baby don’t break me
god i’m really feeling fine please don’t burn me now

please don’t let me bleed
am i everything you wanted baby tell me now 

god i know i got some issues but i’m really fucking trying 
i can’t even love myself and i don’t wanna see you crying  

cause i can’t save myself 

down bad when i’m blowing up your snapchat 

bite my nails till i get a fucking snap back

god you’re such a pretty face won’t get out of my head 
i’m so fucking toxic think i’m better off dead 

hold my hand baby kiss my head

tell me how you love me see your face turn red 

i know that we could make it healthy 
but i don’t think you could fucking save me

i’m a mess i’m a mess now

expectations on my chest and it weighs down 

i just wanna runaway and find a new town

i can’t breathe god it’s really getting bad now

i'm so scared

@starsbeforesunrise

prod. flesh

i dont know what to say yet
maybe if i think about it i'll know what to say, yea
maybe there's a message hidden in this blank page, bet
if i look harder i could do this shit all damn day, yea

i need to get my funds up
in need of more than dumb luck to get it going
im learning when i fuck up
even when its fucked up, i set alarms
and if i miss this one then call
cause i was bitten by the all
its all inscriptions on the walls
i wanna live the life i want
i took a hit and fell in love

i see myself right now
i never guessed i'd write this down
i bet reflections lie to me
i still dont know why i believe them
i wanna know what it means
i wanna rip at the seams
i think i'm sticking around
i hope i'm making you proud

i think its going alright by how i judge it
but its about damn time that i feel something
if u could fool me twice
it would put the shame on me
so ill put the blame on me
my only option
3 or 4
thats the amount of days i need to get away from
these thoughts
i been cooking aint forget to wipe the grease off
amount of times u do that shadowboxing look like wii sports
get inside my head feel like im sleepwalking
moving everyday
going slow but it feels like around the right pace
yugioh theres a dark magician in my brain
tryna tell me things
i dont even know just what to say
but ill find a way
i could do this shit like every day
could u say the same
sometimes my heart beat out my chest
feel like bang bang bang
i cannot believe the shit around me i dont know whats fake
maybe theres a message in the page i read it again

i dont give a fuck
id look anywhere for answers
anxious about who i trust
still i try to mind my manners
papercuts, flicking through the empty pages
it feels fucking aimless, i get in my mind and try to find new places

i hope i'm making you proud w/ starsbeforesunrise

I DONT EVEN FEEL ALIVE

★ I hope you all have been doing good, I am now finished with my studies and I will focus on music more and I will even stream on twitch more often, thank you all for listening!!! <3 ★

cover by @qswoaosefg0b (https://vk.com/eraeraryo)
spotify - https://open.spotify.com/track/258eQZ2TNM01Zzb61HC9KF?si=2514b55885784d7b

lyrics
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯
(verse 1)
And this fire in my heart it burns
I have nowhere to turn
Now the darkness closes in
I'm lost inside my sins
Losing all my vision
While the shadows creeping in
Oh babe you did this all to me
Cos u let me fall down to my worst
I feel me break, I feel my emotions burst
Great, I dont feel great, I feel horrible
All my friends were terrible

(bridge)
While I tried my best
No no no
I hate myself
Can you leave me alone

(pre-chorus)
Thinking bout myself (2x)
Put a gun to my face
Could u put me out my misery
Cos I lost everything that I loved
Was it all caused cos of my lust?

(chorus)
Now what will they say
when I'm just a memory?
Will they cry, will they pray?
Or reflect on who I used to be?
On the day that I die,
I want u to remember me
Because I know its very soon
I know how it feels right in hell
My life feels like a cartoon
And I'm hoping you are well
I am self destructing me
To end up protecting you
Even though u make me feel so blue

(verse 2)
I know you make me feel like shit
You hated everything in me
Maybe let me be

While you chase dreams and say goodbye
forget about me don't even try
just live your life and let me die
that's the only thing I strive
cos I don't even feel alive (alive!!!)

Now I am trying to find a way to heal 
from a love that wasn't real
I tried to be the one you need
But you left me here to bleed
Wondering if you ever cared
All the truth been never shared

(bridge)
[Serial Experiment Lain]

(pre-chorus)
Thinking bout myself (2x)
Put a gun to my face
Could u put me out my misery
Cos I lost everything that I loved
Was it all caused cos of my lust?

(chorus)
Now what will they say
when I'm just a memory?
Will they cry, will they pray?
Or reflect on who I used to be?
On the day that I die,
I want u to remember me
Because I know its very soon
I know how it feels right in hell
My life feels like a cartoon
And I'm hoping you are well
I am self destructing me
To end up protecting you
Even though u make me feel so blue
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯

darkness in my heart

Spotify ♥

darkness in my heart (flower x 5head)

Clean up Crew w/ 919javi prod 2oumb

invaderzim (@Chop)

deaf prod. redpriest

nicc sicc (feat. d1v) [prod. by 4evr]

off my a$$ (p. nokia2k)

up to you (Feat. d1v) [Prod. lil biscuit]

Nice lil song 2 start off your February :)
Ty to @jimmydagum for his vocals and  @recyclexbin for the beat!
Mixed & Mastered by me

My IG: https://www.instagram.com/hidingthehurt._/
My Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/1ZEMLFeC3e4J8Y9exK3dKp?si=u887QpU3TJ-iS1EQZjhZLA
My Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC_oLYjSSrRP3yqqQsXUDO4Q

lyrics below:
(st jimmy)
meet me at the station, I know
meet me in the car at the back of the road
I don't wanna fold but u making me think twice
so we can watch the sunrise and let it unfold

shoutout my exes
im sick of texting 
u grab my mind and u twist and infect it

u apply pressure
I stand by and let shit
stir in my head and it gets all infested

(hidingthehurt)
meet at the station
meet at the road
my heart is empty 
hers made of gold

I really love her
she is the one
bet you ill take all that back in a month

ooh ooh oh
ooh ooh oh 
I think people know when she's wearing all my clothes
that were together
that we are happy 
just a facade 
hope my music is catchy yeah yeah

out my hometown I really wanna move
to my haters I really wanna prove 
but your love I dont ever wanna lose
sad forever this aint the sunday blues

(st jimmy)
meet me at the station, I know
meet me in the car at the back of the road
I don't wanna fold but u making me think twice
so we can watch the sunrise and let it unfold

shoutout my exes
im sick of texting 
u grab my mind and u twist and infect it

u apply pressure
I stand by and let shit
stir in my head and it gets all infested

up to you (Feat. d1v) [Prod. lil biscuit]

JXSHI