AVYSS PLAYLIST

Fragmented Reverie

special thanks to @omg5l for fx n transitions <3

ellie goulding - fighter plane
frou frou - a new kind of love

2 star - somewhere between hello and goodbye, there was love

Be My Anchor

produced recorded and mixed entirely by me! im really proud of this one and think this is the style i'm gonna go with for the forseeable future. the ultra lo-fi high pitched drum machine rock shit was fun and I might revisit it soon but I'm moving on from it for now. doesn't really reflect where I am mentally. been a long time since i made a rock song just because i really wanted to get this right. enjoy !

this song's chord progression and lyrics are really important to me. I wrote the first verse and chorus in may and this song has been the first thing I play when I pick up a guitar since then too. cannot stress how much this release means to me

lyricz:
i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i hate being alive
slit my wrist i wanna die
wish i wasnt such a guy
stay inside like all the time
life just feels like such a pain
i really hate everything
motivation is so drained
and i really hate my face like
oooo
been so long since i have cleaned my rooom
been so long since i have made my fucking bed
i feel so made fun of by all of my friends
and
i feel so degen
i wake myself
at 1 pm
i hate this life
i think of death
but im too scared 
of nothingness
im not prepared
to leave this world
i wish i was
an average girl
instead i struggle to feel real
instead i struggle to see a life where i pay bills

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaadd my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i dont kno why i try
bad decisions i just cry
see incisions on my thighs
next to prickly bumps of mine
nigga everything is strange
why do i feel so much pain
my hair feels so disarayed
and i cannot feel okay
li ke 
i do not have no power
feel like my life is over
only have me to blame
throw on a skirt and
run outside again
embarassing
myself for hours
feel ashamed a stupid troon
ive fucked my life too soon
i know i’m not doing too well
i’ll end up a jisatsu girl
if i don’t grab onto myself
if i don’t lose my fucking mind without some help

jisatsu girl (自殺)

audio ripped from here https://soundcloud.com/a1k0/vivien

i didnt end up relapsing :3

song to keep myself from relapsing

i forgot i made this track. its from milky breaks you should check that out probably. very rare sampling material here guys watch out


https://strxwberrymilk.bandcamp.com/album/milky-breaks

Ballad Of A Sexy Clown

実はタイトルとそんなに関係ない

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pink spring flowers

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紫҉̾҉靄̾
ⱽ̾̾ⁱᵒˡᵉᵗ  ̾ʰ̾ᵃ̾̾ᶻ̾̾ᵉ҉

𓏲ּ۪۪
ཻུ ⚕
例えば眠る前、窓を開けて外の風をとりこみ
ᶠᵒʳ ᵉˣᵃᵐᵖˡᵉ, ᵇᵉᶠᵒʳᵉ ᵍᵒⁱⁿᵍ ᵗᵒ ˢˡᵉᵉᵖ, ᵒᵖᵉⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ʷⁱⁿᵈᵒʷ ᵗᵒ ˡᵉᵗ ⁱⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ᵒᵘᵗˢⁱᵈᵉ ᵇʳᵉᵉᶻᵉ
少しだけ空間を柔らかくする
ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᵒᶠᵗᵉⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵖᵃᶜᵉ ᵃ ˡⁱᵗᵗˡᵉ
その後、目を瞑ってこの曲の中へ
ᵀʰᵉⁿ, ᶜˡᵒˢᵉ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵉʸᵉˢ ᵃⁿᵈ ⁱᵐᵐᵉʳˢᵉ ʸᵒᵘʳˢᵉˡᶠ ⁱⁿ ᵗʰⁱˢ ᵐᵘˢⁱᶜ ˢᵖᵃᶜᵉ

そして、一緒に呼吸してみて
ᵀʳʸ ᵗᵒ ᵇʳᵉᵃᵗʰᵉ ᵃˡᵒⁿᵍ ʷⁱᵗʰ ⁱᵗ
できたらそのまま、躰の動くままに　
ᴵᶠ ʸᵒᵘ ᶜᵃⁿ, ᶜᵒⁿᵗⁱⁿᵘᵉ ᵃˢ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵇᵒᵈʸ ᵐᵒᵛᵉˢ ⁿᵃᵗᵘʳᵃˡˡʸ

𓏲ּ۪۪
۰ ۪۪۫۫ ࣨࣨࣨࣨ ၴႅၴ 

あなたを囲うものを溶かして
ᴸᵉᵗ ᵉᵛᵉʳʸᵗʰⁱⁿᵍ ˢᵘʳʳᵒᵘⁿᵈⁱⁿᵍ ʸᵒᵘ ᵐᵉˡᵗ ᵃʷᵃʸ

紫҉̾҉靄

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prod.everestdidthis

そっぽ向いたragdoll
君と目が合わない理由
また繰り返す
逸らした目　から溢れる涙
君もわたしもお疲れさま

すれ違いなんてshit
たわけ ごめん
助けられなかったね
遠くにいてね ごめん
思い出したの ごめんね
忘れてしまうこと ごめんね
またねはやだね、辛いよ
まともとかいらない

ぜんぶほどけた
元通りのheart
がんばったねって
私のこと守れるのは自分自身
君には優しくできなかったし
弱る君につけこんでたの
甘い言葉が優しさ？

すれ違いなんてshit
たわけ ごめん
助けられなかったね
遠くにいてね ごめん
思い出したの ごめんね
忘れてしまうこと ごめんね
またねはやだね、辛いよ
まともとかいらない

君はStray Sheep
ずっととなりで
さまよっていたい
夢物語

nova

prod.by reactance

考える　だめになる
頭ん中ぐるぐる
繰り返す　

ほんとの気持ち
とかわかんないけど泣いていい
かくれんぼ一緒に
まいごのこひつじ　
列に　ほら、ずらり

どうして優しいの
笑ってないのに顔
諦めてもういいよって
諦めてもういいやって
言うの　　

あなたとわたし

あとなんかが足りないかんじ

おんなじにみえる
けど違う
みたい
いつも大事なことわかってない
ひとつずつ　　　　
ずれてく　崩れてく
ひとつずつ
ずれて　崩れて、

gulugulu

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