Old beat tape Jane Remover posted for a couple days in September 2019.

4pril

consoleme

thought of a dumb jrjrjr parody idea and went with it, probably cringe @speal
lyrics:

uh, 177 669
606, 668 this time
changed the pfp again
now its adventure time

And I do whatever the fuck, 'cause I've been on whatever the fuck
I might ball out on a new face, change my name, then my city
You would do it too, I saw you, I heard you call it love

So should I change my name again?
Uzr, Uzr, Uzr, Uzr, Uzr, Uzr, Uzr, Uzr, Uzr,  Uzr,
Bitch, I hate the way it rolls off the tongue, full circle
Bitch, I'm trying not to crash in front of him, but it's so hard to lie
I wanna suck the life out of him, it's just as sad as mine
so users like me get to be happy
I should've known the day I packed my bags
users like me get to be lucky, yeah
I should've known the day you gave your hand

UzrUzrUzr

lryics later hi gujys song war people cover art by me prod me flip you

scrambl

i dont care abt the side effects
are you stupid why you asking if im leaving yet
you dont know how fukcing bad it gets
i know we aint talk for ages sorry i forget

ho i know you you just duck when youre called out
u know u far away u talking on my phone now
he know what he done he aint even try n clear his name
they try to say i changed

did i do enough
rlly thought i healed but i still want me gone
i could never pick that up
i cant pick it up
i dont want your drugs

i got headaches and it gets too much
im not trying to earn back your trust
i cant name a time i dont know when to start
you can sit back while i tear myself apart

daikyu

i think thats just how it goes
everyone's a poser
i dont know where but im going there
i think that im awful
i think i got set up
but would you come back if you had the choice

no i dont have the choice
i been stuck in one place for a year now
there's nothing more to talk about
dont know why im fucking up so i just keep on fucking round

you could take my life
i'd kill myself to be something
i know that shit will never get better
handful of pills tell me "take it or suffer"
cant rely on shit like that i can't be altered

i see people looking for a way to break the clock and wind it back to change the things that they regret and fix the problems that they left but i could never tell
if that's something that i would do
if its something that i could do

scrambl

and theres nothing i could do
tell me why would i want to
dont go saying "zy you aint call back"
what you said that aint nothing you can take back

dunno why they hate us when they taking what we built up
tried to talk to you i swear that shit was rlly torture
get off their dicks you aint nothing to them
mfs rlly would just kill u in a second w no second thoughts

quite a handful + daikyu

I've been staring at the ceiling fan
for some time (for some time)
I find it funny how your story's been changing
at the drop of a dime (drop of a dime)

But all the walls are caving in
and all the memories faded inward to ya
(oh)
I'll try my best to keep it in
but you cant help it cuz its just in your blood
(oh)

And its been eating me alive
(oh)
It's the monster that's inside
your mind
And I cant take it no longer cuz iv tried
Tried to bring you color but nothings left inside
(oh)

You saved me
Reflections point to safety
A nightmare leads to daydreams
So where did I go wrong?

Cuz iv been holding onto what you say
Let this go till it falls in place
Cloth collapses
An inward facing breath

And its been eating me alive
(oh)
It's the monster that's inside
your mind
And I cant take it no longer cuz iv tried
Tried to bring you color but nothings left inside
(oh)

And its been eating me alive
(oh)

eating me alive

just last year i learned to love
just this year i learned to be
sometimes i think that you're above
sometimes i wonder if you see
starting to feel like im enough
starting to know that part of me
spent so much time just stitching up
& now i think i've found the key

i feel kinda silly now, i've wasted all my time
i try so hard to grasp it all & try to make it mine
it feels so weird to say this , i've been waiting all my life
and so i ask the sky above to say it with me now ; it's nine

and i cant help but feel a pit in my chest
when you ask "are you coming home?"
i'm so unlucky, i don't wanna get dressed
i'll be fine if i'm on my own

Meadow

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brain groffon stared into the cold, bitter diner coffee like it held some secret truth. “jesus doesn’t return my calls anymore,” he muttered. the man raised an eyebrow but said nothing, pulling his plate away from stuey, who had just reached for another fry.

“we need a win,” brain said, staring past the flickering fluorescent lights. “a real one. not this ‘scam a guy for a pancake’ life. i want respect. i want...reviews. new york times bestseller lists. maybe a netflix adaptation.”

“maybe you should finish a book first,” stuey muttered through a mouthful of stolen toast.

brain didn’t even bother responding. instead, he reached into his satchel and pulled out a worn leather notebook. “this,” he said, slapping it down dramatically, “is chapter one of god hates dogs — a tragicomic exploration of mortality, love, and bacon.”

stuey blinked. “so basically your autobiography?”

“it’s called fiction, stewart.”

before stuey could retort, a waitress approached. she looked tired. like existentially tired. “you guys gonna order something or just steal caffeine and fries?”

brain sat up straighter. “actually, ma’am, would you like to be immortalized in literature? i’m crafting a character loosely based on—”

“you’re not that guy,” she said, deadpan. “order or leave.”

stuey grinned. “we’ll take one slice of optimism and a side of forgiveness.”

she walked away.

brain leaned back, sighing. “you know, for a second, i really thought tonight would be different.”

stuey sipped from the coffee again. “it was. we didn’t get arrested.”

“yet.”

they sat in silence, the neon humming above them, the diner clock ticking past 3 a.m. outside, rain started to fall, soft and quiet. brain tapped his pen to the notebook, opened it, and began to write. maybe the story wasn’t over after all.

consoleme

c1arke