Through the Badlands

lyrics
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sadness & sorrow
is all i embody
don't tell nobody
don't tell nobody
inside my head
it's always so cloudy
don't tell nobody
don't tell nobody

don't tell nobody
whatchu really feelin
i cocoon myself & dissociate when i feel it
scratch off my eyelids
slowly revealing
every single dissatisfaction i've come to deal with
of course the course i'm driving is full of formaldehyde
hiding deep inside the spaces of places i'll never find
the inevitable factor of rattling what's inside
is the base of all your struggle so buckle up for the ride
sign the waver in your favor for fucking up all your time
the pandemic academically taught us all how to hide
hopefully we all come out of this happier & alive
with a better understanding of standing outside the lines
my creative continuity caught a cold in july
though the weather was much better my feathers just never dried
hung my coat up in the closet consuming my modest mind
overcame it when i aimed it & shot it back at the sky 

sadness & sorrow
is all i embody
don't tell nobody
don't tell nobody
inside my head
it's always so cloudy
don't tell nobody
don't tell nobody

cocoon

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we could become fireworks and burn out in the sky
lost stability in august but we're almost to july
spread the message out to everyone it's worth another try
i'll convince both you & i that i am fine
i am fine i am fine 

this is the song that you play when you feelin the worst
this is the one that you crank until both of your speakers don't work
this is the song that you play when you're down in the dirt
this is the one that you hate cause you know you relate & you know that it hurts
this is the song that you play on a rainy day
everything's shit
hand me the bottle & i'll take the pain away
yeah
vices in ice & i sip till it fade away
life is a blur & i think i might hurl if it comes back up straight away

i just always feel alone in all of this
maybe i could talk about it write some shit
cause everybody going through the motions with
their lives & in an instant we could not exist
so why the fuck am i so silent hiding this
my suicidal tendencies of violence
against myself are scaring me & i'll be missed
if i decide to take a leap in my abyss

i am fine

fireworks

lyrics
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are you sleeping are you dead?
this the interlude that you listen to in bed
cut the pillow talk you aint gettin in my head
there's a quarter million things that i rather leave unsaid
wait wait one minute gotta find my pair of slides
are we smokin outback are we steppin in the ride
might toss you the keys i can't drive it if i'm fried
turn the radio on shit that's me i'm world wide
shit changed not me tho dude
i've been sippin bombay with a birds eye view
tryna kick it at the crib with a long ass queue
you remember all the days we smoked outta old blue?
yeah i miss that shit
rippin bongs all day in a kickass fit
with my dogs all blazed taking big ass hits
push my soul to the edge like it's soul cal 6

are you listening to this?
it's another track from the dude that never miss
is it coincidental fragmental how we fix
up our issues misusing the substances that make us sick
kick the bucket i chuck it so you can't see it when it lands
if this poet got hella potent we puffin twenty grams
save the eight for a rainy day when you feelin hella bad
it's the artisan mr cardigan best you ever had
do not take it serious
this the one fun track
do not get delirious
cereal i eat it it's a spoon fed experience
yeah i thought that line was hilarious
but we headin back to the project
get a couple lines in
bout some motherfuckers
who can barely get their lines read
arch nemesis you a clown with your eyes red
bozo the bitch you just mad you ain't widespread

one minute

lyrics
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raindrops come to life
i told you a million times
some obsess & some are nice
come inside come inside
raindrops come to life
i called you so mortified
it pushed up in your weary mind
come inside come inside

you're taking me out of it
out of the rain but the clouds will remain
yeah you're taking me out of it
god i'm ashamed of who i became
yeah the face is anonymous
but i can detect based upon dialect
cause he still stays synonymous
to me because we are the same entity
disembody him

raindrops come to life
i told you a million times
some obsess & some are nice
come inside come inside
raindrops come to life
i called you so mortified
it pushed up in your weary mind
come inside come inside

awaken the audience
cause i've got a show & it's ready to go
yeah awaken the audience
the curtains hang low so pull em back slow 
is his character obvious
developing woes as he tips on his toes
tryna bottle his rowdiness
with a grip his soul i can feel him let go
he's victorious

raindrops come to life
i told you a million times
some obsess & some are nice
come inside come inside
raindrops come to life
i called you so mortified
it pushed up in your weary mind
come inside come inside

stratus

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i'm in the backseat with my bros
we've been on the road
hittin' potholes in the sprinter van
i'm leanin' out the window
breeze all in my coat
you were on my mind before this began
and if truth truly be told
when i'm all alone
i scroll on my phone tryna reminisce
it don't matter where we go
i just hope you know
you the one thing that i always miss

you the one thing that i always miss (x4)

started up in buffalo
new york kinda cold
but i call it home and i always will
crossin over the rainbow
bridge to toronto
gettin' kinda snacky so we hit no frills
bout to play another show
pack it up and go
capturing the glow while the city still
captivated to and fro
me & all my bros
how the fuck is any of this really real?

really real
really real
i used to struggle tryna figure how i really feel
i made a song or two about it made me really feel
like i was less alone in all this honestly it healed me
i remember making beats up at my moms
thinking one day imma make it out the house with all these songs
simple times but drastic measures picked me up and made me strong
now i'm writing all these words and sitting right where i belong

i'm in the backseat with my bros
we've been on the road
hittin' potholes in the sprinter van
i'm leanin' out the window
breeze all in my coat
you were on my mind before this began
and if truth truly be told
when i'm all alone
i scroll on my phone tryna reminisce
it don't matter where we go
i just hope you know
you the one thing that i always miss

you the one thing that i always miss (x4)

potholes

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kill me
take me out of my own misery
baby you know that you miss me
baby i know that you miss me
i don't want this to be simply
put but i miss you so dearly
i just want you to be with me
i just want you to be with me

projecting my thoughts on the ceiling
i watched as the paint started peeling
it couldn't withstand all the weight i'm afraid it's too late
now the structures revealing
the stars beyond boards in the distance
i reach to the sky for assistance
but heaven is lightyears away and the sky's rather gray
so i think that i missed it
i sit & i ponder bout whether
i'm able to predict the weather
cause if i am capable of it 
my dearly beloved we'd belong together
but that's only half of the story
i wish i could soak up the glory
but anxiety's got a grip on my shoulders
and shit i don't know if i'm sorry

and they say you miss all of the shots that you don't ever take
so i've been photographing every moment spent while i'm awake
i'm a critic my worst enemy my hours decimate
i'm afraid of running out of time it's hard to explicate
expediting life expectancies like how much can i take
i set standards while i drown myself compile all the weight
this discography's disgusting i'm ashamed of all i make
but this sequel subsequently pieced together all the breaks
breaking down inside my bedroom nothing new upon my plate
repetitious vicious cycles i'll recycle all my hate
channel every fucking ounce back towards myself oh what a waste
god if i could only disappear without a single trace

it'd be bliss
i would not be missed
they pretend they like you you disgusting piece of shit
salvage all the cargo from this busted rustic ship
so i can sail away upon whatever i equipped

phantom's return

lyrics
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please don't go
i've been swaying to & fro
i've been waiting all alone
in the dark without your glow
so please don't go
i'm afraid you'll never show
i'll abandon all i know
if it keeps us both afloat
  
the worst part
being a misfit
is that you misfit
amongst the misfits
unless you try your
hardest to fit in
what is the mission
what are you missing
i hate the distance
between my heart and my home
it feels like every place i've roamed has left me feeling alone
i think a lot about the ways that i could leave but i don't
cause i've got lots to fucking say in all these things that i wrote
i pass the blunt to my bro
he's sick of feeling the same
we put another in rotation just to ease all our pain
it's evident that our intent is reinventing our names
a break is needed when you grieving off what's lost in the flames
and i've got lots of fucking reasons to cement what i say
you pay a penny for my thoughts a couple more for the train
we heading north up to new york i'll talk to you the whole way
we'll trade some music for some memories that pass through the day
so please don't go
please don't go

the pines

lyrics
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go
leave me alone
she cried on the phone again
why does this never end
no
i didn't know
that you wanted just a friend
don't tell me you love me then
where do i go?
i do not know
i do not

hey
what something you dream bout?
babe
i've been tryna figure things out
blame
myself when i come down
hate
you more when the suns down 
fake
love is all i see around
lately
you've been tryna scheme around
make
me feel like imma be around
wasted
time is all i'm seeing now
and your freckles make me stare & cry
connect the dots inside your mind
thought we complete each other
why does this shit happen every time
i think you're seeing other guys
cause you don't talk about the lies
with me lately i'm going blind
to what's happened with you & i 

and we probably could've worked out
that's not how it turned out tho
heard you're back with him again
but you say he's just a friend uhm no
lost the love i thought i had back
but it always backtracks so
guess i'm alone in the end
with a bottle and this pencil

go
leave me alone
she cried on the phone again
why does this never end
no
i didn't know
that you wanted just a friend
don't tell me you love me then
where do i go?
i do not know
i do not

follow dj khaled's son

again (prod. dj khaled's son)

lyrics
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this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

keep me alive
counting the time on the clock till it's five
minutes until this disaster arrives
lie down on the floor you'll be fine
cold surfaces wake up my eyes
blindsided by love bold and bright  
my hearts in your hands till i die
i'd fly to japan for the night
if tour didn't have my hands tied

why did i sign up for this?
ask yourself the question every time you light the spliff
is there something that i missed?
i can feel their eyes, they're watching me with every line i spit
can you back it up a bit?
it's a little hard to breathe when privacy does not exist
codependency is never seen as such a risk
and the artists that we love are trying hard to not get pissed

this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

these eyes saw a lot of sights
but these guys start a lot of conflict
i'm conflicted how my life just
breezed by lost as soon as night hits

follow caspr

alive (prod. caspr)

prod. by @hellahaunted and @sainttomorrow

lyrics
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what if i testify against everything that i
have been saying this whole time
cause i’m probably telling lies
what do i do when i
feel like lying down to die
does the dirt eat me alive
do the worms feed off my eyes
open wide for the flies
cause they’re feeding off your spine
crawling up & down in line
like a soldier bound to die
come inside so will i
wipe your feet until they’re dry
wipe the tears out of your eyes
part of me likes when you cry

winter and summer collide
this universe isn’t mine no
we hope this reaches you in time
chaotic but jesus christ you’re beautiful
(x2)

get caught up constantly in life’s residuals
and paint the sky full of agonizing visuals
can’t press rewind when you realize it’s minuscule
so don’t let go it’ll only leave you miserable

the cycle (prod. caspr x saint tomorrow)

prod. @galvanicmusic

lyrics
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i’ve got a lot to say
don’t listen to what i say
cause everything feeling that i fucking feel
is never just honest babe
never honest babe
like woah oh
i’ve been falling with the breeze so let me fucking go

let me go
let me go
i’ve been tryna find the road
if you get up in my whip with me
we’ll head to my abode
so baby whatchu doin i just wanna go home
i could scoop you like whenever
take you back home in the morn like
we we we we we could fucking make it out (x4)

i said we could fucking make it out
grabbed me by the face & kissed me
then we started making out
i was listening to dgd & it was raining out
voices in my head been asking what are you complaining bout?
cause everything is golden
i’ve been in my zone and
if you wanna roll, we can smoke it later
live inside this moment
write it & compose it
italicize & bold it to formulate a
time to recall
a door down the hall
another sort of prequel
to fit this sequel
i kinda sorta feel small
not noticed at all
until i wrote a song for it
i wrote a song for it
here’s how it goes
a bunch of weed smoke
i panic
start to feel so
sick down to my toes
i’m manic
time just feels slow
it comes and it goes
the static
is all i see though
as i decompose
how tragic

let me go
let me go
i’ve been tryna find the road
if you get up in my whip with me
we’ll head to my abode
so baby whatchu doin i just wanna go home
i could scoop you like whenever
take you back home in the morn like
we we we we we could fucking make it out (x4)

make it out (prod. galvanic)

prod. riley knapp

lyrics
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have you ever had a night like this before
we’re just walking but it feels like so much more
have you ever had a night like this before
have you ever had a
have you ever had a

have you ever seen a street so fucking bright
illuminating architecture all throughout the night
december weather feels like august maybe mid july
it’s our adventure we could do anything that you’d like
pull me closer i’ve been craving you
oh me oh my
i stole a kiss or maybe two it’s hard to memorize
i fall for you more everyday you leave me mesmerized
my heart is sewn onto my shirt for you to crystallize

turquoise inside my pocket it’s a good luck charm
you touch lingers leaves the hair sticking up on my arm
that’s okay baby no really please don’t be alarmed
cause one touch from you to me could never do no harm
you’re the calm after the storm
and if you’re cold i’ll keep you warm
just trust in me & how we form
together in the sheets
we tangle tight & then i swore i asked you

have you ever had a night like this before
we’re just walking but it feels like so much more
have you ever had a night like this before
have you ever had a
have you ever had a

luminary (prod. riley knapp)

lyrics
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i’m crossing out my problems off the list in my brain
if my blood spills onto the carpet we gon wash out the stains
and if the ceiling starts to crumble we could move to LA
ain’t nothing here to keep us balanced cept the liquor & pain

she says she loves me but she don’t believe half of what i say
and i confess it’s fucking tragic but i built it that way
off of the times i was impulsive let my grip slip astray
i started smoking once again just to get rid of the pain
it’s okay
i breathe in
you breathe out
we lie here thinking bout
everything all around
so alert to all sound
the knocks on the windows the floors always creek
so we take a lil peak & get back in the sheets
it’s a whole nother world in this valley of streets
but we choose to embrace all that we cannot see so

we swim for miles while the sky is fading
breathe in like fires in the air just waiting
i won’t be back home soon
i’ll be falling out the window
(x2)

falling out the window

lyrics
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overthinking is a sickness
hopeful that you’ll get this
hope it reaches you
and your death doesn’t dismiss it
flask full of some liquid
eyes fixed on a misfit
i can hear footsteps from
someone in the distance
and they call your name
as you sink and fall into your grave

optimistic is this witness
life too short to risk it
you’ve got the potential
to make better decisions
i thought i could ditch this
skin suit from existence
ascend to higher realms
in a search for more consistence
and then i saw nothing
and fought until god caved

output

ft. @itschasm
prod. @curtainss x @its-naawoj

lyrics
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remember when they said we wouldn't strive
but we wrote it out & cracked the fucking code
remember when we lost our fucking minds
so sedated shit but now we on the road
yeah now we on the road
heading out on tour the journey just began
i ain't ever done this shit before the pressure comin in
and if we comin' to your city hope you catch me if you can
they've been asking how i did it but the answer is a plan

so i slipped into the void & let that shit just free my mind
threw my clothes inside a suitcase one month after i got signed
independence gave me purpose and my team always aligned
i put my heart into this music left everything else behind
and if you wondering about me i guess i've been doing fine
found knowledge inside my compass on interstate 95
from florida to philadelphia smoking palm in the pines
my purpose is proving to you what's possible within time
with a conscience so fucking heavy and everything on the line
you'll lose yourself in the midst always noted of all the signs
too focused on criticism opinions of the divine
my art is a fucking vessel ventriloquisting my spine

remember when we cut the line & said we with the band
had a bottle of some henny & we shaking lots of hands
yeah this is so unusual but fuck it here's the plan
we gon sip another claw and play some ceelo in the van
play some ceelo in the van 
then we post it on the gram
life is but a dream when you've been feelin like the man
i'll wake up tomorrow different city different fans
i've been dreaming about this shit since the day i learned to stand

and i wake up take a puff of the pen
me and bro were smokin tryna ascend
to the clouds
different shows
different towns
different lives that i see
different vibes that i read
hope i make my life just like my dreams
i don’t care if i go to extremes
it’s inside my genes so it seems
so imma be best and surpass with my team

on the road (ft. chas m) (prod. curtains x naawoj)

ft. @sewerperson x @lilnarnia
prod. @youlooktiredx

lyrics
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wish i would’ve stayed in my bed
put all my dreams in my nightstand
you said i changed with your eyes red
whispered okay under my breath
(x2)

looks like you’ve got nothing done
your value is lost
oh what have you become
the critic inside you is holding a gun
to your head one false move and the chamber is spun
i’m a fake to myself live uncomfortably numb
mechanism for coping is biting my tongue
i’ve lost focus in all this sought solace in sun-
-light is burning my eyes which direction is it coming from
stupid thoughts hault my momentum run from everyone
and everything ignore your friends & family it’s fun
i stopped caring so damn long ago zero to one
i commentate my complications constantly i’m done

wish i would’ve stayed in my bed
put all my dreams in my nightstand
you said i changed with your eyes red
whispered okay under my breath
(x2)

you cannot hurt me
but she gon break me down into a fine pulp
this shit taste like chicken i can barely tell its asphalt
sumn creep up behind me when i turn around its no one
she could rip my face from off my body and its my fault
pause
she dont really mean it she just do it for the applause
i choose not to believe it all of a sudden i am calm
im convinced they hate me but they lock it in their thoughts
i just need some reassurance here and there to keep me going
girl can u tell me whats up
i cant read ur face when u got ur walls up
look out on the lake u could see it light up
its even better in the winter u should try to come up

seems like summer never started
haven’t left my apartment in months
why can’t I just get you out
keep screaming with my head down
feels like nothing is an option
and im always exhausted
tryna pull myself together
check my phone and its december whatever
wish i would’ve stayed youda liked that
put all my dreams in a nightstand
you said i changed with your eyes red
whispered okay under my breath

yeah
she makes home feel like a home in my head
and when i’m with her i feel hope again

willow ave (ft. sewerperson x lil narnia) (prod. youlooktired)

an intro

lyrics
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i fell asleep in the backseat
with my eyes wide shut bumpin backstreet
we arrived on time to the crash scene
i just stared as i saw my body pass me
could’ve swore that this shit happened last week
got a hunch it’s a reoccurring bad dream
had a bunch last year when they asked me
what is it that you fear in your passing?

what is it that you fear in your passing?
maybe death but it’s more so in the crashing
do i feel everything as it’s flashing?
do i care? does it hurt? yeah i’m asking
cause i don’t have a clue how to feel
why do all of these dreams seem so real?
would it change if i just took the wheel?
i don’t know till all four tires squeal

i’m stuck in a nightmare
scared by where my eyes stare
no clipping through my car door
my body will just lie there
reaching towards the skies stairs
you won’t make it i swear
the current is pulling me
i’m hoping i don’t die here
(x2)

floating to the surface
i guess life is worth it
beat the fuck out of myself
tell me that i deserve it
anxious is a person
for that i am certain
i embody all my fears
and wear them like a curtain

cuba lake

ft. @daddydandy
prod. @prodjody x @iofmusic

lyrics
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sun don’t shine it’s always so rainy
fuck at least it watered the daisies
stay at home watching patrick swayze
oh my god this bitch sounding crazy
told my friends that they couldn’t save me
what’s it like to always stay hating

can’t help but to constantly wonder
how this storm would feel without thunder
losing me? would that be a bummer?
all the memories that we had now
all fell with the leaves in the background
dead to me by morning how’s that sound?

let me speak some facts
leaving me alone increased my intrusive attacks
yeah my brain ain’t really felt the same since knives went in my back
and you called me insecure for being right about your past
baby that’s so whack
talking to me’s easy with the doorbell still in tact
tactical insertion place yourself up on the map
then you hit me with some pillow thoughts
so we can just relax
like don’t be shy my love for you’s lucid
all my words got choked up by cupid
you must think that i am so stupid
told me not to jump to conclusions
said it must be my own delusions
look at me & tell me i’m losing
cause i’m not not not not

woah i just had a thought like
“if i’m not alright...if I’m not alright am i really alive?”
cause i feel undead daisy chain atop my head
everything is messed up lately
feeling like i caught a cold on the daily
i just keep my head on straight & a good ass vibe cause
i don’t wanna lose myself before i try
i got too much left to prove in life before i die
so i won’t ever let myself be left behind

sun don’t shine it’s always so rainy
fuck at least it watered the daisies
stay at home watching patrick swayze

daisies (ft. flowars) (prod. jody x iof)

prod. @l1lbiscuit x @gualabeatz

lyrics
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hey you
why you mad at me?
i've been falin' backwards runnin' barefoot through the leaves
i could bite my tongue until i really gotta leave
if the issue isn't settled why you settlin' for me?
hey you
whatchu wanna be?
i remember back when i was sleeping with no sheets
back when we were struggling off 89 a week
when the habits i possessed was partially possessing me
when the root of all my problems disappeared inside the green
and i was acting like i gave a fuck but no one fucked with me
when the busses to the 6 were all i had just to be free
i got a passport for that bitch but but now i travel overseas

yeah it's been a couple years but honestly it's all i see
when i close my eyes & reminisce this shit is just a dream
guess i really overcame a lot & now i've come to see
all the work i've put into it paying off by 23
thought i'd never live to tell but now i'm tellin how it be
when you overcome the obstacles & turn into a g
you could a. run for cover are you ready for the heat?
self destruct until i feel like anyone but me
you could be anything that you desire whatchu seek?
i've been plotting on this shit for years since i was seventeen
never felt like i could do it the depression come in sweeps
i put my headphones on & spit some shit until i fall asleep

back in 2017 i plotted out my death 
tied a noose inside my closet drew a target on my chest
if you think this shits a gimmick you can put it to the test
check my browser history for all the answers be my guest
googled "how to kill myself" but every option involved pain
every forum full of isolated kids that feel the same
saying they would end their lives in hopes of ridding all the shame
it's much easier to talk about when no one knows your name 
it's hilarious how motherfuckers profit off an act
you ain't ever put the blade against your skin and that's a fact
you're bewildered by the concept of a struggle so you cap
yeah my eyes are fixed upon you & i'm ready to attack
guess this is a wrap
fuck you & your homies all the shit you do is whack
this ain't no specific diss it's simply a smack
in the face of all these influencers actin like they sad

Through the Badlands

Caleb Roberts