
Can’t be heard with words unspoken

Why let this bother me
It’s just human anatomy
I need my lungs to breathe
I need my eyes to see
I need my mouth to speak
But I’m becoming weak
And just like them
Nothing left to give
I’m not your friend
Broken promises
Strife that never ends
Forced to plunder
I feed my hunger
I feed my hunger

Feed The Hunger

Umm supposed to be a one take, computer is on the fritz, deleted the first take. Anyway 2nd take master piece. Enjoy!

Lyrics:

I got this feeling everybody’s waiting for me
To be something that I’ll probably never be
I got this burning inside my chest so deep
That even antacids can’t stop the creep

I’ve been getting on but only just barely
People getting on my last nerve lately
I let it build up to the top before I blow my lid
But once it’s popped ain’t no stop to this crazy kid

Cuz I’m a warm-blooded American
with pride that most can’t stand
I’ve worked too hard, as much as I can
To let someone tell me how to be a man
So get off my back, I’ll let you be
But fuck around, and you gon see
Yeah fuck around, you won’t like what you see.

Warm Blooded American

I call these two chord wonders! Write some simple lyrics, take two chords, and sing your heart out! A and D chords, no capo, standard tuning. Doesn't get any simpler! Enjoy!

Lyrics:

Been working overtime
Not getting paid
Because it’s all 
Inside my brain

Been staying up late
Not getting sleep
Because it’s all
So damn steep

Like a cliff I’m hanging on the edge
Like a drift I’m headed up ahead
One wrong move I might end up dead
Still haunted by the things you said
I’m sure you didn’t mean
But it ran me out of steam
Tried to take it back that’s the thing
Once its out it’s out eating me
It’s Just destroying me.

Like a train, I’m out of steam
Like a car, with no gasoline
Like a plane, I’m going down
Like a casket, headed for the ground

Been flying on high
Just getting by
Because it’s all
Catching my eye

Been rolling through
Just thinking of you
Because it’s all
I know how to do

Like a cliff I’m hanging on the edge
Like a drift I’m headed up ahead
One wrong move I might end up dead
Still haunted by the things you said
I’m sure you didn’t mean
But it ran me out of steam
Tried to take it back that’s the thing
Once its out it’s out eating me
It’s Just destroying me.

Like a train, I’m out of steam
Like a car, with no gasoline
Like a plane, I’m going down
Like a casket, headed for the ground

Steam

I wanted to include a little talk at the beginning, I know many people probably don't read all the descriptions. Myself included. I've been thinking of a way to reach people more and I figured it's worth a shot to start talking about the song I'm performing. This is a live take with no editing what so ever. Just cranked up a little reverb and then recorded. I did the song a few times before it sounded how I wanted it to. Personally, I got a lot of pleasure out of making this song. I hope the meaning and feelings reach those who need it most. Love and appreciation to all of you who take time out of your day to listen to me. I truly means the world. To those who don't like to leave comments I would like to just say hello to you. Maybe one day when you're brave enough, we can talk about our passions, and encourage each other to keep going in whatever adventure you're in.

Lyrics:
This is just a glimpse, what I’m going through
Paper thin recognition, won’t get me through
Love so deep ignoring consequence
Alone using the same sequences
should just cut it off it seems so useless
Can’t get a bite mentally toothless
Giving and giving want so badly to take
Like a withered old battered down rake
Unable to gather what’s left for my sake
Stuck in a pattern and I’m ready to BREAK

I Need an infusion
Be my surgeon
Use the extraction
Ignore my reaction
Implant it quickly
Forced serenity

Cuz I can’t stop the bleeding
Need someone to retrieve me
Hold me down and snap me
From these delusions to reality
Should I scream for you to understand
Or should I just endure, be a man

Can’t seem to decide for myself
Just pull me off the highest shelf
Don’t let me fall, that would crush me
Gently hold my soul, emotions are erupting

Forced Serenity

This song is about my son. I think with this song, I plan to add a second part about my daughter as well, and then improve the song a little, but this will be the style mostly. I just wanted to write what I would say to any of my children. In fact I'd go as far to say I'd say this to any child. Just be you because the real you is incredible. If you are yourself, you will end up with people who love you. You don't need everyone to love you, just a few will do. Anyway, I hope you're all out there being your most incredible selves! Love to you all!

Lyrics:
You wear those eyes just like your mother
A simple look and your spell I’m under
People quote being wrapped around a finger
Yours so tiny, yet in my mind they linger
The thought of the world changing you so fast
Has me shaken so bad I can’t stay on task

Cuz my baby boy, is no longer a baby
Soon he’ll be out chasing the ladies
Can’t help but hope they don’t destroy him
Because I know the fragile sides of him
Like the time he cried over spilled chocolate milk
How his hair feels soft like a sheet of silk

But I have to let him grow
But at least I’ll let him know
Be you and only you
So, you end up
Where you’re supposed to
Be you and only you
Because you’re more than good enough 
Because you’re just so incredibly you

Incredibly You

Tiz but a demo. Currently, the ideas are flowing so I'm just getting the base ideas out there. It's still a complete song in a sense, but as with everything in life there is always room for improvement. As with most of my songs, it's just vocal and guitar with some added effects. I feel like I often get lost in the online world, and I forget to focus on the importance of real life. I'm pretty sure many people have this same exact issue. So I wanted to make a cool song about it. Strangely enough, it was mostly inspired by some AI songs I have heard, and just the simple lack of emotion, and how terrible it sounded to me. The thought, of a slow change where people no longer can tell the difference anymore and we're all just robots, essentially, just crossed my mind. Anyway, cool idea, pretty cool song, can improve, but I'll work on that... someday, haha. Later everyone!

Lyrics:
Do you not realize, 
you’re turning into a robot
Using all these technologies 
and AI things
Generated automated responses
Programing your brains
To do strange things
Human minds
Are not meant to do

Do you not realize, 
losing your sense of self
Becoming only a small piece 
Of this online world
Programming your mind
To never unwind
Only searching
For some kind of meaning

When there is meaning right in front of you
Hoping and begging for you to unglue
Your eyes and your ears 
Through all of these years
It’s been waiting
Just for you
To come and find a true sense
Of identity

Do you not realize, that boy staring at you 
With those eyes, so full of wonder
Generating feelings of love
All for nothing
Because your wrapped up 
In your phone
But you’re all alone

Do you not realize, you’re missing the best parts
Becoming only a small part
Of this never-ending world
Programming your mind
Never see the light
Only scrolling
For some kind of meaning

When there is meaning right in front of you
Hoping and begging for you to unglue
Your eyes and your ears 
Through all of these years
It’s been waiting
Just for you

Identity (Demo)

Lyrics: 
never meant for you to always have your way
I just wanted us to somehow find our way
But in the journey, I slowly started to fade
The man you thought you wanted I became

and now, that I’ve awakened
There’s this heart-breaking 
Divide between our reality 
And what we feel inside 

IM NOT THE MAN OF YOUR DREAMS
YOU MAY NEVER REALLY LOVE ME 
ALWAYS WANTING PRINCE CHARMING
AND TO ME THAT’S SO ALARMING
BECAUSE HE DOES NOT EXIST
HE DOES NOT EXIST

I never meant for us to crumble away
I just wanted us to live for today
But in the journey, we started to fade
Loving arms turned into hateful blades

and now, that I’ve awakened
There’s this heart-breaking 
Divide between our reality 
And what we feel inside 

IM NOT THE MAN OF YOUR DREAMS
YOU MAY NEVER REALLY LOVE ME 
ALWAYS WANTING PRINCE CHARMING
AND TO ME THAT’S SO ALARMING
BECAUSE HE DOES NOT EXIST
HE DOES NOT EXIST

Prince Charming Does Not Exist

I work as a nurse in the state of Florida and I love being there for people in need. My other true passion is making music. I'm kind of an amateur but I look forward to getting better and making the best music I can.

Most the songs I do in about a day and then move on. I don't have the skill to make them radio quality yet, but I hope with collaborating with others and making my own music I will learn some skills along the way. I don't focus on perfection, I focus on emotion and try to put feeling into my music.

Also, I love to get lost in other peoples work, I will often play video games while listening to a bunch of someone else's works and commenting on the ones I like the most, not all though, don't wanna seem like a stalker, unless you like that of course.

Been feeling a little burnt out lately, so if I'm not responsive please don't take it personal. Having to work OT to keep the family afloat, so I haven't had time for music and when I do have any time I'm just too exhausted. I definitely want to make more it brings me a lot of joy to make music. At the same time it is very taxing, reaching into the depths can sometimes cause unwanted feelings to linger longer than they should. Anyway, I love all the support you have all sent my way. See ya around!

Demos/Other

Bubba Maddux