produced by @jolst and @irby314

LYRICS:
 I can't believe it's come to this 
I'm wasting my life away 
spending every day just to exist with a minimum amount of pain 

get home and stare at the ceiling 
maybe if I close my eyes, this time 
my soul will rise above the rooftops 
and I'll slip away 

'cause I'm so tired of feeling like I'm doing something wrong 
27 years and I'm bled down to the bone 
and after all this time I still have nothing to call my own 

'cause back when you were sixteen 
with the world stretched out at your feet
you had all these ideas 
and all the plans for where you would go 

I'm sorry I failed you
I swear I didn't mean to 
it's just time goes by so fast
and these paths are harder than you'd expect 

so next time around
I hope that you get the chance 
to live before you're dead. 

I can't believe it's come to this 
I'm wasting my life away 
spending every day just to exist with a minimum amount of pain 

and I can't go on feeling this way 
so I stare at the ceiling and dream of escape 
maybe when I open my eyes 
I'll find a place without any pain.

Exist (p. Jolst x Irby)

Produced by @splashgvng
Featuring @burylilac

LYRICS:

You said you think this town is dying
and I think you're probably right. 
That's one thing we have in common, this place and I. 

And we can still sit by the TV, 
holding hands with the smoke obscuring the screen 
but we could never get back everything we lost 

I feel like everything is falling apart 
and I can't tell if it's entropy or karma 
but I know you deserve to get away from this 
I know you deserve to get away from this 
I know I'm someone that you probably don't miss 

but it was so fucking worth it to see you smile at me 
life's been breaking me down but that's one memory I wanna keep 
so I wish you could stay awhile

'cuz things have been getting darker as of late 
and the shadows grow longer with every day 
and I think I just need someone to tell me it's gonna be okay 

Because it's harder than I thought watching everything I love decay 
and I know the pain you always feel 
every time you're here in the state 
and I know this city's full of ghosts for you, it's better of this way 
we're better off estranged

this city's full of ghosts but I can't help but feeling
the crushing weight, the realization reeling 
that I might share the same fate 

and I don't wanna die alone 
but the closer I get to you 
the colder it will be when this is through

Midwest Entropy w/ Lilac Heart (p. Splashgvng)

LYRICS

They said I'd figure it out when I graduated high school 
nearly ten years, I still don't know what the fuck to do 
writing songs alone in my room is the only thing I ever learned how to do 

I wasted all my time,
on fairy tales and lies 
so should I draw the line right here
before it's too late? 

I used to pretend my life was a movie 
with credits rolling as chapters closed 
in the back of my parents' car 
with the lake disappearing slowly 
I promised myself I'd remember this feeling 

Now it's 2021 and I'm still here on lockdown,
but life is the virus that caged me, I can't get out 
I can't remember the wind through the wind through the trees 
and the sun at my back, when my mind could just be at peace 

cuz that's all I really need, just some relief from being me

a quiet desperation

𝘚𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘵𝘺 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘵𝘩𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘮

chrysalism

Tempo 145 
Key G major 

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Effervescent

𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘪𝘱 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘦 𝘢𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘭-𝘦𝘯𝘷𝘦𝘭𝘰𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘢 𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵. 𝘌𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘴 𝘷𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘪𝘵𝘺, 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘮𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵, 𝘢𝘭𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘴 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘥. 

𝘕𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘦𝘭𝘴𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘥𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬𝘨𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘧𝘵𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘯𝘰𝘸.

 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘩𝘢𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘢 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘤 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘢𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘦, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 - 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘦, 𝘪𝘧 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘢 𝘮𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵.

twenty eight degrees

Featuring @melmige

𝘈𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘦, 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘴𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴. 𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘯'𝘵 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘩𝘶𝘮𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳... 𝘥𝘢𝘺𝘴? 𝘞𝘦𝘦𝘬𝘴? 𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳. 

𝘈𝘵 𝘧𝘪𝘳𝘴𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘪𝘨𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘥𝘨𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘷𝘪𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯; 𝘢 𝘣𝘭𝘶𝘳 𝘢𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘥, 𝘢 𝘮𝘪𝘳𝘢𝘨𝘦, 𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦 𝘢 𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘤𝘬 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵. 𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘪𝘴𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘥𝘥𝘭𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘰𝘵𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘱𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘯𝘦𝘹𝘵 𝘳𝘰𝘰𝘮 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘣𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘤𝘬𝘴 𝘰𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶. 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘥𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴, 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘥𝘢𝘵𝘰𝘳, 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘴. 

𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦. 𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦. 𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦. 𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦. 𝘮𝘢 𝘺𝘣 𝘦 𝘮 𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦 𝘮 𝘢 𝘺𝘣 𝘦𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦

SHADOW PEOPLE (feat. Melmige)

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Tempo: 142
Key: c min

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"Annihilation" | Hyperpop  / Emo Hip Hop type beat

Lyrics: 

𝘐𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘯𝘰 𝘰𝘯𝘦'𝘴 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘯:
𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘨𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘭𝘦, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘧 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘪𝘵, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘥 𝘣𝘦 𝘢 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘣𝘶𝘯𝘤𝘩 𝘰𝘧 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘵.
𝘔𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵'𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘬𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘥𝘥𝘦𝘯 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘦: 𝘪𝘧 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘦𝘵, 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭.

𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘩, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘵 -
𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺'𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘴𝘶𝘱𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘵 
𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵'𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦


No, it's not too late, 
I will be okay 
because our days our short, 
but I know love is patient 

No, it's not too late, 
I will be okay 
somewhere along this path 
it will be worth the pain someday.

it's not too late

produced by yungspoiler and xmichaelwarren

Lyrics:
I think back to the years I loved her
the windy city in mid november 
you'd think another lifetime would be farther away 

I'm forgetting what it felt like
to be the person there by your side 
maybe someday there'll be nothing that remains 

but I can't turn it off 
I wanna feel that again 
but I can't fall in love 
with someone I can't trust 

and I don't want to admit it 
but I resent you just a little bit 
still, I'd be blushing if you stabbed me in the heart

nostalgia // decay (p. yungspoiler x michaelwarren)

featuring @melmige
produced by @ntrbeats and @sorrow_bringer

Lyrics: 
and I just keep thinking that I'll never be enough for me,
light up another joint and maybe it'll set me free
for the moment, just for the moment
so I can forget all the things I wasn't brave enough to be 

Staying up all night, staring at computer screens 
sleeping through the daylight when there's a world to see 
outside my window it all goes by, 
and I can't help but feel like I'm half alive 
half alive

because my life feels like it's just about as empty as the bottles on my desk: 
a chaotic mess
I worry sometimes that I might need help
but I wont reach out, we both know I'm too proud for that 
the world's a sea of worries, I don't wanna add on top of it 

got all this ambition, 
but no drive to see it through
I feel so unreliable, and I keep proving that it's true 

and I never seem to finish anything I start,
so I guess I'll hit up Ian to finish this next part: 

(Melmige)
I’m a hypocrite to criticize myself or anyone else of a common wealth
with uncommon health
cause I needed help

and it was provided 
hide from responsibility 
hard times lead to lack of energy
from a captive seat it came clear to me
that accountability will set you free

didn’t wanna see
didn’t wanna talk anymore
cause stress led to pressure were the thoughts that I shared
worth the time or the air
that would escape from my lungs every word that I wrote
to a word that I spoke

cause I thought I was right
put a pause on my life
boutta half it growing bad habits
from my mental and dental the food that I eat
to intrusive beliefs on the life that I lead

but you can’t control everything and you know
that you got limits, the stigma of hope
being you lack it emotion you show
leading to weakness and deepen your woes
highly reductive of progress you’ve shown

and I don't wanna lose that
every day fall back

decaying like an isotope with isopropyl in my system bitches switchin' up they rhythm pls consider my position 

opposition is intrinsic like a doctrine or religion
I’ve been sharing my provisions to the system
due to my belief that if keep it to myself on the day that I need help

I will not receive it selfish reasons 

And I need it
I need your eyes but only when I want em or else I’ll probably die
from attention that I sought but changed my mind on

every song I chose to write on
every bottle I relied on
to finally cry a bit the situation been the same a couple months now

found i only open up when lying to myself or on the phone now
so lets go on down to taco bell and get some food and finally talk bout
the shit that’s been on our mind but couldn’t say due to our surroundings,

a change of pace astounding
to see how you feel about this

Half Life w/ Melmige (p. Nitro x Sorrow Bringer)

Dear Dreamer - Split - 03 Anchor

Just some old demos and acoustic versions of songs

Last Chance Avenue - The Insomnia Sessions- Demos 2012 - 2013 - 03 Tempest (demo)

Featuring @heylee-manzeron
cover art photo by Alexander Sinn

Thank you for listening! 

Lyrics:

I fell into the deepest place 
no sunlight reaches here and 
no flowers bloom when everything is cold and grey 

But I will survive here 
wont let this be my fate 
I've been collecting stones for shelter 
and capturing the rain when it falls 

This place will try to kill me 
there are many that have tried 
but no matter what you throw at me, 
I still have my mind 

and you can't take that away from me 
you can't take that away from me now
you can't take that away from me 
you can't take that away from me now 

Heylee Manzeron:
Branches break every time that I step
They remind me of what I have left
But I gotta keep my chakra flowing
Rusting, cause the rain aint slowing

Gotta keep a finger on the pulse, yeah
4/4 heartbeat buzzing through my clothes
Fighting for another way to cope inside this life


Crawling out of the hole inside
These waterfalls they spring to rise
The Trajectory, what's left for me
If I knew the way this was going to be

Would I do this any different?
Cause I’m running out of fire
And the nights are getting colder
But I’ll claw my way out of this mire

'cuz I made a promise to myself long ago 
no matter how dark the night, I wont lose my soul 
I'll maintain control

The Crevasse (feat. HeyLee Manzeron)

Featuring @decksmusic
Guitars by @pekarot_161
Photo by Pedro Marroquin

"𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘤𝘳𝘶𝘦𝘭. 𝘐𝘵𝘴 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘮𝘴 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘯𝘰 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦 𝘪𝘵. 𝘈 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘢 𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘺 𝘰𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳 𝘥𝘢𝘺𝘴."

Lyrics: 

"Take this, it's dangerous to go alone", she said 

"I know that we'll meet again someday. 
Life is cruel, and time marches onward relentlessly, 
but just know you've got your hand in mine 
for all time" 

I wanna be someone you can reach out to
I wanna be someone that makes it worth your time

[Decks]
Take it back, it's hard to 
find the words to lies too 
on and on, I push through 
nothing left to lose, you know 

I could be the ocean, 
standing vast and open 
life is merely nothing if you choose to let it be.

spread your wings and choose to fly, you see 
open up your eyes 

[Horosha]
I wanna be someone you can reach out to 
I wanna be someone that makes it worth it 
and I can't predict down which paths life will lead us 
but I hope you know that you always will be my friend 

I wanna be someone you can reach out to 
I wanna be someone that makes it worth your time

The Naturalist

Saria w/ Decks (prod. Horosha x Pekarot)

photo credit: churchrummagesale on tumblr 

Lyrics: 

I think I finally found my peace 
among the flowers and growing things
I feel so much less alone

sunlight shining on my face
is better than a gilded cage 
I know that was never my home 

so I'll pack my things
and head out on a new adventure
leave that concrete tomb 
in the past where I should have left it 
so long ago 
for so long I felt like no one 
and now I'm taking back my life as my own 


I think I finally found my peace 
among the flowers and growing things
I feel so much less alone

sunlight shining on my face
is better than a gilded cage 
I know that was never my home 

and so I start to make my way 
off the path, to places no one goes
the skyline starts to fade 
and at last I feel like I'm not running from

everything they told me I should be 
everything I've been taught that I should want 
today I found out they're wrong

Lyrics:

Why can't I seem to meet your gaze? 
𝘐𝘵 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘰.
There's something that's deep inside my brain 
telling me to run away from everything

I walk into the room and I can feel 
every single eye that turns in my direction
I can't help but turn away 

cuz under every smile there lies the fear 
that I'm not good enough for anybody else 
and I'll always be the same; this way.

[ ̶I̶ ̶c̶a̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶k̶e̶e̶p̶ ̶r̶u̶n̶n̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶f̶r̶o̶m̶ ̶a̶l̶l̶ ̶o̶f̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶s̶e̶ ̶f̶e̶e̶l̶i̶n̶g̶s̶ ̶
̶I̶ ̶k̶n̶o̶w̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶I̶ ̶h̶a̶v̶e̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶g̶o̶ ̶f̶a̶c̶e̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶m̶ ̶s̶o̶m̶e̶d̶a̶y̶]

Why can't I seem to meet your gaze? 
𝘐𝘵 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘰.
There's something that's deep inside my brain 
telling me to run away from everything

so when the feeling rises up inside my chest
paralyzing everything in my perception 
I just hope that you will stay 

because I'm more than all the things I've come to fear 
𝒎𝒚 𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚 𝒊𝒔 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒂 𝒔𝒚𝒎𝒑𝒕𝒐𝒎
and I'll prove it to you someday 

I'll meet your gaze.

Gaze

The Forest Floor: Outtakes and Demos from The Naturalist, part I. 

𝘛𝘰𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳. 
𝘑𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵.
𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵. 
𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘯 𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘵, 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘥. 
𝘚𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵. 
𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘢𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘦.

LYRICS: 

I woke as if from a dream 
the fog, it lifted
and I realized everything I knew 
was not as it seemed 

as I stare at shining towers 
reaching towards heavens above
no, I can't place the feeling, 
but I know that something's wrong

𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦.

They called it a utopia for as long as I had known 
a city full of millions, but I always felt alone

and when I took the time to study close 
I saw the rot underneath the gold 
then the program crashed and I was on my own 

. . . 

Now the veil is drawn back 
I see this place for what it is 
no one can tell me I'm crazy 

a crumbling civilization 
built on deception 
now I can only think of how to escape

𝘚𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘴𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘴 
𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘻𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘰𝘯
𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘐 𝘵𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘢 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 
𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘹𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 
𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘶𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘧𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺,
𝘐 𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘨𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘷𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘴 
𝘢 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥 
𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘶𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘦𝘭𝘴𝘦'𝘴 𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯𝘴

𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘐 𝘸𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘥𝘳𝘢𝘸𝘯 
𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘪𝘤𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦 
𝘪𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘣𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 
𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘵 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘱𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘥𝘦 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺?

𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰'𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 
𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘦 
𝘯𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘐'𝘷𝘦 𝘥𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘺

𝘴𝘰 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘰𝘴𝘴𝘢𝘮𝘦𝘳 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘶𝘥𝘴 𝘢𝘥𝘳𝘪𝘧𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵, 
𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘯 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘬𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘺
𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘶𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘐'𝘭𝘭 𝘩𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘴 
𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘴, 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘦𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘱𝘦.

𝘐'𝘷𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘵 
𝘰𝘧 𝘢 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘢 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘦𝘴 
𝘐 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧: 

𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘵𝘩, 𝘪𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘦.

Dead City / Imitation Game

𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐅𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐅𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐫: 𝐎𝐮𝐭𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐃𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐬 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐍𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭, 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐈𝐈𝐈.

𝘈𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘢𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵 𝘦𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘱𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘭𝘺 𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘴𝘦𝘢 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘦𝘴, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘢 𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘶𝘭𝘢𝘳 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥𝘷𝘪𝘦𝘸-𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘢𝘵 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘱𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘵 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘦:

𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘶𝘵𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘧𝘭𝘶𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺, 
𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘶𝘯𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘢𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘣𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥,

𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘦?

Lyrics: 

now I know that everything I was taught when I was younger was all a lie 
so it's time to find out who I wanna be 
as I walk the woods and glades 
in search of answers I could never find before 
maybe I'll find myself somewhere along the way 

in the empty places, all the memories start to fade 
no past, no future, just the next step in front of me 

so tell me what's so wrong about losing yourself 
when everything you used to want is something you were sold
by someone else trying to make their dreams come true?
a product of a product of something that is not you

but what about everyone that got left behind? 
(I don't know what to do about it, so I run away from all of it)
in the gilded cage, with no chance to live their own lives 
(I don't know what to do about it, so I run away from all of it)

there is no backup for me 
I have to do this on my own 
uncharted territory, somewhere out there I can make a home 

I have to save myself before I can save anyone else.

no past, no future

The Forest Floor: Outtakes and Demos from The Naturalist, part IV. 

𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘯, 𝘴𝘶𝘥𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘭𝘺, 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘢𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵'𝘴 𝘤𝘪𝘳𝘤𝘶𝘪𝘵𝘳𝘺, 𝘢 𝘧𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘩 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘺. 

𝘈 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘴𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘨𝘰, 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘪𝘵𝘺. 
𝘈 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦. 
𝘚𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵. 
𝘛𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘸𝘦𝘭𝘭-𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘵.
𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘳𝘦𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘵.

𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭?

Lyrics: 

Well, it's winter here again, 
but I don't feel the chill anymore 
when I think about those nights we had

when the factories shut down,
so we struck out on the town 
and wandered silent streets, my hand warm in your hand 

and we laughed like kids again 
hey, this place isn't so bad when you're dodging curfew
stealing bottles of storerooms 
they'll never know how the world was ours 
when the sun went down 

we didn't have a lot back then, 
but I had you, and me, and all our dreams 
everything that we hoped would come to be 
and a situation like this can only last so long
so we'll look for a way out, look for a way out 

Sometimes when I'm sitting by the campfire 
and I'm watching the snow fall
I wonder what it is you're up to now; 
if I should have even left at all

Did nostalgia make my vision rose colored, 
or was this a mistake?

dodging curfew [memory bank reboot 1]

The Forest Floor: Outtakes and Demos from The Naturalist, part V.

𝘕𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 
𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 
𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 
𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦. 

𝘍𝘰𝘳 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘮𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦.

Lyrics:

If heaven existed, I know it would appear to me  as a small fishing cabin in the north woods of Wisconsin.

At the table of a kitchen that doubled as a living room, I would watch the rose-gold rays of morning light eagerly cast their fanfare on the front porch, fractals dancing on the ceiling like benevolent shades 

𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴;
𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘮𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘬𝘦;
𝘸𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘱𝘦𝘵; 
𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬𝘧𝘢𝘴𝘵.


Before me and all my friends were fodder being ground up by the lurching wheels of industry, there was my mother milling about the kitchen. 

Before I knew of powerful men that loved money over their own people, there was the steam rising out of my father's coffee cup. 

Before the towers fell, 
before the wars, 
before the plagues ravaged the land, 
I frolicked in that place: 

collecting pinecones, and skipping stones, 
creating a world that's inside my imagination 

𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴;
𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘮𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘬𝘦;
𝘸𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘱𝘦𝘵; 
𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬𝘧𝘢𝘴𝘵.

All these thoughts swirl around in my head, 
as I press on further and further into the wild, 
and now further into my own mind.
Were those memories ever really my own? 
Of a life before the city, when existence was peaceful and struggle so very far away?

Or are they just a fabrication to keep me passive, 
part of a machine which is only interested in my exploitation? 

I'm not sure what the answer is, but as I come to clearing to rest and observe the gentle breeze blowing through the grasses, I realize that it doesn't matter.

This moment, 
this beautiful progression of consciousness from second to second: 
that's enough. 
That's all I need.

Donut Holes / The Clearing

Photo by Calvin Weibel

𝘚𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘩, 𝘢 𝘸𝘰𝘰𝘥𝘤𝘶𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘨𝘰𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬 𝘪𝘯 𝘪𝘴𝘰𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯.

𝘐𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘰𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘰𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘴, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘱𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘦𝘧𝘶𝘭 - 𝘩𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘮𝘱𝘵𝘺 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥. 𝘞𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺 𝘭𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘳𝘴, 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘧𝘭𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘴.

The Woodcutter's Soliloquy

Lyrics:

So I'll start simple and slow all over again
Life's never finished till you get to the end
it slips by too fast to ever keep regrets, 
so bury your pain and move on from the past

Here lies the person that I was 
everything you knew about me, leave it in the dust
'cuz I've accepted the things that I used to hide, 
there's no shame
there's no guilt, 
there's a new fucking life

cuz I'm finding out new capacities for peace
(in the death of everything I thought I had to be) 
now that I'm finally at home with the soul inside of me 

So I'll start simple and slow all over again
Life's never finished till you get to the end
it slips by too fast to ever keep regrets, 
so bury your pain and move on from the past

so let the north star be the joy in your heart, 
you can reinvent yourself whenever you want 

 I look back on the times 
when I was lost in the pain;
wish I could tell them why it felt so wrong to be this way.

Now I'll be the person I needed back then
just keep moving forward,

a better life is just up ahead 

it's just up ahead; we still have so many paths to tread. 

So I'll start simple and slow all over again
Life's never finished till you get to the end
it slips by too fast to ever keep regrets, 
so bury your pain and move on from the past

so let the north star be the joy in your heart, 
you can reinvent yourself whenever you want <3

Whenever You Want  [prod. Horosha x Michael Warren]

I'm crashing out  🙃

LYRICS: 

EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT
YEAH IT'S ALRIGHT, GONNA BE JUST FINE 
EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT
DON'T YOU WORRY YOUR PRETTY LITTLE HEAD 

DON'T BELIEVE YOUR EYES, THEY'RE TELLING LIES
JUST TRUST ME, I KNOW BETTER!
EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT
YEAH IT'S ALRIGHT GONNA BE JUST FINE 

LISTEN TO YOUR NEW KING
DON'T SHIFT YOUR PLACE IN LINE 
AND IF YOU GET SENT TO CAMPS
WORK WILL SET YOU FREE, IT'S BY DESIGN 

𝘖𝘩 𝘮𝘺 𝘮𝘺! 𝘐 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘐 𝘮𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘨𝘰𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘢 𝘴𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘥. 
𝘕𝘰𝘸, 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘭𝘭 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘢 𝘮𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵 𝘰𝘧𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘰𝘶𝘵𝘣𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘵 𝘪𝘧 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘰𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘭𝘭 𝘭𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘦𝘢𝘳:

THE GENOCIDE, ROLLING BACK HUMAN RIGHTS 
AND YOU DON'T GIVE A FUCK WHO MIGHT DIE 
IF IT KEEPS YOUR POCKETS LINED 

TWISTING FATE, PREACHING HATE 
SO YOU CAN SHAPE THE WORLD IN JESUS' NAME 
WHILE HE ROLLS IN HIS GRAVE 

AN ENTIRE GENERATION SAID "FUCK YOU, I'VE GOT MINE" 
CLIMBED THE LADDER UP, THEN KICKED IT DOWN 
TO WATCH ALL OF US WRITHE IN THE DIRT 
OVER SCRAPS THAT YOU LEFT BEHIND 
AND YOU STILL EXPECT US TO SERVE YOU WITH A SMILE c: 

IF I HAVE TO HEAR ONE MORE PERSON SAY 
THAT IT FEELS SO NICE WHEN THE FLAMES ARE LICKING AT YOUR FEET;
THE ATROPHY OF EVERYTHING; OUR SLIP INTO INSANITY;
WHEN YOU'RE THE ONE TO BLAME, 

 I'M GONNA GO POSTAL, 
DO A LITTLE DENY DEFEND DEPOSE ON THESE MOTHERFUCKERS 
I'D RATHER DO ANYTHING ELSE 
THAN SIT HERE WATCHING YOU SIEG HEIL 

ALL THE WHILE YOU'RE TELLING ME TO CALM DOWN 



ENOUGH GASLIGHT TO BURN DOWN THE ENTIRE WORLD

Cover art by Katie Dean
katiedesigndean at gmail.com

"Sonder
n. the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own—populated with their own ambitions, friends, routines, worries and inherited craziness—an epic story that continues invisibly around you like an anthill sprawling deep underground, with elaborate passageways to thousands of other lives that you’ll never know existed, in which you might appear only once, as an extra sipping coffee in the background, as a blur of traffic passing on the highway, as a lighted window at dusk"

Sonder

"Liminality; noun anthropology; the state of transition between one stage and the next, especially between major stages in one’s life or during a rite of passage"

montauk

Instrumentals for the "Unwanted" EP, by Carlby

All tracks produced by Horosha

Guitars by Splashgvng

Unwanted (Instrumental)

Instrumentals for the "Unwanted" EP, by Carlby

All tracks produced by Horosha

Vampire (instrumental)

Lyrics: 

I had a dream that all our cities sank into the seas
the rising tides careening over busy streets and 
when it all fell silent, when the last skyscraper fell beneath the waves
I felt a strange sense of relief 

There's nothing to be afraid of 
the end's already here 
there's a sense of solace in destruction 
when our machines have rusted 
and all our bones are bleaching in the sun 
the world will be just fine without us 

Here underneath, 
where the seaweed makes its home between the seams 
of the skeleton of everything we used to be 
no politicians fight, no murder in the streets 
and everything but time has come to rest
forever and always asleep 

Every smile and every tear, 
all our accomplishments and failings
just a whisper on the wind while life flourishes in the shadows 
the monuments to human greed, 
long crumbled now will sow the seeds
for life to rise above the waves and find 

a world finally at peace

solace in destruction

First single off the EP, "Liminality: Volume II" out February 26th

"I'm trying to let them know, that in this whole world, there's at least one person who cares about them"

reminiscers in a parking lot / unconditional love

A song for premature goodbyes. 

Second single off the EP "Liminality: Volume II" out 2/26

Liminality: Volume II

Swan Song

It's dangerous to go alone: take this

additional vocals by Pheonix "Honey Nugs" Decker

All songs recorded, mixed, and mastered by Horosha

awakening

On a journey with no destination. 

Producer /  vocalist  / engineer 
@prodhorosha on twitter

For mixing, mastering, or beats contact me at prodbyhorosha@gmail.com or on Twitter!

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