only time i am truly happy

Listening intently

Reunited (prod. Shinjin)

i can never lose it                    @sglily
night time now and im off shit
boysnightsout make a moshpit
i was so kind did u notice

all i ever wanted was some peace
and i know u didnt want me baby
fuck you then i geeek
and those times we both wasted
cuz we was so scared to leave
i can do it if i wanted to 
im not to scared to dream

u know i was way to down at the time
i got tramadol dreams i know u want me
by the way we were moving we were moving to deep
streetlights shining bright in yo eyes
2 blue pills now i cant speak right
twice the luck i loved u all night
i cant lie i wish it was all mine
i took a trip down the new light
i took a piss on ur new life
in the mall i dont check price
take it all if it feels right

i dont wanna talk about the past
i jsut wanna know
if u wanna spend the time w me
when im on the road
didnt take anytime apart 
u was at my shows

dont tell me that u love me
why u in a rush?
i know imma bad bitch know u had a crush
we laying on the pavement colder than the touch
i had a good run now im giving up
i pop a pill and i get higher then i want to baby
so i can lie and say that i dont want you baby
counting money up its fuck you pay me
im on on nothing else matters to me

all i ever wanted was some peace
and i know u didnt want me baby
fuck you then i geeek
and those times we both wasted
cuz we was so scared to leave
i can do it if i wanted to 
im not to scared to dream

to the end  w/ sglilyy (prod. michaelwarren x torno)

@spira_me @sg37

im in the park smoking weed, laying down looking greesy
i know she want me, but she make this 2 easy
& the perc made me sleep, yuh the perc make me sleeepy
u thought u did some 🤨 but that shit wasnt sneaky

never saw u for u & u turned out so foooooouuuul🖕
ur truth wasnt true, in the tree like a ooowwwl 🦉 
(northstock baby)

alexander waaaaaaang
alexander waaaaaaaaaaang
making all my haters wack off
ya'll just can't get enough

alexander wang ft. Spira me (sg37)

Laundry Ft. @820 @grey_couche
p. @heroindior @martinleib
Mixed +chopped editby Marlon DuBois

Ⓛaundry w/ Nosg𝓞v ⅋ H𝓔nry Mosto [P. 𝓂𝒶𝓇𝓉𝒾𝓃𝓁𝑒𝒾𝒷 ųʂɛཞ ꫝ ɖ ]

Official video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AIC7jFfePUU
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5G9Nf7CX2fkoduZaIqxDwi?si=0d99359b694f40de 

its so dark its okay i will find you
(i gotchu)
its so odd this place is my home
(where im from)
u laugh at the things that i cry to
(im see thru)
when i think about it that is so wrong

wake up crashing and crash it with me
fake love
match it matching my speed ur tough
bleeding im think im at ease ur stuck
ur taking so much here from me ur fault

i can see what u dont see
thats the line i wont cross
i can bleed what u dont bleed
thats a thing i cant stop
on my own i cannot breath
i love u and thats ur loss
thinking bout the things
u would say in my spot

i just took a pill took me straight to the top
i rly hate every song that i drop
falling to pieces pls make it stop


its so dark its okay i will find you
its so odd this place is my home
u laugh at the things that i cry to
when i think about it that is so wrong


wake up crashing and crash it with me
fake love
match it matching my speed ur tough
bleeding im think im at ease ur stuck
ur taking so much here from me ur fault

SPOTIFY

odd (utaqq)

i think u already won
i think im getting too numb
i think its been like 2 months
when i see problems i run

digging myself deeper and deeper
i cant get out i need her
finders keepers
trade my own life to keep you

i want it all so imma gonna give it all
do u remember do you recall
im not enough and i know im not
im off a pill and im nodding off

way too hard to be me
i think ur life is a different degree
im high im geeked
im awake i keep grinding my teeth

too much pressure
i should have made it a long time ago
used to be my treasure 
i lost the map i dont even know

u can ignore me im very used to it
know that i love you ur abusing it
im above you fuck im not new to it
leave me alone you are my curse
its not unknown

digging myself deeper and deeper
i cant get out i need her
finders keepers
trade my own life to keep you

i want it all so imma gonna give it all
do u remember do you recall
im not enough and i know im not
im off a pill and im nodding off

way too hard to be me
i think ur life is a different degree
im high im geeked
im awake i keep grinding my teeth

finders keepers (silver x methboiswag)

flight ft. Bootleg Baby (rapallo) ´´•.¸🛫

gogetabaggogetsumrackzgogetchocheck
Ibeinnagermanwhipitsfasterthanascat
Idonemissedthecupnowitsspillinginmylap
Idonenoddedoffwokeupinthefuckingrass
Idoneseenmyownlifepassbyinnaflash
iknowthisdontseemgoodbutijustgottacap
Ijustgottacapwhentheyaskinwhereimat
Ibeinthecribeatinggoodgettinfat
Ibegettingmoneyuwouldthinkimurddad
Thisdopebehittingstrongyouwouldthinkthatitiscrack
Ibeattheavenueyoubeattherack
Ochocincoimmacatchapass
Fendimonsterbackpackspenditgetheracksback
Arackbackbitchineedmoreracksback
Immagetitallyoucangetbouthalfthat
Imtrynnagetrightyeahimtrynnacopahouse
Imtrynnagethighandnevertouchtheground
Feellikegarynolanthrowinoffthemound
Ibefuckinupifeellikewreck-itRalph
Whattheytoldmehowamipose2know
Walkupintheclubanditfeelikelimbo
Ibeeninthebackstandinglikenothingwrong
Smokingasgettinhighdoitlikeapro
Youthetypetogetsomethingturnitintonothin
Imthetypetotakeitallleaveyouwithnothin
idonetookadubwaybeforeitookaL
Thisshitgettingcrazy…likeafairytale
Whenismokindope…everythingiswell
s h o tt I standforsomething
Iforgotcuziwasoffthedrugswhenidoneit

Neurotic

neurotic(prod.royalansem+reset)

vox/production/mix/cover-art by me (@bigdog30k)

didnt i tell you i was fine?
i think maybe youre the hurt one baby
i cant do this one more time
i learned to doubt, theres always something shady

:FALL FALL:
:IT ALL FALLS THROUGH:

didnt i tell you i was fine?
i think maybe youre the hurt one baby
i cant do this one more time
i learned to doubt, theres always something shady

                   ⟳

didnt i tell you i was fine?
(did i tell you i was fine?)
i think maybe youre the hurt one baby
(i think maybe you just heard wrong baby)
i cant do this one more time
(i think i do this all the time)
i learned to doubt, theres always something shady
(i learned to doubt, theres always something shady)

im still waiting

Still Waiting

really wanna talk but are my words that sincere
if i told u everything i kno that u wouldnt care

really wanna talk but are my words that sincere
if i told u everything i kno that u wouldnt care
feeling so cold is that u that is in the air

sincerly yours will ur remember my name
im not sure i put ur letter to flames
and ofc i wonder whos at ur door
i mean what i say it was better before

sincere (methboiswag x silver)

how deep is your love prod. absence

Don't Wan Play [prod. stosa] #STREETRUNNAZ

prod by the most talented @so-r-u
zombie b

NevrGo4 [cranes]

ksuuvi - hiding (xinderella) #leave #fraud #saveme

https://soundcloud.com/recyclexbin + https://soundcloud.com/lewisgoing

It's all in my mind
Ever there, all the time
I'm jumping back, into the deep end
I'm jumping back, where I can let go
I know I am, I want it all, not again
When my body turns numb & my hands turn numb
Going back to that again
I'm going back back back back back
(And it all turns numb)

Crimson falls, when it falls and it clears my mind
Can't you see? Stainless steel opens up to light
When it falls, clear skys only whatever you want
Whatever you see, can't you see?
It's not dark to me, it's the start for me

But I change, everytime
Take a step, take a step, to the light, you'll be fine
Even when I'm alone I'm never really alone
I'm letting go of it that's my way of controlling it
I'm trying to keep a level head but I know im defeated
If admittance is weakness, than I must be the weakest
I'm more than anything that you can say I am
If life is just a game than why not play again?
It can't be worse than nothing, all I'm asking for is time
It breaks my heart but frees my mind

Crimson falls, when it falls and it clears my mind
Can't you see? Stainless steel opens up to light
When it falls, clear skys only whatever you want
Whatever you see, can't you see?
It's not dark to me, it's the start for me
So I freed it
In the cycle
It wants me to need it
And I freed it, so I freed it
It wants me to need it

Crimson Falls (prod. recycleBin + lewisgoing)

prod. @prodoceanb

som en stjärna ja du vet jag fucking skiner
som ett skärsår bitch jag vet just att det svider
lite ledsen poppa pills o vitaminer
number nine på mig som om jag växte i det
är för borta missar alla mina tider

känns lite enklare nu
känns som jag kan andas ut
blunda och räkna till sju
vart ska jag vända mig nu
kan inte ändra mig nu
jag vet att jag har problem
fatta nu att de va du
allting det gjorde så ont
hur kunde du va så ond
fick mig att känna mig tom
hal giftig äcklig som orm

finns inget vi, pratar du franska?
acne i fejjan, poppa din panna
i got my racks, kan du säga desamma?
stjärnorna faller, men jag kommer stanna
fuck vad dom säger, jag fuckar dom alla
throw up my cash och låter dem falla

Crimson Falls (prod. recycleBin + lewisgoing)

Dion