[prod. 1sickboy] lyrics;
I never falled, off,
You kept on lying to me,
You knew that you were so, wrong,
Now you’re crying on your knees,
Your love was just lost,
Tortured by the memories,
You played but then you paid the, cost,
Now you’re begging, screaming, “please,”
But I don’t hear your calls, 
Your voice gets lost up in the breeze,
You watched me build these walls,
Now you’re locked without the keys
you said its all my fault
oh your so sure that you know it 
but your not miss know it all  

IVE BEEN STUCK UP IN MY HEAD, I NEVER SLEEP
IVE BEEN.. FUCKED UP EVER SINCE YOU WANTED PEACE
VOICES CONVERSATING AT NIGHT AND THEY NEVER WANNA LEAVE
TRIED TO NUMB ALL THIS PAIN, BUT YOU CUT ME WAY TO DEEP
NOW I’M DROWNING IN REGRET, AND I CAN’T FIND MYSELF RELIEF
EVERY PROMISE'S BROKE UP IN MY HEAD, ITS LIKE A DREAM,
AND YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME TO DEATH WELL I GUESS YOU NEVER MEAN
I'M  LOOKIN’ IN THE MIRROR I DON’T KNOW WHO I SEE

YOU TOOK A PART OF ME, NOW IT’S EMPTY, 
INDEED
I WAS BLEEDIN’ FOR YOUR LOVE,
NOW I’M FINALLY FREE
BUT FREEDOM FEELS LIKE HELL WHEN YOU’RE,
LOST IN THE SEA


i never felt this type of, way
every time i think about you, i just see your face
i wanna end it fucking, blow out my brains
you did me dirty i thought you were gonna change
running circles in my head, i cant escape
all these gun shots, gonna ricochet
i wanna move on but I'm so afraid
you fucked up everything, but left me here to blame

(wo-woa-woahh)

You kept on lying to me,
You knew that you were so, wrong,
Now you’re crying on your knees,
Your love was just lost,
Tortured by the memories,
You played but then you paid the, cost,
Now you’re begging, screaming, “please,”
But I don’t hear your calls, 
Your voice gets lost up in the breeze,
You watched me build these walls,
Now you’re locked without the keys
you said its all my fault
oh your so sure that you know it 
but your not miss know it all

I never falled off

https://open.spotify.com/track/5D279n3PaoAHQ6SXy6D4kO?si=TlsyxTqvSwaHjRStMq2IcQ
lyrics: If you want it so bad you'd be better man
Crawling on the floor like that's your only plan
You're falling
Falling but you're faster than everyone here
And it shows
You're better than them all
Don't ever let them dim your light
You're better than them all inside
Inside
Youre falling in youre calling out to me
Im wondering if i should save you or let you fall down
It doesn't even matter
Cause if i let you fall or down it doesn't even matter 
you still see me the worst
The worst
Ima talk to you
Talk to you like I don't see nobody else
Like what's this about and what's that about what's that sound
You don't come around I hate that now
I hate that too I needed you so where were you at
So where were you at
You're falling in you're calling out to me
Im wondering if i should save you or let you fall down
It doesn't even-

If you want it so bad you'd be better man
Crawling on the floor like that's your only plan
You're falling
Falling but you're faster than everyone here
And it shows
You're better than them all
Don't ever let them dim your light
You're better than them all inside
Inside
Inside, inside, inside
Inside, inside, inside

lumiere

alive

fenix - its your fault that im dead

prod me

can i be your person?
i think we could make this work
cant you see that your perfect?
i just wanna make sure it hurts
said that we should just be friends
im tryna make it all make sense 
i took your phone you punched my chest
that day just replays in my head
i hope you finally feel regret
sometimes i wish we never met
and i cant take back things i said
that shit i yelled i never meant
can i be your person?
i think we could make this work
cant you see that your perfect?
i just wanna make sure it hurts

bruise

when i die put you in will my dear
losing you is my exact biggest fear
i just wanna see her and mayb i act eager but..
i just wanna see her !!! :(
i wish i lived near herrrrrrrrrr
nothing a flight cant fix i wanna c u :p
i dont bite i just kiss id never leave u
fly with me, die tipsy, i love when you...
put ur arms around me

flight prod beige

take my love (poem & song)

prod me

i wasnt tryna make a scene
but you keep yelling while you leave
this is everything to me
this is everything to me
ill keep my head up for one more day
i hope hes treating you better I want you to be safe
and i cant stand the weather rain ruined my day
and i wish we were together but its never the same

september 20th

my head

I wrote the lyrics for “Нежность” in 1987, during my military training in the Soviet Army, as we prepared for deployment to Afghanistan. Surrounded by the noise of drills and the silence of waiting, I began to wonder how tenderness, that quiet gift of love and mercy, can survive in a world filled with anger and pride that so often lead to wars.

This song tells the story of a soldier walking down the long road of human history, past the broken remains of many battles. Along this road, the ruins of empires fade, yet from the cracked ground grows a single sunflower, a symbol of new life and hope. It reminds us that even after destruction, God’s light and love remain.

The lyrics were first written in a small army notebook under the dim barrack lights, capturing a young man’s longing for peace in a world torn by division. Today, this song continues that same prayer — that our hearts may stay tender and open, even after all we’ve endured.

This song was composed for my book “Harmonies of Faith: A Musical Journey — Songs of Life, Love, and Divine Inspiration”, where each piece reflects on life, love, and the divine through music and poetry.

📖 Order your copy of “Harmonies of Faith” book here:
👉 https://amazon.com/author/orthodoxtoys

my head

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