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@aleph_sound

’Ego Death’ examines the hero's journey, the death and rebirth of the self, with the psychedelic experience as the narrative mechanism. It’s also a story about how I was changing as a person, a chronicle of my vision, values, and aspirations as an artist during the time of writing.

I’ve been fortunate to have electronic music as a place of healing in my life, a safe space to escape into and explore. Diving into this project at the start of the global covid-19 pandemic when everything was shutting down and things felt so uncertain was a sort of coping mechanism. During the 8-10 months prior to that, I had been overcome by this feeling that I had something more I needed to tell and explore within my work, something that I had been struggling to find and understand. It wasn’t until the mandatory isolation of quarantine that I was able to really parse out and confront what I was feeling and luckily I was able to make it into something tangible. This project is the result of that process.

I think a final point I’d like to offer up is that regardless of where the story ends, there is always a place beyond it. I’ve always loved to think about the unwritten narratives that follow a story's conclusion, about what happens with the characters and places after everything is said and done. I hope that those who take the time to listen to this record will consider that side of things now that this part of my story has ended.

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ALEPH - ▌▌▌▌▌▌▌█▓▓▓▒▒▒░░░░░░░░░

Newly remastered version of our remix of DIOYY's We Are Rockstars

Feel free to download it :)

Does It Offend You, Yeah: We Are Rockstars - Cold Blank Remix

TRAK LIST:

MIMIDEATH - Calcium
Donatachi - b2b heartbeat
Machine Girl - Ghost
Machine Girl - Cyan Hardcore
Akuma des Akuma (yeule remix)
Oaf1 - ilove urr girl
recovery girl - it-'s love
bladee + ECCO2K - Vanilla Sky STAY Remix
Yoko Takahashi - The Cruel Angel-'s Thesis
Fax Gang - Breathe2 (In-Out)
LOONA (ODD EYE CIRCLE) - ODD Front

THANK U 4 LISTENING <3

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cursed body

unhinged (and awesomeness) super remix of the song "Kitty Said What?"
this song amounts high! very ! long time long time!

Go Kitty Go! (acidawg remix)

this is hypersteria
you are not hypersteria
capiche?

hypersteria

the title is a paraphrase for book ''One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest'' by Ken Kesey.

available on Small Sounds for Small Bugs compilation released by Moon Musiq label.
https://moonmusiq.bandcamp.com/album/small-sounds-for-small-bugs
https://www.noisewiki.com/wiki/index.php?title=Antireality

Small Sounds for Small Bugs

Antireality - Someone Droned Over the Grasshopper's Bass

it was really fun making this for the gbpa4 charity fundraiser stream. seek out the vod if you can, there's a lot of incredible sets in it

The Fragile Days

call me lethargy.

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