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skin

no texts on my phone n im so fucking drunk
fell too deep and i just cant stand up
time passes by as i remain  the same

slow pulp high remix

i really miss
when you were all over me
now you dont even look at me
i dont know what i did

you keep freezing my pulse
somethings keying my skull
rolling souls in my wood
but i am missing yours

she cuts me like i want to <333

forever cut myself
what about your health? never cared bout that
but i still hate myself
so many things that i wish i never said

im such a bad person
you can tell me that im not, but i am certain
never opening my curtains
no one fucks with me, cuz im a burden

n i will die with so much hatred in my heart
n everything i do is poison for my mind

alex g - sarah remix

always been a shitty friend :((

i saw your smiles so i know :(
Im not as good but i hope :)
that i could make it up to you
oh but i wont cuz im slow

i saw your smiles so i know
why would i try when he dont (finna murder her mans)
everything on my mind is bringing me
to rot inside eternally (its so over)

original : CITRUS NOWHERE - Burn my flowers when I die

hahahahahah

how is it already october skeleton cover

like im running a rat race
imma kill myself so im coming in last place
why you lookin at me with your eyes in a bad way
its already autumn, i waited, ive matched my days
on my shoulders, too much weight
nothing left for me here anways
its already autumn, but im okay
with knowing ill be dead by valentines day

its like im running a rat race

these drugs kill me but ill take some more
theres nothing in my life worth looking for
cut myself inside my dreams i think i got to the core
i pass out every weekend and im uping the score

this life is a whore?
this life is a whore!

something inside of me just never clicked with these people
i dont like to speak when they all see me as a weirdo
stop the fog inside of my head, it never disappeared
i got a bad memory, carve notes (all) over my torso

ending this life :D with a great smile on my face

shoutout tw3qker

its funny to me, i cant hold back
laughing at my life, its so sad
at this point im not even upset
its funny to me, im such a damn mess

big dose in my palms, add some more
this time i cant afford to be not sure
said sorry to my body, so poor
heart splat, loud thump on the first floor

its all too funny to me !

always seemed so impossible
need a shoulder to cry on
but im waiting for nothing
always waiting for nothing

she said she likes deftones

why do u choose to break me so often, often
u know u dont have to remind me so often so often
how am i still even holding on

aches so bad
i know it hurts so bad

stop reminding me so much

son of whore

hurt myself to remind myself 
i dont fuck up again
but im too ignorant
take a couple pills and i hope for the best
as i lay my head, i should fucking pray instead

and i admit it was always my fault
but what do i do when i got nothing to fight for
why do i weep when i got no one to cry for
lifes fucking hell, imma die alone

wtf does ariana grande have to do with this

but maybe if i listened i,
could see it too
i would say im sorry but thats just something that i dont do
u always had my back but what
did i do for u
im angry at myself for all the things i did not do

shit i dont do

keep falling in and out
cant explain im so fed up

i 
lose my 
mind
every
night
im so 
done
i keep losing the same fight

come and see my mania

i know im such a fucking loser 
now u see it too
i thought u didnt mind
im such a stupid fucking fool

i hate you from the bottom of my fucking heart
i keep falling in love with girls i make up in my mind

and they all look like u

i wish i could unsee all that shit

shout out hope for the beat
prod greaf

drop an x, i feel happy like a kid
makes me look so fucking ugly before i even fucking peak
its okay its okay i can get used to that shit
when i come down its gonna wreck me like a bitch

i would cut myself then id think about her
then id cut a little more cuz she is more than i deserve

whatever really

the sound is a little weird cuz i used a vocal remover for the beat so the quality isnt as good

lyrics :
my little stupid fucking brain like i dont need it
or i dont want it, never did to begin with
10 million cigarettes and im still breathing
every time its always what was i thinking

dont know why i just resent so much
like i cant just love
and i repent so much

dont know why i fill my head with drugs
my minds fucked up
irritated dumb fuck




what was i thinking

try to put ur fucking mind aside
try to talk and dont try to fight
so stuck but u still run 
look up and try to fucking fly

it happens again
it happens once more
and u hate ur friends
and i hate my fam
like i hate myself
and i hate your friends
god im hating again

lowkey, fuck you

i woke up to this fucking awful news today and im still in shock.
This person was always so fucking interesting to me and i really wanted to meet him irl one day
i cant believe hes gone
hed still be alive if it wasnt for the shitty circumstances and everyone always pushing him to the edge
he was always good to me and would check up on me and would talk to me when i needed to
i hate seeing people trash his name, 
i know he was a good person that never got his chance
he deserved a better life


hes the reason why this fucking page even exists
i wish i could talk to him one more time
i will miss him
rip skeleton


(my only finished song with skel that we ended up dropping separately)

good ones always die

prod greaf


girl ive got some secrets and i think that i will keep em
u said i made mistakes but i swear i didnt see them
all these bad thoughts and i kinda just like sweep em
right under my bed, every night i still hear em

took drugs, like a bunch
now im freaking out such a stupid fucking cunt
and she fucked me on the couch
didnt rly care, guess im way too messed up

mistakes, right

w/ @myfinalwish

exxtape :

i was kinda fucked up, i just wasnt comin down.
spent my last 20 bucks on sum fuckin scratch cards.
then i got high and i dont remember much
but i know one thing its fuck friends, fuck life.
and i think i cried, no i know i fucking cried
i was trippin til the morning such a fucked up night.
smoked a pack before noon im such a strange guy
but you dont think that i bombard you with lies

letdownloser :

take my breath i wanna die.
i’m fucked up can’t even cry.
one last look into your eyes. (then it’s got you)
they’re so pretty but they’re made of lies

all i wanna do is sleep tonight.
but i lie awake pukin on my side.
too much pain leads to suicide.
mixin grey goose with cyanide

ahhhh and it’s just another thing.
all that brings is a world of pain.
one more hour or one more day.
which would you pick if you felt okay

ohhhh and i’m not okay.
malnourished and my wrists decayed.
don’t be like me please you don’t wanna pay. questioning why i woke up today

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eddaye