(to all of you who already know the story behind this song, thank you for your support ❤️ not the best recording- apologies in advance)

The most special of mentions to my amazing friend Ayelen Molina for making this INSANELY AMAZING artwork. I am OBSESSED with this ❤️

Lyrics:

I haven't done that much since the last time I saw your face.
I fell apart on the road, now there's two versions of myself.
One you'd feel at home with, one you wouldn't recognize
hiding the weight of the world behind my eyes.

And I'm sorry I brought you here out of nowhere
and I said I love you completely out of context.
I'm a crybaby by nature,
please don't act like a stranger.
An astrological mess passing as an entertainer.

And it should be as easy to breathe,
but I can't get no relief.
You haunt me even in the happiest of songs,
and I can't get no grief.
So I fall asleep in this miserable routine
where I say I love you, I cry and repeat...
(and repeat, and repeat)

I haven't done that much since the last time I saw your face.
I tried to work on my issues before I talked about it.
I stopped being pretentious cause I know it'll get me nowhere.
So here it is: I fucked up. I can't make it poetic.

So I'm sorry I brought you here for nothing.
My intentions were good, I hope that counts for something.
I'm a crybaby, by heart I remember your last call
when I heard you laugh, I knew I would give you all.

And it should be as easy to breathe,
but I can't get no relief.
You haunt me even in the happiest of songs,
and I can't get no grief.
So I fall asleep in this miserable routine
where I say I love you, I cry and repeat...
(and repeat, and repeat)

it should be as easy to breathe.


Crybaby

I got electricity that's shooting out my fingertips 
feel it when I walk into the room
I got sexuality that's bending all of space and time 
Find the world revolves around me too

The elixir of life - the elixir of life
I got the the goddam font of youth with me tonight
The elixir of life - the elixir of life
it's coursing through my veins
I'm set to set the world alight

I been every hole you ever sold your soul to leave behind
I been broken down and left to die
I tried every way to shake the naked devil off your back
Can you see the twinkle in my eye

The elixir of life - the elixir of life
I got the the goddam font of youth in me tonight
The elixir of life - the elixir of life
I feel it's coursing through my veins
I'm setting everything alight

I got on top and
Ain’t gonna stop
Ain’t gonna stop now - no
I crashed out
I’m back now
Bringing something to the light

The elixir of life - the elixir of life
I got the the goddam font of youth in me tonight
The elixir of life - the elixir of life
I feel it's coursing through my veins
I'm set to set the world alight

Elixir Of Life

At the time of writing this song, Argentina has been on quarantine (or mandatory preventive social isolation) for 180 days. This song represent almost every thought I had through it, since the beginning when we celebrated birthdays through videocalls with our family and friends and we said "this will be a cool memory to tell our kids" until the most recent ones where rich people are leaving the country because they can afford it and because it feels like it's all going down here, and media covers it like it's the most important thing in the world and most of us just DON'T CARE anymore.
Until a few weeks ago, I hadn't even taken the train this year. The first time I took it, there were officers everywhere making sure you were actually allowed to take it. 
It's not the easiest time for everyone. Our country is split between the ones who support this isolation, and the ones who doesn't. Many political, economical and ideological reasons are in discussion, often forgetting that we're here because there's a virus out there, and some places can't even handle it anymore. It's scary, because you can feel the riot in the air which is the last thing we'd need right now.

Milligrams is the song I've been wanting to write for a long time. An honest song about what it's like to face your feelings in times of uncertainty. Sometimes you just wish you could numb all of them, like when you take a pill for the headache or something. A lot of feelings are several years old, but you know what they say, quarantine is a great time for introspection. I keep remembering my life before this and thinking "will I ever get even a small piece of that back?" Hopefully, I will. In the meantime... take care.

Lyrics:

They got the money, so they can runaway.
I don't get what they think I'd even care.
My planet Earth has been reduced to these walls,
haven't seen the city since long ago.
And we spent our birthdays through videocalls,
it felt cool for a memory to tell your child,
until I took the train feeling exiled
craving the freedom of a hunter running wild.

And it's a weird time, yes, they say it all the time,
like it would make a mend for the trouble in our minds.
And drop bombs on this already lost battlefield,
with the excuse to keep our eyes peeled.
Now I move by inertia almost all the time,
measuring my comfort in milligrams.
A little bit of this, a little bit of that
and our happy smile turns dark mad.

My moral has a double side,
don't look at me like this, yours is just like that.
And I've been screaming at you silently for so many years,
I thought my vocal cords would disappear.
So go ahead and tell me I just need a job,
like it would surgically remove these intruder thoughts.
Cause maybe I've wasted seven years of my life,
but I'm terrified of giving them up.

I believe they're all liars, including me
and that's why I'll never know what I need.
I think they're onto something against us tonight,
but we're hypnotized by this permanent blue light.
And I'm scared of every citizen,
cause when they raise our flag, I know what it represents.
I'm a red button away from calmness...
(Cover my mouth with blissful ignorance)

Now I move by inertia almost all the time,
measuring my comfort in milligrams.
A little bit of this, a littl bit of that,
and our bright smile turns dark mad.

Now I move by inertia almost all the time.

Milligrams

"Ooga Looga Wyma Ryma" (#401, 201005)

Aina' nuthin' like a girl makes you drop yer vowels
On the kitchen floor
She be cookin' up some dumplin's I be trippin' meatballs
Comin' back fer more

An' I'm tryin' to tell her sumthin' 'bout you look so nice
'Xcept I sound like a fool
Words 'er flippin' sidewers comin' out my mouf
In between the drool

Ooga looga wyma ryma baby what's your name
Chuga luga hunka lunka baby say it again
Youda cute-a meesa please-a winkie dinkie derpee doo
Banana fana fonanna fe fi fum teach me how to talk to you

Took sum clarses back in carlege wit' sum langejjes
A little French and some Mex
F'Ida' know'd then I'd a showed maybe I cudda' lerned
Mora' what to expex

Talkin' gibbrish ain't so purdy I regrets it now
Yeah I gotta' admit
I dang messed it up I never got my educacione
And I sound like ... not good!

Week 41a - Ooga Looga Wyma Ryma (201005)

"All Hat And No Cattle" (#402, 201006)

All hat and no cattle all bark and no bite
If you'd a told me I'd a stayed home tonight
Tried to be patient but I ran outta' luck
I don't seem to be able to give one single fumbling care right now

All bread and no butter all spark and no flame
House keeps on winnin' I'm losin' again
Time marches forward and the later it gits
I just keepin thinkin' how I'm sick of this charade

All mouth and no trousers all balls and no strikes
Guess you done fooled me once more than twice
Here I am lonesome and drunk in a ditch
Can't find my lighter ain't that a big let down

All sizzle no ribeye all work and no play
No steak for my Stetson no A-1 today
Sometimes you're the pigeon and sometimes the truck
But somehow you always seem to get fudge on your hands

Week 41b - All Hat And No Cattle (201006)

SAW 2020
I am doing a songwriting course and was asked to watch a movie for inspiration. I watched The Green Book and this song is the result

Another Bottle, Another Night

Julia's song for Week 41 #songaweek2020. I heard a reporter on the radio say "If you're looking for a metaphor. . ." and I loved that line so much I built this song around it. I don't even remember what he was talking about when he said it. Also I recycled the woodsmoke and lilacs line from this song - https://soundcloud.com/julia-tindall-bloom/2020-i-still-believe-in-love. 
Nathan played mandolin and slide guitar.

Feel me
Heat on your cheeks 
Breath on your skin

Breathe me
take me all in
Push me back out
Draw me in again
Over and over
Over and out
And in and out and in

If you’re looking for a metaphor
I’ll be the lilacs and the woodsmoke in the spring in your backyard 

Hold me
circle me round
apply
gentle pressure

If you’re looking for a metaphor I’ll be the deep earth 
With diamonds in the rough and a heart of gold 

See me
alive and in love
wander your gaze

If you’re looking for a metaphor I’ll be the black night and
When you wish I’ll be your twinkling stars

If you’re looking for a metaphor I’ll be your bread 
and when you’re weary I’ll be your featherbed

If You're Looking For A Metaphor

Copyright Erin Wolf 2020

Prompt for SAW Week 41 - Ooga Looga Wyma Ryma
A little light teasing for the prompt creator, @jimtristan. ;)

i want an ooga looga
wyma ryma honey
an ooga looga 
wyma ryma dear
i know this is silly for
you to hear
but i need that ooga looga
in my ear

wyma ryma all the words
ooga looga just for the birds
a little bit of wyma ryma
for the nerds
they'll join in in their droves & herds

i want an ooga looga
wyma ryma honey
an ooga looga 
wyma ryma dear
i know this is silly for
you to hear
but i need that ooga looga
in my ear

i'm not sure what ooga looga means
it seems like James is full of beans
well i'm a ryma wyma this song
just for Eileen
who left him hanging
at the Dairy Queen

i want an ooga looga
wyma ryma honey
an ooga looga 
wyma ryma dear
i know this is silly for
you to hear
but i need that ooga looga
in my ear

i know this is silly for 
you to hear
but i need that ooga looga
in my ear

Oogla Looga Wyma Ryma

The train this week is leaving for sapville. All aboard!

I started with the idea of someone realizing that the "I" in "I love you" had changed while repeating that phrase over time and it kinda went full mopey from there. I really gotta write an upbeat positive tune next week - you'd think "simple and sweet" woulda been the one, but whelp, here we are.

****

Don't like to think what I am leaving behind
It's easier that way
If I tell you that I'm sleeping fine
It's easier that way
I've been falling all to pieces
I've been thinking you've been doing the same
Don't like to think what I am leaving behind
But it's better than staying this same

It's all coming down

Cause I don't recognize me
I've been wondering who am I
In I love you

You've been talking about growing old
I feel smaller now every day
Chipping stone from a statue
I've been wondering what will remain

Cause I don't recognize me
I've been wondering who am I
In I love you
I don't know who loves you

We could keep things sweet and simple
But when we put it like that 
It's hard but what I'm leaving behind
Is getting hollower every day

It's not that I don't wanna stay
It's who'd be left in my place

It's all coming down

Cause I don't recognize me
I've been wondering who am I
In I love you
I don't know who loves you

I've been wondering why
I love you
I've been wondering when
I should be leaving soon, should be leaving soon
I've been wondering where
I'll be going to
I've been wondering what who I used to be would do

Sweet and Simple - Song a Week 2020, Week 42

Copyright Erin Wolf 2020

Lyrics: Erin Wolf & James Tristan Redding @jimtristan
*Another tune with a few more discarded prompts, along with the Week 43 prompt, "Edit That Out". List following the lyrics.*

tired of chasing this dream
i can't reach
waking to see i'm alone
again with each
passing day that comes and goes
i wish you would
give me a sign if you love
or even could

scratch that last, edit that out
of your mind
if you really wanna know
i'm not that kind 
of woman who will beg
and wait around
as you decide if i'm enough
without a sound

how 'bout let's not and say we did
just give up now and close the lid
on what never could have been

we both know we're kidding ourselves
put these chapters on the shelves
'cuz it will never happen

i won't let you and everybody else
find me
oh you can search the woods, the fields,
and the sea
for i have gone to find myself
as i am
for i have gone to find myself
as i am

**********
old JTR prompts (year):
1. I Wish You Would (2017)
2. You and Everybody Else (2017)
3. Let's Not and Say We Did (date unknown)
4. If You Really Wanna Know (date unknown)

As I Am

Cold morning coffee day
(Mark Anderson 2021)

Cold morning coffee- Cold morning rain 
An old broken heart –filled with nothing but pain
Old, faded pictures – and memories of love 
Are all that she left  him – but it ain’t enough
Umm – Umm – cold morning coffee day

An empty old house – a cold empty bedroom
Where the fire once burned – that ended too soon
Now he’s alone here  – alone all night long
With a dead whiskey bottle – like a sad country song
Umm – Umm – cold morning coffee day

(Chorus)
A cold morning coffee’s
Just an old metaphor
Like watching love turning the page
It’s like leaving the keys
And closing that door
He’s never known love that brave
What else is there to say - it's a cold morning coffee day

A cold morning coffee - A cold morning rain 
The day that she left here - She made it plain  
Another sad story – another long day
She won’t be back  – said it’s better that way
Umm – Umm – cold morning coffee day

(Chorus)
His cold morning coffee’s
Just an old metaphor
Like watching love turning the page
It’s like leaving the keys 
Like closing that door
He’s never known love that brave
What else is there to say – it’s a cold morning coffee day

Music --------------------

(Chorus)
Umm, Umm – Umm, Umm 
What else is there to say – it’s a cold morning coffee day

Cold morning coffee day -

Acoustic folk, indie pop and the occasional rock&roll explosion all marbled together into original songs performed with pleasure.

If You're Looking For A Metaphor

Cabin of Love