it was never a good look (despite everything)

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Pretty Drama

another old song
started in september 2021, finished in october 2022
https://twitter.com/canofblissmusic

Inner dialogue
Down on me all the time, but I don't cry a lot
I get my best ideas when I'm gone
Then I try to remember what the fuck is going on
In my head
It takes me all damn night to wanna go to bed
I keep thinking of everything I could've said
Why did I have to come off like I never meant?

And I try so hard
And nothing's coming out right
And I try so hard

And then I feel defeated
Energy depleted
And I'm bringing myself back down
And then I feel defeated
Nothing got completed
It's time to waste time now

I keep burning out
Not always fully there, I'm drifting in and out
Do people even get the things I talk about?
I don't think so
Maybe my vibe is too bizarre
It's too much effort breaking me out with a crowbar
Maybe the answers to my problems are on Co-Star
I tell myself that I'm not wanted where my friends are
I tell myself that I'm not wanted at all

And I try so hard
And nothing's coming out right
And I try so hard

It's not that I don't wanna talk about it
I don't know how to fucking use my mouth
Then I forget what I was talking about

And then I feel defeated
Energy depleted
And I'm bringing myself back down
And then I feel defeated
I feel defeated
I feel defeated

And I try so hard
And nothing's coming out right
And I try so hard

bandcamp

defeated

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field notes

the struggles of learning to drive stick lead to a horrible foresight

with additional production from @zhookhouse

dash cam

something isn't right

featuring:
@can-of-bliss
@saoirsedream
@wishlane

produced by:
@can-of-bliss
@dossyx
@draf2k
@bhproducer

bleed / lipstick 405

lipstick 405

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written & produced by jacob geoffrey & austin steele
add. synth production by madeleine birdsell
add. drum engineering by max morgen

So you tell me on your casual side
we’re reading too much into living with irrational eyes
but you never wanted to save the world
you wanted to say i told you so

(say what you mean, say what you mean, say)

Face, pavement sky
Scorched earth telling lies

Get relevant
Or you’re better off dying
Dying

Silence is god damn hysteria
Say what you mean, say what you mean
Get good or get god, he’ll say to you
Say what you mean

Run it back

The state shift isn’t my fault,
I’m just a kid trying to invent a new mascot
So maybe choose a hill to die on,
it’s required if you wanted to pass

(say what you mean, say what you mean, say)

False gods don’t try,
is your world on fire?

Get relevant
Or you’re better off dying
Dying

Silence is god damn hysteria
Say what you mean, say what you mean
Get good or get god, he’ll say to you
Say what you mean

Beauty stasis
Cultures fading
When did we all get so jaded?
Well the money’s buying all of the attention we accrue
And it’s up to the computers to decide what we consume
I’ve been told that getting rid of everything is overdue
Everybody wants some honesty but no one tells the truth, yeah

Say what you mean, say what you mean
Say what you mean, say what you mean
Say what you mean, say what you mean
Say what you mean, say what you mean

Say what you mean

(Let's go!)

I couldn’t name the place I’m going
Even though I’ve been there six or seven different times
I can tell the sky is getting darker
I might fuck around and walk back home alone tonight
And even though I came here just to nurse a bottle, to the mouth or to the face, my mom says not to talk to guys
But if a stranger looks me in the eyes and orders me into the restroom, I’m just not the type to put up too much of a fight

You know I’m not like all the othеr girls around the function
He could have gonе and chosen any single one of them
I know it’s not my voice, it’s not my looks, he wants to rush in
When you’re a rarity, you end up shackled to a bed
The music’s way too loud and I don’t care if he don’t love me
It’s just a number, what’s a couple drinks around some friends?
And for some reason I don’t mind it when he interrupts me
He looks me in the eyes and I can tell i might be dead

Put me in your pocket, baby, let’s go for a drive
Let me tell a little secret, I’ve lived way too many lives
I know that you want it, baby, let me be your little crime
I don’t know where i would end up if i make it past tonight
Put me in your pocket, baby, let’s go for a drive
Let me tell a little secret, I’ve lived way too many lives
I know that you want it, baby, let me be your little crime
I don’t know where i would end up if i make it past tonight

(The devil inside of you says to listen to secret girlfriend)
(Secret girlfriend 2036 world domination)
(My lifelong dream has finally come true)
(Of course i’m not in love with him, It’s just a convenience)

I see it coming for me six or seven miles away
I greet it standing in the road, a smile on my face
He treats me like a million bucks when he wants something i can give, i wake up in the hospital along with bruises on my face

I see it coming for me, I’m convinced i love the pain
I greet it standing in the road, a smile on my face
He treats me like a million dollars, give him everything
I wake up in the hospital alone with the new-

Never thought I’d make it this far off the path
Got a smoke in hand like I’m a man
Then he gives a smile, spits a laugh
“You know pretty things like you aren’t meant to throw-“ (ugh)
Got a funny feeling in my chest
Got a smoke in hand like I’m a man
Then he flicks the lighter, takes a drag
“You know pretty things like you aren’t meant to throw tantrums”

Streaming

Tantrums

U n Me

IT'Z NYOT ME!! (ft. Shifting Perspectives)

your pet

All songs produced by hxlloghxst & Lil Dreezy
karen broca : written by me 
are you listening? : written by me and xert
are we okay? : written by me and xert
i bring pressure 2 : written by me
flow steerer : written by me
it's getting dark in here mr krabs  : written by me
it will get better : written by me
almost morning : written by me
in another life : written by me
in a land unholy : written by me
happy holidays :) 

it will get better

best musician u never heard of

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defeated

Can of Bliss