There comes a day you sneak out but you don’t go home
Where you’re out past the streetlights, running down the road and your daddy won’t know
And it hurts to grow up, when your knees are still cut
But for us, life’s never been without blood
Getting life’s cold goodbye wave from the dark of the driveway
Crying, i’m no good at goodbyes, so i leave it to the lights
Can you just tell me which way i’m driving
Interstate or the highway, i’m going, i’m ready
There comes a day you find out that you don’t wanna die
They’ll say it’s time you finally grew up, you’ve been gone for quite a whilе, but they’ll never ask you why,why
And thеy ask how it felt to suffocate myself
But not everything feels like something else
Getting life’s cold goodbye wave from the dark of the driveway
Crying, i’m no good at goodbyes, so i leave it to the lights, ohh
Can you just tell me which way i’m driving
Interstate or the highway, i’m going, i’m ready
20 til midnight at gas stations
Praying to a stranger’s dogs in the parking lot
I asked have i done enough for salvation
They said you’ll die if you leave it up to god
Said i’ve been drinking from this river til i bled it dry
But they looked me dead in my eyes and said
It doesn’t matter if the grass is greener on the other side
As long as it’s alive
So give it one last goodbye wave, in the light of the highway
Crying, i’m no good at goodbyes, but i’ve waited my whole life
So you just tell me which way i’m driving
Interstate or the highway, we’re going, we’re ready

Ethel Cain ~ Age of Delilah

Paint my Sistine Chapel white
On my couch all night, on my couch all night
Show me love
In whatever way it comes to you
As long as you hold me tight
I know your father hurt you
You say that's why God gave you me
You say I make it a little better
You say I make you happy
You say it with your fingers clenched
Wrapped tight around my neck
'Cause that's what love means to you
And I asked for it I guess
Oh oh
Beautiful, sweet, child of Cain
All you know is how to feel and how to deal
Out of pain
I take my mother's scissors
Carve your name into my chest
'Cause I think you're so amazing
'Cause I think that you're the best
And the way you hurt me softly
Brings back such sweet memories
Of how the angels in my room and I
Would play when I was three
And if I try hard as I can
I think that I can make believe
That what we have is really love
'Cause what else could it even be?
It'd be impossible to live
Without you here with me
And it doesn't even matter
That with or without you I can't breathe
Oh oh
Beautiful, sweet, child of Cain
All you know is how to feel and how to deal (how to feel,how to deal)
Out of pain
Out of pain
Out
Ohhh you know I love you

White Silas ~ Child of Cain

Pounded down through holes in the pavement
Couldn’t live without him but god I fucking hate him
I’m playing it tough when all I really want is for you to stay, stay
But more times than not
I’m waking up to you halfway walking out the door to my room
(halfway walking)
If I’d have known, that the glory days were all the ones that already passed
I would have kept you longer from that side of the glass
Holding that jacket in my arms
Praying you stay warm
But you’re already gone
You're already gone
Gone

Ethel Cain ~ Trucker's Chapel(extended prod.postumo)

I know you better now than I ever have before
I know you better now that our clothes are on the floor
And I had started shaking when you walked in through the door
But I’m not scared anymore, I’m not scared anymore
And I’ve never felt more alone with your arms around my shoulders
But I know if you left i’d cry myself to sleep praying that you’d hold me closer
But I see your face in the lamplight
And suddenly I don’t wanna die, I don’t wanna die
And I don’t need to be happy anymore
I just need to know that I’m yours
So will you tell me that I’m yours
You sleep so deeply cause you hope you won’t wakе up
But I tread so lightly cause i’m scared you’ll sеlf destruct
And I know that we’d go up in flames but I can’t help myself
Cause I'd die if I knew you found safety in the arms of someone else
And I, don’t need, to be happy anymore
I just need to know that I’m yours
Oh will you tell me I’m yours
That i’m yours

White Silas ~ Room 209

When they dressed me and they put me on a plane to Memphis, well
I never got to see Elvis
I just sweated it out in a hotel room
But I think the King would have understood
Why I never made it to Graceland
The bathroom tiles were cool against my head
I pressed my forehead to the floor and prayed for a trapdoor
I've been here many times before
But I've never made it to Graceland
If I make it to the morning
I should've come with a warning
And if I make it to the stage, I'll show you what it means
To be saved
Well, pick me up in New Orleans
Pinned in a bathroom stall
Pick me up above my body
Press my corpse against the wall
I told the band to leave without me
I'll get the next flight
And I'll see you all with Elvis
If I don't survive the night
If I make it to the morning
I shoulda come with a warning
And if I make it to the stage, I'll show you what it means
To be saved
And after every tour, I swear I'll quit
It's all the boys now, this is it
But the call, it always comes, and the songs
Like children begging to be born
But, oh, I guess I got my wish
Anything, anything, anything but this
If I make it to the morning
I should've come with a warning
If I make it to the stage, I'll show you what it means
To be saved
Oh, you know I'm still afraid
I'm still crazy and I'm still scared
But if I make it to the stage, I'll show you what it means
To be spared
To be spared
To be spared
To be spared
To be spared

Ethel Cain & Florence "Morning Elvis"

I've been sleeping in the dead body
Of a dead deer out by I-40
I dragged it there as a bed
And consummated my love
In a purple stitch
Like a scratched out itch
I am ugly, I fear
I believe what I hear
And now the push has come to shove
I wanna waste myself
And go take a drive
Take too sharp a corner
And probably take a life
In the end of it all
When you can hardly move
And they say you’ve still got the world to go on
Stay strong
It’s a long, unfortunate while till curtain call, call
I’ve been poking at the dead body
Of a man that I once loved in my garden
He was good to me and I went and I soiled his love
I will not see heaven
Surrendered to the fauna
Am I a bad person
For not knowing what I wanted
I couldn’t face myself
So I avert my eyes
Take two shots in warning
And then take the dive
And I dive
Into the end of it all
When you can hardly move
And they say you’ve still got the world to go on
Stay strong
It’s a long, unfortunate while till curtain call, call
So I call
Dreading the one
That one good morning
Will destroy me
When you’re gone, gone
We’ve been young
Immortal, even
But now we turn and wait for kingdom come
You can leave the windows open
Here in our forever home
Bite down on your shoulder
And if you bleed, then I’ll know

Ethel Cain ~ A long, unfortunate while

Days fly by spent wasting time in my mother's garden green
My sister's speaking no poetry they memorized never knowing what it means
I could stay outside forever counting stars on summer fields fore' I bike to Dowlin' street
Its simple when it's over and i'm happy
Painting murals on the side but it's downtown in the scorching sun
I tried all summer but I hated the way it looks so I never got it done
I walked the train tracks with a boy that I loved but turns out I was tired of being alone
So when we reached the end and I said goodbye and I was by myself when I got home

Ethel Cain ~ Perry

See me in the stream, water to my knees
That's where i'm breathing, that's where i'm bleeding
Remember the eyes that want me to die
Moon is sharp like the edge of a knife

My legs in the water, I will not falter
The shape of a woman, the shape of the water
The shape of a woman, the shape of the water

See me on the screen, spread apart my knees
I'm always feeling, i'm always healing
Devil comes at night, rapes me in my dreams
He's always screaming, i'm always kneeling
Nobody will drown in the tears i've cried
I look at my knife think I want it to die

My legs in the water, I will not falter
The shape of a woman, the shape of the water
The shape of a woman, the shape of the water
The shape of the image, forgive me father
Was made in her image, the moon is my mother
The shape of the image, the moon is my mother

Vyva Melinkolya Feat. Hayden Anhedönia  ~ 222

Beauty is everything
But no man will ever know what that means
Only the woman who’s holding his hand
Will ever know the pit that grows inside of that man

He likes his clothes black, dinner packed
8 hour days and nights away from her
Same place, saving face for him

I feel like a preacher’s wife
Slaving every day and night
Making sure that he looks nice
For his children that I don’t share

Beauty is everything 
Even when it takes the piss from me
Even when he takes what he thinks is his inside me
I am beautiful and I am free, I am free

I feel like a preacher’s wife
Crying waiting up all night
But I’ll carry him and Jesus Christ
As long as he comes home to me

Ethel Cain ~ 8 Hour Days

There's a painting that hangs
Up above my bed
It's a portrait of what
I once had with you
Bloody reds and virgin blues
Where we danced laughing in the hues
Now form a bruise

I burnt all my candles
Waiting up for you
Told myself that you’d come back
If I prayed hard enough
And I knew it wasn’t true
Cause I had so much left to lose
But not my youth

So I got my brushes
And I painted you right out because

I tried
I did
I ripped myself right open
Just to let you in
But it hurt
It hurt so much
So I took all my black
And covered up the evidence

What once was young
Now grows old
In a frame of black and gold

Your body sprawled out on the sheets
Veins of blue and eyes of green
And flushed cheeks of vibrant pinks
In that painting

It was just as much my fault
As it was yours
I painted you a saint
And myself a whore
As I thought of what you tarnished
My tears ruined all the varnish
But still I kept it

Cause if I forget you
And you come back
I might forgive you

I tried
I did
I ripped myself right open
Just to let you in
But it hurt
It hurt so much
So I took all my black
And covered up the evidence

What once was there
Has now been lost
And you took the fruit
And I paid the cost

I'll sing a song for you in the evening
When the sun goes down
And it's too dark to see
Please don’t ever seek me out
Cause I could not turn you away
I never thought to learn how

I'll sing a song for you in the evening
When the sun goes down
And it's too dark to see
Please don’t ever seek me out
Cause I could not turn you away
I never thought to learn how

I'll sing a song for you in the evening
When the sun goes down
And it's too dark to see
Please don’t ever seek me out
Cause I could not turn you away
I never thought to learn how

God knows I tried
I did
I ripped myself right open
Just to let you in
God knows I tried
I did
I ripped myself right open
Just to let you in
But it hurt
It hurt so bad
So I took all my black
And covered up the evidence
I'm all out of tears
Cause I cried them all
When I gave you my best years
So I'll rip that painting from my wall
For I've no more room in my house for you
My dear

So I took fire to my art
And then I set alight myself
And at last I could die with you
I always wanted nothing else

Arcane Vessels

White Silas ~ Varnish

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Ethel Cain ~ gorilla

And I don’t wanna talk about love anymore
'Cause it’s getting too much for me
All I do is waste and decline, waiting for that age of my life
When I'm old and love is all that I’ll need

Swaying in the lamplight in my mother’s white gown
Holding out like a dog they’ve yet to put down
I whore out my tears and just keep wasting the best of my years
Like a beauty queen with eyes bleared

Got what I wanted but it’s never enough for me
Darling, don’t you see ?
I’m so beautiful and it’s wasted on me
Because the taste reminds me
I hate what love’s turned out to be

I don’t wanna be in my house anymore
'Cause it just makes me sad
Letting in the wild with every man who brings a world of hurt
With him each time he falls in my bed

Do you just want my blood?
Am I just that damn hard to love?
'Cause it feels like all I have is still just not enough
I guess that I'll just go outside
And watch the fire and fields of gold fly farther away from me

Got what I wanted but it’s never enough for me
Darling, don’t you see
I’m so beautiful and it’s wasted on me?
Because the taste reminds me
I hate what love turned out to be

But one of these days, it’ll come right back
I’ll love myself and I’ll tell myself that
I don’t have to wait to be happy when I’m old
And one of these days, I'll find a way
To fight the waves, embrace the pain
And paint the ages a hundred shades of gold


And I have found a way, I forgot the way
I’m on my way, I’m on my way
Don’t wait too long, I don’t want you to get tired of me
But I’ll be coming along
I’m coming along, I’ll be coming along
I’ll be coming along, I’ll be coming along
I'll be coming along, I'll be coming along
I'll be coming along
I'll be coming, coming for you
Don’t wait too long, I don’t want you to get tired of me
But I'll be coming along, coming along
I'll be coming along, I'll be coming along
I'll be coming along

Ethel Cain ~ Golden Age (Piano Version)

Anna von Hausswolff ~ Persefone

In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth
And the earth was formless and void, and darkness hung over the surface of the deep
And the spirit of God hovered over the waters

And God said let there be light but no light came
And as we hung there in the darkness, I told you
Do not be afraid

And you asked me if God would protect us
No
But I will

God doesn't love you
Not like I do

And then the darknеss caught fire and we both went up in flamеs

White Silas ~ Arsony

mother knows what you need
and mother gives it to you

he’s coming to get me
do you know what he’ll do to me ?
he wants to take my soul

do you know what i've done ? (whisper)

do you know what i’ve done, do you know what i’ve done
do you know what i’ve done ?
do you know what i’ve done, do you know what i’ve done
do you know what i’ve done ?
do you know what i’ve done, do you know what i’ve done
do you know what i’ve done ?
can you undo what i’ve done ?
cause i can’t

i’ve done terrible things and you know it
i’ve done terrible things and you can’t deny it
you’re the most terrible thing i’ve done
and you won’t be undone

Ethel Cain ~ Plague

Ethel Cain ~ Plague (vocals)

Ethel Cain ~ Plague (instrumentals)

[Verse 1]
My honey’s heart is blue and a second offbeat
Always tugging at me like he’s running out of daylight
Yeah, my baby acts cool but they all know something ain’t right, ain’t right
Only acting this cool when he’s walking with me
1998 forever and a day
I keep the pictures hanging where the world can see ‘em
I hope we die today
Save me from another late night of red eyes
But then the morning comes
You were there looking for me but I
I was gone, turned my back for a moment and
You had fallen apart

[Verse 2]
They’ve been promising the lights as we beg for our lives
Selling pages of the times we’ve been waiting on
Now the weight’s too much and I can’t hold you anymore
How much of a cruel year can you call my fault?
Not even the memories are immortal
Terrified on this side of a conversation
A conversation we’ll never come back from
I’ll never live it down if I never get around it
Cause goddammit, I did it to myself in hindsight
I liked him cause his rule was do whatever you like and I tried alright
Now I’ll wear these scars for life
I loved you when it hurt inside to
But in the low light
You know I’d do anything for you

[Chorus]
You know I’d do anything for you
You know it’s true cause I’ve said it to you
Held in my arms, I swore I’d be good to you
Then sat and watched as you walked away from me

[Outro]
Christ is cruel but you're so crueler

Ethel Cain ~ Waco,Texas ~ (sped up & reverb)

There's a painting that hangs
Up above my bed
It's a portrait of what
I once had with you
Bloody reds and virgin blues
Where we danced laughing in the hues
Now form a bruise

I burnt all my candles
Waiting up for you
Told myself that you’d come back
If I prayed hard enough
And I knew it wasn’t true
Cause I had so much left to lose
But not my youth

So I got my brushes
And I painted you right out because

I tried
I did
I ripped myself right open
Just to let you in
But it hurt
It hurt so much
So I took all of my black
And covered up the evidence

What once was young
Now grows old
In a frame of black and gold

Your body sprawled out on the sheets
Veins of blue and eyes of green
And flushed cheeks of vibrant pinks
In that painting

It was just as much my fault
As it was yours
I painted you a saint
And myself a whore
As I thought of what you tarnished
My tears ruined all the varnish
But still I kept it

Cause if I forget you
And you come back
I might forgive you

I tried
I did
I ripped myself right open
Just to let you in
But it hurt
It hurt so much
So I took all of my black
And covered up the evidence

What once was there
Has now been lost
And you took the fruit
And I paid the cost

I'll sing a song for you in the evening
When the sun goes down
And it's too dark to see
Please don’t ever seek me out
Cause I could not turn you away
I never thought to learn how

I'll sing a song for you in the evening
When the sun goes down
And it's too dark to see
Please don’t ever seek me out
Cause I could not turn you away
I never thought to learn how

I'll sing a song for you in the evening
When the sun goes down
And it's too dark to see
Please don’t ever seek me out
Cause I could not turn you away
I never thought to learn how

God knows I tried
I did
I ripped myself right open
Just to let you in
God knows I tried
I did
I ripped myself right open
Just to let you in
But it hurt
It hurt so bad
So I took all of my black
And covered up the evidence
I'm all out of tears
Cause I cried them all
When I gave you my best years
So I'll rip that painting from my wall
For I've no more room in my house for you
My dear

So I took fire to my art
Then set alight myself
And at last I could die with you
I always wanted nothing else

White Silas ~ Varnish (vocals)

White Silas ~ White Light (vocals)

Is it not fun ?
to feel many other ways
when all you do
is nothing to me

is it not fun ?
in the catatonia
maybe it’s true
you were nothing to me

Ethel Cain - I Keep the Angel (Snippet)

Ethel Cain ~ M2U00360.mp4

Ethel Cain - Arsony (vocals)

[Verse 1]
Whatever is wrong with me
I will take to bed
I give in so easy
Nature chews on me
Poisonous and heavy
It is always been this way

[Pre-Chorus]
It is always been this way

[Chorus]
I will punish them now
I will punish them now

[Verse 2]
In the morning I will mend myself again
He was a natural cliché, saying "You won't forget this"
Shame and shock, my skin gives so easy
Only god knows, only God would believe
That I was an angel, but they made me leave

[Pre-Chorus]
They made me leave

[Chorus]
I will punish them now
I will punish them now

[Bridge]
Oh, I miss my love
I love you
I love you

[Outro]
Oh, no, oh
No, no, no, no
No, no, no, no

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