drone

Don’t read it because she’s lying (she knows it so she shows it). Don’t think this much at home. If u got platitudes in yo head…..JUST DONT SAY EM.

Feels like a lie like my heart is going to pump out of my chest. A lie about my conventionality to people that don't matter, also a lie about my growth to people that do. A lie about my person to everyone. There is a schism of where I am and where I want to be that can only be achieved by long term investment but I just crave crave crave crave to be instantly gratified. LOL. I should not delete this stupid caption to acknowledge the shame of self-betrayal and the wound it leaves. I write this to depart from the dead skin but not dispose of it. Read and weep at All these dumb platitudes that aren't even funny. Because all these funny insincere words are just me lying to everyone like I used to. To everyone's long-term detriment but to postpone a short-term realization of shame. Because I am literally too guilty all the time to even bear a moderate average amount of shame. I want to be stronger than this but I'm trapped in the cyclical need for strength to handle the shame I feel constantly but lie about to not confront because Ultimately I lack that strength but I need the strength, I need to break the cycle. Sorry for the dumb caption originally. I want to be as funny as I can even when I'm incapable because I don't want to be alone. I need constant validation even though I am self aware of the fact I should try to be strong enough to stand alone with an internal understanding that I am valid. I want this to be temporary, so I am sorry for the time being where I am not where I want to be. I will achieve this growth by the correct and most sustainable means, however long it takes.

FebMar 23

Epic voyage

wii_drone

You're a home wrecker, I'm a house deconstructor. We are not the same.

At the time, it's just another good day

i love buildings designed like web pages.

gm_fork

risen 5

@y4ndere @h1yori

i rest my head and sleep pretending
that i am fine and that i never let you down
fall in this cycle of unwanted actions
suicidal an unconscious state of mind x2

thinking back
i realize
i was too blind
now my heart is numb
you were never honest
this time i can tell
you always break your promise
wish i could be indifferent
my brain is in dissonance
  
this burden that i carry
wish you could see thru my eyes
you said that i should grow up but
you could never live my life
and i would never trade it 
i know that ill make it thru
the night, ill be fine

ive been self reflective lately
i know i cant fix everything 
but it feels like im running out of air
every time i wake up and youre not there

fine「prod. yandere + hiyori」

betrayed 「prod. yandere」

just skip around and find a nice one, some of these are not mixed very well and i didnt include everything. This is all just stuff that i either didnt finish or deemed not good enough to post. 22 different files

buddywudd2

torn anxious apart from serenity. serpent looms high and haughty, snake pulls slowly, low and lustful. it’s a difficult line to walk, pursuing twofold passion & pain. 

reclusive loneliness finds solace in sound. wonder meets sea in an infinite field of emotion. 
 
sonder in sound 

Zatoichi

The Canonization of Vatican II

Well, here we are. The day that changes everything in the traditional Catholic movement - the "canonization" of Angelo Roncalli and Karol Wojtyla, also known as "Pope" John XXIII and "Pope" John Paul II.

We have reached an event in history that has only been rivaled by Vatican Council II and the introduction of the Novus Ordo Missae of Paul VI. Today's events are of such monumental and unspeakable scandal that words fail us to provide an apt description of this program.

Why is this not just business as usual? What will now happen to the traditional Catholic movement as a whole? How will those who identify themselves "traditional Catholics" reconcile their belief that Francis is a legitimate Pope bearing the authority of Christ with the idea that John Paul II is now a saint raised to the altars. The Conciliar Church now says that John Paul II is not only to be venerated -- but imitated -- as a man who displayed heroic virtue and doctrinal purity.

Join us for a live roundtable discussion amongst panelists Father Bernard Uttley, OSB, Nicholas Wansbutter, Justin Soeder, Mario Derksen, and Bill Seng as we discuss one of the darkest days in the history of Catholicism and the event that changes everything.

Episode Notes:

This episode references Season 2, Clerical Conversations, Episode 5: John Paul II and “Santo Subito!” 

https://www.truerestoration.org/season-2-clerical-conversations-episode-5-john-paul-ii-and-santo-subito/

Episode Sponsor: 
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Original Air Date: April 27, 2014
Show Run Time: 1 hour 57 minutes
Show Guest(s): Fr. Bernard Uttley, O.S.B., Nicholas Wansbutter, Dr. Bill Seng, Mario Derksen
Show Host(s): Justin Soeder

The Canonization of Vatican II

Hey y'all, it's Cinco de Mayo, my 23rd birthday today. For my bday present to you guys, here's my newest track, a completely original single, made from the @ragelogic sample pack, out now on Splice! A lot of people asked for it, and I hope everyone enjoys it!

Backstroke

Elephant

In Waves (feat. CTM)

prod: yandere
vocals: kerosene + crescent
lyrics written by: yandere + crescent

Stream us on Spotify! https://open.spotify.com/artist/5EyYculuuhEIKCu9IClSV7