Featuring @lilskeleskrrt
Produced by @jolst
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Art by @melmige

Too much time wasted on you

Got me in a bad mood

Chillin' bumpin' sad tunes

And all I want is your attention

Desperate for just a little affection yeah

It's no fun how

Things between us didn't work out

At least not in the way that we planned for

You were my greatest mistake but you left me wanting more


It’s not that I miss you
That’s not the issue
I just wish you felt like you used to

So
I'm breaking everything you gave me
I'm not proud of the man that you made me
I'm ashamed of who I’ve been lately
I can’t blame you when you say you hate me


I'ma take this forty to my face
How many doctors you think it’ll take to save me
Am I even worth saving

(skele)
always waking up in a bad mood 
all this fucking time that i’m wasting 
baby i hope you know i want you 
i didn’t wanna go, i hope you know i had to
tell me that it’s hurting you bad 
you know i’m sad too 

Got me breaking everything you gave me
I know I’m falling it’s not me who needed saving 
I’m steady fucking up my life it’s so frustrating 
Got me looking at the things I’ve been erasing 

Too much time wasted on you 
I still wish you would just come through 
I still miss when you would hold me 
Is it okay if you could call me

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Not Worth Saving w/ skele (Prod. Jolst)

Featuring @p33_fyb
Produced by @jakkyboi
Mixed & mastered, additional vocals by @horoshamusic
Art by @spookygang

LYRICS
Is this really how it ends
You swore we'd always be the best of friends
And foolishly I believed that
Everything would work out like you said
What happened to our best laid plans
Blood stains my hands again

(P33)
For real is this how it ends
I never thought I'd live
Long enough to lose you as a friend
I miss having you by my side
Summer night getting high in your ride
You'd pass me over the aux
Bump Blink and we would get lost

(P33, Horosha & Carlby)
Knives in my back where you put them
You closed the book and wrote the end
Curtain falls and now they're all laughing
I hope this makes you happy

(P33 & Carlby)
You really think you did something
But truth is you're still nothing
I'll sleep without a problem
'Cause I got a clean conscience

Best Friends Means Forever w/ P33 (Prod. jakkyboí)

Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @hellahaunted & @sainttomorrow
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Logo by Dead & Detached

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


and ive been smoking too much like every day
since fifteen think it's rotting my brain

i got my windows closed but i still hear the rain

i don't like myself anymore

think i've changed

and while you sit there drunk on the side of the pave

do you ever think about those times in the cage

with your friends in the sun oh those times they have changed

now i'm sitting on my own thinking of life on a stage


thinkin of life on a stage

these days i'm alone 

take 3 blunts to the face

spend my days blazed just thinking of life in the states

shoutout jj
i'm tryna record everyday


i think i'm going straight to hell for those two years

if you didnt know im sad you must be new here

cliche dyed hair
i'm a loser

forever screaming on my own at a computer


i'm a loser and I know it
got it tatted on my sleeve just to show how much i own it
stay glued to my computer
writing sad songs and playing first-person shooters


watch me self-destruct

catch me yelling "nerf this"
while i'm rolling up another blunt


i used to do this for fun

now i do this on account of all of my bad luck

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled

i don't even know what i'm fighting for



Loser w/ sendflowrs (Prod. caves & Saint Tomorrow)

Produced by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @sainttomorrow

LYRICS
Still fit into my varsity jacket
Class of 68’
But I don’t fit in in this place
Two kids on their bikes
Yell as they pass by
Hey man get the hell out of our way
I guess that some things never change

Always felt out of place but I’m
Outstretched
Hands across state lines
Can’t seem to recognize
My glory days
Until they pass me by

And when I’m weak
It’s you I wanna lean on
Remembering all the times I did you wrong
Thought you were right for me
Thought you were family
You were the only one 
To understand me
And now you’re gone

So it seems
That I’ll never get to tell you how much
The time we spent
Really meant to me

Faded memories
Brushed across these streets like fallen leaves
So silver screen
Like some cliché played out movie scene

I'm still standing on your front lawn

Class of '68 (Prod. Horosha)

Produced by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @sainttomorrow

LYRICS
Catch me
Standing on your front lawn
Your daddy's got his shotgun
He's yelling how you're too young
He's telling me to move on
What does he know about love anyway
Clearly not a lot
Because he couldn't keep your mom happy
That's why she left
He was too focused on his job and not enough on his kids
Now fucking up our lives is how he gets his kicks

That summer you stole my heart
Cigarettes in your back yard
Getting drunk under the stars
Smash a bottle in the park
So young and restless
Like we got a death wish
First girl I had sex with
Always leaves me breathless

Now we’re running from the law
Towards a hospital bed
Forever doing what we want
Fearing no consequence
'Cause when you’re young and in love
It's hard to give a fuck ‘bout anything
Especially what he thinks

I was standing in your back yard
You were climbing out your window 
We were gonna run away far 
And leave all of this behind 
But what did we know about life anyways
Clearly not a lot

We were only 17
Don't know what lies ahead 
I was moving away
You said you'd rather be dead than alone
Left here alone

Front Lawn (Prod. Horosha & Saint Tomorrow)

Produced by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @sainttomorrow

LYRICS
I left flowers at your grave
As if just to say
Though you may be long gone
Your memory remains
Wish that you were still here
Wish I could take your place
But I'm in need of closure
So I've decided not to stay

They say it was an accident
You can never really plan for them
So when all your friends left mass exodus
You stayed behind like my happiness

All of the trauma she endured at your hands
Was it enough to push her over the edge
Many nights I laid awake
Soaked with regret
For the love that I had left
So today I'm leaving these

I guess that bastard got 
What was coming to him 
They read your diary and saw all the things he did 
But that won’t bring you back no
There’s no solace here in that 

I wish someone had listened 
When you said you wanted to leave 
So now I’m taking the last bus out of this town 
And I’ll keep your memory with me on the breeze

Said I'd come back for you
But I never did
I turned my back on you
I'm such an idiot
But I can't be held to promises
That I made when I was just a kid

I've Decided Not to Stay (Prod. Horosha & Saint Tomorrow)

Featuring @kaiyko
Produced by @horoshavibes & @splashgvng

LYRICS
I know I fucked up real bad and I can't win you back now
I look straight ahead but I don't see a way out of this
Turns out the vow that we made
Didn't mean anything to you anyway

Now everything just seems meaningless to me
I meant it when I said 'til death so let me rest in peace
I know I fucked up
Blame it on my bad luck
There no more bad blood
It's only love

So when you look back do you do so with tenderness
Or am I just another memory that you repress

(Kaiyko)
I wait for you to come around to say
The things I've already heard before
So tell me what's new
Got a broken heart and nothin left to lose
I know 
You're doin okay
But I am always
Thinkin' of ways to
Get right back to you
But it's too late too late
Gotta get back home to our places
Not sure if I can make it
But I will tell you I would take it all for you
If we could take it all back too
Even if it's all even if it's all for you

I Meant It When I Said ‘Til Death, so Let Me Rest in Peace w/ Kaiyko (Prod. Horosha & splashgvng)

Featuring @lilskeleskrrt
Produced by @metlast
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
Still the same scared kid that I was way back then
Know I'd give anything to change how it happened
Still bleeding from the wounds of my past and
Pursuing happiness
But I can't have that

Take another hit to my pride and my passion
Loss after loss like a chain reaction
When everything goes wrong
I need a way out
I can not be trusted to be kind to myself

The drugs don't make it better
They just keep me distracted
From the life I'm supposed to live
And out the one that I'm trapped in
When everything goes wrong
I tend to break down
I can not be trusted to be kind to myself

(skele)
And love I promise that I mean well
All those things I did were fucking my health 
I've never been good at helping out myself
It's getting bad
I prolly need help
I never meant for you to run away 
I just wanted you to feel a bit of my pain 
And when everything goes wrong I hope you'll be here 
Need someone to fix all my fears

When Everything Goes Wrong w/ skele (Prod. metlast)

Featuring @shikixo
Produced by @wisssery & @jolst
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
I hope he's everything I could never be
So long as you're happy
I guess that's okay with me
I've accepted the fact 
That I could never really give you what you need 
It's all my fault
I take full responsibility 

For our downfall
For the death of us
I thought I found true love
But then I fucked it up
Oh no
I'm no good for anyone
I'm a lost cause
Thinking I should give it up
But I won't

(Shiki XO)
I ain't giving up baby
But I'm giving up on you
You made me so uncomfortable
Don't wanna be in the same room
I know I can't complain
'cause I do this to myself
I be all alone inside my room with no one else

You try to ruin me
I don't know what you do to me
I don't know what happened
Swear I'm not this toxic usually
But you taste like cigarettes 
And your so obsessed with sex
Every time I check my phone
I pray to god it's not your text yeah

Lost Cause w/ Shiki XO (Prod. wisssery & Jolst)

Produced by @deadyami & @horoshavibes

LYRICS
Probably never make it
But I still try
When the grass seems greener on the other side
That's a big lie
Just like when they told me I'd get better with time

Still down bad despite what I said then
Can't relax outside of my deathbed
When I say I'm fine
That's a big lie
Just like I'll never leave your side
I guess I lacked the foresight
I turned my back
You attacked and gouged out both my eyes
Now it's no wonder why I was so blind

Probably burn out fast at this rate
Don't know how much more of this
I can take
It's all too much for me to face

(Horosha)
I feel the hours slipping by and they're only speeding up
I looked away for one second
Oh my god
It's been a month
But there's still so much I wanna do in this life so
I can't give up no
I won't give up no

Foresight (Prod. DEAD YAMI & Horosha)

Featuring @ihateshinigami
Produced by @horoshavibes
Art by Kat (artstation.com/katieimbro)

LYRICS
I've been living in a dream for far too long
Desperately in need of
Someone to wake me up
Stuck in a state of
Suspended animation
Can't escape this simulation
And it's getting harder just to fake it

Nothing seems to stimulate me
And all the while I'm deteriorating
Feel like everybody hates me
Can't get out of my head
 
I've seen the world for what it is and I'm not convinced
There's gotta be something more to all of this
If ignorance is bliss than I
Am living in a paradise

(Horosha)
If all of this is just a dream
Then what visions will we see
When we wake up
Do I even want to know

(shinigami)
I’ve been living in a dream
Everything feels so far from me
I can’t tell if I’m asleep
I just really need you here next to me

And I just wanna give you the best of me
Butterflies every time that you’re texting me
Sick and tired of turning in my sheets
Lately it’s been really hard to breathe

I can’t take this anymore
Hands to my chest I’m on the floor
Wanna live a good life ‘cause this shit’s short
That’s one thing I know for sure

Suspended Animation w/ shinigami (Prod. Horosha)

This song is a reimagining of "Not Good Enough for Truth in Cliché" by Escape the Fate.

Featuring @sideviewdriveca
Produced by @dercept1
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette
Finger on the trigger to my dear Juliet
Out through the window see her back drop silhouette
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget

So for now
Take this down a notch
Crash my car through your window
How does it feel when tears freeze
When you cry
The blood in your veins is twenty below

(Sideview Drive)
Can't forget the way you
Used to look at me
Now I'm keeping secrets on the tip of my tongue
You know I'm fighting back the things I wanna say to you
But if I try too hard I might fuck it all up
Cut the words out of my mouth
But don't say I didn't warn you

I can not feel
What you've done to me

My Dear Juliet w/ Sideview Drive (Prod. dercept)

Featuring @sewerperson
Produced by @horoshavibes & @jolst
Art by Katie Imbro

LYRICS
You made a promise to me
Never thought that you’d be the one to do me so wrong
It’s over now
I’m still learning how to move on
I guess that this is progression
I thought about you no more than a second time tonight
If I could rewind
I’d rescind it all
And just go back to you
Like I always do
Not caring for the fall
So if you care for me at all
Then cut me off

‘Cause I'm no good for you
You’re no good for me
We’re so out of sync
There’s no harmony
So if you care for me at all
Then cut me off
Caught between a rock and a hard place
Don’t wanna be alone
But I really can’t stay no
Do you wanna do this the hard way
When it comes to you
I can’t say no

(sewerperson)
I bet you're so damn happy I have gone away
Still I wish we could feel what we had yesterday
Baby at this checkpoint I still feel the same
Call me if you give up on him for this pain supplied
I know you still hate me I just hope you're safe tonight
I remember everything we let go in that candlelight 
Even if we’re not together you're still a friend of mine
Sorry I can’t control what feelings I been dealt in life
Break me and tear me up how you prefer
I pray when I die I’m not locked into lucifer
I know everything is fine right now but the future's still unsure
Teach me how to rid my self of all her hurt

Cut Me Off w/ sewerperson (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

Featuring @hammy
Produced by @noahmadethiss
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli

LYRICS
(hamilton)
Wake up repeat 
I wish I could stay asleep 
I know you know 
That you make my heart beat 
Don’t know what’s wrong 
What's wrong with me 
I need some rest 
Feel so empty 

I know you know 
That you drive me crazy 
I’m off two blues 
In a black Mercedes 
Speeding swerving 
I'm not gonna slow down 
Sirens screaming 
Ain’t no turning back now

(Carlby)
There ain't no turning back now
If you lack the passion my suggestion is you tap out
I know that it can be hard to manage
There’s no better way to cope with hopelessness and panic
Damage
I can feel I now as I drive ‘round my hometown
Someone cut the brakes
I can’t slow down
I know I'm so pessimistic
But I'ma really go the distance

No Turning Back w/ hamilton (Prod. noahmadethiss)

Featuring @sideviewdriveca, @neondion & @decksmusic
Produced by @pekarot_161
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli
Art by BunillaBunz

LYRICS
(Carlby)
Ain't got a dollar to my name but I'm so wealthy
And when I feel out of place my friends tell me
That I'm right where I'm supposed to be
But I'm afraid to open up
Don't get too close to me

No doubt
Wouldn't be here without you
Shout out to the homies
It's about you
I'm slowly finding my way
I'm hoping you do the same
Because we've got a lot to celebrate

Wealthy Pt. 2 w/ Sideview Drive, Neon Dion & decks (Prod. Pekarot)

Produced by @irby314 & @jolst
Mixed by @decksmusic
Additional vocals by @prodhorosha
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli

LYRICS
Wounded at a young age
Had nobody I could turn to
It’s sickening the things you did
And how I learned through
The example you set
I thought I was a black sheep
Turns out I’m just like the rest

Of my family tree
Rotting from the inside
Branches devoid of leaves
So please
Don’t ever idolize me
These eyes have seen more pain than you would believe

I’ve got a damaged brain
There’s not much can be done
After all I’m just a product
I’m my father’s son
I can’t cope with this all on my own
I kill myself slow
Insisting all the while I’m not suicidal
It’s hard to match expectations I put on myself
I took a step
I took two steps back
How will I know when it’s bad enough to need help
I thought I was a black sheep
Turns out I’m just like

My dear old dad
He was the man of the house
He wasn't often around
Guess what that makes me now
As if the world’s against me
I only rely on myself
Turns out I’m somebody else

Black Sheep (Prod. irby & Jolst)

Produced by @pekarot_161 & @xlhc
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli
Art by BunillaBunz

LYRICS
It's a hat I wear these days
It's just one of many
I keep a picture of you in my pocket
I'll commit this to memory
You are the missing piece I never knew I needed
But you fit in so seamlessly
And after all this time I still can't believe it
I found my family

But do I actually deserve it
I feel like a serpent
That slithered in to take
What is not his away
Impostor
I fear I'm an impostor
I shed my skin
I'm a monster
You let me in
Now I'm not sure if I can measure up

I'm not sure If I can be the one
To bear this weight on my shoulders
There's so much expected of me now
And I'm still tryna figure out
How to care for myself
While being there for someone else
It's not so easy
But I know that you'll be there for me as well

Dad Hat (Prod. Pekarot & Extra Large Holiday Card)

Produced by Carlby
Guitar by @93FEETOFSMOKE
Vocals mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Michael Venia @veniamastering

LYRICS
I've seen my future and it's not looking great
I fear fate's something that can't be escaped
Two options staring me dead in the face
I can no longer afford to look away

If not now
Then it'll be too late
By the time I get around to getting straight
But if I stick to my guns
Put myself first for once
Then maybe I can shed this dead weight

It's deadly
It's weighing heavily on me
But it doesn't have to be this way
In my effort to get better
I've learned a lot about insanity

Stick To My Guns (Prod. w/ 93FEETOFSMOKE)

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @jolst

LYRICS
Call me if you need a friend
Or someone with whom to smoke cigarettes
I’ve got the time and an ear to lend
I’m always here if you need to vent
On your worst days
When you’re down bad
When the world makes you feel so small and irrelevant
I’ll be there for you
It may not be a lot
But it’s all that I can do

I’ll let you borrow my jacket
And my full attention
You know you can have it
The world is yours so just reach out and grab it
I hope you never feel that your dreams are invalid

‘Cause that's what friends are for
It may not be a lot
Oh I wish I could do more
For you
Just know I’m giving all I got in spite of what I’m going through so

Friends & Cigarettes (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

www.carlbymusic.com
Featuring @lilskeleskrrt
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @jolst

LYRICS
This is torture
You’re so often on my mind I doubt I cross yours
I can’t help but to fall short
I’m so easily ignored

How can anything compare to what we had back then
It was true love

Not sure I’ll ever love again
‘Cause you were everything I wanted
And the ghost of you still lingers in my room
You left me feeling haunted
Something so profound
Simply does not just die out
So I’ll hold you in these memories
‘Cause they're all that I have now

(skele)
Don’t understand why I’m still holding out
You’ve had enough of me
It hurts that we keep going down
You know that you’re the only thing I think about
You won’t stay here with me
So I'll just do without

Can’t save him
But we know I tried my best
We’re breaking
Taking back things you said
You’re the ghost inside that’s haunting me
But at least you’re still here watching me

Haunted w/ skele (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

Featuring @horoshavibes & @ihateshinigami
Produced by Jacob Lizotte
Mixed by @horoshavibes
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks

LYRICS
Somewhere along the way
I fell deep into a darker place
It's a hole from which I cannot escape
But it takes great strength to admit my mistakes

Just leave the light on for me
We're all deserving of second chances
I hear a voice in the distance call my name
Could this be it
Am I finally saved

Though I was lead astray
I'll surely find my way
Following grace
No matter what it takes

(shinigami)
When it's all said and done
Will you be there for me
Need to find my way back home
'Cause I took a wrong turn again

(Horosha)
So many branching paths
How could you know which one to take
Every choice makes all the difference
They collide and change your fate

But you can't go back in time
No you can't go back in time

So I sit and search through the memories
Sifting through everything,
Trying to find a bit of hope to keep with me
Still not the person I want to be
But it's not too late
As long as I'm alive

Wrong Turn w/ Horosha (Feat. shinigami) [Prod. Jacob Lizotte]

Produced by Xzaviar
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks
Art by BunillaBunz

LYRICS

My Bad (Prod. Xzaviar)

Guitar by @yungspoiler
Additional guitars & percussion by @horoshavibes
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks

LYRICS

First Church Of Kwik Trip (Prod. yungspoiler & Horosha)

Lost It w/ pnut (Prod. Xzavier)

No Good (Prod. IOF)

Music video - https://youtu.be/LvJVreYsXmQ?si=Rqfhcn7Wc0TDr1qR

Produced by @pekarot_1
Mixed & mastered by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
...

Midsummer (Prod. Pekarot)

Solo Queue (Prod. w/ Kazba)

1. Take Some Time Away (Prod. w/ Irby)
2. So Long! (Prod. wisssery)
3. Hurt Myself w/ Neon Dion (Prod. sorrow bringer)
4. Old Photographs (Prod. w/ Irby)
5. FWM (Prod. King Theta)
6. Missing Piece (Prod. w/ Irby)
7. Luigi Mario (Prod. DEAD YAMI)
8. Under the Weather w/ P33 (Prod. Stovault)
9. SLEEPING BEAUTY by sewerperson
10. Super Go Outside (Prod. w/ Scro)
11. Your Truth (Prod. w/ Kazba)
12. Go Along, Get Along (Prod. w/ Fantasy Camp)

Twelve Songs I Didn't Finish EP

Produced and mixed by Carlby
Guitars by Kazba

LYRICS

Kindred (Prod. w/ Kazba)

This song is a reimagining of "April Showers" by wstdyth
soundcloud.com/wstdyth/1-april-showers

Produced & mixed by Carlby
Featuring Grimrose @user-373045158
Lyrics by wstdyth & Grimrose

April

Featuring @sewerperson
Produced by @noahmadethiss & @horoshavibes
Mixing, additional vocals & guitars by @horoshavibes
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks
Art by @melmige

LYRICS
(sewerperson)
All alone on this Summer night
Look for me in these velvet skies
Pray for me while I walk this fire
Anything just to see you smile
November came and our Summer had died
Leaving us with nowhere to hide
When everyone dropped dead like flies
I had no choice but to make you mine

When we fade away where do the feelings get dropped
'Cause I got boxes of these things like home videos
I'm away like half the year
She doesn't miss me though
All while I'm thinking about her touch
It makes me miserable

(Carlby)
Somehow I'll find a way to reach you
Drag you through the screen
This time I'll tell you everything
How much you really mean to me
And all I am today
Because the bleakest weather is better in your company
Although you're long gone now
I hold tight to your memories
Like home videos
Just know I'll never forget these

I still stare at old photos
Wonder where does the time go
How can I get it back

(Horosha & Carlby)
The past is dead and yet I still I feel it
A shadow sliding over concealing
Anything in the present that would bring me joy
And still I miss the pain

I knew our time was short
But your summer eyes
They captured me by force
A willing prisoner
Even with a painful ending you made every moment shine like gold

Home Videos w/ sewerperson (Prod. noah thomas)

Produced by @noahmadethiss
Mixing & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks

Sike! (Prod. noah thomas)

Produced by Lavender_Txwn (@user-757072975)
Mixed & mastered by Horosha (@horoshamusic)
Featuring svnam (@svnam)
Art by svnam

Guys Like You w/ svnam (Prod. Lavender_Txwn)

Carlby is an alternative pop artist from the Midwest. Working alongside producer, @horoshavibes, his music is a blend of pop, emo rock and hip-hop.

Contact - carlbymusic.com/contact

Carlby

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