guitar by oc <3

lyrics:
gotta hide away 
i don’t wanna see my face
i don’t wanna know what i look like
running from my self
but she’s never not far behind 
i hate who i am now 
havent left this room in days 
bet everyone else has forgotten my face 
can’t continue on like this 
so i hide away 
not like you’d notice anyway 
so i hide away
i dont wanna see my face 
i dont wanna know what i look like 
running from myself but shes never not far behind 
never not far behide 
how do i get away from this place 
scars all over my surface

hide

fun lil thang i did w @t33thkicker
hope ya enjoy <3

lyrics:
oh i cannot endorse it no, uh
wait three weeks just to hear from ya babe
no i wait, then i force it oh, no
its an uphill battle to see ur face
then i go, how unfortunate
know you think about torching it
1:03 screen glow from ur portrait, oh
i’ll be ok girl, don’t wait up
cuz my heart ain’t porcelain

ask me somethin
i don’t know what
i don’t think u try
it aint half a street
i don’t move ur feet
i can’t tell u why
this half a man
has seen half the shit
that’ll make u cry
i don’t fuck around
cuz the last i did
i got no reply

i don’t need u im past it
3:30 clock im dashin
eyes on the screen
tryna see what im listening to
i forgot where my cash is
i do not know u we tight knit
nobody got me no vice grip
i got way too many vices
despite this im fightin myselfff

in the back of the party i off myself like its ego death
i don’t speak a word i just shut my mouth and i pass that test
is it hard enough to make every sunrise feel like the end
cuz i feel so stiff when i spend those nights on that cardboard bed

so i cannot endorse it no, uh
wait three weeks just to hear from ya babe
no i wait, then i force it oh, no
its an uphill battle to see ur face
then i go, how unfortunate
know you think about torching it
1:03 screen glow from ur portrait, oh
i’ll be ok girl, don’t wait up
cuz my heart ain’t porcelain

porcelain [mags]

forever
i'll love you
forever
you'll be on my mind (my mind)
forever
you'll stay by my side (my side)
and i won't let you die

keeping your legacy alive, forever. i will never forget your voice & laugh. missing your advice. missing you. will cherrish every moment forever. you were truly special and will forever stick in my heart. i love you. rest easy my dear friend. i really need you here so please don't ever leave my head fully.

(instrumental by smokerose)

forever (for Jude)

huge thank you to @jauntsen for making this track complete

produced by lowtyde

thank u for listening <3

means of survival; methods of coping (feat jauntsen) [prod lowtyde]

produced by sorrow bringer

without you
i hate you (hate you)
i love you still come back to me

what the fuck is wrong with me im still chasing you, baby yeah
all i think of you your so glue to me on god i swear
why still bother you when you dont fuckinnn care
we've been thru a lot
my hearts cold cos i keep it inside
want you and me baby notice me tryin
tell me you want me please make up ur mind
i think about you all of the time
when hearts boutta break
all the time we've spend
wish i could just erase
everything, do it again
even if i still ache
i want you closer to me

you could still give me a chance
im not over you
yet, yet

got my heart broken once again
lost one of my friends, but she was there
at my lowest i fell for her
and now it breaks me everyday
a thousand miles away from her
its all fucked, cant tell my friends
open up, im too ashamed
can not ever speak again
im not really stable
again

all fucked
its not fair

without you

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy^\^

lyrics:
i never had a choice
i never had a voice
u took it away
u let urself give up
i thought u gave a fuck
now i’m loosing sleep

(open ur eyes)

i guess u don’t have to worry about me
u live inside ur head, not reality
(yes)
u got a bigger problem than what u think
does ever haunt u when u try to sleep?
i guess that it dosent, man it’s nothing new 
everything i’ve said, it’s nothing but the truth
(and u know it too)
what if i was the one who told u
“i don’t care about this”
“i don’t love you”

i can’t go back in time
wish u we’re here right by my side
but no
nothing ever goes my way
i can’t seem to escape from
you and the memories that we made

i need some space 
i need a breather 
u want a break?
ugh i can’t believe her
u wanna go?
it doesn’t make sense
u were my home
now u made a mess

i lost her

Featuring @decksmusic
Guitars by @pekarot_161
Photo by Pedro Marroquin

"𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘤𝘳𝘶𝘦𝘭. 𝘐𝘵𝘴 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘮𝘴 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘯𝘰 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦 𝘪𝘵. 𝘈 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘢 𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘺 𝘰𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳 𝘥𝘢𝘺𝘴."

Lyrics: 

"Take this, it's dangerous to go alone", she said 

"I know that we'll meet again someday. 
Life is cruel, and time marches onward relentlessly, 
but just know you've got your hand in mine 
for all time" 

I wanna be someone you can reach out to
I wanna be someone that makes it worth your time

[Decks]
Take it back, it's hard to 
find the words to lies too 
on and on, I push through 
nothing left to lose, you know 

I could be the ocean, 
standing vast and open 
life is merely nothing if you choose to let it be.

spread your wings and choose to fly, you see 
open up your eyes 

[Horosha]
I wanna be someone you can reach out to 
I wanna be someone that makes it worth it 
and I can't predict down which paths life will lead us 
but I hope you know that you always will be my friend 

I wanna be someone you can reach out to 
I wanna be someone that makes it worth your time

The Naturalist

Saria w/ Decks (prod. Horosha x Pekarot)

https://open.spotify.com/album/6XRTgfvcIfdTwsJhSzUVwB?si=-NiSKhDKSU2JF5VjEHmZ1g

really like this one, hope you feel the same <3
prod idly blare 
thanks @vito2300 for help with the mix once again <3

lyrics:
its always lurking
a feeling im not
gifted to learn
how to live through this rot
overcome all my burdens
please force me to stop
please force me to stop

im planting flowers in our garden
watching the pollen pollute my eyes
do you notice i get quiet
i think i need you here tonight
i think i need you here

i could sink in the dirt
feed my life to the worms in the earth
maybe then id be worth something
in your eyes, wouldnt that be nice

im planting flowers in our garden
watching the pollen pollute my eyes
do you notice i get quiet
i think i need you here tonight

do the daises cry
do the roses get jealous
when you're nearby

im planting flowers in our garden
watching the pollen pollute my eyes
do you notice i get quiet
i think i need you here tonight 
x2

*i wish people would take the time, to appreciate the little guy, past year and a half ive been alone, i have not been missed i get what its like, i really really wish people would reach out more, idk be a man right*

friends with the bugs

it's hard

lyrics:
i scribbled symphonies of peace to cope with finding out the truth
worked as needed reaching what middle school me would think was cool
fiddling pens and pencils pensive wasn’t picky with the tool
i’d use for some naive translation of my angst and fragile mood

i can’t afford it now

growing pains replaced with what the bills are like in winter now
since the cold ascended i can’t shake the taste of poetry
phonetically imperfect pretty speech protruding out of me
im cramming syllables to cry of colder temps and picture books
reliving twisted memories romanticizing what it took
to be alive surviving prerip jeans and social trends
extending my insistence on reliving those remember when’s

it’s a fucked up toxic endeavor

middle child needs attention to feel valid who’da guessed it?
choose an evening to feel hollow with my grief i’ve been selective
been a lot of things over the years but never been objective
i’m a passive dude

some would call it sitting fence and when i’m honest i probably would too
at my expense i picked the easiest escape when i could
now im desperate to do something i should

cause there’s something bout finality that scares me
wavered care perpetuated the impression that i’m distant and aware
of ticking hours minutes seconds sticking strictly to my regiment
rejected any message i was yet to learn my lesson
started strong and i accepted that’s enough to use the leverage
and projected progress farther now it’s a little more than hard
to understand i’m on a limit always finish weaker than i started
know how to begin but stutter further in the tempo how ironic

looking in the mirror a song by melmige thank you for listening [prod. eeryskies]

https://soundcloud.com/evergardens/remorse original

lyrics:
were u always unsure
did u care for a while
tend to find myself
hoping we reconcile

and now its not urs
see ur losing ur smile
u must feel some remorse
to act so jealous now

ooooo

dont u cry its getting u nowhere
you come to find ur actions have consequences
i know u act under false pretenses

dont u cry its getting u nowhere
you come to find ur actions have consequences
i know u act under false pretenses

were u always unsure
did u care for a while
tend to find myself
hoping we reconcile

and now its not urs
see ur losing ur smile
u must feel some remorse
to act so jealous now

remorse(cover)

my time

On a journey with no destination. 

Producer /  vocalist  / engineer 
@prodhorosha on twitter

For mixing, mastering, or beats contact me at prodbyhorosha@gmail.com or on Twitter!

Saria w/ Decks (prod. Horosha x Pekarot)

Horosha

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