I love life but hate life

MAILPUP (RETURN TO SENDER) will be coming later this year! HAPPY 5th ANNIVERSARY TO MY FIRST ALBUM!! RTS is a complete remaster of self titled, allowing the old ideas teenage me had to come to their full potential! THANK YOU for 5 years of MAILPUP!!!

HEWWO! ÒwÓ (RETURNED)

furry frfr

its smooth ya

prod. sickboi

@byearchie
everyday is always just the same
im just praying that i can go home and decay
i just see wanna my skin go away
my brain being eaten by the insects all the way
kill me already ive suffered enough
cuts on me ive already had enough
cutting off my skin just out for the fun

@schizodrawings
my reflections filled with despise
i gotta tear out both my eyes
failing after so many tries
lay on my floor until i die
i cant believe my own self portrait is the thing that makes me cry
looking at myself one last time
knife to my face and say goodbye

reflection w/ ribgore

https://open.spotify.com/track/31Gg0jAWjJUT77hQ1f98L0?si=64003fb9c7d44598
reupload
its still funny i finished thsi after the psych ward

i know ur a psycho teddy getting blood all on my kandi
ur cutting mee cutting me cutting mee
going in and out im losing tiiime drugging me fck up my mind
im on lsdd lsd lsd lsd
first u said u love me,, now ur killing me!!
standing over me over me cutting me b-blood on me
bleeding bleeding bleeding out see my blood run down ur mouth
ur gutting me gutting me gutting me!!!
now ur gutting me yuhh. . .
dark is filling up my eyes i hit the floor with a thud
sparkling silver knife im sitting in a puddle of blood
my hallucinations and reality are becoming one
crack my skull and drain my lifee psycho teddy hav fun

psycho bun
my melody fills ur tum
a silver bayonet gun
stab u up for fun
the pretty pretty blood makes me close
my pink loli clothes
so stained no one knows
it not just a style ive killed for a while
they wana fck with me ,. they duno that im me

eversince my cd
i turned to killing for free
in the alley of love
is where i stick in your guts

my shiny freshened up piece
i'll take you out for a leave
they wanna go to the beach
yuh
a sea of red
pouring out of your head
i'm surrounded by dead

bitch
in my PJs scared with the lights off
pretty blood on my laptop its a night watch
hello kitty bands rockin circles on my hands
locked in to this shit blockin hundreds of my fans
fuck teh world bladee we usin it to mark up its bruises
psycho blood tastes the best now its resting on my chest
what this knife can do it has many uses
stab stab stab let me see let me see the bruises

PRETTY BLOOD

Raw, heart-wrenching, and deeply personal, Deadbeat tells the story of betrayal and abandonment when a best friend, once like family, walks away without looking back. With haunting melodies and gripping lyrics, the song dives into the pain of being left alone—not just as a friend, but as a parent struggling to pick up the pieces for the kids left behind.
The verses unfold memories of loyalty and trust shattered in an instant, while the chorus echoes the hurt and disbelief of being left to face life’s storms alone. Whether it’s acoustic sorrow or a driving rock ballad, Deadbeat is a cathartic anthem for anyone who’s ever been let down by someone they thought would stay forever.

Lyrics:
Dear Grant, I wrote you but you still ain’t  calling 
You ain’t answer no more it’s been a while since we was talking
It’s fucked up that I can’t even get a call or a text 
Or a fucking message saying we’re done
No closure for me then 
Not like I’ve been tryna see you every fucking weekend 
Then you leaving me on seen
Or responding with “Uhh, We’ll see, man” 
You fucking deadbeat 
You know that little boy that we have?
The little boy who’s going off to college the boy who wants to see his dad?
But I gotta tell him that all his daddy do is neglect?
You hear that, Tom?
Daddy don’t fucking want us no more, he upped and left
I hope those hours at Goodwill was worth it
Never seeing me or your son? We ain’t fucking deserve this
‘Member those times that I had you screaming while hitting your cervix?
Now whenever we call the phone you act like you aint heard us?
Bitch you heard it 
Ain’t go to the gym together in months I should have known bitch 
And you ain’t getting custody cause I don’t owe you no shit
I had you gripping pillows had you farting and squirting 
That weed you brought for us to smoke was laced with laundry detergent
Now I can’t even get a lousy fucking text or a call
Pour a fifth of vodka mix it with the Fentanyl  
I’m bout to fucking to end it all
200 pounds dropped on our sons face and youre the one who let the fucking bar fall
Always finding excuses to never fucking be involved 
If i ain’t had no way to get you I’d would have fucking crawled
This ain’t-
*Screaming* You hear that? That’s your son crying for his dad
Cause he aint seen him in fucking months
All he does is recycle blunts 
And smoke em with new girlfriend until his fucking lungs combust 
Just couldn’t wait to leave me, huh?
You never ever need me, huh?
Thought I different but the fact is you fucking deceived me
I cried for you believe me
Just for a call to reach me
If I was Robert bet you couldn’t fucking wait to see me
I loved you Grant, but you a one damn son of a bitch 
Always talking bout money and how you needed more of it 
And more of it
And more of it
You never fucking see our kid
If you ain’t fuck with us no more you could have fucking said it then 
“Daddy?” Shut up bitch *Gunshot* 
I just put our fucking son down
This is all your fault cause now he’s gunned down
Im leaving his fucking body sprawled all over the pavement 
By the way you months late on them child support payments 
So answer 

This wasn’t how it was supposed to be
Feels like it’s been months since I held you dearly and close to me
Those months where we gymed together that really meant the most to me
Now we can’t even talk because you ghosting me

Deadbeat

straszne gowno ale zrobilem by sie troche odstresowac xd

nie mam nic juz wiecej do stracenia

sadness 300 [imrpoved!]

wrucilem z psychiatryka nadal jestem chory

19 yr lost dog
hacked at 560
accidentally turned schizo

❦ julie loves bingo ❦

likes to run and play  likes alfreds playhouse , bfb , women , ⵜ wet pets , kindness and like blood probably

oc in my pfps named june the othrs julie

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“Seek the Lord, and ye shall live.” - Amos 5:6
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Hey, I’m 19. I like making music.

Been producing since 2020

(Outdated) Member of identity collective: https://soundcloud.com/identitycollective

He/him

Quality > Quantity (should be saying that to myself rn)

Slowly but surely improving my producing skills! :'D

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God bless and have a nice day!

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