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Reflections - Calculus

Medicine - Calculus

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Got me sitting in this different place of mind
Everything I'm doing leaves me way behind
Drugging up on bottles kinda makes me blind
I'm wasting time, looking at this caged device
Ever since I made myself be living here
Knowing now that it's coz I'm filled with fear
Though I'm feeling everybody's hurtful fdrilling leers 
Spinning gears, sitting here, I'm still in tears
During high school i was teased and bullied
When I went home I'd cut my arm fully
No one ever asked if I was fucking harmed, could he
Ever go back to the place where he was always down, pulling
Breaths from the space that was left in his chest
Detest all the rest, were the best, now they're left in the dust
And you know that I must try forget
Coz I'm blessed with repent and I'm sent to defend
And I know that it hurt
And they know that it worked
coz they left with a smirk
Now I'm left with rebirth
But I rose from the ground
Without making a sound
Though I'm drowning it out

Coz I am king of the world
And you will know my name
I am king of myself
And now i'm feeling sane
I'll defeat all these scars
Until my skin's the same
Colour as it was before
Before the hurt and shame

You gotta get
Given the power to save yourself
No matter how much you might want that razors help
But I hope you know that these blades can tell
That you've been sitting here thinking bout raising hell
Your mind's drawing lines, making deals with demons
Going against a God that you don't believe in
Even though sometimes you feel like you're dreaming
Try to hide that inside you're screaming
Haunted by thoughts of the past, they lurk
Never go away because they last and they hurt
They're absurd and you know that their purpose is burnt
By the flames of their words and the pains of their smirks
With a knife to the wrist you can cut all the pain
Out of your mind, and out of your veins
Without a life you've got nothing to lose
But on the same page you've got nothing to gain
Yeah you've taken their shit
And you've taken their hits
And you've taken their spit
Go home with split lips
And bruised eyes that you try to disguise with lies
Hiding away when you sit and you cry
And you bury yourself in all the sorrow and shame
But you gotta get back up on your feet again
To show them that you've won and not lost in the end
That you're the only one on whom you can depend
And it hurts and it hurts
And it hurts worse, and it's worse
Than being stabbed in the back
A heartless attack
And it lacks
Justification
And endless suffocation
Can end this situation

Coz I am king of the world
Abd you will know my name
I am king of myself
And now I'm feeling sane
I'll defeat all these scars
Until my skin's the same
Colour as it was before
Before the hurt and shame
You were king of my mind
You led me to defeat
But I am king of the blind
I'll lead them till they see
Coz I am king of the world
And you will know it's true
Coz I am king of the world
So who the fuck are you?

All these lies
And all this pain
It running through my veins
All these marks
And all these scars

Coz I am king of the world
Abd you will know my name
I am king of myself
And now I'm feeling sane
I'll defeat all these scars
Until my skin's the same
Colour as it was before
Before the hurt and shame
You were king of my mind
You led me to defeat
But I am king of the blind
I'll lead them till they see
Coz I am king of the world
And you will know it's true
Coz I am king of the world
So who the fuck are you?


Plead For My Sanity - Calculus (full band)

Callum-Murray