A loose concept album detailing my life in the past year and a half.

Thank you to everyone who has been there with me throughout the creation of this. You know who you are, and I hope you're aware of the impact you've had on my life. Your kindness and love means more to me than you could ever know. I hope you enjoy this album.

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MYRTLE BROADWAY & THE BIG BANG THEORY

5/8

mastered by @prodmusa

You said
That everything is fine
But I'm not confident that anything is all right
And you said
That you think that I'm cool
But how do I know that's even true
I'm embarrassed of all the thoughts I have
It’s the rarest when I don't fucking care
I feel stupid all the fucking time
What am I doing here?

You do what you do
I stay in my bed
Radio active mutation in my head
No, no
Please don't feel bad
It's not your fault
I'm just jealous as fuck
(Jealous, jealous)
I'm just jealous as fuck
(Jealous, jealous)
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
Yeah
No

You said
You care about our connection
And you don't want me to take anything the wrong way
And you said
You said that it'd be best
If we stopped acting
Because its distracting
And that's fine
The race can't always be mine
And maybe it's just my sweet tooth
(Yeah, ohh)
But I sense sugar in the recipe

You do what you do
I stay in my bed
Radio active mutation in my head
No, no
Please don't feel bad
It's not your fault
I'm just jealous as fuck
(Jealous, jealous)
(I'm just jealous)
(Jealous, jealous)
I'm just jealous as fuck
(Jealous, jealous)
(Jealous, jealous, ohh)

And when the ceiling tiles fall down
What will replace?
I'm not the one enamored by
The hand that's stricken my face
And when I feel sick in bed
Will the fetal position save me?
All that I can do is hope for the best, I guess
And I don't wanna puke when I'm on stage
And you better not trap me in this cage
Distract me from the fear of open sky
Manhattan makes me feel
(Manhattan makes me feel)
(Like I'm)
Like I'm dying
Like I'm dying
Like I'm dying

You do what you do
I stay in my bed
Radio active mutation in my head
No, no
When all is said and done
I hope we can still be friends
You do what you do
I stay in my bed
Radio active mutation in my head
No, no
Please don't feel bad
It's not your fault
I'm just jealous as fuck

JEALOUS

2/8

mastered by @st1cksyea

I'm not on the mountain
I don't see my friends when the weathers not friendly
Water like a fountain
Took a lot of tears, but I guess I'm here now
Life's hard, so I find
Life's hard, but I'm fine

Holding on to the hands that tell me to stay on the ground
Holding on so I don't make like god and not fucking exist

I left California
Bestie did some shit that I don't wanna talk about
Could never forget you
Sometimes I laugh to myself about the good times that we had
And its sad
But you get knocked down and you pick yourself back up 
And you move on to the next best thing
And I'm just finding what's best for me
Life's a charm on my necklace
Nicotine for breakfast
Writing-
It's a metric fuck ton
Everybody's got one
Life can be a lil fun (If you want it to)
And I wish you could understand the way
That I perceive the things that bring me joy

Holding on to the hands that tell me to stay on the ground
Holding on
Holding on to my friends and my family, so dear to my heart
Holding on so I don't make like god and not fucking exist

make like god

1/8

mastered by @prodmusa

I hate my job, hate my life, I hate everything
Crying in the bathroom before we get to closing
Oh my god, I wonder why I feel like I'm burdening
I could be the dog that these bitches could be worshipping

Oh yeah
Oh yeah
Oh yeah

I gotta get the fuck out of here
And I don't wanna wait another year
Carolyn's fingers in my mouth until I fucking puke
Because the valley just ain't going anywhere

Oh yeah
Oh yeah
Oh yeah
Oh yeah

I hope you die
Suck my dick
You can go fuck yourself

u can go fuck urself/HELL!!!!!! (doesnt seem so bad..)

3/8

additional prod from @wishlane
mastered by @st1cksyea

Shut up, gate that lizard tongue behind your teeth
If you don't then keep it brief, yeah
What's that in the floor? It's crawling out from beneath
What the fuck's it want from me?
Retract my limbs inside my body and I just don't know what to do
What the fuck is coexisting if I can't be inside the same room as you?
(Huh?)

Well I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
Why your aura is so red n I don't like it
Well I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
Why I hate the shit you say because it don't make sense at all
You're walking 'round, with a crown
Everything is out of bounds
And my world is falling down (Down, down, down)
I wanna shout, wanna shout
Wanna shout, wanna shout
Wanna shout, wanna shout
I wanna shout it aloud

Oh oh oh oh oh oh
First they're fucking sweet bitch
Then they're fucking sour bitch
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You're a daisy if a flower bitch
Retract my limbs inside my body and I just don't know what to do
What the fuck is coexisting-
(No no no no ah fuck. Why does this always happen to me?)

Well I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
Why your aura is so red n I don't like it
Well I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
Why I hate the shit you say because it don't make sense at all
I get so bent inside
I wanna shout, wanna shout
Wanna shout, wanna shout
Wanna shout, wanna shout
I wanna shout it aloud

(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
Fuck a conversation when it stagnate
I'm jus tryna go around, fuck, get my a- (Don't say that!)
I get so exhausted, people 'round me get me aggravated
I get so aggravated
Damn this bitch got moves and shit
Hustled out of 20 bucks and shit
Just trying to not give a shit (And then you tell me)
And then you tell me I'm wrong when I didn't even ask
And then I take it personally
(But why do you do that?)
(Haha, well)

I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
And I can't help that I get exhausted around the people I love
I think I jus need a little bit of space
But I could also be a little bit more patient
Because I owe that to everyone
Yeah!

(Oh yeah)

shout it ALOUD

8/8

mastered by @prodmusa

soundcloud doesnt allow descriptions passed 4k characters :c all the lyrics r on bandcamp tho

uh oh! you've caught up with the present!

4/8

mastered by @prodmusa

Feels like we're on the up
And yet it manages to be a big fucking nothing
Circular spectacle
Sitting soft on a shimmering joy
So simple its impossible
Take it out, beam it out, all across the world
(Ugh)
Short cut about to cost a whole lot more
(Yeah)

And I just hate it
Pink rose fragrance
Every one is a two, is a three four five
Your smile from the inside

I feel dumb
For the cards I dealt myself
For the recoil
For my hands
Disappoint
Dissociate
Ribs through my skin
The audience claps
My reality killed itself again (Uh huh)
Because I like to play pretend (Oh woah)
I don't wanna just be friends
(No, no)

Might turn off the door
Never see you again
Yeah
I forget that the universe is bigger than me
(I forget that the universe is bigger than me)
I cant bring myself to be happy
Ohhh

And I just hate it
Pink rose fragrance
Every one is a two, is a three four five
Your smile from the inside

Can I just get one more chance
I wanna try it again
I swear to god, can't let me die
To my insides

pink rose fragrance

7/8

mastered by @st1cksyea

Check it

I love your attitude
You keep your door shut and out of the blue you
Step out with fire in your hair
Blood drains from your piercing stare

I lose my mind behind these eyes
And you can never ever ever tell why
I tell you once, I tell you twice
Its fine, its fine

How Capricorn of me
A constant fucking game of hide and seek with
My insides, inside me
And I swear I don't care, haven't I gotten this far

You say you like me because I'm nice
But all these images do not recognize
I'm gonna scream, I'm gonna cry
And through the canyon
Down the alley
Up to uncanny valley
This looks just like me
This face looks just like mine

One day I hope we all explode exactly all at once
Because ripping tape has never been my speed and makes me feel alone
I cried in front of everyone on the last day of senior year
Because loneliness felt like a plague I jus barely managed to escape
And I've been tryna push myself and hold on to the things I have
Because I'm so fucking scared of going back to where I was before
I get so fucking tired from the tiniest of things
I just want love, I just want friendship, but right now its harder than its ever been

(You're not going anywhere if you keep acting like this)

I know there's love all around
And I can't help but feel numb
I have a suit made up of steel and a soul
And inside is just an empty black hole
You've all done so much for me
I appreciate it all
On my good days you crack me out of my shell
And every other day just feels like hell

(Yet another trend rider)

I'm not okay
And I'm staying this way
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
And I'm staying this way
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
And I'm staying this way
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
And I'm staying this way
I'm not okay

(Everything will be alright in the end)

Some Chords/UR NOT GOING ANYWHERE

6/8

mastered by @st1cksyea

I was walking thirty minutes down to Target
I was trying to buy shampoo and maybe forget
There's no escaping from the bush without a scar
Sleeping on the couch is difficult when you're there
All I wanted was a good night, well no fair
There's not much I can do except become a star

Guess he's not the right one for me
Cleaning up the petty debris I'll leave behind
Before it even touches the ground
I'm never ever getting over this-
Guess he's not the right one for me
Cleaning up the petty debris I'll leave behind
Before it even touches the ground
I'm never ever getting over this now

I was at the water fountain with no spare change
I still hoped for something special, newly arranged
I got no control of the cards when you're the czar
And I felt so sick
And the week played tricks
Never felt so happy leaving in a separate car

Guess he's not the right one for me
Cleaning up the petty debris I'll leave behind
Before it even touches the ground
I'm never ever getting over this-
Guess he's not the right one for me
Cleaning up the petty debris I'll leave behind
Before it even touches the ground
I'm never ever getting over this now

Hey Paul, hey Paul, hey Paul
Let's have a ball
Please catch me, catch me
Trusting you on the fall
Hey Paul, hey Paul, hey Paul
Let's have a ball
You never even wanna see me at all
(Guess he's not the right one for me)
(Cleaning up the petty debris I'll leave behind)
(Before it even touches the ground)
(I'm never ever getting over-)

Guess he's not the right one for me
Cleaning up the petty debris I'll leave behind
Before it even touches the ground
I'm never ever getting over this-
Guess he's not the right one for me
Cleaning up the petty debris I'll leave behind
Before it even touches the ground
I'm never ever getting over this now

petty debris

best musician u never heard of

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MYRTLE BROADWAY & THE BIG BANG THEORY

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