production & vocalisation by me
additional vocals by @d1vwv & @swoopyy
mix and master by me
cover art by kyler garrison
2021-2023

Losing Streak

featuring @sglily @with3rx @d1vwv @spira_me

Sudden Departure, Soccer Club 2

MV_: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pk0dtAMEH8c
produced by @bigdog30k
co-produced by @with3rx
vocals by @buffalobang
featuring additional vocals by @drrux * @with3rx * @d1vwv
mix & master by @buffalobang
cover art by @buffalobang

Nerd-Tactics

A Graceful Break Of Violence

@swoopyy @buffalobang @xangang-tm

dress up nicely YSL fragerancy
for you id do like anything
cant tell the truth
i cant believe i cant believe
(i cant believe)
x2

chivarly Age
new bag new love new page
cus ive been hurt plenty
thats why i need some space

hail fellow lets get drunk rn then
cus me and bro lost the fight and
i dont know how im gna come back in
(they sayin) na im done
(what u sayin) na fr im done
he make me lose all my trust at once
can’t be real this can’t be real

dress up nicely YSL fragerancy
for you id do like anything
cant tell the truth
i cant believe i cant believe
(i cant believe)
x2

The Fallen Knight And The Hermit

swoopy & buffalobang - YSL Fragerancy (xangang)

@swoopyy @buffalobang @xangang-tm

climb to the top
i take the fall
its time to stop
its not your fault
i put my pain into this
hate that ur hard to resist

you touched me
it crushed me
it rains then its sunny
the fall of the (k)night comes
i fall then i rise up
x2

i look like its sunday because its sunday today
i want it like always, but always aint OK
come out to the garden, lets get take out i’ll pay
i wanna be honest, but be honest, will u stay

she’s gonna wait for a text back, but ion wanna text back today
but when the day is right ima text u ”i’m on my way”
i’m meeting new people, they tell me to be brave
when fear takes over,  it can go either way

swoopy & buffalobang - Elextric GuiTAR (xangang)

produced by @opal707
featuring @spira_me
cover art & master  me

i dont wanna be someone like you
(it cant get worse than this right?)
you get a bag then ill get 2
(it cant get worse than this right?)
work on myself im someone new
(it cant get worse than this right?)
i dont wanna be someone like you
if its good then its too good to be true

oh please ive heard this a million times its enough
please tell me why should i bother
its easy to take for granted
easy, but hard to manage

do what you want just keep me out of it
(you tell me to shove it then you show up again)
do what you want just keep me out of it
(you tell me to shove it then you show up again)

guess it was about that time its a sign
she want me over, to be honest girl im busy im sorry
hate to break it and im bad with goodbyes
its time to move on

leave me for someone better
philipp my pants n sweater
i want you to be happy
pree me im nothing special

made it seem like i wasnt worth mentioning
b n o tees they sold out like in 10 minutes
man i was dreaming of making it rapping 
but fuck all that dreaming its happening

someone like you + spira me (opal)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WKEIpLhh9bE
@spira_me @with3rx

(ᵗʰᵉ ᵖᵒᶦˢᵒⁿ ᵈᶦᵖᵖᵉᵈ ᵍʳᵉᵃᵗˢʷᵒʳᵈ...
ᵏᶦˢˢᵉˢ ʰᶦˢ ᶦⁿˢᶦᵈᵉˢ
ʷᶦᵗʰ ᵗʰᵉ ᵗʳᵘᵗʰ ᵒᶠ ᵗʰᵉ ʷᶦᵗʰ⁻ʰᵒˡᵈᵉʳ)

ill stand by this sword
til my knees collapse
i cant afford
to go back

i promise that it wont be like the first time
if not the second then im hoping 
for the third time

im a knight in a hoodie
walk around im with swoopy
dont tell me twice im not stupid
never mind im too stupid
dnd on a friday 
bnb for like 10 days
u call em ur best days
when its already too late

im with taher on DR2
we’ll make it through
this time
u think im stupid hmm 
i think so too 
its fine
i keep on doing
what u want me to 
each time
ill keep on falling down
ill make it up sometime

i woke up and felt like trying
gotta stay strong keep fighting
broken down by years of crying
carrying the sword of the undying
id never leave your side
id break my legs off
id give up all thats mine
id sew my mouth shut

collapse + spira me (produced by with3r)

vox prod mix by me ( @bigdog30k)
music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bjxgBrk4ZNI

ill get back on my feet
i know i always repeat
i have been right here before
and i cant talk i cant see
its so much worse than it seems
ive been hurt like this before
and itll happen again

ill tape this body shut and ill bolt my throat
ill walk a thousand miles in this room
ill let this body rot and i hope it floats
ill do whatever u want me to

ill be the swan by the lake
ill be the one that breaks

i cant stand
i cant stand it any longer than i have
it feels bad
grab these hands
everyday is getting longer than the last
it feels bad

everything is falling apart x3

ill tape this body shut and ill bolt my throat
ill walk a thousand miles in this room
ill let this body rot and i hope it floats
ill do whatever u want me to

today im rotting
today
ill do whatever you want me to
x2

back on my feet

music vid: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AVZdLhRk03E
production me cover me
featuring @d1vwv

stay
right here
theres something wrong with this town

days turn to weeks
cant say a word
the way that u dive down
fly like a bird
fly til u buuuurn
cry when it hurts
cry til it huuuurts
fly til u burn

batman soundtrack

batman soundtrack ( featuring d1v )

vox/production/mix/cover-art by me (@bigdog30k)

didnt i tell you i was fine?
i think maybe youre the hurt one baby
i cant do this one more time
i learned to doubt, theres always something shady

:FALL FALL:
:IT ALL FALLS THROUGH:

didnt i tell you i was fine?
i think maybe youre the hurt one baby
i cant do this one more time
i learned to doubt, theres always something shady

                   ⟳

didnt i tell you i was fine?
(did i tell you i was fine?)
i think maybe youre the hurt one baby
(i think maybe you just heard wrong baby)
i cant do this one more time
(i think i do this all the time)
i learned to doubt, theres always something shady
(i learned to doubt, theres always something shady)

im still waiting

Still Waiting

vox/art/mix&prod by me (@bigdog30k)

Lyrics:
if i let you in then would you stay here for a while
‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ touch me softly as you spoke on through the night
‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ and i know youre lost it eats me up inside
‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ this pain wasnt meant for you
  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ this pain wasnt meant for you
  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎

  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎let me forget
  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎  ‎ just for a while
  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎i know it hurts

Softly (as Ever)

Produced by buffalobang

buffalobang:
Crush me baby, betray me
I don't even blame you at this point
There's clear signs of agony
If you're so sorry, then don't do that shit times two
Don't still care how dumb you think I am
I'll always circle back to you

Pieces never fall like we had hoped them to
Crumble into ashes when I think of you
Must be bad huh?
Pieces never fall like we had hoped them to
Crumble into ashes when I think of you
Must be bad huh?

spira me:
Depression
Got crushed under the pressure
Punished by the only one I ever thought was precious
Watch you turn your back on me before I got the message
Searching for a reason for this curse that I am blessed with
A broken rapper
Got drugs under the mattress
All this shit you said behind my back, it had me laughing
Tear me apart one of these days I swear I've had it
Go ahead and break my neck while you're at it

buffalobang:
Crush me baby, betray me
I don't even blame you at this point
There's clear signs of agony
If you're so sorry, then don't do that shit times two
Don't still care how dumb you think I am
I'll always circle back to you

Pieces never fall like we had hoped them to
Crumble into ashes when I think of you
Must be bad huh?
Pieces never fall like we had hoped them to
Crumble into ashes when I think of you
Must be bad huh?

Circle Back

Linger Outro

its my turn
i just need some luck
its time to get unstuck
hurts, hurts to turn around
ill remember you

if these problems still exist, then
god ill truly miss when
youd tell me you need me to
if these problems still exist when
im old enough to reminisce
then god ill pray that you
just take me
its my turn
i just need some luck
its time to get unstuck
hurts, hurts to turn around
ill remember you

its my turn
i just need some luck
its time to get unstuck
hurts, hurts to turn around
ill remember you

Whining

this time i can already feel it
bracing for impact
doing all i can to savour
savour something beautiful
it truly was
you were standing right here
with me beside you
it was diffrent back then..
it was diffrent back then

your teary eyes
took me by surprise
you got me on your hook again
my darling, my darling
dont let me go
i wont let you go

this time i can already feel it
bracing for impact
doing all i can to savour
savour something beautiful
it truly was
you were standing right here
with me beside you
it was diffrent back then..
it was diffrent back then

Embrace

harm me
push me out your way
tell me were okay
just feed me lies for one more day

pick me up one last time
tell me everythings all right
i know you'll aim where it truly hurts the most
friday came so you know its BNO (boys nights out)

(ill always be here, ill always be here
ill always be here for you to-)

harm me
push me out your way
tell me were okay
just feed me lies for one more day

ill be there
ill be there
ill be there for you to find
x4

(harm me
push me out your way
tell me were okay
just feed me lies for one more day)

Harm

i wish i was them
i wish i could prove you wrong
you tell me im him
then why does it feel so wrong
just say how it is
you dont even want me here
i guess you wont miss-
what you're not even looking for

i dont understand
how did it get this bad
i dont think its fair
cus im doing all i can
just say how it is
you dont even want me here
i guess you wont miss-
what you're not even looking for..

''i wish it could last forever''

i want you here
i want you here
i want you here
i want you here
i want you here
i want you here
i want you here
i want you here
x2
what do you want me to do?

Say how it is

@d1vwv

you'll find me by your side again
break my bones and after kiss my skin
everyday is a bad one
and i cant get up
but i wont cry this time
i wont cry this-

i wont cry this time
i wont cry this-
i wont cry this time
i wont cry this-

i dont want you to leave cus ur all i need
stuck in a dark place hear me scream
walk and u talk but i know that is not you
know you cry alot to
im the one that got you
breaking and my heart is aching
maybe i can fix you again if i try

you'll find me by your side again
break my bones and after kiss my skin
everyday is a bad one
and i cant get up
but i wont cry this time
i wont cry this-

i wont cry this time
i wont cry this-
i wont cry this time
i wont cry this-

Wont cry

Wont cry (d1v)

@spira_me @with3rx @bigdog30k

*ill try to forget*
*ill try to forget*

when i fall
youll watch it all happen from afar
youll find me
tattered knocking on your front door
and you can
knock me down onto the cold floor
(i tried to stop asking why)
just tell me
you want me and ill do it once more

do you remember how you held me
cus id do just about anything to forget
forget
forget

i tried to stop asking why- do i do this all the time
do you remember how you held me
cus id do just about anything to forget
forget
forget
cus id do just about anything to forget
forget
forget
i just wish you didnt look at me with regret

break apart and build again
leave me dead into the well
i was up until i fell
connect the pieces to myself
in the fire watch you melt
what you said was never meant
tear the circuits out my face
the deepest pain ive ever felt

break apart and build again
leave me dead into the well
i was up until i fell
connect the pieces to myself
in the fire watch you melt
what you said was never meant
tear the circuits out my face
the deepest pain ive ever felt

forget

forget + spira me ( with3r &  bigdog30k)

btmi - future 86

Can I stop my life so I could just be with you?
Let's hightail to Hawaii on a plane
I'll embezzle what's left of my band fund
To take necessary action to destroy what I have made
You and I, we'll move to New York City
Where i'll get a temp job, and you'll start your career
I'm not being fickle, just realistic
The air is moist but it never gets too cold this time of year


So tell me, was it worth it?
Answer before I get in my van
To drive into the Pacific
Where I'll probably never see your face again


Say the word and I'll put my guitar down
I'll be sad but at least we'll both get laid
We'll start to fight when I start to resent you
And we'll both agree the thought was nice but I should not have stayed
Take the I-whatever to desolation
And now fast food's reminding me of you
So I'll write postcards and I'll forget to send them
Thanks a lot, I lost my mind, and now I'm losing you


So tell me something awesome
That can last my whole life sentence in the van 
'Cause I'm on the S.S. Stupid goals to nowhere
And I'll probably never see your face again

And I'll probably never see your face again

future86 cover

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PYoEvtuKa0Y
ft @drrux
mix, prod, coverart by me (@bigdog30k)

[drux]
It was going great but I stopped 
Pour a drink on the rocks 
I’m late for a show 
I say it’s ok when it’s not 
I’m breaking apart 
I can’t let go 
I was outside my phone on silent sorry girl I missed ur call 
Reaching the top kept falling I’m trying 
But I can’t have it all

[buffalobang]
It always falls apart
I cant really fake it
Woke up this morning and decided that i hate it
And my body’s going vacant
Got a bad feeling and i cant seem to shake it

[drux]
I love fucking up for myself 
I’m coming down once again 
She’s Gorgeous 
Whenever I see her lose my breath 
Why am I skipping every step 
I can never figure  where we stand 
Please go easy I’m doing all i can 
Turns out I was never trying my best
I could never see it for what it is

[buffalobang]
I know you sew me up but 
Im hanging onto the last thread
Real bad day cant make out what just happend
I really fucked it up huh?
Everything is collapsing
Hold me close baby im on my last leg
I was hoping not to get close
Stayed inside my stronghold
Yea i tried not to get too close 
Made it by on bare bones

[buffalobang]
It always falls apart
I cant really fake it
Woke up this morning and decided that i hate it
And my body’s going vacant
Got a bad feeling and i cant seem to shake it

[drux]
It was going great but I stopped 
Pour a drink on the rocks 
I’m late for a show 
I say it’s ok when it’s not 
I’m breaking apart 
I can’t let go 
I was outside my phone on silent sorry girl I missed ur call 
Reaching the top kept falling I’m trying 
But I can’t have it all

Stronghold

StrongHold (ft drux)

featuring @sglily
produced by me (@bigdog30k)

[ buffalobang: ]
a sudden departure
could gut me of everything i knew
the night hits me harder
i bit off more than i can chew

i want you in the team
just tell me what you need
i want you in the team
just tell me what you need

ill sleep without a blanket so my fever comes back
shoulda kept me on the bench, shoulda kept me out the match
didnt have much to give but i gave it all i had
if its not too much to ask for id like it all back

i gotta stop being so timid gotta take charge
im not a good team player and i hate sports
ill take the loss again cus winnings what u asked for
you gave me words but i burnt through em right after

[ sglily: ]
u came to see me i was seated on the bench,
but its for the best, its pouring out again
its important that u know i'm not the best
but im yrs if u would put me to the test

just test me, dont forget me
i'll be on yr team, give it all until im empty

[ buffalobang: ]
ill sleep without a blanket so my fever comes back
shoulda kept me on the bench, shoulda kept me out the match
didnt have much to give but i gave it all i had
if its not too much to ask for id like it all back

Sudden Departure (Soccer Club 2)

Sudden Departure (Soccer Club 2) ft. Sg Lily

featuring @with3rx
prod by me (@bigdog30k) & @with3rx

[ buffalobang: ]
its something that im used to
i thought i knew you
it always bleeds through
this time i need you

i should have stayed back in the distance
nothing hardly ever makes sense
i should have stayed back in the distance
nothing hardly ever makes sense

[ with3r: ]
now i'll fall again
swallowed in
if it all falls in
it wont break you
lost within
swallowed in
it wont break you
swallowed in

up to nothing
give me something
untrusting
to believe in one single reason

[ buffalobang: ]
i should have stayed back in the distance
nothing hardly ever makes sense
i should have stayed back in the distance
nothing hardly ever makes sense

Distance

Distance ft. with3r

featuring @d1vwv
produced by me (@bigdog30k) & @with3rx

[ buffalobang: ]
i can remember and its haunting
aching my day away
my legs collapse and i fall again
and ill get up but its so daunting
and ill get up but its so daunting

twist me into knots & rinse me clean
i dont think its funny how you act, how you speak
when you talk to me
when you talk to me
when you talk to me
when you talk to me
thats not how its supposed to be

[ d1v: ]
i can imagine our life and our future
is that weird for me to say
i spend my life on the computer
our lifes are kinda different so to say
i remember my first breakdown
i was 15 i was bloody
i was scared what u would think of me
and if i was ugly
is it weird for me to say
we are a perfect match
nothing can be worse then what we have

[ buffalobang: ]
twist me into knots & rinse me clean
i dont think its funny how you act, how you speak
when you talk to me
when you talk to me
when you talk to me
when you talk to me
thats not how its supposed to be
i can remember and its haunting
aching my day away
my legs collapse and i fall again
and ill get up but its so daunting
and ill get up but its so daunting

Aching, Dream State

Aching, Dream State ft. d1v [with3r & bigdog30k]

produced by me (@bigdog30k)

it could have been easy
it could have been easy
if i had just listened
why didnt i listen
it caught me by the ribs
and made it hard to breath
i remember decaying
i held on to my skin
please let me in
please let me in
its wearing me thin
its wearing me thin

*Side-line Dweller

produced by me (@bigdog30k)

i thought you knew
i feel it too
you should have come over
when it all fell through
it all falls through
you should have come over
it hurts but it hurts so good

i just wish you understood
i just wish you understood
i just wish you understood
i just wish you understood
i just wish you understood
i just wish you understood
i just wish you understood
i just wish you understood
understood

i thought you knew
i feel it too
i should have come over
when it all fell through
i thought you knew
i feel it too
i should have come over
when it all fell through
it all falls through

Should've Come Over

Featuring @drrux
Prod & mix by me (@bigdog30k)

Buffalobang:
okay ill try my best to tone it down
i know its fun but my jeans they reek of a night out
woke up and my heads spinnin
woke up and my jeans reak of a night out

okay ill try my best to tone it down
i know its fun baby please dont leave when the night comes
woke up and my heads spinnin
woke up and my jeans reek of a night out

where were you when it happend?
i fell again i think im losin my passion
i know you, i know you i couldnt imagine
i was way ahead before u realised what happend

i got these dirty ass jeans on me
got these dirty ass jeans they tell a story
i got these dirty ass jeans on me
got these dirty ass jeans on in the bar



Drux:
I know it’s fun but I can barely breathe 
I couldn’t tell u last time I felt at peace 
i know my haters telling me to keep down 
I know these pills lead me to a free fall 

Low key i do my self the worst way 
don’t ask me to remember i just saw a blurred face 
this girl she tripping she told me she wanna hurt me 
i knew some was off with u knew the first day 

I’m not excited unless u pay me to be
For the right price I might fly out 
I bought 3 drinks 2 for u 1 for me
I know it’s fun but my jeans they reek of a night out

Buffalobang:
okay ill try my best to tone it down
i know its fun but my jeans they reek of a night out
woke up and my heads spinnin
woke up and my jeans reak of a night out

okay ill try my best to tone it down
i know its fun baby please dont leave when the night comes
woke up and my heads spinnin
woke up and my jeans reek of a night out

i got these dirty ass jeans on me
got these dirty ass jeans they tell a story
i got these dirty ass jeans on me
got these dirty ass jeans on in the bar

Night Out

Night Out Ft. Drux

Featuring @reserrvv
Cover-art & Production by me (@bigdog30k)

Buffalobang:
I remember it clearly counting the days
Connecting our hands and touch on your face
I hate that you've seen me like this
I hate that you've seen me

I used to love this place now it's
It's just another state
Sorry if i kept you waiting
I was wasting time today
Crossing off everything that i 
Could have done another way
If its not an easy choice then
It's one that i have to make

Reserv:
I was driving you home drunk
Cus you had more than i did
I was going too fast over
The yellow painted bridge

But i looked at you
And it felt like 
I had a purpose
When i looked at you
All the worst days, well
It was worth it

I told you everything about me
And i don't think you liked that
The look on your face
It could kill me
The look on your face
It would kill me now too

Buffalobang:
I used to love this place now it's
It's just another state
Sorry if i kept you waiting
I was wasting time today
Crossing off everything that i 
Could have done another way
If its not an easy choice then
It's one that i have to make

Another State

Another State (Featuring Reserv)

single for upcoming ep nerd-tactics [10/20/24]
MV https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pk0dtAMEH8c
vox,art,prod by me (@bigdog30k) 

i dont care if u care
i got shit going on
i wanna be where you’re near
tell me i belong


its something theres something 
theres always something
hold on to hold on to
hold on to nothing
i fear for this skin and what im becoming
this pressure is crushing
im running from something 

(when the walls
take my fall
and to silence it all
and i hope for the best
and i hope to be gone)

woulda done everything and more
if you met me in the middle
but you played your part too well
and you played me like a fiddle

you left your tracks on the porch
and expect me to follow
and yea you’re right ofcourse
or ill just lay here and wallow
cus i gotta face tomorrow
and its.. and its… its..


its something theres something 
theres always something
hold on to hold on to
hold on to nothing
i fear for this skin and what im becoming
this pressure is crushing
im running from nothing

(when the walls
take my fall
and to silence it all
and i hope for the best
and i hope to be gone)

Something

Featuring @with3rx
Prod me (@bigdog30k) & @with3rx

Buffalobang:
everyday is a bad one
2 steps til the lake is half gone
half court, Lebron James but im TheBron
couldnt tell you what half of these idiots be on

long ass night fell asleep with my jeans on
angels sound like the beats that i be on
line out front outside of the storefront
finna hang by a wall i can lean on

With3r:
theres one question i have to know
how would this affect lebrons legacy?
i cant understand you know
everything is muted for me

if i had to let you go
i would rather just let you be
something that i should just let go
but im down on my fucking knees 

Buffalobang:
okay ill step out tonight and have a good time
seems like ur looking for something i hope that you'll find
i fell to my knees and looked up and asked why
i stare at the ceiling to pass time

long ass night fell asleep with the lights on
might get a sick tattoo like mike tyson
sit out front outside of the store front
everyday is a bad one

With3r:
theres one question i have to know
how would this affect lebrons legacy?
i cant understand you know
everything is muted for me

if i had to let you go
i would rather just let you be
something that i should just let go
but im down on my fucking knees

TheBron

TheBron Ft. With3r

Featuring @d1vwv
Prod & mix by me (@bigdog30k)

d1v:
i ask if its worth it its not what u say
and i cant find a purpose its hard so to say
this is nothing to me this is nothing to you
just take what u want i dont care what u do

buffalobang:
ill keep these words somewhere quiet, somewhere silent
ill trust your words like its science
im getting used to these lies
im getting used to this life
cant even remember last night
oh you said something important? im not sure thats right

think i deserve this
can you say something with purpose
think i deserve this
i deserve whatevers hurting

d1v:
how does the plan all work guess i will listen first
bury my hands in dirt its not enough for her
i give my all in this its not the worst of it
and i make sure i miss it thats how it existed

buffalobang:
we in the private part, in the back of this bar
i spent the rent and some more inside this shopping mall
whats the plan whats your call
whats the place cant recall
how am i up if i feel like dirt

d1v:
3 spliffs down and the the night just started
got a day to save but the days all parted
and the games u play its hard to start it
i guess things will change but its not what i wanted
take it back i wont care
take my hand if u dare
take a chance its severe
different day different year
but its the skin u wear
it does not suit you
i guess i will lose you
ur not true to urself

buffalobang:
think i deserve this
can you say something with purpose
think i deserve this
i deserve whatevers hurting

Quiet, Silent

Quiet, Silent Ft. d1v

Featuring @drrux
Prod & mix by me (@bigdog30k)

Buffalobang:
(every moment of my life is hell)
nowadays aint shit to smile about
theres something to it
i cant put my finger on
and i could tell you what you wanna hear
or i could just 
not say anything at all

some shit was never meant to do us better
on days like this i feel it more than ever 
i actually think that you'd be better off
nowadays i let the pressure talk

(i dont like it when you say things like that)
i do shit im not supposed to
i do shit that i dont wanna do
with all this shit that im opposed to
i mean its no wonder i dont like you


Drux:
Spend my day doing fuck all what’s the point 
split the pill & wash it down 
pushing down the noise 
I got caught up in the heat 
The blood starting to boil 
every single day it’s getting worse 
lost inside the void 
Is there anybody out there? 
This time I’m not so sure I’ll bounce back 


Buffalobang:
nowadays aint shit to smile about
theres something to it
i cant put my finger on
and i could tell you what you wanna hear
or i could just 
not say anything at all

some shit was never meant to do us better
on days like this i feel it more than ever 
i actually think that you'd be better off
nowadays i let the pressure talk

Smile About It

Smile About It Ft. Drux

Produced by buffalobang

buffalobang:
I pray tomorrow its all said and done
I tried my best to really be someone
Why would I tell you how I feel
When I don't want this to be real

It's all in my
It's all in my
It's all in my
It's all in my head I know
It's all in my head I know
It's all in my head I know

spira me:
I swear I really tried my hardest
The ugliness inside revealed itself
Pushed away, disgraced and smothered
I want my life back to be honest
(I want my life back to be honest)

I long for solitude, I wanted to be brave
And one day I'll have to pay for my mistakes
Swear life is a movie but I need another take
I stepped outside today dissolving in the rain

buffalobang:
Tell me something baby, something that you hate
I suck with words and I swear I can't behave
Theres really nothing worth a while in this for you that I can name
Think I forgot along the way that's why I question

It's all in my
It's all in my
It's all in my
It's all in my head I know
It's all in my head I know
It's all in my head I know

Smothered

prod n vocals me
MV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h8A4vHFIdQU

i wasnt trynna cause no problems
i said
i wasnt trynna cause no problems
uh uh
really damn broke when im stepping out in london
baby im on tour and thats why im not responding
i wasnt trynna cause no problems

its bad now
im struggling to eat
and i havent really slept well in weeks
i feel the dirt upon my sheets that i lay on
when i cry its real pain, mom

(i feel the dirt upon my sheets)
(i feel the dirt upon my sheets)
(when i cry its real pain, mom)
(when i cry its real pain, mom)
theres something missing
theres something missing
theres something missing 
theres something

nowadays nothing really looks appealing
down real bad i cant even touch the ceiling
i no longer know what i believe in
lost my passion lost my reason
i wasnt trynna cause no problems
reached for the top ended up at the bottom
its a reminder im still falling
its something really bad and its coming back like autum

real ass bloke when im stepping out in london
baby im on tour and thats why im not responding
my bodys going numb and im freezing when its hot in
i couldnt even tell you bout this all you gotta know
its bad
im struggling to eat
and i havent really slept well in weeks
i feel the dirt upon my sheets that i lay on
when i cry its real pain mom

(i feel the dirt upon my sheets)
(i feel the dirt upon my sheets)
(when i cry its real pain, mom)
(when i cry its real pain, mom)
really damn broke when im stepping out in london
baby im on tour and thats why im not responding
i wasnt trynna cause no problems
theres something missing 
theres something

I think we ought to start our life old
And we have all the pain, and we're feeble
And we look at our friends, and they're feeble too, they're 100
But every day we get younger, and we have something to look forward to
No need to kill yourself you know, there's hope
And then when you reach 20, 19, 12, 10
Every day is really a new day
And it's really a miracle
And then you're a baby, and you don't even know your life is ending
You just suck on your mother's tit and then you die

exclusion from nerd-tactics: a standalone saga

Trauma Intro

Prod. Spira

Spira me: 
Why do you want to see me suffer?
Turn me into nothing
Nothing but a problem
You just want to see me suffer
Turn me into nothing
From something to nothing

Break me down
Torn apart
Can see now
Life gets hard
Bring me down with you
Treat me like you want me too
Feed me all your made up truths
Treat me like you want it too
I don't do the shit I used to do
Bring me down with you

Buffalobang:
I promise that I'm working
On not being a burden
And I can't go on hurting
I'm hurting for no purpose
No purpose
No purpose
If I can't see the purpose
Then is it really worth it?
Really worth it
Really worth it

I know that I'm not worth it
I know that I'm not worth it
I'd love to be your person
Be your person
I'm not worth it
I know that I'm not worth it
I know that I'm not worth it
I'd love to be your person
Be your person
I'm not worth it

Suffer

Prod. Spira

Spira me:
Lost my mind
This time it's urgent
In your memories I'll dissolve
Tainted mirror shows a burden
Serenading for their love

Revolting
Ran it down into nothing
(nothing)
(nothing)
Stopped counting
Days since I walked out that
Door
Nothing ever felt like this before
Nothing ever felt like this before

Buffalobang:
Intuition
I can't trust a single thing I feel
My condition
Growing still
My skin starting to peel
This darkened memories are haunting
Where the heart is
Home is where the haunt is

Dissolving In Your Memories

Prod. Spira

Buffalobang:
I didn't think that it would matter that much
I must be dumb I couldn't fathom how much
It meant to you
It meant to you
I know you think that I suck
Yeah you're right
I really got it messed up this time
That's all I do
That's all I do

The quiet consumes me
I should have let you in
I wanted it so badly
I wanted you so badly

Spira me:
About to break apart
Nothing ever works out when you want it all
Reality caught up to me and played its part
Felt all kinds of emotions talking to a wall
I guess I failed, at least I tried
On a continuous decline
Went out my way to break my mind
I thought that you would change my life

The Quiet Consumes Me

( MV https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8lBM0yzRrPc )
featuring: @swoopyy
prod: @opal707 & @daaneelr
mixed and mastered by @opal707

lyrics
how i met your mother, i swear she so perfect
all i really want is loyalty & respect
i see how it is i feel like an architect
baglife aint bout bands, its a mindset

norwegian's pulling up we goin ham tonite
fendi on my purse, old ladies are my type
watchout how u speak cus my dawg might bite
henny & gas pourin up pourin ice

im not built for commitment, not even close
reffain my lungs, i got blow in my nose
stats off the charts, thats the way with my bros

im feelin risky might risk it
i blow a bag with the boys on some nice shit
we hit the crib kick it back living life shit
swear we going crazy bno lifestyle shit

i keep my lips sealed dont wanna cause no harm man
i move lowkey feeling like a target
2 bands i head straight to the mall man
ur suspicious ur acting like a fraud man
ion trust you thats my only problem
ion like u thats why i dont solve em

bno throw a show, legen.. wait for it.. dary
swoopy suited up bring the sandwich now im ready
shorty we jus met already talking bout some marriage 
can't she just relise what we have is temporary
yeah i be on some shit
if you know me you know im up to shit
mclaren thats my car n shit
mclaren after 12 thats it

i had rough day dont wanna talk about it
and i remember what u said its sumn bout it
yeah it stuck with me
baby ur all i need
i swear ur all i see

i get the bag like monopoly
now we up so dont talk to me
u want a feature gotta pay the fee
its like pay to win
but please dont play with me
bno we win

swoopy & buffalobang - HIMYM (prod opal & daaneel)

featuring @sglily
produced by @bigdog30k
cover art by me

lyrics:
(buffalobang)
ill work my ass off
ill buy a gift with my earnings
i hit bottom
i feel like im tyler durden
no im not sturdy
i need a shoulder to lean on
if you got me, then i got u dont worry

im with the boys going crazy in the BNO BNB 
you barely talk to me i know how u feel bout me 
in copenhagen throwin shows catch me in the V.I.P
ill get u in for free get u a drink or three

im alone in the store am i dreaming
felt like winter spring and fall under one evening
i wanna see you baby i dont need a reason
ill give u warmth for the season

(sglily)
ill get mine so im working
make me feel uncertain
im so tide im surfing
off these pills im perc-ing
u could leave wont stop u
if u stay i got u
if u stay i got u
know i got a lot to lose
concert, bno gotta go
louis v ona floor ur a joke
got pills in my coat idk
BNB drinking coke with the bros

tough evening + sglily (bigdog30k)

prod @eera0
featuring @spira_me

I need daycare so take care of me
yea im sick give me something like a remedy
i cant sleep gotta know if youll remember me
i might be wierd but i swear u got a friend in me
yea ill care for you if you care for me
I dont wanna be a dick cus being nice is free
i cant sleep gotta know if youll remember me
just let me know if you ever need some help from me

(Hook)
its what im used to
its kinda normal to me
i understand that you dont mean it but its hurting me
i know how you feel, im tired and ill
I know you think that everything i do is so wierd
X2

Dont tell me im distant 
I dont see the difference
Yeah when u are texting
I dont know how to feel
Buy u a jacket from Ssense
Still i dont feel no presence
Get no love in ur message
I can tell that its real

And All i care bout is her but she dont care at all
Got bno round my neck at night it keep me warm
I swear they all gonna hate they wanna see us fall
Im making moves with my bros ill see u at the top
 
And All i care bout is her i wish she cared at all
Got bno round ur neck i swear ill keep u warm
I swear they all wanna play they wanna catch the ball
Im making moves with my bros ill see u at the top

friend + spira me (prod eera)

produced by @opal707
featuring @d1vwv
mix/master/cover-art by me

ok lets do this
i never knew shit
always getting treated like the new kid
i swear im just human
theres nothing to it
i wake up eat my breakfast and get to it

everything been diffrent for a while
it changed for the better
ever since i met her
id hate to be the one that waste ur time
ngl find it hard to maintain a smile

i hate when it happends, tragic on tragic
i love it when i get to be with you i feel fantastic
touch feel like magic, better then imagined
remember how it felt to be alone i  cant go back there

i cant do it again
(i dont think this shit is fun i wont do it again)
ill do better this time

im just trynna sleep away the days babe
wanted u to stay so i made place
calling out names like i was never there
i cant seem to cope i disappear
one last try can i just love myself thats all i need
will i hide all of the things we kept underneath
idk what to call it im lost for words
the way that i forget it thats all its worth

maintain + d1v (opal)

featuring @swoopyy
produced by @adioboy
mix/cover art by me

i- i change my mind like all the time
i yoloed twice i changed my life
i cant decide cant make it right
im so tired im so tired all the time

rent out the bnb, ok lets do it again
ill show you decency, ill treat you like a good friend
i dont wanna sound pretentious im really not that special
i dont have alot maybe you like the imperfection

(i cant make sense of it)

im 18 & shes 25
i roll up while she drives
we argue alot
but she’s too hot to pick side

the lifestyle i live
just fried in the crib

im not paranoid i just check the window alot
not insecure im just rlly scared of ur thoughts
not the man i wanna b that stuff cant b bought
i need new reason’s for me to wake up

decency

decency + swoopy ( facy )

produced by @opal707
mix/cover art by me

i can never do shit first try ill get it next time
second chance and i promise imma give it all i have
hopefully ill get it next time
ill get it next time- (ill get it next time dw)

its the best feeling
i cant believe it
ur the best person
im not worth it

bnb theres bottles on the floor
(got a bad review)
all i need is you and nothing more
(i swear its true)
spend it but ill get it back for sure
(get a bag for u)
ill do whatever u want me too

i did my best but i still came in second place
( came in second place )
i dont want to speak my mind if its not my place
( if its not my place )
always last choice i cant rejoice
im not trynna seem obsessed i just love ur voice
never outdoors love when it pours
i cant focus when i think cus theres to much noise
(too much noise)

first try (opal)

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-wWFx5UBlDQ
produced by @with3rx & @bigdog30k
featuring @spira_me

i take my time i see the change in weather
im not well but you make me better
and i swear i would do anything i would do anything
if it meant i could be close to you
(i wanted to be close to you)
(i wanted to be close to you)

maybe im acting crazy im sorry again
everythings just hurting lately and i cant pretend
(i cant pretend)
(im sorry again)
i been feeling weak let it get to my head
talking and talking but nobody listens
go out for walking and id walk the distance
im feeling the bliss and baby im so thankful for your existence

gotta start believing, stop pretending
ever since i took your hand i been thinking and thinking
yea is it gonna work out like i dreamt it
and i love the way you smile just like i dreamt it
and you think that i dont love you but i meant it
and that text confessed my love for you i sent it

i take my time i see the change in weather
im not well but you make me better
and i swear i would do anything i would do anything
if it meant i could be close to you
talking and talking but nobody listens
go out for walking and id walk the distance
im feeling the bliss and baby im so thankful for your existence

close to you + spira me (with3r & bigdog30k)

featuring @d1vwv
produced @opal707 & @sg37
cover art, mix and master by me

who does that? i never got that
when i look at you id like it if u looked back
but tbh i dont blame u if u dont like what u see
if i acted really bad would u go and leave me be

youre just to good for me
youre just to good for me
its not that i dont want you cus i really want u here
in my head i start comparing makes me wanna dissapear
youre just to good for me
youre just to good for me
youre just to good for me
youre just to good for me

i stay awake all night just to get a sign from you
and i know i never try i could try with you 
baby i know that im wasting time so many things that i want to try
all day all night i just stay awake something bout u baby i dont wanna stay away
but i had to let u go cus
it was getting to my head
u didnt listen to a single thing i said
u say i overthink but i dont wanna sleep alone in my bed
the only thing i really care bout now is my bread

it just doesnt have to be so hard
i know that im overcomplicated
what i do u seem to disregard
i just think that it was me u hated
i cant get over it, i cant get over it no matter how bad i want to
i cant get over it, i cant get over it no matter how bad i want to
i cant get over it, i cant get over it no matter how bad i want you

buffalobang

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