cy V

count yr blessings (wavypang)

(Came over to show you that I wrote you a song)
(Turn the corner, your falling right into his arms)
(Falling down I'm feeling nauseous, yea I don't know how to stop this)

Turn the corner and you know that I just wanted to fall
Tears rolling down know I cant hear your call
Steering windows down, feeling heavy withdrawals

Crash into the barrier know fuck it yea I want it to hurt
Told me you'd be back but fuck it left me cold and deserted
Made me think I deserve this (think I deserve this)
Crash into the barrier know fuck it yea I want it to hurt
Told me you'd be back but fuck it left me cold and deserted
(Now I'm never going home, now I'm never going home, now I'm never going)

Came over to show you that I wrote you a song
Turn the corner, your falling right into his arms
Falling down I'm feeling nauseous, yea I don't know how to stop this
Came over to show you that I wrote you a song
Turn the corner, your falling right into his arms
Falling down I'm feeling nauseous, yea I don't know how to stop this

Turn the corner and you know that I just wanted to fall
Tears rolling down know I cant hear your call
Steering windows down, feeling heavy withdrawals

Crash into the barrier know fuck it yea I want it to hurt
Told me you'd be back but fuck it left me cold and deserted
Made me think I deserve this (think I deserve this)
Crash into the barrier know fuck it yea I want it to hurt
Told me you'd be back but fuck it left me cold and deserted
Made me think I deserve this 
(Now I'm never going home, now I'm never going home, now I'm never going)

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agony (yungspoiler)

This Mix Was Alread Turnt But Here's A Bell !

YEAT MIX

Up 2 Më

Twizzy Rich

this year is for escape

Locked in your room you know I've been here for weeks
Praying to a god that I do not believe in
I don't know what season it is
Thought you would find me, but it seems you forget
Thought someone would notice I'm not here
Your still crying I see past your fake tears
Never had a trail still you looked a whole year
Yea I did it know his killers standing right here

Please don't think so highly of me
You know I've seen thru, who you're trying to be
Wish you'd take me out now
Know that I've been waiting to leave
On my way to hell, but I know you'll be there with me

Took a left, think I'm headed on the wrong way home
Learned the hard way that nothings ever set in stone
I wanted to forget your poison, seeps in my mind gets distorted
Forget the torment your forced in
I could never fall asleep I'm feeling hopeless
Haven't seen the sun in weeks my eyes are closing shut
I've had enough, I've felt enough

Please don't think so highly of me
You know I've seen thru, who you're trying to be
Wish you'd take me out now
Know that I've been waiting to leave
On my way to hell, but I know you'll be there with me
Please don't think so highly of me
You know I've seen thru, who you're trying to be
Wish you'd take me out now
Know that I've been waiting to leave
On my way to hell, but I know you'll be there with me

Hope (letsgobeats)

i recorded this while i was hella sick

Mean more than you could ever know
Sittin by myself in an empty grove
Still the same kids know we never grown
Haven’t seen you since the day I left home

Relapse and crawl back to nothing
You took to long and now I’d really like to be alone
Still just singing all the same old songs
Really wish we’d get along 
But know I’m better on my own
Relapse and crawl back to nothing
You took to long and now I’d really like to be alone
Still just singing all the same old songs
Really wish we’d get along 
But know I’m better on my own

Every now and then I lose track of
What I want from life I’ve lost passion
Fall asleep I won’t see the sun up
Brain feels like it’s made of plastic
Burn the house and play in the ashes
Seen a ghost, do you believe in magic?
Mouth sewn shut, your face dunked in acid
Last thing you’ll hear is me striking the matches

Relapse and crawl back to nothing
You took to long and now I’d really like to be alone
Still just singing all the same old songs
Really wish we’d get along 
But know I’m better on my own
Relapse and crawl back to nothing
You took to long and now I’d really like to be alone
Still just singing all the same old songs
Really wish we’d get along 
But know I’m better on my own

(Every now and then I lose track of
What I want from life I’ve lost passion
Fall asleep I won’t see the sun up
Brain feels like it’s made of plastic
Burn the house and play in the ashes
Seen a ghost, do you believe in magic?
Mouth sewn shut, your face dunked in acid
Last thing you’ll hear is me striking the matches)

nothing (weikoo + 02ashes)

Feels like  I waste my time on you
Lost in the waves I've been confused
Thought I could be myself 
Every road now just leads to hell
Still I wish you well
Know I'm still in love but I never would tell

Lately I've been under your spell
But I never would tell
Lately I've been under your spell

Losing comfort in the simple things
I tried my best to fight it
These feelings cant hide it
Still lost in all the memories
I'm going straight silent
My socials on private

Know what, you want
I'm falling down again
No more, I give up
Let me rest I'm dead
Don't want, no ones
Empty words or promises
Don't let go, please don't let go of me
Let go of me

Shoulda known everything gonna end one day
Still I never thought it'd come this way
Everything I love thrown in the grave
Watch the sun come up
Knowing I won't be here tomorrow
Everyday been the same feeling hollow
Laying face down in my bed with my eyes closed

Yea I wonder if you stayed
Would a thing even change 
Or is this all not real
Don't leave me don't leave me
Our love has lost appeal
Don't leave me don't leave me
Got some wounds that I know cant be healed
Don't leave me don't leave me
Got coke on my cigarette butt and I'm ready to kill
Anybody who stands right in my way
I'll do it for myself and face your pain

Know what, you want
I'm falling down again
No more, I give up
Let me rest I'm dead
Don't want, no ones
Empty words or promises
Don't let go, please don't let go of me
Let go of me

hell (grayskies)

written, recorded and mastered by me
produced by @oldyungtoadsage <3

🠟 lyrics 🠟

A month that passes like a second with no comment

Living in the present,
its a box that lost its contents...

I wake up to their world,
where observations are nonsense

I wake up to their world,
where the truth is just too honest.

I wake up to a world
where everyone i know has lost it all

I wake up with the knowledge
That everyone i like is lost...

Im really okay with the pain and the costs,
and they think im not sane
its okay cuz im not

i said babe
im a pain to you
see that im draining you

said im engrained in you
get me away from you

im really okay
   as i say 
       while im crossed
then u stare at my eyes,
and u can tell im exhausted.

you don't wanna be chained to me
im probably a stain to you
i cant contain, asking,
how is it plain to you?
its not to me.

grew up having bad rep
look around me
everybody chasing checks
i have no crew
because the cliques just chase
adrenaline and neck

bitch im numb just like a sedative at best

and im pathetic cuz i leave the ones that love me
for some rest

and imma do it till im finally unaffected
by the ones
who make me scared of getting left

and imma do it till im finally unaffected
by the ones
who make me check my fucking back
like every second

and imma cherish every laceration
gratefully like someone who was made
to take a lesson

cuz im a masochist
and maybe im addicted
to the people who can send a fucking message

i think i left a bad impression
till the end, from the start,
im the source of my depression
build it up and tear it apart
spill everything in the session

 [ switch up ]

i dont
   see love
       as i used to anymore

some part
     of my heart
         died to keep me alive

i dropped my guard,
     in the end 
        what was it for?

some part
     of my heart
        died to keep me alive

-

its probably cause
     the light that was
inside of me
       has given up...
                well im not sure if it can be revived
                                 (be revived)

im mourning youth
       this shit is tough
             no innocence
                   no giving up
       my heart ran dry so you cant be mine
                        (cant be mine)

Its kinda clear that you dont need me,
Its pretty clear that i dont need you...
Its kinda clear that you dont want me,
Its pretty clear that i dont know what i want...
         kno-kno-know what i want
                        anymore

i dont
   see love
       as i used to anymore

some part
     of my heart
         died to keep me alive

i dropped my guard,
     in the end 
        what was it for?

some part
     of my heart
        died to keep me alive

bad impressions

Comfort in you
I just wanted comfort in you
Whole time you watched me sleep
Think that I saw you in a dream
When I wake up why do I scream?
(When I wake up why do I scream?)

I'm used to it don't bother
I dunk my head underwater
Hope one day I'm forgotten
You left my body its rotten
I'm cold and sick from the weather
Know I been down could feel better
I stay high so fuckin often, feels like I'm chasing a coffin
Still not used to the pressure
Without you around its better
Wiping tears with my sweater
Don't think that I'll forget her

People always wanna tell me what I should or shouldn't do
I don't give a fuck what they say wanna wake up next to you
Fucking up my mental every day now I've been feeling screwed
Wake up wanting something different yeah I'm craving something new

Shut up, I don't wanna hear it at all anymore
Brain numb, I don't wanna feel it at all, I been sore
Good luck, when you wanna walk outside on your own
So dumb, how you wanna pretend you're all alone

I can't forget all the ways that I felt yeah
She look my way now I'm not feeling well yeah
Stabbed in the back with a metaphor something
Tells me I hate you but you say you love me

Why you piss me off
Sing a stupid song
Get your action shot
While my body rot
It's like 2 o clock
And I just can't sleep
I can't forget her
So I think I'll leave

I'm used to it don't bother
I dunk my head underwater
Hope one day I'm forgotten
You left my body its rotten
I'm cold and sick from the weather
Know I been down could feel better
Wiping tears with my sweater
Don't think that I'll forget her

comfort w/ cmten (goodbyex2002 x 31sentinel)

Cold breath running down my neck
Life been constant stress
Know that I'm a mess
No more tears are left now
Thought we had a chance
Said its for the best
Still I know that you'll be coming back around, coming back around
Still faded, been playing myself for too long
Narcissistic prick only listen to my own songs
Always bullshittin' swear that you would never do me wrong
Always lies, know I really wish that you would prove me wrong

Fool me once, it's okay know I've been thru this
Fool me twice and that trigger might get pulled man
Saying I'm the same as I once was, been a lost cause
No more speaking rip your jaw off
Fool me once, it's okay know I've been thru this
Fool me twice and that trigger might get pulled man
Saying I'm the same as I once was, been a lost cause
No more speaking rip your jaw off

I don't trust your boy know he lying every word
If any girl come near me, there's no option but to curve
Always laying low, only talking to myself
I'm starting to realize that this ain't good for my health
Lonely, met a new one
Is it too soon to say that I'm in love?
Hold me, physical touch
Surprised I got you, guess it was luck

Don't show my face oh please don't record
Don't let him in, promise me you'll ignore
Drowning my voice, don't care if it distorts
I want your love I need more I need more
You need to quit
Alcoholic
She hauling two beers and that's not attractive
But your so pretty on the outside
Hurting inside
Stay with me if you wanna walk a straight line

lostcause w/ heylog (31sentinel)

outta luck ft. viizzi, ssen & kyoto (lewisgoing)

falling for the last time

keepitQuiet ٩( `ȏ´ )۶

keepitQuiet ٩( `ȏ´ )۶ (jxlyy)

produced by @sprr00w + @craves <3
written recorded and mixed by me 

as of making this I'm not doing good

🠟 lyrics 🠟

i wish that i could say
that im at my worst

but i know you’re here too


took my mind to a place
where i can hide my pain

so i can fucking hear you


and when you’re done
i turn my phone off
so i can disappear 

u dont wanna know
the things i do to cope
when ur not here


so don’t you worry your 
little head

im all ears for you 
as i should be

ill keep lying and saying
that im fine

until your problems
eat
away at me



time we get away from here
and see a place that doesn’t rain 

its time to say goodbye to home
cuz all it brought us both was pain 

its time for us to vanish 
in a way where they ask
are we sane ?

its time 

for us to walk alone


ill go left and you go right

ill go dark and you go light

ill accept while you deny

and say im not a waste of time


ill go left and you go right

ill go dark and you go light

ill accept while you deny

and say im not a waste of your time

i wish i had more to give

Bad Intentions (Prod. Taylor Morgan)

i love all these people dearly >|<

produced by me and @kojowav
mix/chops by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

[ intro : @xxsyris ]

what i feel around you 
is hard to describe
i can see thru ur lies 
please dont hurt whats inside

i feel like a nuisance
i feel i'm reclusive
why do u act cluless
you make me feel useless

[ chorus : @sprigtek ]

you still 
look at me 
like you did

back when 
we had met
u had let me in 

even when
you explain
its so strange

am i the one?
i -i
 the one
that u still miss


and ur the one
   that i want- 
i want to listen to 

until my death
    when i dream 
i still envision you

why would you tell me that?
if it just isnt true 

those things we said would happen 
am i just your distraction?

[ verse 1 : @xxsyris ]

i'm not the one, oh
i'm not the one oh,
what we've become
something that can't be undone

i'm not the one, oh
i'm not the one oh,
what we've become
something that can't be undone

and i know its fucked up but stay here with me

i promise its worth it so baby dont leave

you know that i want this you know that i need this

spinning in circles with lies but believe this

just keep it a secret ur love yeah i need it

i need it your love yeah i need it

[ verse 2 : @venusiann ]

i can't breathe, i'm so weak
i can't go on like this right now
but maybe, you'll save me
want you to lift me from the ground

and i can't keep you around
love is my curse i'd drown

hate to see your face
i wanna escape
to another place
never wanted it this way

[ chorus : @sprigtek ]

you still 
look at me 
like you did

back when 
we had met
u had let me in 

even when
you explain
its so strange

am i the one?
i -i
 the one
that u still miss


and ur the one
   that i want- 
i want to listen to 

until my death
    when i dream 
i still envision you

why would you tell me that?
if it just isnt true 

those things we said would happen 
am i just your distraction?

[ end ]

resolve / once + syris + venusiann

prod @onetdf

cover art by me but inspired by the goat @stonemannn

Old habits (tdf)

GO STREAM ON SPOTIFY https://open.spotify.com/track/3YxqZR4UbQTajsyrlDOOcs?si=46607be5bb4c48e5

im back :) gonna be more consistent now
luv every1 <3 

lyrics:
i'm gonna watch it all fade away
everything that i lost i made it right back
you wanted me to stay a day
but i don't think im prepared for all the light flack
i tried to take the pain away
but it just keeps on hurting i dont like that
dont think i can explain a thing
but if you keep on tryna push me i just might snap
you saw me again in person
and i dont understand the shit you said its worthless
and all the threats you make against my head's concerning
and you were just a stepping stone for me im learning
and you dont like the way i moved on
the way i look at everybody else is too fond
and you could never reach me if you tried im too gone
and im not gonna listen to a thing that you want
im waiting, you said im ok
then you watch me decay
i wont let you explain yourself
i think my pains a reflection of things
that you caused through the day
and what im tryna say is that
i am so free
its impossible to be yourself
when you on your knees
begging somebody else for your love
that u think has to be given to  you
and just don't expect me to be someone
you think you'll be counting on and
wait
you dont gotta give up hope now
wait
you are almost there so don't pout
you saw me again in person
and i dont understand the shit you said its worthless
and all the threats you make against my head's concerning
and you were just a stepping stone for me im learning
and you dont like the way i moved on
the way i look at everybody else is too fond
and you could never reach me if you tried im too gone
and im not gonna listen to a thing that you want

cy V

camden